The Secret Circle: The Initiation and the Captive Part I TV Tie-In Edition

by L. J. Smith

  For the first time she noticed that the red stone Fay wore at her throat had a star in it, like a star sapphire. It winked in the sunlight, and Cassie found she couldn’t take her eyes off it.

  Laughing suddenly, Faye released her.

  “Come on,” she said to the other two girls. The three of them turned and went up the steps.

  The air exploded from Cassie’s lungs as if she were a balloon that had just been pricked. She was shaking inside. That had been . . . That had been absolutely . . .

  Get a grip on yourself!

  She’s only a teenage gang leader, she told herself. At least the mystery of the Club is solved. They’re a gang. You’ve heard of gangs before, even if you never went to a school with one. As long as you leave them alone and don’t cross them from now on, you’ll be okay.

  But the reassurance rang hollow in her mind. Faye’s last words had sounded like a threat. But a threat of what?

  When Cassie got back to the house that afternoon, her mother didn’t seem to be downstairs. Finally, as she wandered from room to room calling, her grandmother appeared on the staircase. The look on her face made Cassie’s stomach lurch.

  “What’s wrong? Where’s Mom?”

  “She’s upstairs, in her room. She hasn’t been feeling very well. Now, there’s no need for you to get worried . . .”

  Cassie hurried up the creaking old steps to the green room. Her mother was lying in a grand four-poster bed. Her eyes were shut, her face pale and lightly perspiring.

  “Mom?”

  The large black eyes opened. Her mother swallowed and smiled painfully. “Just a touch of the flu, I think,” she said, and her voice was weak and distant, a voice to go with the pallor of her face. “I’ll be fine in a day or two, sweetheart. How was school?”

  Cassie’s better nature battled with her desire to spread her own misery around as much as possible. Her mother took a little breath and shut her eyes as if the light hurt her.

  Better nature won. Cassie dug her nails into her palms and spoke evenly. “Oh, fine,” she said.

  “Did you meet anyone interesting?”

  “Oh, you could say that.”

  She didn’t want to worry her grandmother, either. But during dinner, when her grandmother asked why she was so quiet, the words just seemed to come out by themselves.

  “There was this girl at school—her name’s Faye, and she’s awful. A female Attila the Hun. And on my very first day I ended up making her hate me. . . .” She told the whole story. At the end of it, her grandmother looked into the fireplace as if preoccupied.

  “It will get better, Cassie,” she said.

  But what if it doesn’t? Cassie thought. “Oh, I’m sure it will,” she said.

  Then her grandmother did something surprising. She looked around as if somebody might be listening and then leaned forward. “No, I mean that, Cassie. I know. You see, you have—a special advantage. Something very special . . .” Her voice dropped to a whisper.

  Cassie leaned forward in turn. “What?”

  Her grandmother opened her mouth, then her eyes shifted away. There was a pop from the fire, and she got up to poke the wood there.

  “Grandma, what?”

  “You’ll find out.”

  Cassie felt a shock. It was the second time today she’d heard those words. “Grandma—”

  “You’ve got good sense, for one thing,” her grandmother said, a new, brisk tone in her voice. “And two good legs, for another. Here, take this broth up to your mother. She hasn’t eaten anything all day.”

  That night, Cassie couldn’t sleep. Either her dread kept her awake so that she noticed more of the creaking, rattling, old-house sounds than she had before, or there were more of the sounds to notice. She didn’t know which, and it didn’t matter: she kept falling asleep and then jerking back to awareness. Every so often she reached under her pillow to touch the chalcedony piece. If only she could really sleep . . . so she could dream about him. . . .

  She sat bolt upright in bed.

  Then she got up, bare feet pattering on the hardwood floor, and went over to unzip her backpack. She took the things she’d re-collected from the hillside out one by one, pencil by pencil, book by book. At last she looked at the array on the bedspread.

  She was right. She hadn’t noticed it at the time; she’d been too worried about Faye’s threat. But the poem she’d written that morning and then crumpled up in anger was missing.

