The Summoned Mage (Convergence Book 1)

by Melissa McShane

  Table of Contents

  Title Page

  AUTHOR’S NOTE

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Chapter Twenty-One

  Chapter Twenty-Two

  Chapter Twenty-Three

  Chapter Twenty-Four

  Chapter Twenty-Five

  Pronunciation Guide and Glossary

  Bonus Scenes

  About the Author

  AUTHOR’S NOTE

  The Summoned Mage begins with Book Six. This is not a mistake, and you’re not missing anything; it will be explained almost immediately.

  I feel I should acknowledge the debt I owe another series, the Touchstone trilogy by Andrea K. Höst, which is also told in diary format. Convergence languished for over a year, not going anywhere, until I had the idea to use this format—and then it almost wrote itself. I’m pretty sure Touchstone gave me the idea, and I shamelessly ran with it. I strongly recommend reading Höst’s series, comprising the books Stray, Lab Rat One, and Caszandra; they’re truly excellent.

  A glossary and pronunciation guide appear at the end of this book.

  Chapter One

  BOOK SIX

  13 Senessay

  I’m going to try again tonight.

  If I’m wrong, this could be my first and last entry in this new book, the sixth record of my travels through Balaen and beyond. Probably will be my last entry, considering how that last test left me pissing red for a week. But I think I know what I did wrong, and I feel pretty confident. Mostly confident. Terrified. No one’s ever going to read this, and I’m not sure why I keep writing, except to have someone to talk to, even if it’s myself. I hope that doesn’t mean I’m going mad.

  I don’t even know if these preparations matter. None of the ancient writers agreed on anything, and they all swore by their own methods. Fast for twelve hours. Sit by a puddle of water in which the moon is reflected and meditate. Burn three kinds of incense. Take off all your clothes—I’m definitely not doing that, even if I am the only one around. The best I could do was find common threads and then use my instincts. That’s something they all did agree on, that magic comes from who you are, at the core, and all this incense and water and fasting and nudity are supposed to make you more yourself. Or something. Anyway, I need this pouvra, and I’m willing to try anything at this point.

  Maybe I am mad. Any one of these pouvrin I’ve learned could get me executed, if I wasn’t torn apart by a frenzied mob first. It’s hard to believe there was ever a time when magic wasn’t feared, but I’ve found all these stories that say there was. Maybe I should have taken up a career as a traveling tale-teller; it would be less dangerous. Though with the kind of stories I’ve learned, I’d probably be just as likely to get killed if I went around suggesting maybe magic isn’t as evil as all that. I can see why people think it is.

  The pouvrin I’ve learned are frightening—I can summon fire, or water, and I can see through things, and I can walk through walls, though I’ve only done that once and I’m afraid to try it again. Suppose I went solid in the middle of something? And if I do this new pouvra right, I’ll be able to make things move without touching them. I hurt myself trying, last time, but—I’m stalling now, aren’t I, writing things I already know? No sense putting it off any longer. If I can make this work, they’ll never be able to trap me again.

  13 Senessay (later)

  It worked. I made the bunk in the corner lift off the ground and I didn’t even tear my insides, though my arms hurt afterward as if I’d used them instead of the pouvra. Then I practiced working the barn door lock, which was harder because I had to picture what it feels like to use the picks on it—I still can’t look inside things instead of through them, though I haven’t given up on that. Eventually I could lock and unlock it with the new pouvra faster than I ever did with lock picks. Of course, the lock is probably a hundred years old, so it wasn’t exactly difficult—I’ll have to try again on something more finicky.

  I can’t help remembering being caught in Wirstan for stealing that stupid woman’s purse, and how they would have shut me away for good if I hadn’t found a couple of skinny iron nails to pick the lock with. No more worries about having my tools taken away!

  I’m feeling low, the way I always do after I learn a new pouvra. It’s as if I put so much of myself into figuring it out, then learning to bend my will to the magic, that everything else feels like a disappointment. There’s still time to sleep before dawn, when I’ll have to move out again. This barn smells musty, and the hay is stale and prickly, so I assume it’s been abandoned for a while, but I don’t want to take the chance that someone will come along and want to know what I’m doing here. People on the borders of Balaen don’t trust travelers (how well I know that!) or even anyone who comes from anywhere more than half a day’s walk from their home. And I’ve come so much farther than that.

  This is also the time when I wonder if I wouldn’t have been happier staying in Thalessa, working at the fishery, which was awful but at least it was steady work. But that lasts about two seconds before I remember the stench of fish guts, and the tiny hovel I could never keep clean, and Mam getting drunk all the time and then begging me to forgive her, over and over again. I couldn’t have stayed, anyway, not once this magic took me over and I started doing things I couldn’t keep hidden. Besides…

  I was going to write “it’s beautiful” but that’s wrong. It’s powerful and terrifying and when I use one of the pouvrin it fills me to bursting, and I wouldn’t give that up for anything, however dangerous it might be. But it’s not beautiful.

