Little Faces

by Vonda N. Mcintyre Неизвестный Автор

  Most of their communications were cryptic. Oftentimes even the ships had no idea what the new information would do, but they collected and exchanged it promiscuously, played with it, rearranged it, tested it. The shimmery pattern of rainbow reflections spread from Seyyan's craft's skin to another, and another, and the pattern mutated from solid to stripes to spots.

  Yalnis's ship remained its customary reflective silver.

  "The ships have chosen a new fashion," Yalnis said.

  "True," her ship said. Then, "False."

  Yalnis frowned, confused, as her ship displayed a genetic sequence and its genealogy tag. Yalnis left all those matters to the ship, so she took a moment to understand that her ship rejected the pattern because it descended from Seyyan's craft. Her ship led her further into its concerns, showing how many new sequences it had considered but rejected and stopped taking in when it encountered Seyyan's tag.

  "Thank you," Yalnis said.

  "True."

  That was a long conversation, between ship and human. She was glad it had ended without misunderstanding.

  The ship did understand "Thank you," Yalnis believed, and Yalnis did understand its response of appreciation.

  Maybe Seyyan was right, Yalnis said to herself. Maybe Iam naive. I feared direct assault, but never thought of a sneak attack on my ship.

  She wondered if her encounter with Seyyan had changed the balance between the two ships, or if their estrangement had its own source. She wondered if she should try to exclude Seyyan's craft from the colony. But that would be an extreme insult, and Seyyan had more friends than Yalnis, and many admirers. She was older, wealthier, more experienced and accomplished, more limber of voice and of body.

  "I trust your judgment," she said, remaining within the relative safety of simple declarative statements. She would leave decisions about Seyyan's craft to her own ship.

  "True."

  The shimmering new fashion continued to extend from Seyyan's to other craft, each vying with the next to elaborate upon her pattern.

  Seyyan's popularity created a second center for the colony, decreasing the stability of the delicate rotation, but there was nothing to be done about it. It was ships' business, not people's.

  Yalnis was ready. She made her last decisions, dressed in intricate lace, took a deep, shaky breath, and welcomed her guests.

  Zorar arrived first, too well-established to concern herself with being fashionably late. Yalnis embraced her, grateful for her presence. Zorar kissed her gently and handed her a sealed glass ampoule.

  "For your daughter's vineyard," she said. "I think the culture's improved even over what I gave your mother, when she launched you and your ship."

  "Thank you," Yalnis said, honored by the gift. She put it on the central table, in a place of distinction.

  More guests arrived; an hour passed in a blur of greetings, reunions, introductions, gifts. People brought works of art, stories, and songs. They brought ship silk as refined as fog, seeds of newly adapted plants, embryos of newly discovered creatures, unique cultures of yeast and bacteria. Yalnis accepted them all with thanks and gratitude. Her daughter would be well and truly launched; her ship would be rich, and unique.

  Her guests ate and drank, wished each other long life and adventures, congratulated voyagers on their safe return. They exchanged compliments and gossip, they flirted, they told tales, they even bragged: Kinli had, of course, been on another great adventure that made all others pale by comparison. Guests complimented Yalnis's ship's cooking, especially the savory rabbit, and the complexity and quality of her wine. Everyone wore their best ship silk, and most, like Yalnis, wore lace so their companions could remain decently modest while watching the party. A few guests wore opaque garments to enforce a complete modesty; Yalnis thought the choice a little cruel. The very youngest people, recently debuted from solitary girl to adult, revealed their virgin midriffs.

  Yalnis found herself always aware of the new connections leading from other ships to her living space. The openings, glowing in the cool pastels of biological light, changed her living area from one of

  comfortable intimacy to one of open vulnerability.

  Zorar handed her a glass of wine. Yalnis had based the vintage on the yeast Zorar gave her ship when it and Yalnis were born and launched.

  Yalnis sipped it, glanced around, swallowed a whole mouthful. The effects spread through her. The companions squeaked with pleasure, leaning into her, absorbing the alcohol, yearning. She brushed her hand across the lace of her shirt. She had been neglecting the companions since Zorargul's murder. She drank more wine, and Zorar refilled their glasses.

