Nine Princes In Amber tcoa-1

by Roger Zelazny

“I wish it had turned out different, Corwin.”

  “You and me both. Thanks for thinking of me when you were ordered not to.”

  “That part was easy.” he said.

  “How long have I been in this place?”

  “Four months and ten days,” he said.

  “So what’s new in Amber?”

  “Eric reigns. That’s all.”

  “Where’s Julian?”

  “Back in the Forest of Arden with his guard.”

  “Why?”

  “Some strange things made it through Shadow recently.”

  “I see. How about Caine?”

  “He’s still in Amber, enjoying himself. Wenching and drinking, mostly.”

  “And Gerard?”

  “He’s admiral of the entire fleet.”

  I sighed with a bit of relief. I was afraid his withdrawal during the naval engagement might have cost him something with Eric.

  “And what of Random?”

  “He’s up the hall aways.”

  “What? He was taken?”

  “Yes. He walked the Pattern in Rebma and showed up here, with a crossbow. He wounded Eric before he was taken.”

  “Really? Why wasn’t he slain?”

  “Well, rumor has it he’s married a noblewoman of Rebma. Eric didn’t want to court an incident with Rebma at this point. Moire has quite a kingdom, and there is talk that Eric is even considering asking her to be his queen. All gossip, of course. But interesting.”

  “Yes,” I said.

  “She liked you, didn’t she?”

  “Somewhat. How did you hear?”

  “I was present when Random was sentenced. I got to speak with him for a moment. The Lady Vialle, who claims to be his wife, has asked to join him in prison. Eric is not yet certain how to reply.”

  I thought upon the blind girl, who I had never met, and I wondered at this.

  “How long ago did all this happen?” I asked.

  “Mm. Thirty-four days,” he replied. “That was when Random showed up. A week later, Vialle made her request.”

  “She must be a strange woman, If she really loves Random,”

  “Those were my sentiments,” he replied. “I can’t think of a more unusual combination.”

  “If you should get to see him again, give him my regards and my regrets.”

  “Yes.”

  “How fare my sisters?”

  “Dierdre and Llewella remain in Rebma. The Lady Florimel has been enjoying Eric’s favors and stands high in the present court. I do not know where Fiona is presently.”

  “Has anything more been heard of Bleys? I am sure that he died.”

  “He must have died,” said Rein, “His body was never recovered, though.”

  “What of Benedict?”

  “As absent as ever.”

  “How about Brand?”

  “No word.”

  “Then I guess that covers the whole family tree, as it stands at present. Have you written any new ballads?”

  “No,” he said. “I’m still working on ‘The Siege of Amber,’ but it will be an underground hit, if at all.”

  I reached my hand out through the tiny gate at the bottom of the door.

  “I would clasp hands with thee,” I said, and I felt his hand touch mine.

  “It was good of thee to do this thing for me. Don’t do it again, though. It would he foolish to risk Eric’s wrath.”

  He squeezed my hand, muttered something, and was gone.

  I found his CARE package and stuffed myself with the meat, which was the most perishable item. I ate a lot of the bread to accompany it, and I realized that I had almost forgotten how good food can taste. Then I grew drowsy and slept. I don’t think I slept very long, and when I awoke I opened one of the bottles of wine.

  It didn’t take as much as usual, in my weakened condition, to get me kind of high. I had a cigarette, sat down on my mattress, leaned back against the wall, and mused.

  I remembered Rein as a child. I was already full grown by then and he was a candidate for court jester. A thin, wise kid. People had kidded him too much. Me included. But I wrote music, composed ballads, and he’d picked up a lute somewhere and had taught himself how to use it. Soon we were singing with voices together raised and all like that, and before long I took a liking to him and we worked together, practicing the martial arts. He was lousy at them. But I felt kind of sorry for the way I had treated him earlier, what with the way he had dug my stuff, so I forced the fake graces upon him and also made him a passable saber man. I’d never regretted it, and I guess he didn’t either. Before long, he became minstrel to the court of Amber. I had called him my page all that while, and when the wars beckoned, against the dark things out of Shadow called Weirmonken, I made him my squire, and we had ridden off to the wars together. I knighted him upon the battlefield, at Jones Falls, and he had deserved it. After that, he had gone on to become my better when it came to the ways of words and music. His colors were crimson and his words were golden. I loved him, as one of my two or three friends in Amber. I didn’t think he’d take the risk he had to bring me a decent meal, though. I didn’t think anyone would. I had another drink and smoked another cigarette, in his name, to celebrate him. He was a good man. I wondered how long he would survive.

