The Liberation of Gabriel King

by K L Going

  “Who could believe it? In 1976!”

  Frita was real polite, but I could tell she was tired of listening to them.

  “Let’s walk down the old dirt road,” she said once we’d eaten our ice cream. I waited for the familiar twist in my stomach, but this time it didn’t come.

  “Okay,” I said. Me and Frita turned off Main Street and started walking. We walked real slow and I didn’t even listen for eighteen-wheelers or check to see if the cows were loose.

  “Want to go on the rope swing?” I asked after a while, but Frita didn’t have her swimsuit.

  “Want to build a tree fort?” she suggested.

  “Nah. Too hot.”

  “Want to finish our lists?” Frita asked.

  We hadn’t talked about our lists since the fireworks.

  I shrugged. Truth was, I’d been thinking on things. I’d come to a decision a week ago and the only reason I hadn’t said anything was because I was gathering my courage.

  I opened my mouth, but it was all dried up.

  “Frita,” I said at last, “I don’t think it’s working.”

  Frita stopped walking. “What’s not working?”

  “The lists,” I said. I thought about what she’d said that day I squished the centipede. “You were right. I’m not getting any braver. Guess I’m one of the chicken ones.”

  “That’s not true,” Frita said. “I was just mad when I said that. You’ve gotten lots braver. You’ve jumped off the rope swing a bunch of times and you kept Jimmy all summer.”

  “Yeah,” I said, “but those aren’t the ones that counted. I’m still plenty scared of the fifth grade. I’ve thought it over and I’m staying behind, no matter what.”

  Frita’s face fell. “But you said you wouldn’t be scared of mean teachers anymore, and we planned out what you’d do if you got locked in the toilet again…”

  I drew pictures in the sand with my foot.

  “But I’m twice as scared of Duke,” I said at last. “I’ve had two bad dreams where he was burning stuff on the playground and yelling for you to come out. What if he does something real bad?”

  “He won’t,” said Frita. “Duke is a scaredy-cat. Besides, we’re having the rally, remember? You won’t be scared of him after that. We’re gonna stand up to those Evanses—me and you, our mommas and daddys, and Terrance…”

  Frita was on a roll, but she might as well have been talking to herself because it wasn’t going to make any difference. All I could hear was Duke’s voice in my head.

  “No one’s going to clap for Frita Wilson if I can help it.”

  All this time I’d thought he hated Frita because she could pummel him, but now I knew different. Now I knew what real hate was, and it was the scariest thing of all, even if I hadn’t put it on my list.

  I shook my head. “I made up my mind,” I said. “And you got to stay back with me because you pinky-swore it.”

  Frita’s face fell. I suspect she’d forgotten all about that.

  “Gabe,” she said, her lip quivering. “I can’t. Momma and Daddy would never let me, and I don’t even want to. You got to move up with me. You got to!”

  “Nope,” I said. “I won’t. No one can make me.” Then I corrected myself. “No one can make us, I mean.”

  But Frita shook her head. She looked sadder than I’d ever seen her.

  “I won’t stay back,” she said at last. She looked at me real hard. “Guess you’ll have to learn to be brave without me.”

  I could hardly believe it. Now we’d both broken a pinky swear.

  We stood face-to-face on the old dirt road. Then Frita turned in the opposite direction.

  “Guess I better go,” she said. “Momma will probably be calling me in for dinner soon.”

  It was hours yet before dinner, but I shrugged. I couldn’t decide whether I was mad or sad or just plain terrified.

  “Okay,” I said at last.

  Frita got set up to run, but she looked back over her shoulder.

  “Call me when you find your courage,” she told me. “Then we’ll move up together, okay?”

  I didn’t say a word. I knew she wanted me to say “All right,” like I’d change my mind and everything would go back to normal, but I didn’t want to change my mind. I wanted Frita to change hers.

  Frita waited a long time, but I didn’t say anything, so she took off.

  “See ya, Gabriel King,” she said. I watched her run until she was a tiny speck in the distance, and soon as she was gone, I missed her something terrible.

