After drying off, I put my panties and t-shirt back on while Kade dressed in a fresh pair of boxers and a pair of jeans. Kade offered to give me a pair of his boxers, but they were way too big and would have fallen off anyway. I decided I’d just wear my panties and take another shower when I got home.
Walking into the living room with Kade, I noticed that he kept messing with his nose. Being able to look him over better with the sun streaming through the windows, I noticed he looked tired too. He had dark circles under his eyes as if he hadn’t slept at all last night.
“Are you all right, Kade?”
He stopped and looked over at me with a confused look on his face. “Yeah, why?”
I studied his face for a moment before I spoke again. “You just look really tired, and you keep messing with your nose. You’re not getting sick, are you?”
He laughed and then furrowed his eyebrows as if he were contemplating something. Then he started walking toward the kitchen. I followed.
“Nah, I’m not getting sick. I didn’t get much sleep last night.” He turned and smiled at me. “Some song lyrics came to mind and I had to write them down. I wasn’t able to sleep after that.”
“That must really be a pain in the ass. Does that happen often? The no sleep thing?” I asked.
“No, not all the time, but last night I got inspired.” He winked at me and I shyly smiled.
Was he trying to tell me that he was writing a song about me? Oh my God, I was definitely going to tell Jules about that.
While I’d been standing there thinking about him writing a song about me, he had made his way into the kitchen and picked up a white bag. He walked over and handed it to me. “Here, since I was up early, I went and got you some pastries.”
“Aw, Kade you’re so sweet. Thanks.” I smiled and took the bag from him.
“I made some coffee too. How do you take it? I think that’s one question I never thought to ask you after last week.” He laughed.
“Ha, yeah, I take two sugars and some cream if you have it.”
“Okay, I’ll get it for you. Go sit in the living room. I’ll be there in a minute.”
I turned and headed toward the living room to sit on his massive brown leather sofa. I set the bag down on the coffee table and looked out at the view. At night, it was beautiful because of all the lit buildings, but during the day you could see everything. There were no tall buildings blocking his view like the one Jules and I had at the condo. You could see the entire city. It was really amazing. I could sit there and just stare at the view and daydream all day.
“Here ya go, beautiful.” I turned to see Kade holding a big cup of coffee for me and one for him.
“Thanks,” I said before bringing it up to take a sip. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the wonderful flavor. I was really glad I didn’t have to go without my coffee fix that morning.
Kade set his coffee cup on the coffee table next to the bag of pastries and took a seat next to me on the couch. “So, do you have any plans today? Do you need to be heading home soon?” He turned his body toward mine, put his left arm on the back of the couch behind my head, and was playing with my hair.
I turned my face to look at him with a smile. “No, no plans here. Why? Are you trying to get rid of me?” I questioned as I squinted at him playfully.
He let out a big manly laugh. It was the first time I had heard him really laugh and I liked it. His eyes really smiled when he laughed. “No, no, no, I don’t want you to leave. I was actually going to ask if you wanted to stay and watch the game with me. The Saints are playing the Falcons today.”
He was too cute. During our questioning sessions, he had asked me if I liked football. Any southern girl would tell you that football is a big thing in the south. I loved football. There was nothing better than pizza, wings, and beer on a Saturday or Sunday during football season to make this girl happy.
“Of course, I’ll stay and watch football with you, if you insist.” We both laughed and drank our coffee.
We sat around and talked until noon when the game started. Kade ordered pizza that only I ate, and he already had beer in his fridge. I sat on the couch with my legs tucked to the side of me so I could lean in under his arm. With his arm on the back of the couch, he rested his hand on my shoulder and kept making circular motions with his thumb. It was getting to the point where I couldn’t even pay attention to the game, and his leg was bouncing up and down. It was actually getting quite annoying. Turning my head up to look at him, I noticed that he wasn’t even watching the game. He was looking out the window in some sort of daze.