  Chapter 7

  The first person Cassie saw at school the next morning was Faye. The tall girl was standing with a group in front of a side entrance that Cassie had been taking to be inconspicuous.

  Deborah, the biker, and Suzan, the pneumatic strawberry blond, were in the group. So were the two blond guys who had been roller blading through the halls yesterday. And there were two other guys. One was a short boy with a hesitant, slinking look and a furtive smile. The second was tall, with dark hair and a handsome, cold face. He was wearing a T-shirt with rolled-up sleeves and black jeans like Deborah’s, and he was smoking a cigarette. Nick? thought Cassie, remembering the girls’ conversation yesterday. The reptile?

  Cassie flattened herself against the red brick wall and retreated as quickly and quietly as possible. She went in the main entrance, then hurried to her English class.

  Almost guiltily, she reached down to pat her hip pocket. It was stupid to have brought it, but the little piece of chalcedony did make her feel better. And of course it was ridiculous to believe that it could bring her luck—but then again, she’d gotten to school this morning without running into Faye, hadn’t she?

  She found an empty desk in a back corner of the classroom on the opposite side from where Faye had sat yesterday. She didn’t want Faye near her—or behind her. Here, she was shielded by a whole cluster of people.

  But strangely, soon after she sat down, there was a sort of shuffling around her. She looked up to see a couple of girls moving forward. The guy beside her was moving too.

  For a moment she sat quite still, not even breathing.

  Don’t be paranoid.

  Just because people move doesn’t mean it has anything to do with you. But she couldn’t help notice that there was now a wide expanse of empty desks all around her.

  Faye breezed in, talking to a stiff Jeffrey Lovejoy. Cassie got a glimpse of her and then quickly looked away.

  She couldn’t keep her mind on Mr. Humphries’s lecture. How could she think with so much space around her? It had to be only a coincidence, but it shook her just the same.

  At the end of class, when Cassie stood up, she felt eyes on her. She turned to see Faye looking at her and smiling.

  Slowly, Faye closed one eye in a wink.

  Once out of the room Cassie headed for her locker. As she twirled the combination dial she saw someone standing nearby, and with a jolt recognized the short, slinking boy who’d been with Faye that morning.

  His locker was open, and she could see several ads from what looked like Soloflex brochures taped inside the door. He was grinning at her. His belt buckle was silver with shiny, mirrorlike stones in it, and it was engraved Sean.

  Cassie gave him the unimpressed look she reserved for little boys she baby-sat back home and pulled open her locker.

  And screamed.

  It was more of a choked, strangled cry, actually, because her throat closed up on her. Dangling from the top of her locker by a piece of twine around its neck was a doll. The doll’s head lolled grotesquely to one side—it had been pulled out of the socket. One blue glass eye was open; the other was stuck gruesomely halfway shut.

  It seemed to be winking at her.

  The short boy was gazing at her with a strange, eager expression. As if he were drinking in her horror. As if it intoxicated him.

  “Aren’t you going to report that? Shouldn’t you go to the principal’s office?” he said. His voice was high and excited.

  Cassie just stared at him, her breath coming quickly.

  Then: “Ye
s, I am,” she said. She grabbed the doll and jerked it and the twine came free. Slamming the locker shut, she headed for the stairs.

  The principal’s office was on the second floor. Cassie thought she’d have to wait, but to her surprise the secretary ushered her in as soon as she gave her name.

  “Can I help you?” The principal was tall, with an austere, forbidding face. His office had a fireplace, Cassie noted distractedly, and he stood in front of it with his hands clasped behind his back.

  “Yes,” she said. Her voice was shaking. And now that she’d gotten here, she wasn’t at all sure that this was a good idea. “I’m new at school; my name is Cassie Blake—”

  “I’m aware of who you are.” His voice was clipped and brusque.