  “See ya,” I hollered at last, loud as I could. My eyes were brimming over and I waved super hard and whistled my extra-loud whistle, but it was too late.

  I knew she couldn’t hear me.

  Chapter 22

  READY FOR THE RALLY

  EVERY DAY AFTER THAT, I STOOD NEXT TO THE TELEPHONE WITH MY hand on the receiver, but I never did call Frita. I thought about all the liberatin’ me and Frita had done over the summer and I wished it had made a difference, but I still didn’t want to go to the fifth grade.

  Maybe Frita would change her mind. Or maybe she’d be better off without me. We’d both broken our pinky swears thanks to Duke, so who knew what else could happen.

  I had a real bad feeling in my stomach and it only got worse as the rally got closer. Pop, Terrance, and Mr. and Mrs. Wilson sat in the living room almost every night, but Frita didn’t come with them. She stayed with her great-aunt Alma even though she and Frita hardly got along.

  I listened to our families planning everything out.

  “We’ve got permission to use the elementary school. We’ll set up in the back where the kids had their Moving-Up Day.”

  “How’s that speech coming, Allen?”

  “Terrance, you take the Peace Warriors out knocking on doors. Make sure folks are coming.”

  It was all business. I sat outside on the front steps, wishing Frita was here. Sometimes Momma would bring out lemonade and we’d sit side by side, real quiet.

  “You and Frita in a fight?” she asked me once, but I just shrugged. Wasn’t exactly a fight. I wasn’t sure what it was.

  Momma kissed me on the head.

  “These things happen,” she told me. “You’ll get past it. Right now Frita’s busy helping her daddy get ready for the rally. She probably just needs a little time on her own. Soon as this settles down, you’ll be best buddies again.”

  But Momma didn’t know everything. Soon as this settled down, it would be time for school and I’d have to make my decision once and for all.

  I thought I might talk to Pop about it, but he was too busy practicing his speech.

  Seemed like all he did now was read it in the mirror and change stuff he’d already written. I’d say, “Want to sit on the steps before the Wilsons get here?” and he’d say, “Not right now, I’ve got to fix this paragraph.” I thought we might watch the news together and get all riled up about politics, but the only politics Pop was interested in were the ones right here in Hollowell.

  I finally settled on talking to the cows. I’d gotten real friendly with the cow who swatted her ear at me. Even though she didn’t say much, she was a decent listener.

  I walked down to the old dirt road one night after dinner and planted myself next to the cotton field. Sun was setting and the sky was pink and it was starting to smell like August.

  “I sure miss Frita,” I told the cow. “There’s no one to make obstacle courses with, or to ride bikes with. Nobody walks into town with me or jumps off the rope swing.” I paused. “Life sure is plain.”

  The wind blew through the cotton, rustling the stalks.

  “Think I should just go to the fifth grade?” I asked.

  The cow’s tail swished back and forth.

  “But what if something happens? What if Duke does something mean?”

  I thought of a hundred horrible things that could happen.

  “What if he’s mad about the rally and takes it out on us? Frita will need to watch
out for herself, don’t you think?”

  I studied the cow’s face real careful to see what she was thinking, but her eyelids just drooped and she chewed on a patch of grass.

  “Fine,” I said, lying back in the cotton, “that’s easy for you to say. You’re a cow. But I’m a chicken. A body can’t just stop being a chicken.”

  I waited for the cow to argue with me. Maybe she’d say, “You can do it, Gabriel King. You just got to have faith.” But that cow didn’t say anything, and after that neither did I.

  Things couldn’t be good when you were talking to a cow.

  * * *

  Sometimes I wonder what might have happened if it hadn’t been for Terrance.

  Well, Terrance and Pop, I mean.

  It was the night before the rally and the Wilsons were over at my trailer again, going over the final details with Momma and Pop. I’d taken to sitting outside with Jimmy while they talked. Partly because it made my stomach feel funny to think about everything that was going to happen, but mostly because I couldn’t stand to see the Wilsons without Frita. Mr. and Mrs. Wilson never said a word, but I knew they were wondering how come Frita had suddenly taken a liking to Great-aunt Alma.