Resting my hand on his thigh to pull myself up a little, I asked, “Are you okay?”
He blinked a couple times and rubbed his eyes. “Yeah, sorry, I just . . . I’ve got a lot on my mind. Sorry,” he said as he got up from the couch. “I’ll be right back. I need to make a phone call.”
I watched him walk away, wondering what was going on for the second time today. I knew I wasn’t an expert where Kade was concerned, but he was acting strangely. I wondered if I should just go home. I did have tons of laundry to do. UGH!
A few moments later, Kade came walking from the hallway and over toward the couch. He had a smile on his face. He looked more relaxed than he did when he left, but I noticed that he kept sniffing and messing with his nose again.
Sitting on the couch, he leaned over, not saying a word. He grabbed my face and kissed me so vigorously I moaned in appreciation. I loved the way he kissed me with such force and passion. He was definitely an alpha male, and I loved it.
Lifting my arms, I ran my fingers through his hair, and he slowly lowered us to the couch. He broke away and started kissing down my neck as his hand found its way up the t-shirt to grab my nipple. I gasped and bit my lip as my hips started rocking against his jeans. The sexual tension that I didn’t get to release in the shower was back in full force. I needed that friction and I needed it now.
With Kade’s face nuzzling my neck, I lowered my hands to his ass and pulled him closer. I started to rock back and forth, not ashamed that I was acting like an animal in heat. He kissed and bit my neck, which sent waves of desire down my body. I could already tell my panties were soaked.
Leaning back, Kade looked into my eyes. There was something in his eyes that hit me deep inside. Nothing else mattered in the world except for right then and there, with him. He was what I’d been craving for so long, and I didn’t even know it.
Kade captured my mouth in a hard kiss then stood up, taking off his jeans.
“Stand up, Scarlett,” he commanded as he kicked his jeans out of the way.
I looked at him with wide eyes, wondering what he was going to do. I got up from the couch and stood next to him, staring him in the eyes. The look he was giving me was pure, unadulterated lust. The butterflies in my stomach were going crazy.
“Take your clothes off then get on your knees on the edge of the couch and lean forward,” he commanded as he started stroking his length back and forth.
I just stood there and watched him. He was so beautiful. I was mesmerized by the movement of his hands. I licked my lips, wanting to drop to my knees and please him again.
“Now, Scarlett,” he growled at me.
Not wasting another minute, I lifted the t-shirt over my head and hurriedly took off my panties, watching him stroke himself the entire time. Kicking my soaked panties out of the way, I turned and kneeled on the edge of the cushion and braced my hands on the back of the couch.
“Like this?” I asked, turning my head to look behind me.
“Spread your knees further apart.”
I did as he instructed.
“Yeah, baby, just like that,” he said roughly as he moved closer behind me.
“Don’t move those hands unless I tell you, Scarlett.”
Oh shit! I thought. I’d only had sex like this a couple of times, and I’d never liked it. I never understood why people would like being fucked like a dog. But maybe it was just the way th
at Trey did it. From what I’d experienced with Kade so far, he was a sex god.
I didn’t realize how tense I was until Kade leaned over me, his lips brushing the back of my ear. “Relax, Scarlett,” he whispered, sending shivers down my body.
Taking a deep breath, I waited for his next move. My nipples were hard and my lower half clenched and quivered in anticipation.
He ran his hand up my spine to my neck and pushed down so my ass was sticking up higher in the air. “You’re so fucking beautiful, Scarlett.”
He said that I was beautiful, but I couldn’t help but feel self-conscious. My ass was up in the air, all for him to see. I felt so exposed.
He glided his hand down my back over my spread cheeks, down to my dripping sex. “Are you on birth control, Scarlett?” he asked as he started rubbing circles over my clit.
I moaned and started rocking my hips with each movement of his finger. “Yes,” I said breathlessly. I just wished he’d fuck me already. I felt like I was about to explode.