  Yalnis blocked out the rising level of conversation. She was unused to noise, and it tired her.

  "What do you think?" she said.

  Zorar raised one eyebrow. "That's the question I want you to answer."

  "Oh," said Yalnis. "Yes, of course." She blushed at her misstep. "But I meant, about the wine."

  "It's excellent," Zorar said, "as you well know. Your ship is of a line that seldom makes a recombinant error, and I can only approve of the changes. What about Seyyan? Did you ban her?"

  "No. I want her here. So she knows she failed. Maybe she banned herself."

  "Maybe she's trying to unnerve you. Or to wait till you drink too much."

  Yalnis drained her glass again.

  "Maybe if I do, I'll be ready for her."

  She was ignoring the noise, but she noticed the sudden silence.

  "And then I—" Kinli said, and stopped.

  Seyyan stood in the largest new entryway, silhouetted by golden bioluminescence, her face shadowed, dramatized, by the softer party light. Yalnis's heart pounded; her face flushed.

  "I thought she was so beautiful," Yalnis whispered to Zorar, amazed, appalled. She thought she whispered: a few people nearby glanced toward her, most amused, but one at least pale with jealousy for her relationship with the renowned adventurer.

  If you only knew, Yalnis thought. I wonder what you'd think then?

  Yalnis mourned the loss of the joy she had felt when Seyyan chose her, but she mourned the loss of Zorargul much more.

  Seyyan strode into the party, greeting allies, her gaze moving unchecked past the few who had rejected her craft's fashionable offerings. Misty ship silk flowed around her legs and hips, shimmering with the pattern that newly decorated the flanks of so many craft. No one else had thought to apply it to clothing. She wore a shawl of the same fabric around her shoulders, over her breasts, across her companions.

  But her hands were empty of gifts. Yalnis declined to notice, but others did, and whispered, shocked.

  Then she flung back the end of the shawl, revealing herself from breastbone to pubis.

  She had accepted more companions since she was with Yalnis. She bore so many Yalnis could not count them without staring, and she would not stare. Her gaze hesitated only long enough to see that the son-spot had erupted and healed over.

  The other guests did stare.

  How could any person support so many companions? And yet Seyyan displayed health and strength, an overwhelming physical wealth.

  She turned to draw another guest from the shadows behind her. Ekarete stepped shyly into the attention of the party. Ekarete, one of the newly debuted adults, already wore new lace. Seyyan bent to kiss her, to slip her hand beneath the filmy panel of her shirt, so everyone would know that if she had neglected a launching gift for Yalnis's daughter, she had given a more intimate one to Ekarete.

  Seyyan wanted Yalnis to know what had happened to the new companion, that she had easily found someone to accept it.

  Seyyan whispered to Ekarete, drew her hand down her cheek, and continued toward Yalnis and Zorar. Ekarete followed, several steps behind, shy and attentive, excited and intimidated by her first adult gathering.

  Seyyan's first companion, the assassin, protruded all the way to the base of his neck, eyes wide, teeth exposed and snapping sharply. Her other companions, responding to him,
gnashed their teeth and blinked their eyes.

  "What a pleasant little party," Seyyan said. "I so admire people who aren't caught up in the latest fashion."

  "Do have some wine," Yalnis said. She meant to speak in a pleasant tone. Her voice came out flat, and hard.

  Seyyan accepted a glass, and sipped, and nodded. "As good as I remember."

  Yalnis wished for the ancient days Seyyan came from, when poison could still wreak havoc with a person's biochemistry, undetected till too late. She wished for a poisoned apple, a single bite, and no one ever to kiss Seyyan again.

  Maybe I can have that last wish, she thought, and took action on her decision.

  She let Zorargul's wound break open. The stab of pain struck through her. Her companions shrieked, crying like terrified birds, reacting to her distress. Blood blossomed through the lace panel of her shirt. All around her, people gasped.

  Yalnis reached beneath the scarlet stain. Her hand slid across the blood on her skin. The wound gaped beneath her fingers.