  That night, I was sitting outside in my overalls with my bare feet tickling the grass, trying to catch a cricket for Jimmy’s dinner, when the front door slammed open. Momma and Pop never slammed the door and it was way too early for the Wilsons to be leaving, so I looked up.

  There was Terrance, standing on my front step.

  He sure looked tall, staring down at me. His legs were solid like tree trunks and his afro was all puffed out around his head. He had on a T-shirt that said POWER TO THE PEOPLE and for a minute I felt scared of him, just like I used to. But then he sat down beside me and he was just Terrance again, Frita’s big brother who made pounding fun.

  “What’re you doing, Twerp?” Terrance asked.

  I put the cover back on Jimmy’s tank. “Nothin’.”

  “What’s up with you and Frito?”

  I didn’t expect that question because everyone else was tiptoeing around the subject, but I guess Terrance wasn’t like everyone else.

  I shrugged. “She doesn’t want to see me.”

  Terrance snorted. “Well, that ain’t true,” he said. “She couldn’t get more miserable if she tried. Moping around the house all week. Always hanging around the basement. Driving me crazy.”

  He sounded real annoyed, but only partway. I sat up just a little bit.

  “Really?” I asked, but Terrance just scowled.

  “Listen,” he said, “I’ve got something to tell you. I’ve made up my mind. I’m moving to Atlanta soon as this rally is over.”

  My grin faded. “Atlanta?”

  “Yup,” he said. “I’m going to live with my uncle Rory and get a job in the city.”

  “Doing what?” I asked.

  But this time it was Terrance who shrugged.

  “Who knows,” he said, “but I can’t wait around here my whole life. Sometimes you’ve got to take a chance.” He looked at me real steady, then he reached into his pocket. “I got something for you,” he said. “And it’s important, so you better pay attention.”

  Terrance took out a crumpled piece of paper and pressed it hard into my palm. Then he closed my fingers around it into a fist. He held them closed tight just for a minute.

  “You wouldn’t have been my first choice for Frito’s best friend,” he said, “but you’re okay. You’ve got potential. Just don’t screw it up.”

  Then Terrance let go and stood up.

  “See you at the rally, Twerp.”

  He disappeared back inside the house and I stared at the paper in my fist. Terrance had never given me anything before and I couldn’t imagine what it was. One by one I peeled away my fingers, then I smoothed out the paper. On it was Frita’s handwriting.

  My Fear List

  Frita Wilson

  1. Ku Klux Klan

  2. Mr. Evans

  3. pope swing

  4. kissing

  5. roller skating on the yellow line

  6. brusscls sprouts

  7. the Evans trailer

  8. dying

  9. Terrance leaving home

  10. not having Gabe with me in the fifth grade

  I stared at that paper so long, I thought my eyes might weld themselves to it. I’d never seen Frita’s whole list before. I wondered where Terrance had gotten it, but from the looks of things he’d pulled it out of the trash. I read it over and over again, but mostly I read the last two. Terrance leaving home and not having Gabe with me in the fifth grade.

  Maybe Frita really did need me.

  I was still sitting there staring when the Wilsons left for the night. Terrance didn’t even look at me. He just climbed in the car and started the engine while Mr. and Mrs. Wilson said their good-byes.

  “See you tomorrow, Gabe,” Mrs. Wilson said, ruffling my hair as she walked by.

  “That’s right,” said Mr. Wilson, “tomorrow’s the big day. Frita sure will be excited to see you.”

  They were being extra nice, but I hardly noticed. All I could think about was Frita’s list. I listened to the rumble of their car driving away, but I still didn’t get up. I stayed out there until it got dark. Then I folded the list and put it in my pocket. I stood outside my front door, watching the way the light from inside spilled out onto the steps. I could hear Momma and Pop’s voices carrying softly.

  Part of me wanted to stand there forever, but part of me knew it was time to go in.

  I walked inside and let the front door shut with a snap. Pop was standing in the living room in his fancy clothes.

  “Do you think I should wear this striped tie?” he was asking Momma.

