Sleeping in Eden

by Nicole Baart

  Meg woke in darkness, her muscles cramped and her shoulder blades numb and tingling where they poked against the wooden floor of the haymow. But even with her body aching, she couldn’t stop her lips from forming a faint smile because she remembered where she was and who was lying beside her.

  She squinted at the roof of the barn, trying to gauge the soft gray lines of morning that creased the drooping peak like strokes of blurred charcoal. By the hint of pale light that filtered through the narrow slats, Meg guessed that it was getting close to six o’clock. Not quite sunrise, but from the absolute quiet and the fact that she could already make out subtle shadows in the colorless barn, she believed the sun would rise over a clear sky. The storm was over.

  Sometime in the night, she and Dylan had rolled out of the blanket, but she could still feel the thin wool beneath her and his arm like a pillow cradling her neck. She didn’t want to wake him, but she was too stiff to suffer the entanglement of their bodies for another second. Holding her breath, she tried to slowly shift away.

  “You awake?” Dylan asked, his lips suddenly against her forehead.

  “You’re not asleep?”

  “Haven’t been for a long time.” He moved a little so that Meg could stretch, but when she rolled onto her side, he followed her, circling his arm around her waist.

  “What’ve you been doing?”

  “Watching you. Listening to you breathe. Did you know that you snore?”

  “I do not!”

  Dylan laughed. “No, you don’t. At least, you didn’t last night.”

  “You mean this morning.” Although she loved him wrapped around her, Meg felt the first niggling touch of guilt tumble down her spine. She had abandoned her life on a whim only to find herself a fugitive in some stranger’s barn. It was scandalous, but the excitement of what they had been through had yet to wear off completely. She squeezed her eyes shut and was suddenly aware of her skin, Dylan’s bare leg against hers, and the fact that there was nothing at all between them but air. Meg reached for the crumpled pile of fabric that was her sundress. It was still damp, but she sat with her back to Dylan and pulled it over her head anyway.

  He didn’t try to stop her, but he brushed his hand against her thigh, sweeping away bits of hay that clung to her skin. When Meg didn’t protest, he sat up behind her and kissed the nape of her neck, smoothing his fingers across her shoulders and down her arms, and she tingled in all the places he touched.

  “Dylan, I—”

  “Don’t,” he interrupted. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean for this to happen.” He wrapped his hands around her waist and carefully spun her around so that they were face-to-face. “But I don’t regret it. I know this sounds crazy, Meg, but I’m yours. I always have been, and I always will be.”

  Meg covered his mouth with her own before he could say more, and against her lips he whispered, “I love you.” She said it back. I love you.

  As Dylan trailed his fingers down the length of her arm, Meg didn’t think anything of his lazy wanderings. She enjoyed his touch and had to fight the urge to arch and encourage more, when he picked up her hand and gave the ring on her forefinger a gentle twist.

  “You still wear this?” Dylan asked.

  She wasn’t sure if he had noticed it before or if his discovery of Jess’s ring was recent. Either way, she could detect a suspicious edge to his voice, though he tried to sound nonchalant.

  “I haven’t for years,” she said, wishing she had remembered it and wrenched it off. Especially after all that Dylan had confessed.

  “Why do you have it on now?”

  Meg pulled back, glad that the shadows still obscured his features. If she couldn’t see him clearly, he couldn’t see her. She wasn’t sure that she wanted him to know that as of only yesterday, things with Jess had been anything but resolved. Should she downplay it? Or tell the truth?

  “Jess and I have been talking,” she finally confessed. “I was supposed to meet him in Sutton this weekend.”

  “You came home for Jess?”

  “Not just for Jess,” Meg said, regretting that she hadn’t simply told him that she thought the ring was pretty and considered it an accessory.

  “But you’ve been talking. About what?”

  “About us,” she whispered then rushed to explain. “I thought you were out of the picture, Dylan. We haven’t talked in years. And Jess . . .”

  “Has always loved you.”

  “Yeah.”

  “So have I.”

