Two Worlds and Their Ways

by Ivy Compton-Burnett

  “I understand you. I will see that the thing is forgotten.”

  “My father takes advice without resenting it,” said Oliver. “You can cast your bread upon the waters, and see it return on the same day.”

  “The seed falls upon good ground and brings forth fruit,” said Lesbia, half to herself. “Sixty and an hundredfold.”

  “No wonder Shelley does not apologise for his home,” said Mr. Spode.

  “Do most people do that?” said Lesbia.

  “Everyone but your nephew.”

  “How do you know of our relationship?”

  “He has told me about his home life,” said Mr. Spode, with a note of reproach.

  “I expect the apology for home comes from a sort of pride in it.”

  “No, it comes from a sort of shame. The simplicity of life is inescapable.”

  “The two feelings probably have the same source.”

  “They have opposite sources. Life is as simple as that.”

  “Do you apologise for your home?”

  “I owe it to myself. Apology is called for.”

  “You despise yourself, and yet you find yourself doing it?”

  “I do not despise myself. It is my home that I despise.”

  “I daresay there is not as much reason as you think,” said Sir Roderick.

  “I know the reasons. It is economical and comfortless, and my mother says the things that——”

  “That are not always said,” said Sir Roderick, on an understanding note.

  “That people’s parents say,” said Mr. Spode.

  “Well, those are not such terrible things.”

  “No, they are not. One would not apologise for those.”

  “I hope you can go round the place with my son. It is to be his home for life.”

  “If I may send a telegram to my mother.”

  “Of course, if it will ease her mind.”

  “It will ease mine. The manner of our parting weighs on it.”

  “If you will dictate the telegram, it will go at once.”

  “I would rather write it, as it is a message from the heart.”

  “You will retract every word you said?” said Oliver.

  “I said no words. That is what I retract. But those minutes will never come again.”

  Sir Roderick put writing materials on the desk, and Mr. Spode sat down. As he rose he suddenly exclaimed.

  “Why, there is my earring!”

  “One like it. I knew it was,” said Oliver.

  “So it is a stock pattern. My mother will never believe it.”

  “And she will be right,” said Mr. Firebrace, coming to the desk. “The one that was matched with yours could not have been the same. As you say, this one is yours, or rather it is hers. Take it to her from me as my message from the past. I gave her the other all those years ago, and this one was to have made the pair. But it can take its place.”

  “I think she deserves this one, if she has the other,” said Lesbia. “The separation was a mistake.”

  “She has not the other,” said Mr. Spode. “But she always gets more than she deserves. That is a tribute to her.”

  Aldom entered to take the telegram and spoke to his master as he passed.

  “My mother has come to see you about the farm, Sir Roderick. I have shown her into the library.”

  “Oh, yes, Aldom. I will go to her at once. I am sorry to leave you, Mr. Spode. I was not the object of your visit, but you make us feel you came to see us all. I hope you will be here when I return. We will shake hands, in case I am not so fortunate.”

  “I should hardly have known your father was a parent, Shelley,” said Mr. Spode.

  “No, he has not been a father to me. And you make me feel I should be glad. You take a load of bitterness from my heart. The old, sad burden is rolling away.”

  “I have never had a mother.”

  “And I have not been a son. I have only just realised it.”

  “You have been a good stepson and a kind nephew,” said Lesbia. “We cannot all fulfil ourselves in the deeper relations of life.”

  “Thank you, Aunt Lesbia. I have heard there is good in everyone.”

  “I do not think your father would change you, Oliver.”

  “Only for Sefton. He wishes that Sefton could inherit the place.”

  “A thing that Maria does not wish,” said Juliet. “How Maria is a person by herself! I think we take it too much for granted.”

  “It is the best way to take it,” said Oliver. “Of course I am attached to Maria. I say that, to show I did not mean anything disparaging. Or rather in case I did.”

  “I have never heard you express affection for Maria before,” said Lesbia.

  “Well, it is not my habit to disparage her.”

  Sir Roderick went into the library, and a small, thin woman rose to meet him, and lifted a face that was Aldom’s, apart from the eyes. He suddenly saw, with a rise and fall of his heart, whose eyes Aldom’s were.

  “Elizabeth!” he said.

  The small, even voice, though having no likeness to Aldom’s, recalled Aldom himself.

  “It is a good many years, what some would call a great many. We have had the farm, but you have never known the truth. It was best, and I had given my word. My husband bought it with the money you gave me, though we often said we might have put it to a better use. The boy has had his name, and has never known. And the same may be said of others, as it may of you. But if we move to the village, encounter will be natural. So I have come myself, instead of leaving it to the men, as women do.”

  “You are well, Elizabeth? Things have gone fairly with you? Your life has been a success?”

  “Well, words may be easily used. I lost my husband and those have hardly been the terms. But my son is good, and has kept his place, and it is to his credit not to have wanted a change. I was not aware, when he took it, in whose house it was, and then it seemed no good to speak. It seemed the time was past, and silence was the best safeguard. And you have never known, with my keeping on the farm. Indeed it has not been often that I could get away.”

