by AJ Schippers
“I want to tie you up,” Alexandra said. Julia swallowed the lump in her throat, and Alexandra cupped her cheek. “How do you feel about that?”
“I don’t know,” Julia answered. “Will Nicky and Ella be there?”
“Yes. Nicky’s going to practice her rope skills on Ella.”
Julia closed her eyes, and she tried to take deep breaths. “What will happen?”
“Nothing that you don’t want. I would like it if you would let me blindfold you before using the ropes on you. Nicky won’t touch you, nor will I touch Ella. We would be playing in the same room, but that’s it. I’ve thought about tying you and Ella together, but I think you wouldn’t like it.”
“No, I don’t want that.”
“I know,” Alexandra said. “Which is why I won’t do it. You don’t have to say yes. You’re completely in control over what will happen and what won’t happen.”
“How will you tie me up?”
“I want it to be a surprise, but if you really want to know, I will tell you.”
Julia was quiet for a long time. “You won’t play with me, right? Like, sexually?”
“I won’t. Not with them there, no.”
“You promise?”
“I promise.”
“Not even when I beg for it?”
“Not even when you beg for it. Let’s talk about limits for a bit. Tell me what your limits are, and I promise you I will abide by them.”
“I don’t want to be suspended or anything.”
“Okay. I wouldn’t do that anyway. We’re not ready for that yet.”
“I think I need you to tell me what you will do,” Julia said as she grabbed Alexandra’s hand and played with her fingers. “I am nervous.”
“Okay. I want to tie your hands behind your back, and I want to work a rope into your hair and maybe connect it to your hands. Make you feel a bit immobilized. But if that scares you, I won’t do it.”
“What else?”
“I want to tease you mercilessly with words, soft-spoken words that neither Nicky nor Ella will be able to hear. Promises of what I will do to you, promises of what I’ll let you do to me.”
“Like what?”
Alexandra smiled. “You’ll have to wait and see. I won’t give all my secrets away.” She leaned down and kissed Julia softly. “What do you say?”
“Let’s do it.”
“Are you sure?”
Julia nodded. “I trust you.”
“Good girl.”
“I see you’ve gotten a head start,” Alexandra said, and she laughed as they entered the playroom. She took Julia’s hand and pulled her into the playroom before closing the door.
Ella was on the floor, a blindfold covering her eyes, and Nicky was busy wrapping the ropes around Ella’s legs. “Ella was eager,” Nicky said as she gently cupped Ella’s cheek.
Alexandra reached into the drawer with one hand and gently pushed Julia into a corner when she had grabbed the blindfold. “Do we need to do your safe word routine?”
“No. I remember.”
“Can I give you a kiss?”
Julia blushed at the question, and her gaze darted over to Nicky and Ella—completely engrossed in their own play—before nodding. She smiled into the kiss when Alexandra pressed her lips onto hers, and she squirmed when Alexandra played with her tongue.
But then Alexandra pulled back. “Nothing sexual,” she promised.
“Okay.” This was going to be harder than Julia thought. The throb between her legs was already making its presence known, and she cursed herself for it.
“Turn around,” Alexandra ordered, and she prodded Julia’s legs apart with her foot. Next the blindfold went over Julia’s head. “How’s that?”
“Dark,” Julia said. “But it feels good.”
“Excellent.” Alexandra slid her hands down Julia’s side. “Don’t move. I’m going to grab some ropes, and I promise I will not leave you alone in here for even a second.”
Julia focused on her breathing while Alexandra grabbed the ropes. She listened to the soft murmurs coming from Nicky and Ella, and part of her was glad that she couldn’t see what was going on. The thought of Nicky watching her every move scared her, but judging by the sounds coming from Ella, Nicky was way too busy to look at Julia.
“Are you okay?” Alexandra grasped Julia’s arms and guided them behind her back.
“Yeah,” Julia said as she wiggled her fingers and tickled Alexandra’s stomach. Her heart started beating faster when she felt the rope being wrapped around her wrists, and she smiled when Alexandra kissed her bare shoulder.
