Project Cain (Project Cain)

by Geoffrey Girard

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  For Josh

  We miss you. . . .

  CHAPTER ONE

  Jeffrey Dahmer.

  You might not know who that is. I didn’t. I had to Google him.

  There was some stuff in my file too.

  Back in the 1980s, he murdered seventeen people. It was a pretty big deal because of the way he did it. Look up the gory details yourself if you want. I’m not getting into any of that here.

  Most adults, I’ve learned, seem to know the name pretty well because Dahmer got famous in the news and became the go-to guy for the term of the hour: SERIAL KILLER.

  Male. White. Higher IQ. Underachiever. Bad wiring. Troubled childhood. Started collecting dead animals as a kid. Jump next to adulthood and the quiet Loner-Next-Door-Who-Never-Caused-a-Problem until the neighbors couldn’t ignore the strange smells. Twisted murders. Pervert stuff. Über body-count. The ultimate cliché. Perfect for an easy joke or a quick name-drop on some lame cop show.

  In 1992, Jeffrey Dahmer was found guilty on fifteen counts of murder and got sentenced to a separate life term for each and every one. Almost a thousand years in prison. Hard-core. Most people can’t even imagine one.

  Didn’t matter anyway.

  Two years in, another prisoner beat Dahmer to death with a broom handle, Dahmer’s head and face beaten so badly that the guards at first couldn’t figure out who’d been killed.

  The guy who did it claimed God had told him to. Could be.

  Other reports say Dahmer arranged the killing himself as some kind of suicide.

  Again, could be. That wouldn’t surprise me.

  Most of this happened more than twenty years before I was born.

  Before they made me in that lab. Before they made us.

  It’s all still very confusing. You’ll understand more soon.

  This is a story about blood.

  The blood of family. And of science.

  And murder.

  • • •

  Everyone’s always so interested in “telling the truth.” The virtue of TRUTH. Getting to the bottom of it. Being honest. Etc. The whole world imposes this principle on you right from the start. And it’s all such absolute bullshit, really. It’s, ironically, a gigantic fat lie.

  If everyone told the truth, even half the time, we’d probably all jump off a bridge.

  Because we’d finally really know how terrible everyone else is. What we really thought about each other. All the disgusting things we’d really done that day. And so on.

  It’s only the lies that keep everything going.

  I know I was perfectly fine with the ones I’d been told.

  • • •

  I was told and believed my name was Jeff Jacobson and that I was born on April 18 sixteen years ago.

  I was told and believed my mother and I were in a bad car accident when I was just five and this is why (a) I don’t have a mother, and (b) I can’t remember some things too well, and (c) my speech is a little off sometimes.

  I was told and believed that the pretty dark-haired woman in the three photos throughout our house was my mother and that she’d loved me very much.

  I was told and believed that my father was, well, my father. And that he also loved me.

  Then that changed.

  All of it. In a single night. Less, really. Fifteen, maybe twenty, minutes. The time it takes for a round of Call of Duty. It can happen that fast.

  The TRUTH.

  My dad—the eminent geneticist Dr. Gregory Jacobson, my fake father, the madman, Killer, Dr. Ripper; whatever we’re calling him now, whatever history will settle on—he comes into my room one night. And in that one simple everyday move, all those magnificent unspoiled lies went away and I got my first real fistfuls of Truth.

  Pow! Wham! WTF?

  I was told I’d been constructed in a laboratory just TEN years ago.

  I was told I was a clone made from the DNA of some other guy.

  I was told that other guy was a famous serial killer.

  I was told this was all part of some top-secret science project to help make weapons for the United States government and that the government now probably wanted me dead.

  I was told that I’d never had a mother beyond some Ukrainian girl paid to carry my fetus in her womb for only four months. (Even the egg had been genetically manufactured in a lab.) After that, I’d grown synthetically—brought to the physical/physiological maturity of an eight-year-old child in a little more than a year—in some sort of ultramodern tank.

  I was told that there were others like me. Other clones. Some made from other killers. And also a few made from the same guy I’d been made from.

  Finally, I was told that I was, therefore, a KILLER at the very core of my being.

  And—my dad was quite clear on this part—there was absolutely NOTHING wrong with that.

  • • •

  This, apparently, was the kind of Truth everyone is so damn excited about.

  • • •

  After giving me this news, news I hadn’t even begun to process yet, my dad handed me a folder. He’d stopped talking, and the clear inference was I should now check out the papers inside. So I flipped through it while he watched me. I didn’t get so far. There was nothing inside that didn’t add to my total confusion.

  I saw the name “JEFFREY DAHMER” for the first time in my life.

  • • •

  Inside the folder were pictures of a kid who I assumed was me.

  But he wasn’t. He just looked like me.

  And these were pictures of the kid in places I’d never been and with people I’d never met. Wearing clothes I’d never worn. In some of the pictures, the kid was even older than me.

