Memory (Scavenger Trilogy Book 3)

by K. J. Parker

  And on top of that, he has the nerve—

  Monach unrolled the letter again. If the worst comes to the worst, get rid of the bloody things, destroy them. Oh, fine. Yes, of course. And how the hell exactly am I supposed to go about destroying a bloody great big bronze tube weighing the best part of a ton, just like that? Eat it?

  (Cordo’s alive. I suppose I knew, because he talked to me, I heard his voice; but it could just have been a dream. But now he’s definitely alive – he’s written me a letter, he’s coming. My friend, who I thought was dead and lost, and so much of me with him. My past. A refugee from the old days, coming back, coming alive. My friend.)

  Coming back how, exactly? Monach frowned, furious with himself for not being able to figure it out. Cordo was with Xipho, they were coming to meet him, here; he was minding the store for them, as a good friend should, holding the fort (very funny, Earwig, you should go round the villages with a cart, you could earn a living); they could rely on him, of course, he’d be loyal to the last drop of blood, because friends matter the way countries and causes and religion never possibly could. It was like the arm you had cut off when you were ten years old suddenly growing back in the night.

  (I suppose if we were to cram the tube full of the volcano dust stuff and stopper up the hole in the end and then set it off, it’d blow itself to bits; or would it just shoot out the stopper? Or we could saw it in two with the big reciprocating saw they built for trimming off the sprue; but that’d take days, according to Spenno. Ditto melting it down. Cordo, you bastard, why me?)

  He went to the door of the office and yelled for Runting, who came scurrying up remarkably quickly, almost as if he’d been lurking about, waiting . . . ‘Well?’ Runting said.

  ‘Listen,’ Monach said. ‘At some point in the next few days, some friends of mine are going to arrive. I don’t know when, and I don’t know how many, and God only knows how they’re figuring on getting past Muno’s patrols, if they’re using the roads. I want you to make sure that the officers of the day are looking out for them, and they’re to be let in and brought straight to me. There’ll be at least one man, and a woman; probably a young kid as well. Do you understand?’

  Runting frowned. ‘Yes,’ he said, ‘all right. Was that all?’

  Monach nodded. He was overreacting quite appallingly, losing his grip. ‘That’s all for now,’ he snapped, in his best imitation regular-army voice.

  ‘Right you are,’ Runting said. ‘Are you going to tell me what was in the letter, then?’

  ‘No.’

  Runting’s face fell, just a very little. ‘Please yourself, then,’ he said; and a moment later, the rain had closed around him like a curtain.

  He woke up out of a dream in which he’d been back in the cart with Copis, rattling along horrible bumpy roads between burned-out cities. A jolt had woken him up, a wheel catching in a deeper-than-usual pothole.

  ‘Mind what you’re doing,’ Copis snapped. ‘You could’ve broken the axle.’

  ‘Sure, whatever.’ Gain didn’t sound particularly concerned, but he’d always been reckless-stupid, not really bothered about the consequences of his actions . . . How did I know that, Poldarn wondered? Or was that just the way Gain had been in the dream? ‘If you’d rather drive, be my guest.’

  ‘Just be careful, that’s all.’ Copis sounded too preoccupied to be properly critical. ‘Oh. You’ve woken up, have you?’

  Poldarn yawned. ‘Apparently,’ he said. ‘Are we nearly there yet?’

  ‘Yes.’

  ‘How nearly?’

  ‘Nearly.’ She was picking at her fingernails. Had she always done that? And if so, had she always done it when they were students together, or had she only always done it when they’d been together in the cart, when she’d been lying (and therefore nothing she did could be relied on to be the truth?)

  ‘I’m hungry,’ Poldarn said.

  ‘Tough,’ Gain replied. ‘So’m I. But there’s nothing to eat. Deal with it.’

  Poldarn scowled at him. ‘Will there be anything to eat where we’re going?’

  ‘Yes,’ Copis told him. But they were riding together in a cart, so he wasn’t sure he could believe her.

  He wasn’t really hungry at all, just bored, so really it was something of a trick question, to see whether she’d tell the truth or lie to him. Unfortunately, he didn’t know what the real answer was, so the experiment was basically a waste of time. Something he had plenty of. He picked at the edge of the box, teasing a splinter out of the grain of the wood.

  ‘Why won’t you tell me who we’re going to see?’ he asked.

  ‘Because,’ Copis replied.