  “So the boy has been here—your son. He has had his home under my roof.”

  “It is where he has earned his bread. It has often seemed strange, as I have said to myself, but it does not do to pursue things in your heart. It does not take you any further.”

  “I have done my best for him, though I have not known. I trust he has been happy in my house.”

  “Well, the years go by, and we have never made a change. And when a thing has gone on, it seems as if it might as well go on doing so.”

  “Your son is very like you, Elizabeth.”

  “Yes, though there must be the other aspects. But it does not do to dwell on those. Or I always say, what is the good of giving your word? But it might be thought there might be some difference made, as it is a thing by itself, as it is no good to deny. It is not as if you had much to spare, as is well known not to be the case. It is a wonder you can go on here, as we all know.”

  “I will add what I can to the price, and be glad to do so. It can only be a small increase for the reasons you give.”

  “You are what you always were, as we look to find people. The change is in what strikes the eye. Of course, the years must do their part.”

  “There must be changes in us all,” said Sir Roderick, keeping his eyes from the face that seemed so much the simple orginal of Aldom’s, that he hardly believed in his own past. “And we must hope that some of it is gain.”

  “Well, silence can now supervene, Sir Roderick, except for the word when we encounter, that would naturally pass,” said Mrs. Aldom, using the normal address for the first time, and rising with such a complete assumption of her future manner that Sir Roderick saw Aldom’s dramatic talent related to its source. “And I am sure, if the farm proves what you wish, we do not grudge any improvement.”

  Sir Roderick saw her out of the house and returned through the hall. As he did so, three figure
s came towards him, walking abreast on their way to the door. He paused and drew back, his eyes upon them, his sudden thought in his face.

  “Goodbye, my boy, goodbye,” said Mr. Firebrace, grasping the guest’s hand with a feeling that seemed to transcend the occasion. “You will carry my gift to your mother with the word from me. I shall picture her receiving both.”

  He rested his eyes on the closing door, as though it shut off some vista from his sight. Sir Roderick moved towards the library, picked up a scarf of his wife’s that lay on the threshold and beckoned the older man within.

  “I must say a word to you, sir. It cannot be left unsaid. It would be, if I had the choice.”

  “Well, what is it, my boy. You are not afraid. So why talk as if you were?”

  “The three of you walking together,” said Sir Roderick, with the feeling that he was carried forward on a flood of common experience. “That look you all have; that heavy, swinging movement; the ridge beneath the eyes, and the way the lids fall over them; even the shape of the hands. If it suggested anything, it could only be one thing.”

  The pause seemed too inevitable to carry any uneasiness. As he waited, Sir Roderick glanced through the door, saw Oliver and Aldom crossing the hall, and Sefton leaving the hiding-place where he had caught a glimpse of Mr. Spode; and felt the current that bore him rise and swell. Mr. Firebrace’s voice recalled him.

  “Did it suggest it to anyone?”

  “As far as I know, only to me. But it would be wise not to repeat the risk. You should not encourage the visits. The danger is not only for yourself.”

  “You mean it might spread to her and to him. I see there is the chance.”

  “I remember the matter, as I said. It was all those years ago, the right number of years; the young man is of that age. You were in trouble about the woman and needed money for her. It was a thing I understood, as I had the same need. It was to help her with some debts, you said. So it was also to pay your own. I sold the farm to meet the claims on us both. So she has lived as a widow; the son does not know; it is possible that no one knows. Anyhow no one can tell her that he does.”

  “So I can tell you nothing. You have told it all to me. It is a good deal to see and sum up. It shows someone else might do it. You are not such an astute man. I cannot deny it; I will not condone it; I do not know that I regret it. My heart has been stirred today.”

  “Well, let this meeting be the first and last. Let it stand by itself. It will hold the better place.”

  “The first and the last. My hail and farewell,” said Mr. Firebrace to himself, and also to Sir Roderick. “My ‘ave atque vale’. Well, we will leave it so. I have sent my message, sent my token across the years, seen—well, that is enough, I will be content.”

  “We must serve the past and present as we can,” said Sir Roderick, catching the note.

  “There is a truth that I see. The closer tie of blood counts less than the feelings that the years have fed. The one does not threaten the other. The place that is filled, remains.”

  “It is the hidden thing that does not flourish,” said Sir Roderick. “Nothing can grow without the light. We can only tend it as we can, leaving it safe in the dark. And although ‘out of sight’ may not mean ‘out of mind’, this talk must be as if it had not been. We must trust each other.”

  “You speak wisely, my boy. You speak well. You might speak from experience.”

  “We should be able to use our imagination,” said Sir Roderick, suggesting another source of success. “I am sorry for you and also glad. And I might be sorry for many, and sorry without gladness. In future our lips are closed. We are not women, that we cannot seal them.”

  “No, we are both men,” said Mr. Firebrace.

  “Will you leave this scarf in Maria’s room? I picked it up in the hall. I am remaining here to write to the bailiff. I am increasing the price I am giving for Aldom’s farm. His mother seemed to think it fair, as they have put work into it.”

