Grave doubts qam-1

by John Moss

  “Morgan, I think you’d better take a look at this one, too.” Miranda set another blue binder down on the table and turned it open to the final page. Below the text was a very accomplished sketch of a Huron burial mound, as it was labelled, and a list of necessary artifacts to create an illusion of authenticity. On the bottom of the page there was a brief note: “Needed, one saint — a sinner will do.” Morgan turned over the page. Taped neatly to the obverse side was a newspaper clipping, carefully scissored to eliminate extraneous detail. Cut from the caption and taped as a label beneath the picture were the words, “Detective David Morgan, Homicide.”

  Miranda placed her hand on his shoulder. He showed no external emotion but sat very still. She could feel a slight quivering as he gently leaned into the reassuring pressure of her hand. Sensing a mystery beyond comprehension, Officer Singh made a slight walking gesture with his fingers and slipped out the door. He was perturbed by how personally engaged the city detectives appeared to be with their work.

  CHAPTER NINE

  Owen Sound

  “It’s pronounced ‘Bo-slee,’” Miranda explained over dinner in a Collingwood steak-house. “It’s spelled ‘Beausoleil,’ but it’s pronounced ‘Bo-slee,’ like the nerdy factotum in Charlie’s Angels.”

  “He was Bawz-lee. There was a street where I lived in London called ‘Beechum’ Place, spelled ‘Beauchamp.’ But of course, Londoners declared the spelling aberrant, not the pronunciation.”

  She sat back and sighed. “It’s been quite a day,” she said. “Thank God we’re not driving back tonight. Rufalo said the budget’s good for a couple of rooms and dinner.”

  “No breakfast?”

  “And breakfast.”

  “We could find a motel with breakfast included.”

  “A doughnut and coffee. They call it ‘Continental.’ Anyway, Beausoleil is a crossroads hamlet near Penetang. Alexander Pope has a restoration project there. Artwork of some sort in an old church.”

  “The only thing I know about Penetanguishene is there’s a prison for the criminally insane.”

  “That’s where your new best friend will go, if we ever find her,” said Miranda.

  “Well, if we can get your own new best friend on the case, we’ll find her in no time.”

  “She’s following the case from afar.”

  “Who?”

  “My new best friend.”

  “I meant Officer Singh of Owen Sound Police Services.”

  “I thought you meant Rachel.”

  “You’re very fickle. What about me?”

  “Why don’t we compromise? Officer Singh is our new best friend, together.”

  “He’s a nice kid,” said Morgan. “He’ll make a good cop some day.”

  “Oh, go on. He’s a good cop now. You all right?”

  “Yeah. A little shaken, a little humbled, a lot embarrassed, and very relieved. I wonder why she didn’t do me in when she had the chance.”

  “I think she was pretty confident she could get to you later. And she knew that I knew where you were. Her notes make it clear your little episode in the sauna was just a dry run, so to speak. Maybe that’s why she didn’t climb into your bed — assuming she didn’t. Extended foreplay. Prolonging the game. If you and the lady had been intimate, Morgan, I’m sure you would have been graded.”

  “How did you convince the OPP to let us have the binders? All we’re dealing with at this point is unlawful disposal of human remains.”

  “Until there’s proof the murders happened on the farm, it’s our case. That’s what Rufalo says. Anyway, the binders just happened to be in the back of our car when the Provincials arrived.” She smiled. “I told them about them, of course. I might have implied they were already on the way to Toronto.”

  “And meanwhile, where was I?”

  “You were a bit discombobulated. You went for a walk.”

  “I just went out to the barn. I was looking for her car. It wasn’t in the drive shed. I don’t think I’ve ever actually been in a barn before — not one that hasn’t been converted into an antiques emporium. There’s something comforting about a four-storey haymow with light beams poking through, aslant from the sun — ”

  “Is that a quotation?”

  “I think so, I’m not sure. Anyway, when I came out, the place was swarming with cops.”

  “They’re a committed bunch, the Provincials. They pulled out all the stops. If there’s DNA anywhere, in the freezer, the sauna, wherever, they’ll find it. They’ll find yours, of course.”