  ‘Leave her alone, for pity’s sake,’ Gain said. ‘If you keep on at her she’ll get really snotty, and we’ve got a long way to go.’

  Ah, Poldarn said to himself, absurdly pleased, so she was lying. He felt as though he’d just achieved a victory, as if he’d contrived to fool a crow into coming in to the decoys. But he was deceiving himself, as usual. Just because she was lying about how far they still had to go – all sorts of reasons why she should lie about that; to shut him up, stop him complaining. All parents tell that sort of lie to their children. Or maybe Gain was the one who wasn’t telling the truth. Wouldn’t be the first time.

  ‘When we get there,’ he said, ‘what have I got to do?’

  ‘You’ll see.’

  No, Poldarn wanted to say, that was a genuine question, not a chess move. ‘You must have something in mind for me,’ he said mildly. ‘You didn’t go to all this trouble just so that we could have a class reunion.’

  She looked at him. ‘Really? Don’t you think it’s just possible that we’d be prepared to put ourselves out a bit to rescue one of our own? You have a very poor opinion of people, Ciartan.’

  Rescue? Where did that concept come from, all of a sudden? ‘No,’ he said. ‘You need me for something. Come on, give me a clue. You’re both so mad keen to tell me all about my past, when I don’t want to know. How about giving me a few clues about my future? I care about my future,’ he added, grinning. ‘Assuming I’ve got one.’

  Copis sighed. ‘I lied to you,’ she said.

  ‘Oh.’ Poldarn looked at her.

  ‘Yes,’ she said. ‘There is a bit of food left; well, biscuits. Thurm corn-dodgers. The traveller’s friend – eat ’em or sharpen knives on ’em. Gain, give him a biscuit. Maybe breaking all his teeth’ll shut him up.’

  Poldarn shook his head. ‘I’m not hungry any more,’ he said.

  ‘You said—’

  ‘I was lying.’

  Shortly after midday they stopped, for no apparent reason. The road had emerged very briefly from the forest, into a wilderness of tree stumps overgrown with bracken, spindly willow saplings and ground elder – typical charcoal burners’ devastation, dating back maybe twenty or twenty-five years. The rain had lapsed into a fine drizzle (Tulice’s idea of a sunny day, Poldarn reckoned), which obscured the sharp edges of the sawn-off stumps. Through the wet haze, Poldarn could see a shape that could be a small house, a collier’s turf cabin.

  ‘We’re here,’ Copis said quietly.

  ‘Oh.’ It wasn’t what Poldarn had been expecting. ‘Are you sure?’

  ‘Of course I’m bloody sure—’ But she sounded almost nervous, too tense to be properly bad-tempered. ‘We’re here,’ she repeated. ‘He’ll be along in a minute.’

  No sound, except the rain pattering on the cart’s canopy. The air smelled fresh, of washed leaves. He remembered the smell from somewhere; not home, obviously, because there weren’t any trees. Had he been here before?

  ‘Where’s he got to?’ Gain muttered. He’d been on edge ever since the cart had stopped. ‘He should’ve been here to meet us.’

  Poldarn smiled. ‘Maybe he’s waiting for the rain to stop.’

  That seemed to annoy Gain; a worthwhile objective in itself. ‘I’m going over to the shack, see if he’s there,’ he said.

  ‘No, stay still.’ That
was more like the old Copis. (How would I know that?) ‘Keep still and try and be patient for once in your life.’

  ‘Yes, but what if anything’s—?’ Gain caught sight of the expression on her face and subsided. ‘Well, he should’ve been here to meet us,’ he muttered. ‘I mean, this is the right place, and—’

  ‘Shut up, Gain,’ Copis said softly. Poldarn looked across at the blurry shape that was probably a shack (unless Gain had been lying), but he couldn’t see any movement in that direction. But Copis was pointing, like a bird-dog.

  ‘Told you he’d be here,’ she said, apparently to herself, and as she spoke a shape pushed through the curtain of fine rain: a big man with broad shoulders, exaggerated by a bulky coat and hood. He wasn’t in any hurry; he wasn’t walking so much as processing, like someone used to having to be dignified in public. Even at that distance, fifty yards or more away, he looked familiar—

  ‘I know him,’ Poldarn whispered. ‘Copis, he’s that man we ran into in Sansory, at that inn, where we got separated. He’s the man who—’

  She didn’t say anything. Poldarn searched his mind, looking for the name, which he’d put in a safe place. It was only when the man walked calmly up to the cart and pulled back his hood that Poldarn remembered it. Cleapho; Chaplain Cleapho. Second most important man in the empire, or something like that—

  ‘Hello, Xipho,’ he said, with a benign smile, ‘Gain.’ The smile didn’t change when he shifted his head very slightly and added, ‘Hello, Ciartan. Thanks for coming.’