  Meg was quiet for a long moment. “You haven’t always made that very clear.”

  He still had his fingers wrapped around the ring, and when he started to slide it off her finger, she didn’t complain. “Can I now?” he asked. “Can I make it clear?”

  She fell into his kiss willingly, and when he took off the ring and pressed it into her palm, she curled her arms around him and felt the unencumbered candor of her bare hands. The absence of the ring was like a weight lifted. There was nothing between them now.

  “I’ll be back in half an hour,” Dylan said, lacing up his shoes. “I’ll go gas up the truck, grab some cheap coffee, and we’ll hit the road. Sure you don’t want to come?”

  Meg yawned and blinked long. “I need to charge my phone,” she murmured, ignoring his question unintentionally. She was too sleepy to think straight. “I forgot to do it last night, and it was dead when I got to the airport. My parents are probably freaking out that I haven’t called them yet.”

  “We’ll find a restaurant off the interstate and you can plug it in there.” He brushed a kiss across her forehead. “Go back to sleep. It’s obscenely early.”

  From between half-closed eyes, Meg watched as Dylan studied her for a moment. She could only begin to imagine what he was thinking. What she must look like. Hair mussed, eyes dark from lack of sleep, sundress ruined. But she could feel the expectation of all that was to come radiating off her in waves. She was so hopeful it hurt, and the only balm to ease the shame of her fairy-tale dreams was that Dylan seemed just as optimistic.

  He tipped her chin and kissed her one last time, deep and thoughtful, as if he could taste her soul on his tongue. Then he pushed himself up reluctantly, picked his way to the edge of the loft, and disappeared down the ladder with a wink.

  Meg sighed and stretched, pointing her fingertips and toes before cradling her head in her hands. Curling into herself, she marveled at Dylan, at the way, after all these years, they fit. Fear trembled deep inside her, but she also knew that nothing good could ever happen without risk. She had risked much, and she was ready to rest in the knowledge that Dylan was a chance worth taking.

  Bathed in light, Meg dozed, slipping in and out of daydreams where her life took on the surreal quality of blurred edges and fairy-tale perfection.

  When Meg startled awake, the barn was silent but for the shallow gasp of her own breath. She held herself perfectly still for a moment, straining, listening, but there was nothing to hear. Dylan? His name whispered across her lips, but it wasn’t him. He had just left, hadn’t he? Meg willed herself to calm down, but something dark and unreasonable was rising in her chest. And in the split second before the barn door crashed open, Meg knew.

  She knew that she wasn’t alone.

  Her heart stopped, then stuttered back to life when she heard a heavy shuffling like an aged man walking with a laborious, uneven stumble.

  “Who’s there?” The shout rose from beneath her, and the strong voice didn’t match the feeble swish and thud of his approach. Worst of all, the man who called out into the dim, predawn light did not sound curious. He sounded furious. “I said: Who’s there? Show yourself!”

  As Meg scrambled off the blanket and huddled in a crouch, she heard a strange, metallic clack that seemed oddly familiar. The sound buzzed at the brink of her memory, flirting with some ancient memory, but before she had a chance to place it, an explosion rocked the barn. Desiccated bird droppings and a decade of grime fell like soft snow where dozens of tiny holes pu
nctured the rotting roof above them.

  Meg was too dazed to scream. She threw herself backward, crawling on hands and knees to a pile of stacked bales that required her to climb if she wanted to go any farther. Turning her back to the straw wall, she slunk down as far away from the edge as she could get.

  Meg’s knees were scraped and bleeding from her frenzied attempt at escape, and she could hear someone scraping around down below, bumping into things and cursing as he came. The insults that he flung at her were meaningless compared to the sound of his gun being cocked a second time.

  “Who’s there?” the stranger yelled again.

  “It’s all a misunderstanding,” Meg breathed to herself. The stranger must be enraged, and rightly so, considering that she and Dylan had taken refuge in his barn without his consent. She was trespassing. How could he know that she meant no harm? A terrified chuckle rose from somewhere deep inside, but there was no mirth in the slight sound. She sat up straighter as if she was straining to see over the edge, and mustered the courage to yell, “Hello? Please, don’t shoot. My name is—”

  A second report burst through the floor in front of her, sending buckshot scattering like the hail that had bounced off the ground the night before.

