Rampant (Condemned Book 2)

by Gemma James

  “A tantrum?”

  “Yes.” I shifted my weight to the other foot and pulled at the restraints, though I knew I’d find no escape from the burn in my shoulders or the ache in my feet.

  My restless movements caught his attention, and he adjusted his jeans. “Shit, seeing you like this…you have no idea what it’s doing to me. I might not remember, but my body does. I want to hoist those legs up and fuck you raw. My cock is insisting you’re mine.”

  “Your cock is right. You should listen to it.”

  He cursed under his breath. “Not tonight.” Pulling a bundle of keys from his pocket, he tried two before the lock on my left wrist unlatched.

  “You don’t want me?”

  “Of course I fucking want you.” He freed my other hand, and my arms dropped to my sides. He bent to gather my clothing before thrusting it all into my arms. “But not like this. Get dressed,” he said, turning his back to me.

  My hands shook as I pulled the shirt over my head. Hurt welled in my throat, making my voice wobble when I spoke. “Then why are you pushing me away?”

  “Are you dressed yet?”

  Tugging on my pants, I shot daggers at his back. “You’ve seen it all, so why the illusion of decency now?”

  He whirled around. “Because I’m not the same person from a month ago.” He grabbed the back of my head and pulled me close. “I don’t even remember that person.”

  I licked my lips. A couple more inches and they’d connect with his. “He’s still inside you.”

  “You want the guy who paddled your ass, is that it?”

  My heartbeat skipped. “You know about that?”

  “Jax told me.”

  A shudder of hot desire tore through me. “Did he tell you how it turns me on?”

  “Holy fuck, Alex.” He let go of me abruptly. “He failed to mention that part.”

  “I’m guessing he failed to mention a lot of things.” I maneuvered around him and headed for the staircase.

  “What are you doing?”

  I lifted a foot onto the bottom step and glanced over my shoulder. “I’m going to bed. Don’t worry about me, I know how to use my fingers.” A thrilling sense of power stormed through me. I wasn’t used to being so bold. Part of me wanted him to reclaim his dominance, to pull me over his knee and spank the attitude from me. But I kind of liked this side of him too—a mixture of the man he used to be with the dark guy hiding just beneath the surface. “If you need help with your hard-on, you know where to find me.”

  I knew I was dreaming again, but like every other time, it seemed vividly real. The gritty floor under my cheek. The rage firing through my veins at not being able to defend myself. Their hands banding around my wrists and ankles, keeping me immobile while their leader shoved his cock up my ass.

  Nothing had ever hurt so much.

  Nothing had ever made me feel so helpless, dirty, or ashamed.

  As usual, I never saw their faces. I squeezed my eyes shut, and it took everything I had not to cry out, to contain the sting behind my lids so my shame didn’t liquefy. All I could do was ball my hands and wait until he finished. But that wasn’t the end. Not even close. They took turns, and at one point, they forced me to my knees and assaulted my mouth too. I bit the first one who shoved his filthy dick in and received a blow to the head for it.

  The nightmare suddenly shifted and my hands fell free. Now I was the one on top, holding someone else down.

  “Rafe, wake up.”

  Dream…it was a dream, so why couldn’t I wake up?

  “Rafe!”

  Her voice finally penetrated, and I opened my eyes to find Alex’s shadowed face inches from mine. She was sprawled beneath me on the couch where I’d gone to sleep alone, though now our bodies were pressed together, chest to chest, thigh to thigh. I restrained her hands above her head with one hand and propped myself up with the other so I wouldn’t crush her.

  “I’m awake,” I said, struggling to catch my breath. “Did I hurt you?”

  “Um…no.”

  Her uncertain tone made me grind my teeth. “Don’t lie to me. If I hurt you, tell me.”

  “You didn’t hurt me.”

  “Then what is it?” Sweat broke out on my temples and slid down my spine.

  “You feel good, okay?” She inhaled then let the breath out in a whoosh. “You were having a bad dream, but when I tried waking you, you grabbed me and…I’m sorry.”

  “Why are you apologizing?”