“You’re so beautiful,” Alexandra whispered as she tied the ropes higher around Julia’s lower arms. “I had a dream about you.”
“When?” Julia moaned softly when Alexandra’s fingers moved to her head, and she glided her fingers through Julia’s hair.
“I think I dream about you every night.” Alexandra pulled Julia’s hair into a ponytail. “I dream about how you would touch me.”
“How would I?”
Alexandra chuckled into Julia’s ear. “Really fucking good.”
“I thought you didn’t like swearing?”
“I don’t, but it was too good of an opportunity to pass up on. Besides, using it in the right moment… It just packs a certain punch.” She tied the rope into Julia’s hair and connected it to the rope around her arms.
“What else do you dream about?”
“Hmm,” Alexandra mused. “How good it would feel to have your fingers inside of me.”
Julia’s clit throbbed, and she hissed. “If you keep this up, I’m gonna beg you to touch me.”
“That’s the idea, dear. Tease and denial, my favorite game. I made you a promise, and I intend to stick to it.”
“You’re mean.”
“I think you like it when I’m mean.” Alexandra turned Julia around and gently pushed her against the wall. “How do you feel?”
“Good,” Julia said. “What did you do to my hair?”
“Tied it up. Does it hurt?”
Julia shook her head and smiled. “It feels weird but kinda nice.” She yelped when Alexandra reached around her and slowly pushed her arms down. “Shit.”
“Pain?”
“No, feels good,” Julia whispered as she lowered her head along with the touch as far as possible.
“You should see Ella,” Alexandra grinned. “You’re getting off easy. Nicky has her in quite the position. Luckily for you, I like looking at you a whole lot more than I like looking at Ella.”
“Are you trying to make me jealous?”
“Not intentionally. Why? Is it working?”
“Yes.”
Alexandra pressed her body against Julia’s as she lightly tugged at the rope that was wrapped into Julia’s hair. “I promise you have all of my attention. I am completely yours, just like for this moment, you are all mine. What else are you feeling?”
“God, Alexandra.”
“Tell me.”
“I—I want more.”
“What does that mean?” Alexandra purred into Julia’s ear. “Be specific.”
“I think I’m wet,” Julia confessed.
“You think?”
“I know I am.”
“I like that.” It was easy to imagine the smirk on Alexandra’s face. “I wish I could cop a feel, like you did earlier today, but I made you a promise, didn’t I?”
Julia pouted. “You did.”
“Such a shame. You look so pretty all tied up. I wish I could touch you.” She traced Julia’s lower lip with her thumb. “I wouldn’t even make you beg for it, Julia. I would just slip my hand inside your panties and let you come. That’s how nice I would be.”
“You’re really mean.”
“You think so? Does that mean you don’t want me to take you out of here, continue this in private?”
“You would do that?”
“Maybe.”
“Fuck,” Julia hissed as she trembled ben
eath Alexandra’s touch. “Please.”
“Hmm?”
“I wanna go.”
Alexandra chuckled. “I can’t. I made you a promise. Besides, I wasn’t done telling you about what I would do. You see, after I would let you come so graciously, I would probably untie you and kiss your fingertips before slipping them down my own panties. Would you like that, Julia?”
“God, please,” Julia moaned. She craved to touch Alexandra, and at this point she couldn’t care less whether it would be because Alexandra demanded it from her or because Alexandra gave her space to explore on her own. “It’s not fair to tease me like that.”
“I know,” Alexandra said. “I’m such a meanie.” She rested her hand on Julia’s shoulder. “One moment.” Her voice went up in volume. “Make sure it’s not too tight, Nicky.”
“I know,” Nicky said. “I’m checking. I promise.”
“Good.” Alexandra, turned her attention back to Julia. “Tell you what,” she said, her voice low and smoky. “If you can work your way out of the ropes, I’ll take you to the bedroom.”
“I’m not Houdini,” Julia hissed.