“Good,” he said, pulling his hand away. “I want to feel all of you. You know I’m clean. I trust that you’re clean too.”
“Yes,” I whimpered as he moved closer behind me. With one hand on my hip, he guided his length in between my legs and started rubbing the head of his length against my clit.
“Please, Kade. I need you,” I moaned.
He laughed. “Patience, Scarlett. Good things come to those who wait.” His arrogance was coming out in full force, and I was getting irritated.
“Just fuck me already,” I groaned.
Before I was able to say the last word, he thrust into me. I let out a cry as his grip tightened on my hips and his thighs slapped against my ass.
Oh God, this was deeper than last night.
I couldn’t hold back my cry after every single thrust. I dug my nails into the leather. It felt as if he were hitting my cervix, and it hurt so good.
Slowing his pace, he moved a hand from my hip and reached down to grab a nipple. Pinching and rolling it between his thumb and forefinger sent tingles down my body, making me push back against him. I wanted him to pound into me. Something inside of me just wanted . . . needed to be taken. Sex with Kade was so different than what I experienced with Trey. Kade had a raw sexual power. It was lust-driven sex, and I loved it.
He moved his hand away from my nipple and started rubbing circles on my clit.
“You like being fucked hard, Scarlett, don’t you?” He growled as he pulled all the way out and then plunged all the way back in, making me cry out.
“Yes,” I moaned.
“Tell me you’re mine,” he said gruffly. “Tell me you want me to fuck you.”
All this dirty talk and his rubbing my clit was about to make me explode. I could feel my internal walls start to pulsate. I knew he could feel it too. I wasn’t going to last much longer.
“I’m yours. Now fuck me, Kade.” I groaned.
With a growl, he grabbed my hips and pounded into me with such force that I had to push back on the couch so I wouldn’t fall over. I was crying out so loud that I didn’t even recognize my own voice.
“That’s right. I can feel you getting tighter. Come for me.”
And I did. I convulsed around him, squeezing him so tight that it triggered his own release. He had plunged all the way in and deep-seated himself, gripping my hips so tightly that I knew he’d leave a bruise.
When his grip loosened, I went limp against the back of the couch. That was the most intense orgasm I’d ever had, including last night’s. If this was how it was going to be with Kade, then I voted for sex three times a day every day. That was fantastic.
A giggle bubbled out of me before I could stop it.
“What are you laughing about?” He sounded defensive as he pulled out of me.
I turned my head to look at him. “Sorry, I just . . . That was fantastic—probably the best orgasm I’ve had to date. And I acted like an animal.”
I turned my head to hide my face, which was kind of stupid. There I was on my knees with my ass in the air, but I turned my face when I blushed. I giggled again.
I heard him chuckle behind me. “Thanks for the compliment. I don’t think I’ve ever laughed after sex before. This is a first. Don’t move. I’m going to go get a washcloth to clean you up.”
He came back with a warm washcloth and cleaned me up. I was still baffled by how tender and considerate he was. I’d never heard of a guy cleaning up a woman after sex. To me, it was extremely intimate. He was nothing like I thought he’d be. It was amazing how things could change in the course of a week.
After cleaning me up, he walked out of the room to discard the washcloth, while I got dressed. I decided to forgo the panties, since they were soaked anyway, and went and picked up my dress and bra that had been sitting on the floor since last night. The dress was extremely wrinkly, but I was going straight home anyway.
After getting dressed, I sat back on the couch and waited for Kade to reappear. I tuned back into the TV, which was hosting a different game, and debated whether to head home or not. I had a lot of laundry I needed to catch up on, and I knew Jules wouldn’t do any of it for me, since she usually waited two weeks to do hers too.
Around ten minutes later, Kade came back into the room with boxer briefs on. I ogled him as he made his way over to the couch to pick up his jeans and put them back on. He was such a beautiful man. I could stare at him all day.
“Do you want to get a beer and watch this new game?” he asked as he leaned over and kissed me on the forehead.