  “Oh, for goodness sake!”

  “Are you on file?”

  “Yeah, I imagine.”

  “I’d say you’re an indelible part of the story, sauna or not. You were being set up as her next victim. Maybe you should recuse yourself from the plot.”

  “ Au contraire. It makes me an invaluable asset to the investigation. Fifth business, at least.”

  “Fifth business, yes. You’d have to be dead to be the villain or the hero in this story. That’s how her stories work.”

  “They’re brilliant, actually, narratives frozen in time, like eighteenth-century court tableaux; everything is posed. The absolute stillness excuses all excess — there is no obscenity, nothing is admitted as vile, even death is held in suspension.”

  “Well, it’s better your death is held in suspension, for the time being, at least.”

  They skipped dessert and lingered over coffee. Morgan added double-double and Miranda pretended not to notice.

  “What’s in the third binder?”

  “I don’t know yet. It appears to be set in England.”

  “You think it was a similar crime?”

  “Comparable, not similar. The Hogg’s Hollow case and the project she was developing for you are entirely different — ”

  “But equally depraved. Equally ingenious.”

  “You can’t help yourself, can you? You admire her.”

  “She was intending to kill me.”

  “I’ve had relationships like that.”

  “Something about her — my response to her — reminded me of Lucy.”

  “Oh, Morgan, how sad.”

  Although he had been divorced before he teamed up with Miranda over a decade ago, and despite the fact that he seldom talked about his marriage, he occasionally mentioned his former wife on a first-name basis, as if Lucy and Miranda had once been friends. Miranda had very ambivalent feelings about Lucy. She knew Morgan had been through an abusive relationship and that his former wife was a manipulative bully, and yet Miranda felt empathetic, knowing Morgan could be intellectually overbearing and emotionally elusive.

  “So, what about Alexander Pope?” said Morgan. “He’s your new friend, too.”

  “He’s interesting. Maybe we should drop in and see him tomorrow. Beausoleil isn’t far from here, really.”

  “Would he be working on Saturday?”

  “Oh, for sure. I’d think when he’s on a project he must work through weekends and holidays. He’s a man driven by God knows what.”

  “Possibly. He’s working in a church.”

  “An abandoned Roman Catholic church.”

  “I didn’t think Catholics did that.”

  “It’s been deconsecrated, or whatever they do. It’s decommissioned. Secular territory. It’s just a building, now.”

  “There’s gotta be a story in that.”

  “So, let’s check him out on our way home.”

  “It’s north of here. Home’s south.”

  “Not very far north.”

  “Sounds good. Where do you think Shelagh Hubbard has got to?”

  “The abductor abducted! I don’t have a clue,” said Miranda. “Maybe there was someone else involved in her godawful plots.”

  “I don’t think so. That’s not the impression I got from her notes. A monomaniacal psychopath couldn’t abide sharing credit.”

  “Monomaniacal?”

  “To do the crimes is psychopathic; to plan them, mono-maniacal
. To conceive of their elaborate contexts, to play author with other people’s mortality… there’s only one reality for such a mind.”

  “Her own.”

  “No one else matters, except to flesh out the context of her own existence.”

  “So, whodunit? Who took her away? She didn’t drive off, leaving things the way we found them.”

  “Maybe it’s coincidence. Her disappearance might have nothing to do with the case.”

  “Morgan, what if she’s setting us up again? What if she wanted us to find her notebooks? She is a woman with powerful needs; maybe she couldn’t wait any longer.”

  “Go on.”

  “So everything was arranged. By missing the tenure committee summons, she knew she could count on Birbalsingh to get excited, and she could count on us to get involved. She left the heat on in the house, did everything just so, to fake her abduction. It was a set-up, Morgan.”

  “Could be.”

  “Maybe it was time to move on. She connected with you. Maybe that threw a wrench in the works. Psychopaths aren’t supposed to feel — there’s no room for empathy.”

  “Miranda, we didn’t really connect all that much. It would seem from her notes even less than I thought.”

  “Maybe more than you know. She is a woman of infinite complexity. Maybe you touched something human.”