“I have faith in you. Come on, let’s see what you got.” Julia felt rather than heard her take a step back. “You have five minutes,” Alexandra said, and the smirk in her voice was obvious.
“Holy shit.” Julia groaned as she wiggled her fingers. This was an impossible task, but God, she was going to try. If Alexandra wanted her to be Houdini, she’d show her a magic show like never before. “How am I even supposed to do this?”
Alexandra laughed. “I don’t know. I would start by finding the end of the rope. There’s enough free space for you to move your hands around a little.”
“I can’t see a damn thing.”
“I would be really impressed if you could see through your blindfold,” Alexandra said. A moment later, she stepped forward and placed the end of the rope in Julia’s hand. “See how nice I am?”
Julia struggled for the next couple of minutes, and it was clear Alexandra was enjoying her torment, although she did compliment Julia when she managed to loosen the rope a little.
Unfortunately, it wasn’t nearly enough to free herself. “I give up,” Julia said.
“Poor girl,” Alexandra said. She took hold of the loosened rope and untied it completely, massaging Julia’s arms until full feeling returned. “There’s still a rope in your hair,” Alexandra said. With a light tug on the rope she added. “Maybe I should drag you like this to the bedroom. Unfortunately for you, we can’t leave until Nicky is done.”
Julia felt Alexandra tug harder on the rope.
“Come on,” Alexandra said as she carefully moved over to the padded cage and dragged Julia along by her hair. She sat down on top of it and pulled Julia in between her legs. “I think we’ve been here before,” she said as she wrapped her legs around Julia’s.
“I wasn’t blindfolded.”
“Do you want to see what Nicky is doing to Ella?”
Julia had to admit she was curious, but she also enjoyed the blindfold and not being able to see. It excited her to no end, and she didn’t want it to stop. “No.”
“Oh?” said Alexandra, a touch of surprise in her voice. She slipped a hand underneath Julia’s shirt and stroked the soft skin of her belly. “Do you want me to tell you what she’s doing?”
“No, thank you. I just want to be here with you.”
Alexandra pulled Julia’s head closer and gave her a kiss. “Good girl. I like that.”
Julia focused on the sound of Alexandra’s voice as she softly spoke to her about how she was looking forward to taking Julia to bed later to just sleep with her—and only to sleep. Julia pouted at that. She had hoped Alexandra would continue their play in the bedroom; she was extremely turned on, and the idea that she had to go to sleep with that throb between her legs wasn’t something she was looking forward to.
“Why are you pouting?”
“I don’t think I’ll be able to sleep,” Julia confessed.
“Oh?” Alexandra wrapped the rope around her hand and tugged on it until Julia moaned. “And why is that?”
“I am really turned on.”
“Nicky’s almost done. She’s untying Ella as we speak.”
“Does that mean you’ll play with me?”
Alexandra was quiet for a long time as she contemplated Julia’s question.
“Maybe I’ll let you play with me,” Alexandra whispered. “But I have rules.”
“What kind of rules?”
“You’ll do as I say.”
Julia nodded.
“I make no promises. I told you I needed time, and I may change my mind as soon as we’re in bed.”
“Fair enough.”
Alexandra touched Julia’s shoulder again. “They’re finished,” she said before calling out, “How are you feeling, Ella?”
“Good, Miss Alexandra,” Ella said softly. “Tired.”
“You two should get some rest, cuddle up in bed.”
“Goodnight, Julia,” said Nicky.
“’Night,” Julia said.
Alexandra stood up and removed the blindfold from Julia’s head. “Now that we’re alone, I want you to see me while I say what I need to.”
Blinking fast, Julia tried to adjust to the light. “All right. Sure.”
“I’ve not allowed anyone to touch me in years,” she said. She took Julia’s hand. “I have my reasons, and I am not sure whether I’m ready to share those with you yet. I promise I will get there and I will tell you, but just like you are adjusting, I need you to give me time to do the same.”
Julia nodded at the heartfelt confession.