  “For wanting to jump your bones when you’re still trembling from a nightmare. It’s not okay. I’m not okay.”

  I shifted my weight to the side, pressed her into the back of the couch, and wound an arm underneath her body. “You feel pretty fucking okay right now.” I grabbed her thigh and pulled her leg over mine, and my erection nestled between us. “Does that feel like I mind this?”

  She groaned.

  Or maybe I did. Suddenly, all the logic in the world didn’t matter. I wanted her, she wanted me. The rest of the world could go to hell. Tomorrow, I’d flagellate myself over poor choices and my stubborn memories. I filled my hand with her ass, pulled her even closer, and thrust my cock against the hot center obscured by her panties. Fucking hell. Two thin layers of material was all that separated us. And her damn tank top. Her ridiculously tiny tank top.

  “Rafe.”

  She breathed my name against my neck, and I shuddered. A good kind of shuddering, the kind that made me want to melt into her until we became one. I buried my nose in her hair and inhaled, feeling as if I would never get enough.

  “This is insane,” I said.

  “What is?”

  “Wanting you so fucking much.” It was like she wore a pheromone with my name on it. “We can’t do this, Alex. There are a million and one reasons why this is a bad idea.”

  Her breaths puffed against my skin in rapid succession. “Name one.”

  “The shit you’ve been through.”

  “You’re doing a good job of distracting me.” She nuzzled my jaw, and her fingers fisted in my hair.

  “Fuck,” I said with another tantalizing shudder. “This isn’t the way to deal with it.” But my hand shared Alex’s agenda. It wedged between our bodies and freed my cock from my boxers. “Tell me to stop.”

  “Never.” Her teeth lightly scraped along my scruffy face until she reached just underneath my ear, where her moan vibrated through me.

  “You’re killing me.” I tugged her panties to the side and dipped a finger inside her wetness. “I don’t have any condoms.” Or if I did have some, I didn’t remember where they were. She moved against my hand, moaning, and I added another finger.

  “You fucked me before without them,” she said with a gasp.

  I halted. “This is more than fucking.”

  She arched her spine, a silent plea for me to keep going. “God, Rafe, it’s never just been fucking between us. Not for me.”

  I clutched the back of her head, and we stared at each other, mouths parted, the air warming between us. I hooked my fingers inside her, eyes trained on her face to watch her reaction.

  “Rafe!” Her nails dug into my damp shoulders, and she trembled all over. “I need you inside me.”

  Her desperation slammed me back to Earth. “No, sweetheart, you need to face what’s happened.” Reluctantly, I withdrew my hand from her tempting pussy. “Whatever this is between us, we have time to figure it out.” Letting her go, I rolled off the couch and took a spot on the floor, where I folded my arms around my knees. She propped up on one elbow, curls falling into her eyes, and glared at me. I understood her frustration, but fucking her wasn’t going to fix anything right now. My cock throbbed, pissed with my decision. I was sure Alex and my wayward dick had forged an alliance against me.

  She flopped onto her back with a groan.

  “You know I’m right,” I said. “I can’t remember shit, and your psycho brother is still out there somewhere.”

  “I know,” she said with quiet accept
ance. “But I still remember, Rafe. I’ll never forget what it was like with you. You made me feel things I didn’t think were possible.”

  “Was that before or after I tortured you?” I still didn’t know the details, but I must have done something horrendous for her to threaten me with a broken bottle. The flash of her terrified face would forever haunt me.

  “What do you remember?” she asked, rolling to the edge of the couch.

  “I told you. I don’t remember anything.”

  “I don’t believe you.”

  I dragged a hand through my hair. “Okay. They’re just flashes, but I’m pretty sure I choked you. What else did I do?”

  “It doesn’t matter what you did. I forgave you for it.”

  “How can you let it go like that?”

  She scowled at me. “Have you not figured it out yet?”

  “Why don’t you fill me in?”

  “I’m in love with you.” She bit her lip. “I’ve been in love with you for years. I thought you understood that from my letters.”

  “You don’t love me, Alex. For God’s sake, you were only fifteen.”