  “We’ve agreed: interring my bones in the Huron burial mound was only in the planning stage — written up as if she were preparing an application for a scholarly grant.”

  “Let’s say she lost her confidence in the project, whatever the reason. It was time to move on. We were meant to be her witnesses. Megalomaniacs need affirmation even if psychopaths don’t. Who better to witness a criminal achievement than professionals in the business of crime? We’re the equivalent of critics in the audience on opening night. Maybe the third volume is actually the first in a series. From another, earlier version of her life. Maybe she was successful with whatever diabolical tableau it records, but she felt it didn’t get the attention it deserved. Maybe it was never discovered. So she moved on. I’m betting it’s set in England — she studied over there. And not a hint of an English accent, did you notice that?”

  “There is, actually. A bit of an Oxford lisp. I’d guess she grew up in Victoria.”

  “Almost right. Vancouver. Shall we go? I paid the bill when I went to the washroom.”

  “I’m ready.”

  “There’s a good motel on the edge of town,” she said. She leaned back in her chair, stretched sinuously, and declared in a throaty voice, “It’s past my bedtime, darling!”

  Morgan looked around. Diners at the tables on either side of them had overheard in that selective way people have of filtering anything salacious from the general hubbub of public conversation. The man to his right gazed openly at Miranda, assessing her attributes. Morgan shifted in his chair. The man looked away. The woman with him, however, caught Morgan’s eye and almost winked. On the other side, an older couple stared glassily at each other, chewing voraciously, ostentatiously pretending they had not heard Miranda’s proposition.

  “Yes,” he said. “Enough foreplay. Let’s go!”

  Arm in arm they sauntered to the door.

  When they pulled up at the motel, Miranda turned to him and said, “Morgan, can I sleep with you tonight?”

  “Miranda!”

  “In the same room, darling. We’ll get separate receipts.”

  They were inside the room with their coats off before Miranda noticed the bed. “I thought you asked for twins?”

  “I did.”

  “Well, that looks like a double to me.”

  “King size, Miranda. We’ll put pillows down the middle like a bundling board.”

  “At least you won’t get slivers.”

  “Nor you.”

  “Maybe I should get another room,” she offered.

  “No, stay here. I need the company. Why don’t you relax and watch TV? I’m going back to the variety store to pick up some toothpaste and a razor. You want anything?”

  “Toothbrushes. Baby-powder-scented deodorant. Condoms. Pantyhose. Tampons.”

  “I don’t do tampons. Pantyhose, maybe.”

  “Just testing, Morgan. Actually, I’d like some pantyhose if they have any. And some antacid pills. Hurry back.”

  “Do you really want tampons? I don’t mind.”

  “No, Morgan. Hurry back.”

  “Condoms?”

  “Forget it.”

  Miranda showered and washed out her underclothes, wringing them almost dry inside a rolled bath towel. She climbed into bed naked, pulling the covers up to her chin, then folded them modestly down so that her arms were free to hold the third blue binder, which she propped up on the blanket over her breasts and proceeded to read. The text was so horrifically absorbing, when Morgan returned she hardly looked up.

  He set down their bag of supplies and took off his coat. She looked radiant in bed, with the reading light casting a warm aura around her head and bare shoulders. He opened a closet and retrieved from the top shelf two extra pillows and a thick blanket. The blanket he rolled into a cylindrical shape and placed down the middle of the bed. Without speaking he walked around to her side of the bed, and she leaned forward while he tucked another pillow under her head.

  He took the variety-store bag into the bathroom. Before closing the door, he tossed a new T-shirt out across the bed. “Present for you,” he said. “Hope it fits.” She held the T-shirt up in front of her. It was extra-large, white, with a generic Group of Seven windswept-pine-on-rocky-coast design, underneath which were emblazoned in neon colours, “Owen Sound: A Nice Place to Visit.” She chuckled, completing the familiar aphorism in her mind. She assumed the “wouldn’t want to live there” part was beyond the Taiwanese manufacturer’s cultural grasp, and wondered if the merchandiser, probably Toronto-based, was being intentionally subversive.