  There were also weird reports with confusing technical notes and charts.

  My hands flipped through the pages in mere seconds. Or hours. I don’t know. (That whole night is still kind of a blur.) But I can tell you I didn’t understand what I was looking at. And any time I looked up to question or protest, my dad seemed to be looking right past me.

  Not just like I wasn’t in the room anymore. But, worse, like he wasn’t.

  I retreated back to the folder and eventually reached the pictures of—if I was to believe my father—dead people my “genetic source” had murdered. There were five faces on the first page alone. And a name beneath each one. My fingers hovering just over the page, tracing along their photos . . .

  I slammed the folder closed and then down onto my bed.

  My father smiled, something I’d not seen him do in months, and then stood. He first told me a phone number, a new number, and said I could call later if I ever needed to talk. What does that mean? Then he handed me an opened envelope stuffed with money and warned me again to keep away from DSTI (the company he worked for) AND the police. He said they were all working with the US government and I knew what that meant now.

  But I had no clue “what that meant now.”

  In fact, still nothing he was saying made any sense at all. Didn’t matter. Because that was it. The end of our conversation. Not one word about where he was going or what I was supposed to do.

  He was just down the stairs and out the door and into the car and beyond the driveway and so on. Every preposition he could think of to vanish for good. To get away from me. If my dad even n
oticed me shouting in the driveway or chasing him down our street, I would never know.

  I never saw him alive again.

  • • •

  Back into the house.

  I called his cell phone. Nothing.

  Tried a hundred times. Called his office. Nothing. Nothing.

  Even tried that new phone number he’d just given me.

  Still nothing.

  I checked out the money envelope he’d handed me. There were twenty fifty-dollar bills inside. A thousand dollars?!? I tossed the envelope onto my bed.

  I picked up the folder and tried reading its contents again. Other than the pictures, it was just more graphs and dates and numbers and some biographical stuff about this Jeffrey Dahmer guy.

  Born 1960. Grew up in Ohio. Dad a chemist. Kicked out of Army 1981.

  And so on. Blah, blah, blah. I didn’t get much farther than I had the first time. Honestly, I’d stopped reading after it listed his first murder. (1978, by the way. Dahmer was only eighteen years old.)

  I mostly just sat in the house for hours and hours and basically stared at the walls.

  It became the world’s longest, most sucky Night of Nothing.

  Until midnight.

  That was right around the time I decided to finally check out my father’s secret room.

  That’s where all the Something was.

  • • •

  Hint: If your father has a secret room, he’s probably lying about all sorts of things.

  • • •

  This room was on the second floor of our house in a space between the master bedroom and one of the guest rooms. From the outside it looked just like any other wood-paneled wall. Just behind, within, however, was a room the size of a big walk-in closet. The people who lived in the house before us had apparently built it as one of those “panic rooms,” a place to hide when, like, looters or robbers attack.

  My dad used it as a second office of sorts. I’d seen him go in more than a dozen times over the three years we’d lived there, but I’d never stepped a foot inside myself. He’d told me it was important stuff for work and then lectured me about privacy and trust. That had been enough to keep me away.

  But mostly I kept away because of the way he looked whenever he went into that room or came out. In his face had been something sad and lost. But also something strong. Focused.

  Something terrible.

  I just knew that whatever had come in and out of that room wasn’t entirely my dad anymore.

  And that whatever was inside the room was not something I wanted any part of.

  (Funny how that turned out, huh?)

  Still, I had the key. I’d found a ring of spares one afternoon when my dad had been out, and I’d tried every one until the special panel unlocked. It had taken me, like, twenty minutes just to find the keyhole, it was so well hidden in the paneling. But I kept running my fingers along the wall until I did. I did not, however, go in. I just locked it again and hid the spare key in my own room. Just having it, having the option to enter that room if I ever really wanted, had been enough for me.

  Now, I realize completely he always knew I’d taken that spare.

  He’d wanted me to have it. Just another one of his little experiments for me. Left it precisely where I’d find it. Wanted me to see all that he’d been up to.

  So I guess he got exactly what he wanted.

  Because when I opened the door, the very first thing I saw was the dead guy.

  CHAPTER TWO

  Before I get to the dead guy, I should maybe first cover who my father is. What he does. The special things he knows how to do. It won’t completely explain the rotted corpse hidden in our house, but it will, I hope, maybe explain it some.

  • • •

  I always took comfort in knowing what my father did for a living. You’d be amazed how many kids don’t. I’ve met them on soccer teams and at summer camp and stuff. These guys who have NO CLUE what their parent’s profession is. They maybe know it’s just a generic office job. Something to do with, like, some stupid phone or insurance company.

  But me, I could just say “He’s a scientist,” and everyone understood exactly what I meant.