Looking up, I smiled at him and was about to reply that I would stay for a little while longer when he brought his hand up and started rubbing at his nose again.
This morning I was trying to give him the benefit of the doubt, but it had been on my mind pretty much all day. I’d seen all the signs, but I couldn’t ignore them anymore. I didn’t know what I was going to do.
“Actually, I think I’m going to head home. I have tons of laundry to do, and that will keep me busy for the rest of the day. I don’t get laundry service like you do,” I said, pushing his shoulder playfully.
He laughed and stood up when I did. With Kade behind me, I walked over to the door and picked up my purse, where I had dropped it the night before. So much had transpired since last night, and I needed to talk to Jules about everything that was going on in my head.
Grabbing me, he pulled me close, bringing his lips down to mine and giving me a slow passionate kiss. It was so sweet and had so much feeling behind it.
“I’ll see you tomorrow, beautiful,” he said softly.
He opened the door for me, and I turned to give him one final kiss and smiled at him before I walked away.
I waited until I was out of the elevator before I called Jules. She picked up on the third ring.
“Hey biotch, you couldn’t wait till you got home to tell me everything, could ya?” Jules said with a laugh.
I let out a lengthy breath. “I’m not calling about that. I’ve got a problem.”
“What’s going on?” Now she was concerned.
Walking through the parking garage, I waited until I got into my car to reply.
“Kade’s using again.”
Chapter 13
After relaying my suspicion to Jules, I told her I’d go into more detail when I got home. I had too much to tell her about the night anyway, and I lived less than ten minutes away. When I walked in the door, I wasn’t surprised when Jules started with the questions.
“So, tell me what the hell’s going on,” she blurted out, her way of greeting me before I could even put down my purse.
I let out a sigh and plopped down on the couch and closed my eyes. This was not something I wanted to deal with. For one, Kade and I were together now, or as he liked to put it, I was now his. Two, I was the one who would get him fired. Three, Matt would blow a gasket because it would cost the company money to replace his character in the movie, all because Kade decided to use cocaine aga
in right in the middle of filming. This sucked.
I opened my eyes and looked over at Jules. “He’s using again.”
“How do you know for sure?”
Was she serious? She was well aware that I knew about these things, especially having had to deal with all the druggies my mother used to bring home.
I sat up on the couch and put my elbows on my knees. “Jules, I know. You know that I lived through something like this growing up. The signs are all there. I must not have noticed them this past week, or he just started using again.”
I stood up and started to pace while Jules sat there and watched me.
“There are also these strange calls he keeps getting. Every time I’ve heard him on the phone, he’s always yelling at someone and telling them he’s not going to do something. I’m not definitely sure if it’s the same people, but something is definitely happening.”
I stopped pacing and stood there with my hands on my hips, looking over at Jules, who was eyeing me. “You need to confront him about it,” she said.
“I can’t, Jules,” I exclaimed. Taking a deep breath, I walked back over to the couch and sat next to her. “Something happened between us this weekend. It just feels so right being with him. And no, it wasn’t just the sex, which was fantastic by the way. I just feel so at peace when I’m with him, like I’ve been waiting for him this whole time. Does that sound stupid to you?”
“No, it doesn’t sound stupid. But this is your job, Letti. I’m all about being rebellious, but if the director finds out he’s using and starts fucking up on set and Matt finds out that you failed to report it, he’ll fire your ass on the spot.” I knew she was right. I should have gone to Matt and talked to him about it, but I couldn’t do it. Something was going on with him, and I wanted to figure it out so I could help him.
“I have an idea of how to find out what’s going on. Just don’t say anything about it, okay? I can’t go to him directly just yet, but I know Max is going to be back in town tomorrow and Kade has that dinner with the cast tomorrow night, so I’m going to go over there to talk to Max and see what I can find out. If Kade has been using since his testing, then Max would know about it.”
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