  Her body had treated Zorargul's sperm packet like an intrusion, an irritation, as something to encapsulate like the seed of a pearl. At the same time, the packet struggled for its own survival, extending spines to remain in contact with her flesh. As it worked its way out, scraping her raw, she caught her breath against

  a whimper.

  Finally the capsule dropped into her hand. She held it up. Her body had covered the sperm packet's extrusions with shining white enamel. All that remained of Zorargul was a sphere of bloody fangs. "This is your work, Seyyan," she said. Blood flowed over her stomach, through her pubic hair, down her legs, dripping onto the rug, which absorbed it and carried it away. Yalnis went cold, light-headed, pale. She took courage from Zorar, standing at her elbow.

  "You took me as your lover," Seyyan said. "I thought you wanted me. I thought you wanted a companion from me. My lineage always fought for place and position."

  "I wasn't at war with you," Yalnis said. "I loved you. If you'd asked, instead of ..." She glanced down at the gory remains.

  "Asked?" Seyyan whispered. "Butyou askedme. "

  Whispers, exclamations, agreement, objections all quivered around them.

  Tasmin moved to stand near Seyyan, taking her side.

  "You must have been neglectful," she said to Yalnis. "I think you're too young to support so many companions."

  Seyyan glanced at Tasmin, silencing her. Anyone could see that Yalnis was healthy and well supplied with resources. She was her own evidence, and her ship the final proof.

  As they confronted each other, the guests sorted themselves, most in a neutral circle, some behind Yalnis, more flanking Seyyan. Yalnis wished Shai had remained for the gathering. She might have sided with Seyyan, but the others might have seen her fear.

  Ekarete, in her new lace shirt, moved shyly between the opponents.

  "Seyyan was very gentle with me," she whispered. "She acceded to my choice." She twitched the hem of her shirt aside, just far enough, just long enough, to reveal the fading inflammation of a new attachment, and the golden skin and deep brown eyes of Seyyan's offspring, Ekarete's first little face.

  "Very gentle," Ekarete said again. "Very kind. I love her."

  "For giving you a cast-off?" Yalnis said. "For inducing you to take the companion I refused?"

  Ekarete stared at her. Yalnis felt sorry for her, sorry to have humiliated her.

  Tasmin stood forward with Ekarete. "Yalnis, you're speaking out of grief," she said. "You lost a companion—I grieve with you. But don't blame Seyyan or embarrass Ekarete. We all know Seyyan for her generosity. My daughter by her launched gloriously."

  "You're hardly disinterested," said Yalnis.

  "But I am," said Kinli, "and I know nothing against her."

  Yalnis started to say, When did you ever listen to anyone but yourself?

  Zorar yanked up the hem of her shirt, revealing the scar and her emasculated companion with its drooping mouth and dull eyes. It roused far enough to bare its teeth. It drooled.

  The older people understood; the younger ones started in horror at the mangled thing, heard quick whispers of explanation, and stared at Seyyan.

  "I loved you, too," Zorar said. "I told myself, it must have been my fault. I should have understood./ consoled_yow. After you did this."

  "I came for a celebration," Seyyan said, holding herself tall and aloof. "I expect to be taken as I am—not ambushed with lies and insults."

  She spun, the hem of her dress flaring dramatically, and strode away.

  Ekarete ran after her. Seyyan halted, angry in the set of her shoulders; she paused, softened, bent to speak, kissed Ekarete, and continued away, alone. The main entrance silhouetted her formidable figure as she left Yalnis's ship.

  Ekarete stood shivering, gazing after her, pulling the hem of her shirt down all the way around. Finally she scurried after her. Tasmin glared at Yalnis, heaved a heavy sigh, and followed.

  The others, even Kinli, clustered around Yalnis and Zorar.

  "You've spoiled your own party," Kinli said, petulant. "What now? A permanent break? A feud?"

  "I shun her," Yalnis said.

  "That's extreme!"

  Yalnis hesitated, hoping for support if not acclaim. She shrugged into the silence. "If the community doesn't agree, why should she care if only I shun her?"

  "And I," Zorar said, which made more difference to more people.