  This time, Meg screamed. And tried to stand. “No!” she shrieked. “You don’t understand!”

  There was a terrible confusion of noise from below that made her limbs go numb and her steps falter. But she kept going, frantic for the chance to see him, to make him hear her voice before he did something they would both regret. She believed that he wouldn’t shoot her—she had to believe that—and it gave her the rush of adrenaline she needed to stop her legs from buckling. For a second, she thought she could hear the unmistakable sound of the gun being cocked a third time, but it was drowned out by the sound of her own heartbeat pounding in her ears.

  Meg was intent, blinded by the conviction that it was all a horrible mistake. All she could think was: If he could only see me, if he could just see me . . .

  But then something snagged at her foot and she tripped, plunging headlong as the shotgun fired a third time. There was blackness and distance and a feeling like falling.

  Then pain.

  Something was hot against her chest, but she was aware of a cold and spreading numbness that wasn’t alleviated even slightly by the heavy blanket Dylan had obviously tucked around her. Dylan? She tried to say his name, but the vowels and consonants wouldn’t form, and all she could do was exhale.

  One long, low breath passed her lips like a wordless whisper. Like a cry in a foreign language filled with love and longing and loss. It floated and fell, a wisp of damp fog that dissipated into shadows tinged gold, shadows that were just beginning to fade.

  To be shot through with light.

  25

  LUCAS

  There were lights on in the house.

  Lucas could see the warm glow from the windows of Number 439 even before he turned down the street. The air seemed different somehow. It was blushed and expectant, charged with possibility.

  “You promised,” Lucas reminded Angela as he pulled into the driveway and put the car in park. She was leaning forward, her hands on the dashboard and her neck craned toward the house as if she could pierce the blinds with the intensity of her stare. He half believed she could. “You promised.”

  It was pointless to wait for Angela to respond, so Lucas threw open his door and crossed the driveway. She didn’t follow, and he was both grateful and surprised.

  Lucas took the steps at a deliberate pace, and paused on the porch. He was so close. So close. Adrenaline made him feel invincible, ready for whatever he would face behind the gilded front door. But he knew he had to handle the situation with a level head. He inhaled in a deep, steadying breath and rang the doorbell. There was the muffled sound of footsteps, the metallic clack of a lock, and then the door swung open wide.

  She stood a full head shorter than Lucas, a slightly built woman with pretty, steel-colored hair and a sweet face creased by innumerable laugh lines. “Can I help you?”

  Lucas didn’t give himself even a second to think. To stop and consider what he was doing and why. “Hi,” he said, trying to look honest and affable. He stuck out his hand and she shook it without pause. A small-town woman accustomed to friendly neighbors and the occasional Jehovah’s Witness, whom she would undoubtedly invite in for tea and cordial religious debate.

  “My name is Lucas Hudson. I’m actually looking for someone who may or may not live here. Is this the Langbroek residence?”

  “It is,” she said, now with a hint of wariness.

  He grinned. “This is a total long shot, but does Jess Langbroek live here?”

  “He used to.” The woman seemed to relax. “You one of Jess’s friends? He meets so many people . . .”

  “Yes,” Lucas latched onto the bit of information she unknowingly provided, trying to scrabble together a believable story. He hadn’t really thought about what he would say if someone answered the door. “Old friends. Actually,” he thought of the Woman, “we have a friend in common.”

  “I don’t suppose it’s Dylan Reid, now, is it? Because he’s in town, too. Can you imagine that! Two of Jess’s old friends popping in on the same day. Dylan stopped by this afternoon. He was looking for Jess, just like you.”

  “Dylan Reid?” Lucas sifted the name, trying to come up with a connection. It seemed odd that he and Angela weren’t the only people looking for Jess Langbroek. But he came up blank.