  When he’d spoken, Xipho had closed her eyes just for a tiny moment: relief, pure joy at having completed the task and handed over to her superior officer. Then she pulled herself together, tightened back up.

  ‘Hello, Cordo,’ she said.

  Chapter Fourteen

  ‘And now,’ Copis said, ‘everything should be blindingly obvious.’

  Poldarn didn’t even look at her. ‘You’re Chaplain Cleapho,’ he said. ‘I met you—’

  Cleapho smiled, and Poldarn felt a gentle glow of benediction, as if his sins had been forgiven. Presumably just force of habit. ‘That’s right,’ Cleapho said. ‘At the Charity and Diligence at Sansory. You had rather a hard time there. I’m sorry. My fault; back then I didn’t know about you losing your memory. Someone,’ he added, not looking at Copis, not needing to, ‘should’ve warned me in advance, but there was a breakdown in communications. Still, you handled yourself very well, and there was no harm done.’ He paused, then smiled again. ‘It’s good to see you again,’ he said, his voice lowering just the right amount to convey sincere concern. ‘Though I can’t say you’re looking at your best. I heard about – well, what happened, from Gain here. It was a very brave thing to do, we’re all grateful to you. We’ve got to stick together, after all. Particularly now,’ he added, looking at Copis.

  ‘What’s been happening?’ she said quickly. ‘We’re so out of touch—’

  ‘Not so good,’ Cleapho said. ‘He’s getting quite blatant about it, and that fool Tazencius doesn’t seem to give a damn; too upset about his grandson, they reckon, though that doesn’t sound like him to me. Anyhow, the latest news I heard was that they’re coming. Might save us some trouble if they run into Muno along the way, but apart from that, it’s looking a bit grim. Do you think those monks of yours can do any good?’

  Copis shook her head. ‘I wouldn’t rely on them to cook dinner,’ she said bitterly. ‘And that Spenno character’s no better, from what I’ve heard – either crazy or stupid or both.’

  ‘It doesn’t matter,’ Cleapho replied calmly. ‘Remember, we don’t need them ourselves, it’s just important that he doesn’t get hold of them. And the Earwig won’t let us down.’

  ‘Yes, but does he understand—?’

  ‘I’ve written to him, it’s all right.’ Cleapho shrugged the whole topic aside. ‘Well, are you going to make me stand out here in the rain all day, or shall we make a move? I hate this rotten bloody country, it never stops.’

  He scrambled up onto the cart, stepping over Gain and settling himself in the back, fussily, like someone’s mother. ‘Xipho,’ he called out, ‘your bloody canopy’s got a hole in it. There’s water all over the floor.’

  ‘Sorry,’ Copis replied. ‘We’ll get it fixed at Dui Chirra.’ She stopped short, then looked over her shoulder at him. ‘We are going to Dui Chirra, aren’t we?’

  ‘Well, of course we are,’ Cleapho replied. ‘And the sooner we start, the sooner we’ll get there.’

  ‘Just a moment,’ Gain called out. He stood up, nodded to Poldarn to shift along the bench, and then sat down where he’d been sitting, boxing him in. ‘Not that you’re going to jump off and make a run for it, why should you?’ he explained.

  Poldarn looked at him. ‘Why, then?’

  ‘Oh, I like looking about me on long cart rides.’

  It turned out to be a very long cart ride, at least in perceived time: a ford that Xipho had been planning on using proved to be flooded and impassable; the bridge ten miles further down had been washed away; the road they went back up so as to loop round and join up with another road that led to another bridge had turned into a quagmire they didn’t dare set wheel to; then Gain suggested that when all else failed, there was no dishonour in looking at the map; so they fished the map out of the chest under the box, only to find that the rain had got in it and reduced the map to porridge; then Gain said that didn’t matter, he was pretty sure he knew how to get to the second bridge . . . Come nightfall, they were stuck up to the axles in mud, in a high-walled lane so narrow that the wheel hubs had been striking sparks before they eventually ground to a soggy, inglorious halt—

  ‘Fuck,’ Xipho announced, peering at the circle of pale yellow light thrown by her storm lantern. ‘We’re stuck in the mud and jammed solid against the wall. We’re going to have to knock the wall down, pack the rubble under the wheels, and try and back up the way we came as far as the top of the slope.’