  I’d leave out words like “important” or “famous,” but I always knew they were there too. I knew he’d given lectures at places like Harvard and Stanford and that he routinely met with big people in politics and stuff. And that he was a big boss at work and all. I’d grown up with the sense that he was SMART and IMPORTANT and POWERFUL. Even without these adjectives, I always said it with great pride: HE’S A SCIENTIST.

  Funny, in the end, that it was actually me who had no idea what my father was really up to.

  WHAT I DID KNOW

  For more than twenty years my dad worked for a company called Dynamic Solutions Technology Institute. DSTI. They are (or were) a private biotechnology company that specializes in the “development of therapeutic, pharmaceutical, and cell-based solutions.” (That’s from their website.) In short: They messed around with genetics/DNA. Fifty years ago, men like my father figured out how to modify DNA using a complicated process called genetic engineering to cut specific genes out of one place and stick them into another. Maybe to make cows bigger or corn more yellow or even to turn germs into cures. That kind of thing.

  WHAT I DIDN’T KNOW

  DSTI got most of its research money from the US military. And the US military doesn’t need or want yellower corn or bigger cows. Doesn’t even need or want clones of Albert Einstein or Kobe Bryant or John Lennon. The US military wants WEAPONS. It wants KILLERS. And so, thanks to my dad, that’s exactly what it got.

  • • •

  The United States has been at war since December 7, 1941.

  Every single day for more than eighty years, we’ve needed our military to kill.

  Not one other nation on Earth can claim that distinction.

  During this time, America has fought in more than twenty-five different countries and has directly killed more than fifteen million people. Five million more than the Nazis.

  During this time, America spent more money on weapons than the rest of the world combined.

  You’d think most of that money would be spent on jets and soldiers and bullets, etc., but it’s not. Most is spent on RESEARCH.

  It’s spent inventing and testing new ways to kill people.

  • • •

  Half of all federal research dollars goes to the US military.

  Fifty billion dollars a year. The same amount Washington sets aside for the research of medicine, energy, the environment, transportation, manufacturing, and agriculture combined.

  And, believe it or not, that’s nothing. Nickels and pennies.

  An additional five HUNDRED billion—money outside this general military-research fund—is spent on weapons research directly by the four military branches.

  Five hundred billion dollars a year! EVERY year.

  The military gets most of this money from their special “BLACK BUDGETS.” These are funds set aside for projects so highly classified that regular people don’t get to know what they’re working on. So highly classified that journalists aren’t allowed to find out. Congressmen and senators don’t know either. The president, too. Seriously. In the name of “national security,” even the president of the United States doesn’t know what these military scientists are working on.

  That’s why they’re called “Black Budget” projects.

  Because they happen “in the dark,” where no one can really see what’s going on.

  And that’s where they made us.

  • • •

  Have you ever thought of killing someone?

  Have you ever thought of murder? Rape?

  Tell the truth.

  Now just imagine if that thought never ever went away.

  That’s exactly the kind of person DSTI was looking for.

  • • •

  A pitch-perfect ear, speed, math skills, a good jump shot, IQ, daily emotions, sui
cide potential, language skills, strength, spatial perception, etc. Each chromosome of human DNA carries a million different strands with specific instructions on what that person’s genetic makeup will be. You’re BORN with the ability to learn a song by ear on the first try. You’re BORN with a mind that can comprehend general relativity and quantum mechanics. You’re BORN with the ability to throw a football better or worse than those other guys. Sure, you can take music lessons or maybe get counseling or attend summer football camps and get a little better in any of these things. But at the end of the day, the foundation of what you are is already locked into your body’s genetics. If the ability is not already in your genes, you will NEVER write songs like Mozart or Paul McCartney. You will NEVER understand the universe the way Stephen Hawking can. And you will NEVER throw a football like an NFL quarterback.

  Nature outplays Nurture almost every time. Like Paper overwhelms Rock.

  And geneticists, men like my father, have mapped most of this nature out.

  One particular location, a single gene strand labeled XP11, is where they now look for the killers. If you’re looking for the future superstars of murder, an aberration in XP11, apparently, is the nature you need. Basically, when there’s a glitch, a very rare glitch, on this one specific gene, it indicates and influences a chromosomal itch for various degrees of aggression and violence. Scientists and psychologists sometimes even call it the “Anger Gene.”

  The GOOD NEWS is that the body knows the “Anger Gene” is a negative trait and provides its own antidote; actually counteracts the mutation naturally during pregnancy, providing code in the DNA that can fix this violent abnormality so the person grows up NORMAL and the Anger Gene is healed.

  The BAD NEWS is that the genetic antidote (aka a chromosomal allele) for this dangerous mutation travels only on the X chromosome. Remember much from biology class? Females are born from XX chromosomes. So, they’ve got a 100% chance of having a cure for any aggressive mutation. Men, however, are XY. So we’ve got only a fifty-fifty shot of having the natural cure for an overly aggressive XP11 strand. And the other 50% are shit out of luck.