  She shook the newness out of it and put it on. It was big enough to be a nightgown. “Thanks, Morgan,” she shouted, but he obviously couldn’t hear her over the sound of water beating like a monsoon against the shower curtain.

  After the shower stopped running, he poked his head through the door. “Did you yell?” he asked.

  “I said ‘thank you.’ Thank you for the wearing apparel.”

  “You’re welcome,” he responded, waving his right arm in a discreet salute.

  “Morgan!”

  “Yes!”

  “What’s that on your shoulder?”

  “ Tangata manu.”

  “Who?”

  “He’s the bird-man. He’s everywhere on Rapa Nui. The moai — or giant statues — the bird-man, and komari. Everywhere you turn, there are images — and Maki Maki, he’s the main god. Komari are vulva. There are hundreds and hundreds carved into the lava rock.”

  “You do know how to deflect questions, don’t you! Hundreds of vulva?”

  “Hundreds and hundreds.”

  “Morgan, you have a tattoo.”

  “A little one.”

  “Don’t you feel guilty?”

  “For cultural appropriation?”

  “Bad taste.”

  He snarled fake anger and retreated behind the closed bathroom door.

  She listened to him moving about, mumbling to himself, but when he emerged in his boxer shorts with a towel draped modestly over his shoulders, she didn’t look up. In a quiet voice, she asked, “Can I touch it?”

  “Sure! What?”

  “You know.”

  “What?”

  “Your tattoo.”

  “No.”

  He walked to his side of the bed and carefully lifted the covers to slip the bundling blanket between them as he climbed in. In the ruffling shadows he caught a momentary glimpse of her naked legs and he lay back, deciding not to read. He was almost asleep when she turned off the reading light, slipped out of the bed, and went into the bathroom to brush her teeth. Inside the bag of toiletries were a package of super absor
bency tampons and a packet of grotesque cherry-flavoured condoms. She looked at herself in the wall mirror over the sinks. She was grinning and shaking her head, and seeing herself grinning, she chuckled audibly and blew herself a kiss. Then she turned and, dowsing the light, edged her way through the darkness to the bedside where she slid quietly under the covers and lay on her back, staring thoughtfully into the darkness.

  After a while, she said, “You asleep?”

  “Yes,” he said.

  “Good,” she said, “Sleep well, Morgan. Thanks for letting me stay.”

  “G’night.”

  Miranda had been reading Shelagh Hubbard’s sordid narrative and she knew Morgan might easily have been the next victim, but she felt strangely at peace with the world as she listened to the sounds of her partner sleeping beside her, felt the almost imperceptible surge of the bed in the rhythm of his breathing, and inhaled the fresh scents of their bodies, enfolding them both.

  Suddenly, she opened her eyes and realized it was morning. Morgan was up and dressed, sitting in a chair, reading a blue binder. She had slept beautifully.

  Morgan seemed absorbed.

  “Good morning,” Miranda said.

  “Mmmnnn,” he responded.

  “You’re sitting on my clothes.”

  “They’re on the bed.”

  He glanced up. “She writes like Graham Greene,” he said. “All moral complexity and no resolution. So completely matter-of-fact you forget how squalid and corrupt her vision of life really is.” He was already back into the text before he had finished speaking.

  Miranda gathered her clothes with a sweep of her arm that was impeded by the bulge of the bundling blanket still in place beneath the covers. She rose awkwardly, holding clothes and a pillow in front of her as she backed toward the bathroom. Morgan wasn’t even looking. She wheeled around — scorning his indifference — stepped through the door, and shut it behind her. At the same time, attracted by her pirouette, he glanced up, smiled appreciatively at the flash of her nakedness, and returned to his reading.

  Her panties were dry but she had to apply the hair drier to her bra before putting it on. It felt warm to the touch as she leaned over and adjusted her shape to its contour. I’m too sexy for my bra, she hummed, too sexy for my bra. As she stood upright, drawing each breast into place with a peremptory tug, she caught an image in the mirror of a woman of no particular age. She loved that. That’s how it should be, she thought. And I hope to goodness when I’m seventy, God willing, I’ll sometimes look in the mirror and see a woman like me, of no particular age.