  “Don’t tell me how I feel!”

  “It’s fucking common sense. You might want to fuck me, but love? You don’t even know me. Fuck, I don’t even know me anymore.”

  “I know how I feel. I know we had a connection.”

  I shook my head. “We had sex—sex I don’t even remember.” Tears pooled in her eyes, and I wanted to kick myself for being such an insensitive ass. “Alex, I’m sorry.”

  “I hate that you don’t remember us.” She swiped at her eyes with jerky, angry movements. “But what we shared went beyond the physical. You were the only person who gave a shit about me.”

  Unable to stop myself, I slid a palm along her cheek, and my thumb caught a tear. My attention lingered on that salty drop, as if it called to me in some way. My gaze swerved to hers, and I licked my lips, imagining the unmistakable taste of sorrow.

  “I still give a shit about you.” I furrowed my brows, running that statement in my head a few more times. I did care about her, more than I should. More than I had a right to, which was why I’d do everything in my power to protect her, even from myself. I pushed to my feet and thrust a hand out for her to grab. “Go back to bed.”

  She let me pull her up from the couch. “Come with me.”

  “Alex,” I warned.

  “I don’t mean to do anything. I just want you to hold me, like you do on the couch.”

  “I won’t be able to stop at that. Not this time.”

  “Why hold back then?”

  “Because I refuse to hurt you more than I already have.” The dark urges pricked at me, growing with intensity the more I thought of thrusting into her. I didn’t know if I could keep from flirting with disaster when it came to her gorgeous neck that tempted the strength in my hands.

  “You won’t hurt me,” she said, tugging on my hand. “Come to bed.”

  “No.” I disentangled from her grip.

  With a growl of frustration, she stomped off in the direction of the loft, where hopefully she’d stay. I knew I wouldn’t be able to say no again if she pressed her tight, seductive body against mine. Letting out a shuddering sigh, I reclaimed my place on the sofa and checked under the pillow to make sure the gun was still there, but falling back to sleep didn’t come easily. My cock throbbed with the need for release. I’d already jacked off once tonight in the shower, before I’d called it an early night after Alex had stripped and shackled herself in my damn cellar.

  I glanced at the clock on the wall. Just past midnight.

  Fuck.

  This was going to be a long night because jacking off wasn’t going to cut it. I flopped to my side, facing the back of the sofa, and willed my dick to settle the fuck down. Eventually, sleep pulled at me, welcoming me into the embrace of oblivious relief. If not for the unexpected noise, I would have been out for good.

  Footsteps.

  Damn. Alex was going to be my downfall. I’d known it eight years ago but had ignored it. “Go back to bed,” I mumbled.

  Something sharp pricked the back of my neck. I shot up, twisted around, and barely made out a large shadow as I slumped against the couch, hand reaching for the pillow.

  Then everything went black.

  Voices drew me from the black pit I’d fallen into, except I wasn’t on the soft cushions of my couch. My cheek pressed against the hard floor where every footfall vibrated through my jaw with the force of a jackhammer.

  “Hurry up,” someone muttered. Liquid sloshed and chugged, and the formidable odor of gasoline burned my nostrils. “Watch it! Don’t spill any on him.”

  More footsteps thumped, more words drifted in the harsh air. I guessed there were two, possibly three of them surrounding me. I thought of Alex alone upstairs, and panic tore through my veins. I tried to push off the floor, intending to lung for my gun, but my limbs were heavy and useless.

  “I doused every part of the island.” Thud-thud-thud. Each step poked at the throb in my temples. “Is it done?”

  “Yep. She’s across the river. I gave her enough to knock her out cold for a long time.”

  “Good,” a deep voice said. “Finish with the inside. We need to get outta here.”

  “What about him? Thought you wanted him to watch.” A shoe nudged my body. “He ain’t waking up.”

  A sinister laugh chilled my blood. “Sure he is. See his hands? He’s itching to rearrange your face, dude. Hurry the fuck up.”

  Feet shuffled across the floor. “Get over here and help me with him.”