  “Well . . .” Cassie faltered. “I just wanted to report . . . Yesterday, I saw this girl having a fight with another girl, and she pushed her. . . .” What was she talking about? She was babbling. “And I saw it, and so she threatened me. She’s in this club—but the point is, she threatened me. And I wasn’t going to do anything about it, but then today I found this in my locker.”

  He took the doll, holding it by the back of the dress with two fingers. He looked at it as if she’d handed him something the dog had dug up in the yard. His lip was curled in a way that reminded Cassie somehow of Portia.

  “Very amusing,” he said. “How apt.”

  Cassie had no idea what that was supposed to mean. Apt meant appropriate, didn’t it? It was appropriate that somebody was hanging dolls in her locker?

  “It was Faye Chamberlain,” she said.

  “Oh, no doubt,” he said. “I’m quite aware of the problems Miss Chamberlain has in interacting with other students. I’ve even had a report about this incident yesterday, about how you tried to push Sally Waltman down the stairs—”

  Cassie stared, then blurted out, “I what? Who told you that?”

  “I believe it was Suzan Whittier.”

  “It isn’t true! I never—”

  “Be that as it may,” the principal interrupted, “I really think you’d better learn to solve these problems among yourselves, don’t you? Instead of relying on—outside help.”

  Cassie just went on staring, speechless.

  “That’s all.” The principal tossed the doll in the wastebasket, where it hit with a resounding plastic clunk.

  Cassie realized she was dismissed. There was nothing to do but turn around and walk out.

  She was late for her next class. As she walked in the door all eyes turned to her, and for an instant she felt a flash of paranoia. But at least no one got up and left when she took a desk.

  She was watching the teacher do an example on the board when her backpack moved.

  It was lying on the floor beside her, and out of the corner of her eye she saw the dark blue nylon hump up. She thought she saw it. When she turned to stare at it, it was still.

  Imagination . . .

  As soon as she faced the board, it happened again.

  Turn and stare. It was still. Look at the board. It humped up. As if something were wriggling inside it.

  It must be waves of hot air, or something wrong with her eyes.

  Very slowly and carefully, Cassie edged her foot over to the backpack. She stared at the blackboard as she lifted her foot and then brought it down suddenly on the “hump.”

  All she felt was the flatness of her French book.

  She hadn’t realized she was holding her breath until it sighed out. Her eyes shut in helpless relief . . .

  And then something beneath her foot writhed. She felt it under her Reebok.

  With a piercing shriek, she leaped to her feet.

  “What is the matter?” the teacher cried. Now everyone really was staring at her.

  “There’s something—something in my backpack. It moved.” Cassie had a hard time not clutching at the teacher’s arm. “No, don’t—don’t reach in there. . . .”

  Shaking her off, the teacher held the backpack open. Then she plunged her hand inside and pulled out a long rubber snake.

  Rubber.

  “Is this supposed to be funny?” the teacher demanded.

  “It’s not mine,” Cassie said stupidly. “I didn’t put it there.”

  She was gazing, mesmerized, at the flopping, bobbing rubber head and the painted black rubber tongue. It looked real, but it wasn’t. It was unalive. Dead meat?

  “It did move,” she whispered. “I felt it move . . . I thought. It must have just been my foot shifting.”

  The class was watching silently. Looking up, Cassie thought she saw a flash of something like pity on the teacher’s face, but the next moment it was gone.

  “All right, everybody. Let’s get back to work,” the teacher said, dropping the snake on her desk and returning to the blackboard. Cassie spent the rest of the period with her eyes locked on those of the rubber snake. It never moved again.

  Cassie looked through the glass at the cafeteria full of laughing, talking students. French class had passed in a blur. And the paranoia, the feeling that people were looking at her and then deliberately turning their backs, kept growing.

  I should go outside, she thought, but of course that was ridiculous. Look where going outside had gotten her yesterday. No, she would do today what she should have done then: walk up and ask somebody if she could sit next to them.

  All right. Do it. It would have been easier if she hadn’t been feeling so giddy. Lack of sleep, she thought.