  ‘The hell with that,’ Gain snapped. The lane had been his idea, and guilt was making him irascible. ‘I’m positive we can squeeze through, if only we can get a bit of pace—’

  ‘In this swamp? Don’t be ridiculous.’ Xipho was getting shrill. Cleapho, for his part, was mostly staying out of it, limiting his participation to the occasional tongue click and sigh, to remind them both how disappointed he was in them. ‘Wall’s got to come down, it’s the only way.’

  ‘Well, it’s not my fault,’ Gain shouted. ‘Besides, what kind of idiot’d build a walled lane right out in the middle of bloody nowhere?’

  ‘The same sort of idiot who’d drive down a walled lane in the middle of a monsoon,’ Xipho inevitably replied. ‘Right, we’ll need the hammer, the crowbar—’

  ‘What hammer?’

  ‘You didn’t bring a hammer? Fucking hell. We’ll just have to use the axe.’

  ‘What axe?’

  ‘Oh, for—’

  Poldarn lifted his head. It was tones of voice, nothing more, the sheer musical pitch of their shouting and bickering that he recognised; but it was as familiar as if he’d last heard it a week ago. Where, though? He closed his eyes, trying to fit a place to the sound—

  ‘And you’re no fucking help,’ Copis yelled at him. ‘Wake up, for crying out loud. This really isn’t the time to fall asleep.’

  ‘I’m not asleep, I’m thinking,’ he replied.

  ‘Then don’t, it always causes trouble. Just get the crowbar, and—’

  He grinned, hoping she wouldn’t see in the dark. ‘What crowbar?’ he said.

  ‘Fucking hell! Of all the idiots!’

  And then it dropped into place like the wards of a lock: the same words, the same shrill fury; of all the idiots— It had only been a dream, unreliable evidence that he had been justified in disregarding; and he’d put it carefully to one side, where it wouldn’t be in the way. Until now.

  Cordo; Cordo in the library, when they’d broken in to steal the book. Cordo, not dead—

 
‘Shut up a minute, both of you,’ he said, so firmly and quietly that they were shocked into compliance. Then he shifted round in his seat, awkward because one of the canopy hoops was in the way and he had to crane his neck round it. ‘Cordo,’ he said. (Strange to hear himself saying the name out loud; it was as alien as a word endlessly repeated.) ‘Didn’t I kill you, in seventh grade?’

  Absolute silence, except for the inevitable drumming of rain. ‘No,’ Cleapho replied. Pause. ‘You tried,’ he went on, ‘but you cocked it up. Don’t obsess about it, though,’ he added. ‘Nobody’s perfect.’

  The bitterness lay in the casual delivery, a matter-of-fact drawl spread thin over twenty years of anger. Which was, of course, only reasonable.

  ‘I can’t remember very well,’ Poldarn said slowly. ‘But I stabbed you—’

  ‘That’s right,’ Cleapho said. ‘My sleeve caught fire, and so did a whole lot of books. Actually, it wasn’t nearly as bad as it looked, but you panicked, must’ve thought the whole library was about to take off like a hayrick. I’m guessing here, but I think you reckoned the only way any of you would get out was if you could stop Xipho and Gain trying to save me, so you stuck me in the guts with that big pig-sticker knife of yours. And then all three of you pissed off and left me there in the smoke.’

  Grim silence, practically unbearable. Cleapho was making it sound as though he was describing a game of knuckle-bones, or a barn dance. ‘That was so like you in those days, Ciartan, you went to bits at the first sign of trouble. I think it’s because of your upbringing, those people you grew up with. As I understand it, they don’t make decisions like we do, it’s sort of like a nationwide referendum every time one of you can’t make up his mind whether to stop for a pee. In your case, once you came over here, it sort of worked the other way; you made decisions at the speed of lightning, never stopping to think. Like that night. Soon as my sleeve caught alight, you’d already raced ahead, you were thinking burning building, trapped inside, falling rafters, collapsing walls, coughing to death in the smoke: so you stabbed me. Religion, Father Tutor would have called it, the impulse to act followed by the completed action without the intervening moment. Only, if you’d stopped to think for just one tiny fraction of a second, you might have remembered the trapdoor down into the stacks . . .’