  Sleep, now. I haven’t decided where to go next. Maybe Barrekel, it’s nearly harvest time and they could probably use some hands out at those big plantations. I’ll need to start saving for the winter.

  14 Senessay (maybe)

  I’ve managed to keep this book hidden so far. I don’t know where to start or what happened. Maybe learning the new pouvra did something, because it’s too big a coincidence otherwise. Everything hurts, not just my arms but the whole rest of my body, and my stomach feels like I’m going to throw up again, though they haven’t fed me since I did. The door is locked, but when I try to use the new pouvra to pick it, my body aches more. I can’t focus. I need to start at the beginning.

  I think it was nearly dawn when I woke feeling like I needed to take a piss. So I got up, but I felt as if I were stretching like taffy at a carnival, like part of me was still stuck to the ground and the rest of me was being pulled away from it. That made me think I was dreaming, but I’ve never dreamed so real before, and my arms still hurt, which I didn’t think happened in dreams. And I still felt this need, though by this time I could tell it wasn’t my bladder; it was just this steady pull, and it was starting to hurt.

  So I let it pull me for a bit, thinking it might hurt less if I didn’t fight it. The air looked thick, like heat waves only sideways to the ground, and when I turned around I saw they surrounded me and even went through me. That was when I panicked. I ran for the door, but it was like wading through the tide, only hot and dry and stronger than any tide off Thalessa ever was. I tried swimm
ing and I tried going in other directions, but it didn’t matter, it just kept pulling me away from wherever I tried to go.

  That was about when the sun rose, at least that’s what I thought, but the light was more blue than pinkish gold. It was as if the sun were rising backwards out of twilight, is the best I can describe it. Wherever the light touched me, coming through those tiny barn windows, it burned. I think I went a little mad, there, because I remember screaming and not much else, and the burning got worse and the tide got stronger and then it was all gone, and I was here.

  Not here as in this room. Some other place in this…I don’t know if it’s a building or a cave, because the place I—might as well say “arrived”—in was hollowed-out stone, but this room seems to be constructed. That is, the walls are made of finished stone blocks, but the floor is the same rough stone as in the large chamber…anyway, it doesn’t matter, because either way I’m locked in here. But that comes later.

  I couldn’t see anything at first. My eyes were blind, the way you get when you stare at a fire too long. I could tell I was lying on a cold stone floor that wasn’t very smooth, and the air smelled of scented smoke, like incense, woody and sweet, and the tide was roaring in my ears. That faded quickly, and my eyes adjusted, and that’s when I realized I was in a cave, an enormous cave, and there was no tide anywhere. So I’m not sure where the sound came from. Probably not important. More important was that there were people all around me, standing about twenty feet away in a rough circle, and none of them looked very friendly.

  I panicked again and summoned fire in a circle surrounding me, which made them all step back fairly fast and start talking, words I couldn’t understand over the sound of the fire. I stood up and tried to breathe normally, though the heat of the fire made my mouth and eyes dry. The people gradually calmed down and were watching me again, like they were waiting to see what else I would do. That made the panic rise again. The pressure of maintaining a fire with no fuel made my chest ache, worse than all the other pains, but I pushed on because I didn’t know what they would do if it wasn’t defending me.

  But eventually I couldn’t keep it up anymore, not to mention the heat was making me dizzy. The cave was absolutely silent when I let the fire go out. I turned in a circle, trying hopelessly to keep them all in sight, and I shouted something like “Leave me alone! Why did you bring me here?”

  The people—I forgot to say they were all dressed in these knee-length pale gray wraparound robes with wide sleeves over black trousers, men and women both, and they all wore their hair shoulder length or longer, tied back from their faces. They were almost completely expressionless, and combined with how alike they were, it was damned unsettling, like looking at a ring of dolls. One of them who didn’t look any different from the others took a step forward, holding out his hand like I was some kind of mad dog he was trying to calm. He said something, and it made me panic and bring up the fire again, because I didn’t understand the language he was speaking. Not even enough to know which one it was.

  That was when someone grabbed me from behind, and I lost control of the fire and it went out. I fought, but more people took hold of me, until I couldn’t move anything but my head, and that’s when I threw up, all over myself and them, which made some of them start yelling. I know I was screaming at them, but I can’t remember what I said, and they were shouting at me in that unknown language, which made me fight harder, not that it mattered. Then they half-carried, half-dragged me to this room, threw me inside, and locked the door.

  I don’t think it’s meant to be a cell. The light comes from a glass basket hanging from the ceiling by a silver chain. The basket has interesting patterns engraved in it, but I can’t take a closer look because staring at the light makes me feel like I’m going blind. It’s clearly not fire, because it doesn’t smell like anything and it doesn’t flicker or feel hot, but I have no idea what it could be instead. It has to be magic. There are a couple of chairs that are more like padded cylinders with no backs, and a woven, gritty-feeling mat on the floor, but more importantly, the walls are painted. As in, pictures directly painted on the walls. The strange thing is they’re made to look like windows, showing blue sky and grassy fields dotted with flowers.