  She gave him that look that said Quit asking me, because Pop had probably asked a million times already and it was the only tie he owned so he pretty much had to wear it no matter what. Pop held the tie up to his shirt and turned from side to side. I missed his work pants and clompy old work boots. I bet he missed them too because he looked real uncomfortable.

  “I don’t know,” he said, itching his collar. “It’s old and it sure doesn’t go with this shirt. I bet the other men will be dressed nice. I heard the mayor’s going to be there and TV crews…”

  I put Jimmy’s tank on the counter and Pop studied his reflection in the glass.

  “What do you think, Jimmy?” he asked, leaning in. “Think Gabe’s pop is going to make a fool out of himself?”

  Momma sighed. She glanced at me and I waited for her to say something encouraging, but she slipped out of the room instead. I thought about how nervous Pop was, and for the first time ever I realized maybe he needed me too.

  “You’ll be great, Pop,” I said. “Just like Jimmy Carter.”

  Pop sighed and set down the tie. “Maybe I should stay home,” he said. “There will be plenty of speeches without mine. Who needs another speech?”

  I’d heard Pop’s speech so many times, I could practically recite it myself, but it was a darn good one. Made me feel braver every time. I tried to think how I’d explain that to Pop, but it turns out I didn’t have to, because Momma slid up behind him. She reached around his waist and handed him a long, thin box with a gold bow on it.

  “I wasn’t going to give it to you until tomorrow,” she said. Then she laughed. Finally, she had to say, “Open it.”

  Pop fumbled with the fancy bow, but Momma leaned her chin on his shoulder and waited real patient while he pulled off the top. I stood on my tiptoes to see inside. It was a brand-new tie with a shiny golden tie clip. Nicer than any tie I’d ever seen. Pop stared at Momma like he couldn’t believe it.

  “We don’t have the money for this,” he said, but Momma’s face was soft, like she knew he was going to say that.

  “I saved up,” she said. “I put aside a little of the grocery money every week. You’re going to look so handsome on that stage.” She kissed Pop on the cheek.

  “It’s rea
l nice,” Pop said, his eyes glistening. He set the tie in the box extra careful, then he swung Momma up like they were dancing. For the first time since the Bicentennial, he laughed.

  “Gabe,” he said, “put on some music.”

  I climbed over the couch and turned on the record player and the music came on real loud, but no one said to turn it down. Instead, Pop dipped Momma low.

  “Who’s afraid of a silly speech?” he said, loud above the music. He twirled her around the living room.

  “Who’s afraid of being a fool?”

  Momma laughed, and her face glowed like a full moon.

  “Who’s afraid of the Ku Klux Klan?” Pop asked, and me and Momma both yelled, “Not us!”

  Then Pop picked me up and we all three twirled around until we fell on the couch. We lay there laughing and listening to the music fill up our trailer.

  “Everything’s going to be all right,” Pop said at last. And finally I knew he was right. Then he said something I won’t ever forget.

  “Ain’t nothing so scary when you’ve got people you love,” Pop said.

  Right then I knew I’d found my courage.

  It was like a lock found its key and sprung open.

  All this time I’d been trying not to be scared, and it turns out all I had to do was be brave. Wasn’t nothing going to keep fifth grade from being scary, but there wasn’t nothing going to keep me from my best friend neither. That’s what being brave was all about.

  Chapter 23

  AIN’T NOTHING SO SCARY…

  THE NEXT MORNING, I GOT UP AND DRESSED FAST AS I’D EVER DONE it. When I got out to the kitchen, Pop was putting on his brand-new tie. Boy, did he look sharp.

  “Mr. Wilson called,” he was saying to Momma. “There’s a rumor floating around that Jimmy Carter himself is coming to the rally. They’re expecting an overflow crowd.” Pop looked at me. “Don’t get your hopes up,” he said, “but he is home in Plains, which isn’t too far from here.”

  I rubbed my eyes. Jimmy Carter? Coming to our rally?

  That seemed near to impossible, but after this summer, who knew what could happen.

  “We got to go right now,” I said, stuffing down my toast and tugging on Pop’s sleeve.