  The light of the connecting corridors faded as she spoke. The openings slowly ensmalled. No one had to be told the party had ended. The guests hurried to slip through the connections before they vanished. Their finery went dim.

  All around, the tables resorbed into the floor, leaving crumbs and scraps and disintegrating utensils. The rug's cilia carried them away in a slow-motion whirlpool of dissolving bits, into pores, to be metabolized. The gifts all sank away, to be circulated to the new ship.

  Only Zorar remained. Yalnis's knees gave out. She crouched, breathing hard, dizzy. Zorar knelt beside her.

  "I'm— I have to—"

  "Hush. Lie back."

  "But—"

  "It's waited this long. It can wait longer."

  Yalnis let Zorar ease her down. The ship received her, nestling her, creeping around and over her with its warm skin. The pain eased and the flow of blood ceased. The blood she had shed moved from her skin, from her clothes, red-brown drying specks flowing in tiny lines across the comforter, and disappeared.

  She dozed, for a moment or an hour. When she woke, Zorar remained beside her.

  "Thank you," Yalnis whispered. She closed her eyes again. She desperately wanted to be alone.

  Zorar kissed Yalnis and slipped through the last exit. It sealed itself and disappeared.

  Yalnis wanted only to go back to sleep. A thousand years might not be enough this time. She had never been among so many people for so long, and she had never been in such a confrontation. Exhaustion crept over her, but she must stay awake a little longer.

  "I shun Seyyan," she said. Her companions quivered at her distress.

  "True," the ship said, and let all its connections to all the other ships shrivel and drop away. The primary colony broke apart, resolving into individual ships. They moved to safer distances, and the stars reappeared above Yalnis's living space.

  Seyyan's glittering secondary colony remained, with her craft protected in its center. None broke away to shun her. Yalnis turned her back on the sight. She no longer had anything to do with Seyyan.

  "It's time," she said aloud.

  "True," her ship replied. It created a nest for her, a luxurious bed of ship silk. It dimmed the light and mirrored the outer surface of the transparent dome. The stars took on a ghostly appearance. Yalnis could see out, but no one could see inside.

  Yalnis pulled off her shirt. Her long hair tangled in it. Annoyed, she shook her hair free. She stepped out of her loose trousers. Naked, she reclined in the nest.

  "Please, cut my hair."

  "True," the ship
said. The nest cropped her hair, leaving a cap of dark brown. The weight fell away; the strands moved across the carpet, fading to a dust of molecules.

  Yalnis relaxed, gazed at her companions, and let her hand slide down her body. The little faces knew her intent. Each stretched itself to its greatest extent, into her and out of her, whispering and offering.

  She made her choice.

  Bahadirgul stretched up to seek her hand, moaning softly through its clenched sharp teeth. The other companions contracted, hiding their little faces in modesty or disappointment till they nearly disappeared. Yalnis stroked Bahadirgul's head, its nape, and caressed its neck and shaft. She opened herself to her companion.

  The pleasure started slowly, spreading from Bahadirgul's attachment point deeper into her body. It

  reached the level of their ordinary couplings, which always gave Yalnis joy, and gave the companion days of pride and satiation. It continued, and intensified. Yalnis cried out, panting, arching her back. Bahadirgul shivered and extended. Yalnis and her companion released, and combined.

  Their daughter formed. Yalnis curled up, quivering occasionally with a flush of pleasure, listening to their daughter grow. The pleasure faded to a background throb.

  Inside her, her daughter grew.

  Content, she nestled deeper into the ship silk and prepared to sleep.

  Instead, the dome went transparent. Seyyan's colony of connected ships gleamed in the distance. The connecting pili stretched thin, preparing to detach and resorb.

  Yalnis sighed. Seyyan was none of her concern anymore. She had sworn to take no more notice of her.

  What happened next, Yalnis would never forget, no matter how many millennia she lived or how many adventures filled her memory.

  The connections deformed, shifted, arched in waves. They contracted, forcing the craft closer even as they tried to separate and depart.

  Seyyan commanded her supporters, and they discovered the limits of their choices. They tried to free their ships, tried to dissolve the connections, but Seyyan drew them ever nearer.