  “Oh,” she waved her hand dismissively. “Someone he knew in high school. I had forgotten that Dylan even existed until he showed up on our doorstep. But you are definitely not familiar. You didn’t go to high school with Jess, too, did you?”

  “No, ma’am.”

  “Thank goodness. My memory’s not as good as it used to be. Would you like to come in for a cup of coffee?” She stood back to let him in, and down a short hallway, he could see a cozy living room and the flicker of a television. “My husband is in the shop, but I’ll call him in. We like meeting Jess’s friends.”

  “That’s very kind, but I’m in a bit of a hurry. We were just passing through and thought we’d stop.” Lucas jerked a thumb over his shoulder and watched as Mrs. Langbroek took a glance at the car. By some miracle, Angela was still in the passenger seat, silhouetted in the glare of a floodlight that had clicked on when Lucas pulled up.

  The older woman smiled. “She’s pretty. Looks a lot like the girl that Jess and Dylan used to fight over. Long blond hair just like that. Such nice cheekbones . . .” She shook her head quickly, her smile faltering as she tried to bury whatever memory had dimmed the light in her eyes. Or maybe she was trying to dig it up. She seemed disoriented for a moment. Flustered. But she steadied herself and said, “No matter. If it’s not a cup of coffee you’re after, what can I do for you?”

  Lucas could hardly believe his luck. “A phone number?” he asked. “An address? Jess and I lost touch and I’d really like to track him down and say hi.”

  If Mrs. Langbroek was surprised that Lucas couldn’t simply e-mail or Facebook Jess to ask for that information, she didn’t show it. Lucas felt a rush of affection for a generation that wasn’t shackled to the god of technology. It probably never crossed her mind to wonder about Lucas’s inability to locate his so-called friend by more savvy means than driving to his hometown.

  Mrs. Langbroek insisted on writing down Jess’s information, and while she was scrounging in the hall desk for a piece of scrap paper and a pen, Lucas gave Angela a tentative thumbs-up. She snubbed him by turning her head to look out the far window, but he knew that she’d be pleased with the success of his operation. Even if she wouldn’t admit it.

  “Here you are.” Mrs. Langbroek pressed the paper into Lucas’s palm and gave his hand a squeeze. “I’m sure Jess will love to hear from you. He might be a big-shot lawyer, but he’s lonely, you know? It’s hard to see your kids lonely. I wish he’d find a nice girl and settle down . .
.” she trailed off, and Lucas gently extracted his hand from hers. Things were getting just a tad too personal, and he was eager to leave Mrs. Langbroek to her memories. It felt disingenuous to lead her on in this way. He hated himself a little for lying to her.

  “Thank you very much,” Lucas said, inclining his head in the slightest of bows.

  “Well, you’re very welcome. I was happy to give his number and address to Dylan, too. Maybe you three could get together and reminisce about the old days.”

  Bemused, Lucas took a small step backward and glanced at the paper in his hand. The address was in Minneapolis, and there were ten digits in what looked like a legitimate phone number.

  “Thanks again.” He nodded once and headed back toward the car, but he wasn’t halfway there before Mrs. Langbroek stopped him.

  “I almost forgot!” she called, waving him over. “Could you give this to Dylan when you see him? He left it here this afternoon.”

  “Pardon me?”

  “Here . . .” she crossed the space between them at a light jog and handed Lucas a cell phone clip. “I probably won’t see him again, but you can give it to him when you boys get together.”

  “But—”

  “I don’t even know what it is!” She laughed, breathless and cheerful as a new grandma. “But you must be staying at the Gaslight Inn, too. Just pop it on over to his room. I’d really appreciate it.”

  Lucas didn’t know what to say, so he didn’t say anything at all. Instead, he pocketed the clip and accepted the unexpected hug that Mrs. Langbroek gave him. She smelled faintly of cinnamon.

  “You two are sure on friendly terms,” Angela grumbled when Lucas slid into the driver’s seat. Mrs. Langbroek was standing in a dim circle of porch light, waving at the car as if Lucas was a beloved friend instead of a complete stranger.