  She stopped, with her filled tray, beside two girls eating at a square table built for four. They looked nice, and more important, they looked like sophomores. They should be glad to have a junior sit with them.

  “Hi,” she heard her own voice saying, disembodied but polite. “Can I sit here?”

  They looked at each other. Cassie could almost see the frantic telegraphing. Then one spoke up.

  “Sure . . . but we were just leaving. Help yourself.” She picked up her tray and made for the garbage can. The other girl looked dismayed for an instant, gazing down at her own tray. Then she followed.

  Cassie stood as if she’d taken root in the floor.

  Okay, that was too bad—you picked somebody who was just leaving, all right. But that’s no reason to be upset. . . .

  Even though their lunches were only half eaten?

  With a supreme effort, she made herself walk over to another table. A round one this time, seating six. There was one seat empty.

  Don’t ask, she thought. Just sit. She put her tray down at the empty place, shrugged her backpack off her shoulder, and sat. She kept her eyes glued to her tray, concentrating on one piece of pepperoni in her slice of pizza. She didn’t want to seem to be asking permission of anyone.

  All around her, conversation died. Then she heard the scraping of chairs.

  Oh my God I don’t believe this I don’t believe this is happening it’s not true . . .

  But it was. Her worst nightmare. Something so much worse than dead dolls or rubber snakes.

  In a daze of unreality she looked up to see every other occupant of the table rising. They were picking up their lunches; they were leaving. But unlike the two nice sophomore girls, they weren’t heading for the garbage cans. They were just moving to other tables, one here, another there, anywhere they could fit in.

  Away from her. Anywhere so long as it was away from her.

  “Mom . . .?” She looked down at the shut eyes with their thick black lashes, the pale face.

  She didn’t know how she’d made it through the rest of school today, and when she came home, her grandmother said her mom had been doing worse. Not a lot worse, nothing to be worried about, but worse. She needed peace and quiet. She’d taken some sleeping medicine.

  Cassie stared at the dark circles under the shut eyes. Her mother looked sick. And more than that, fragile. Vulnerable. So young.

  “Mom . . .” Her voice was pleading but hollow. Her mother stirred, a twinge of pain crossing her face. Then she was still again.
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  Cassie felt the numbness sink in a little deeper. There was nobody to help her here.

  She turned and left the room.

  In her own bedroom, she put the chalcedony piece in her jewelry box and didn’t touch it again. So much for luck.

  The creaking and rattling of the house kept her up that night, too.

  On Thursday morning, there was a bird in her locker. A stuffed owl. It stared at her with shining round yellow eyes. A custodian happened to be passing by, and she pointed it out to him mutely, her hand shaking. He took it away.

  That afternoon, it was a dead goldfish. She made a funnel of a sheet of paper and scooped it out. She didn’t go near her locker for the rest of the day.

  She didn’t go near the cafeteria, either. And she spent lunch in the farthest corner of the library.

  It was there that she saw the girl again.

  The girl with the shining hair, the girl she’d given up on ever meeting. It was hardly surprising that Cassie hadn’t seen her at school before this moment. These days Cassie slunk around like a shadow, walking through the halls with her eyes on the ground, speaking to no one. She didn’t know why she was at school at all, except that there was nowhere else to go. And if she had seen the girl, she’d probably have run the other way. The thought of being rejected by her as Cassie was rejected by everyone else at school was unbearable.

  But now Cassie looked up from her table at the back of the library and saw a brightness like sunlight.

  That hair. It was just as Cassie remembered, impossibly long, an impossible color. The girl was facing the circulation desk, smiling and talking to the librarian. Cassie could feel the radiance of her presence from across the room.

  She had the wildest urge to leap up and run to the girl. And then . . . what? She didn’t know. But the urge was almost beyond her control. Her throat ached, and tears filled her eyes. She realized she was on her feet. She would run to the girl, and then—and then. . . . Images flooded Cassie’s mind, of her mother hugging her when she was young, cleaning out a skinned knee, kissing it better. Comfort. Rescue. Love.