  They’re very realistic—so realistic I tried to open one. That was actually the third thing I did, after trying to open the door and taking off my vomit-stained jacket. I wadded it up and put it in the corner, but the room still smells of vomit. Nothing I can do about that. Then I tried seeing through the door, but that made my head feel as if someone poured molten iron into it, so I gave up on that.

  So now I’ve explored every corner of the room, and I’m writing all of this down. I’m guessing they’d take this book away from me if they knew about it. I wonder if they can speak my language? Probably not, or they would have done by now, if only to say “stop setting things on fire.”

  Strange. It’s only just occurred to me to wonder why they didn’t try to kill me when they saw I can work magic. They were upset and surprised, yes, but nothing more. That, and the strange language, and the fact that there aren’t any caves that size for a thousand miles in any direction from where I spent last night, suggests I’m a long way from where I started. It also suggests it was these people and not the pouvra that brought me here. Maybe they’re not afraid of magic because they work it themselves. But I’ve never read about a pouvra that could move a person between places instantly. If they’ve figured that out…but I can’t do anything about that.

  What I can do is try to get out of this room and find a real window, or a door, or something that will tell me where I am. I’ve traveled a good many miles in the last ten years and seen a lot of places; maybe I’ll recognize it. I’ll try the mind-moving pouvra again, and then…I guess I’ll figure that out when I come to it. That’s my least favorite kind of plan.

  Still 14 Senessay, probably (though without the sun, who can tell?)

  Well, that was a waste of time. And it started so well, too.

  The mind-moving pouvra worked, which was a relief. It’s so new to me that after the first failure, I was afraid I’d lost the ability to use it at all, and I didn’t want to be trapped in here. The lock was strange, with tumblers that moved not at all the way I’m used to, and I would’ve bet I knew every kind of lock there was, after all these years of opening them. If it hadn’t been for the mind-moving pouvra, I might not have been able to open it at all, even with my tools, which got left behind with my pack in that old barn.

  I used the see-through pouvra on the door, which makes a two-foot-wide hole in whatever I’m looking through—not really a hole, it only seems like it, and I’m the only one who can tell it’s there. It’s too bad it’s not a real hole, or I could stick my head through it and look around, but as it was I could only see the stone of a wall opposite. So I opened the door a crack and peeked out, and saw nothing but an empty stone hall lined with metal doors, extending away from me in both directions. The doors were ordinary smooth metal, which told me wherever this country is, it’s at about the same level of development as Balaen. Though the only places in Balaen where I’ve seen metal doors are jails, which is not a comforting thought.

  I’m more and more convinced this place is underground, which I’m trying not to think about. It’s not that I’m claustrophobic, just that I can’t stand the idea of all those tons of stone hanging over my head, waiting to crush me. I listened, and heard some distant noises coming from the right, though nothing I could identify. I decided to go left instead. The whole place reminded me of breaking into the Sendesstal about four years ago, looking for that tome that turned out to be a collection of cooking recipes—the hall is dark, and it curves like a snake so you can’t see if someone’s coming until you’re right on top of them. Which is what happened to me.

  I don’t know if it’s all the gray-robes or just the one woman, but she was wearing sandals that made no noise on the stone floor, and I came around a curve of the hall and walked right into
her. She dropped the wooden tablet she was carrying and staggered; it cracked in half when it hit the floor. I know I was moving near-silently myself, so she was as startled as I was. More so, actually, because she didn’t expect to see me and I was prepared to see someone like her. I set the hem of her gray robe on fire and I ran.

  I meant it as a distraction, but I shouldn’t have started the fire—she started screaming, which meant I had to find a hiding place fast. So I ducked into the first room I passed—it wasn’t locked—and then I ducked back out fast, because the couple in that room were mostly naked and they started shouting at me too, even before they realized I wasn’t one of their kind. I ran for the next door, and that room was empty, so I shut the door behind me and stood there until my breathing and heart rate were back to normal.

  People were running down the hall and shouting things in their language, but no one came in. That was no comfort. At some point they were going to start a methodical search of the rooms, and I needed to be out of this corridor trap before then. So I looked around to see if there was anything in my hidey-hole I could use.

  It had window paintings like the room I’d started in, but this room was a bedchamber, with a very narrow and long bed covered with a couple of white sheets, no blankets. There was another one of those glass baskets lighting the room, and a dresser with three drawers and a wardrobe beside it. None of the furniture matched; the bed frame was made of wrought iron, the dresser was white oak, and the wardrobe looked like walnut. The floor had no rug, not even one of those gritty mats, and I couldn’t help thinking what it would be like to climb out of bed barefoot onto that cold stone floor.

  I rooted around in the dresser and wardrobe and immediately found the gray robe I was hoping for. Its sleeves were smudged with pale colors, pink and green and blue, with the occasional darker gray mark, and I hoped this wouldn’t set me apart from the others. No black trousers, but my own trousers are dark gray and I figured they could pass for black long enough to get me outside. I tied my hair back—this is probably how he caught me, most of them have black or dark brown hair, much darker than my own muddy blonde—and slipped out of the room, then headed in the direction I’d been going before.