  Two pairs of arms dragged me to my knees. I tried to speak but only managed a groan. Forcing my gritty eyes open, I lifted my head, which felt as heavy as a bowling ball. Shadows surrounded me, and I couldn’t make out their faces, couldn’t tell for sure how many were in my house. Nausea rose, and my head pounded so hard, every word they spoke lanced through my brain like a spear. I dropped my head, chin to chest.

  One of them yanked my neck back and a blow glanced across my cheek. “Time to wake up, buddy. You ain’t gonna want to miss the show.”

  “Alex?” Her name was the only word I could force past my sandpaper tongue.

  “She’s safe, and she’ll stay that way as long as you do what you’re told. Understand?”

  No. I didn’t understand anything, except that I’d been drugged. Another fist connected with my face, and I didn’t have the energy to fight them.

  “I asked you a question. Her life depends on your cooperation. Do you understand?”

  I nodded, though my head drooped more than bobbed. “Yeah.” Little by little, consciousness settled into my bones, though I still felt weighed down, as if ten wet blankets covered me. “What’d you give me?”

  “You don’t ask questions. You shut your mouth and follow orders, got it?”

  When I didn’t answer, two hands banded around my neck, fingers pressing hard on my carotid arteries. Spots danced in my vision, and I lifted my sluggish arms to ward off the assault, but the drugs had rendered my body useless.

  He pulled away before I lost consciousness. “Take him outside.”

  Two men hefted me into a slumped-standing position, and we slowly stumbled to the front door. “Don’t do this.” Another blow to the face shut me up. My chest squeezed as they pushed me down the stairs of the porch. I plummeted to the ground, rolled, and tried to brand my mind with every detail of the place where I’d spent so many summers growing up.

  The fuckers were going to burn it down. My father’s cabin. The island. All I had left of him.

  “Why are you doing this?”

  A boot shot out and struck me in the kidney. I grunted, back arching, and held my breath.

  “Shut the fuck up!” one of them shouted, adding another kick to my side. “Stubborn asshole.”

  I peered up, trying to make out a face, but a baseball cap and sunglasses obscured his features. The other guy stood off to the left, remaining out of si
ght. Neither of their voices seemed familiar, though that didn’t mean shit. Everything around me hit my ears in an odd way. Crickets sounded, normally a melodic chirp, but their call blared in my ears like a screeching alarm.

  Footsteps thundered down the stairs. “Let’s go. Get him to the dock.” His buddies hauled me to my feet and forced me toward the path, and the guy at my back laughed. “Little early for the Fourth of July, but what a show, huh?”

  I clenched my hands, tested my strength. Whatever they’d given me was beginning to wear off, though not enough that I could overpower three men. Maybe more.

  And Alex…

  I swallowed hard. They had her somewhere. If I fought them, they’d hurt her…or worse.

  What if they’ve already hurt her?

  The idea sickened me, made me want to lash out and pound into them. My mind was fully alert now, demanding I do something, but my sluggish body wouldn’t…couldn’t fight. I’d never felt so weak as when I climbed the small hill that led to the dock. Sweat slicked down my bare back, though I trembled from the chill of the late night breeze. I fell to the ground twice on the way down, and their laughter hollowed through me each time, like a demon that taunted.

  Evil. Whoever these men were, they were pure evil.

  When we reached the dock, they pushed me to my knees, facing the island. I couldn’t see the cabin from this vantage point, but the trees surrounding it towered, nothing more than shadows against the backdrop of mountains.

  One of the men lit a torch and passed it off. “You get the honors. Make it quick. We need to get out of here.”

  I blinked, horrified by the sting in my eyes. I’d survived a lot and had never cried, but the thought of watching my father’s island go up in smoke gutted me. “Don’t do this. I can get you money.” I risked looking up and met the dark gaze of someone who struck a cord of recognition in me, though I couldn’t place where I’d seen him before. “What do you want?” I asked.

  “I want you to suffer.”

  I opened my mouth, about to ask him what he wanted with me, when his fist slammed into my nose. I cupped my face and doubled over, crashing into the planks of the dock. Two hands wrenched me up. “Watch it fucking burn.”