  “And also got their living out of it. The two things fit with each other. But fulfil your obligations. You know what they are.”

  Mr. Firebrace left the room, leaving Sir Roderick uncertain if he also knew, with a suspicion that he had always known. He put it from his mind and sat down to express himself on paper, a thing not among his gifts. It never struck him that he could write the word he spoke.

  Mr. Firebrace carried the scarf upstairs and met Maria on her way to recover it. She took it as if she hardly saw him, and entered the drawing-room, where Juliet was sitting alone.

  “Well, Maria, the guest has gone and the house is itself again. I forget I am a guest myself. I expect that is paying you the truest compliment, a thing that always has a selfish sound. I hope you have had a sleep?”

  “Yes, but it has made me restless. I think a sleep in the day often does that.”

  “Other things that happen in the day may do it. Things quite different from sleep. I am going to talk of some of them. My reason is that a question will always pursue you, if it is not answered. Will you sit down and hear me?”

  “I would rather stand.”

  “I daresay you would. I expect you would choose to pace the room. But your attention will soon be arrested.”

  “I may not listen.”

  “I will take the risk. Just let me begin at the beginning. A young man went into a shop to sell an earring. Now do not be too much arrested, Maria. If you are in my hands you are safe in them. There is no need to describe the young man. Someone else came in while he was there, and said she had an earring like it. There is no need to describe her either.”

  “How do you know it was me?”

  “No one else knows. No one else need ever know.”

  “I went into the shop for something on the day when I visited Sefton. The young man was there with the earring, and the jeweller said the pair would have great value. I meant to tell your father, and suggest that he should send his own.”

  “And then you sent it yourself. Of course second thoughts are best. And the pair of earrings was put in the window for sale. I saw them and was reminded of some of my mother’s, and bought them at the price. You know I have money to spare. The man had the case that originally held them. It was wrapped in one of your large, grey envelopes and directed in your hand. I thought you had sold them for my father, and assumed they must be the actual ones I remembered. I forgot the matter until today, when it was brought to my mind. The truth was clear to me in time to prevent my betraying it.”

  “You told me to go and rest.”

  “You could not meet Mr. Spode. And I could not have him meet you. You had to have some reason for going.”

  “But what of the earring on the floor? Were there three? Was one of them a different one?”

  “That is what we are to think. The one that was sent to the shop. It is what my father thinks, though he clearly has other thoughts. But there were only the original two.”

  “Then how did it get on the floor?”

  “Well, who saw it there?” said Juliet.

  “Oh, you put it there! You brought it back when you went out of the room on some pretext. And you put it between the boards, when you moved those rugs. I thought you were restless; I remember wishing I had as little reason to be. No wonder the earring was polished, when it had so lately come from the shop. And you would not have noticed that one of them was marked. And you did not think of the case. What a clear and complicated tale! So you brought the earrings here.”

  “To wear them. I thought it would please my father. I supposed he had sold them from necessity, and would be glad to see them rescued.”

  “It is true that I am in your hands, Juliet.”

  “I never know why people say that, when someone knows something to their disadvantage. Anything she said, could be denied, and she would get great discredit. I would never risk my fair name just to blot somebody else’s, however nice it would be. And why should I want to blot yours? It would put you in a pathetic position, and I dis
like feeling pity.”

  “Well, anyhow you know what to think of me.”

  “I don’t feel I know much more than before. Might not many people do what you did? To take something that someone did not want, to give someone something that he did—was it so bad? It sounds as if it was almost right?”

  “You cannot think the same of me.”

  “Not the same; I do think differently. But I don’t know that I think any less; I am not quite sure. I rather like your anxiety to serve Roderick to be stronger than your respect for yourself. Self-respect is too common a thing to rouse my feeling; people have so much. You may have acted rather nobly. I do not mean that Shakespeare would have thought so; he took the accepted views; but I am inclined to think so myself. And I don’t mean that all crime is noble. I am not a modern person.”

  “You are making it easy for me, Juliet.”

  “Well, it would be unkind to do anything else.”

  “You would not have done such a thing yourself.”

  “I wonder if I should. I always wonder if I should withstand temptation. I never seem able to meet any. I should like to be put to the test. I am so interested in myself.”

  “I am not,” said Maria, with a sigh. “I have never met a drearier subject. And I reproached those poor children for doing as I had done, when they did it for my sake!”

  “As you did it for Roderick’s. There must be a strain of pure nobility in you.”

  “It is a thing we must hide and be ashamed of.”

  “Well, that does happen to nobility. People are always disconcerted when it is found out. I suppose they feel it makes their ordinary life so inexplicable. Not that that is true in your case.”

  “You are trying to comfort me, Juliet.”

  “Well, my dear, you seem to need comfort.”

  “Suppose something of the kind happened in your family?”

  “Well, people are known to be harsh judges of their own families.”

  “You and Lesbia are upright people,” said Maria. “I never feel so sure about your father. I do not feel I know him, though he has lived in my house longer than I have. You do not mind my saying that?”