“I know you want us to make love, and like I said earlier, we will get there, but if I allow you to touch me tonight, it has to be according to my rules. If that makes you uncomfortable, you can be honest with me, and we will wait until I’m ready for it to be the way you want it to be. So, I’m going to remove the rope from your hair while you think about it. Whatever you decide, I won’t get mad, and I won’t be disappointed.”
Alexandra removed the final rope, rolled it up tightly, and put it away in the drawer. Julia remained silent as Alexandra turned off the light and took Julia’s hand, pulling her along to the bedroom. She let go when she closed the bedroom door and leaned against it.
Julia had never seen Alexandra as vulnerable as she was in that moment, and it tugged at her heartstrings.
“What’s it going to be?” said Alexandra.
Julia could see Alexandra’s insecurity, and she hated that Alexandra even felt that way. She wanted her to feel good, the way she made Julia feel good. “I think you should be the one to make the decision,” she said. “I don’t want to pressure you into anything, and I kinda feel like you’re doing this for me, so I don’t want to make the decision.”
“I can honestly say that for the first time since you arrived here, I have no idea what I want.”
“I’m going to brush my teeth and put on my pajamas. I think we should stick to just sleeping tonight.”
“I’m sorry I’m so indecisive. I don’t mean to be.”
“You’re not being indecisive. Besides, even if you were, it would totally be okay. I’m glad you’re being open and honest with me. I need that, and it’s good to see you open up like this. We’ve both had a long day, and I’m not going to pretend like I’m not dying for you to touch me, but honestly… I think at this point, I would rather cuddle up with you and just sleep.”
Alexandra gave her arm a soft squeeze. “Okay, thank you. I’ll go change and get ready.”
Julia shivered as she cuddled up closer to Alexandra. “Why is it so cold?”
“I don’t know, but I’m not complaining. I like it when you cuddle up to me.” She softly scratched Julia’s back over her blue button-up nightshirt.
Julia in return played with the fabric of Alexandra’s shirt. “You know, Ella said if we kept talking, we would be all right.”
“You spoke to Ella?”
“I did, while we did the dishes. It was nice to talk to her. She seems to understand my fears, and she was able to put them to rest.”
“I’m glad.” Alexandra smiled as she closed her eyes. “Don’t wake me up in the middle of the night,” she teased before placing a kiss on the top of Julia’s head. “Unless there’s thunder, and you’re scared.”
“Not even for a lil’ something-something?” Julia joked as she prodded Alexandra’s side.
“Not even for that, silly girl. Now go to sleep, and dream of me.”
“Yes, ma’am.”
“Still not my preferred title.”
“Hey, Alexandra?” Julia asked.
“Mhm?”
“Did you cheat while playing cards?”
Alexandra laughed softly. “You’ll never know,” she mumbled before drifting off to sleep, a soft purring sound that delighted Julia.
Today had been quite the roller coaster ride, a giant leap forward. Julia was quite proud of herself. At the same time, something about today troubled her. She appreciated Alexandra opening up to her, but it worried her that Alexandra had a good reason for not letting anyone touch her, one that Julia maybe wasn’t ready to hear.
She put those thoughts to rest for now as her hand lazily stroked Alexandra’s skin beneath the silk pajamas. Whatever it was, it could wait until they were alone and Alexandra felt safe enough to tell her what was bothering her. For now, Julia would do exactly what she had been ordered to do: dream of Alexandra.
Chapter 16
Alexandra groaned softly when she woke up to an empty bed. She rolled over and rubbed her eyes before looking around the room to see where Julia had gone. Her lips curled up in a small smile when she saw Julia sitting on the chair in front of the window, her legs tucked under her chin. She looked gorgeous, and Alexandra’s heart fluttered when Julia turned her head and gave her a shy smile.
“Hi,” Julia said. Then she looked out the window again.
“What are you doing?”
“Looking at the lightning. I couldn’t sleep because the storm was really loud, and I didn’t want to wake you up again. So I decided to face my fears and just sit by the window and watch.”