  I threw all the butts into the head and also — eventually — the empty bottle. I didn’t want anything around to show that I had been “enjoying” myself, should a sudden inspection be held. I ate all the good food he had brought me, and I felt surfeited for the first time since I had been in durance. I saved the last bottle for one massive spell of drunkenness and forgetfulness.

  And after that time had passed, I returned to my cycle of recriminations.

  I hoped, mainly, that Eric had no measure of our complete powers. He was king in Amber, granted, but he didn’t know everything. Not yet. Not the way Dad had known. There was a million-in-one shot that might still work in my favor. So much so, and so different that at least it served to grant me my small purchase upon sanity, there in the grip of despair.

  But maybe I did go mad for a time, I don’t know. There are days that are great blanks to me now, as I stand here on the brink of Chaos. God knows what they held, and I’ll never see a shrink to find out.

  There are none of you, good doctors, could cope with my family, anyway.

  I lay there and I paced there, within the numbing darkness. I grew quite sensitive to sounds. I listened to the scurry of rats’ feet through straw, the distant moaning of other prisoners, the echoes of a guard’s footsteps as he approached with a tray of food. I began estimating distances and direction from things like this.

  I suppose I became more sensitive to odors also, but I tried not to think about them too much. Aside from the imaginable nauseating ones there was, for a long while, what I would swear to be the odor of decaying flesh. I wondered, if I were to die, how long would it be before someone took notice? How many chunks of bread and bowls of slop would go uneaten before the guard thought to check within after my continued existence?

  The answer to that one could be very important.

  The death odor was around for a long while. I tried to think in terms of time again, and it seemed that it persisted for over a week.

  Though I rationed myself carefully, resisting the compulsion, the handy temptation, for as long as I could, I finally found myself down to my final pack of cigarettes.

  I tore it open and lit one. I had had a carton of Salems and I had smoked eleven packs. That was two hundred and twenty cigarettes. I had once timed myself with one, and it had taken me seven minutes to smoke it. That made for a total of one thousand five hundred and forty minutes spent smoking, or twenty-five hours and forty minutes. I was sure I had spent at least an hour between cigarettes, more like an hour and a half. Say an hour and a half. Now figure that I was sleeping six to eight hours per day. That left sixteen to eighteen waking hours. I guessed I was smoking ten or twelve per day. So that meant maybe three weeks had passed si
nce Rein’s visit. He had told me it was four months and ten days since the coronation, which meant that it was now around five months.

  I nursed my last pack, enjoying each one like a love affair. When they were all gone, I felt depressed.

  Then a lot more time must have passed.

  I got to wondering about Eric. How was he making out as liege? What problems was he encountering? What was he up to right now? Why hadn’t he been around to torment me? Could I ever truly be forgotten in Amber, even by imperial decree? Never, I decided.

  And what of my brothers? Why had none of them contacted me? It would be so easy to draw forth my Trump and break Eric’s decree. None did, though.

  I thought for a long while upon Moire, the last woman I had loved. What was she doing? Did she think of me ever? Probably not. Maybe she was Eric’s mistress by now, or his queen. Did she ever speak to him of me? Again, probably not.

  And what of my sisters? Forget it. Bitches all, they.

  I had been blinded once before, by a cannon flashback in the eighteenth century on the Shadow Earth. But it had only lasted for around a month and my sight had returned. Eric had had a permanent thing in mind, however, when he had given his order. I still perspired and shuddered, and sometimes woke up screaming, whenever memory of the white-hot irons returned to me — hung there before my eyes — and then the contact!

  I moaned softly and continued to pace.

  There was absolutely nothing I could do. That was the most horrible part of the whole thing. I was as helpless as an embryo. To be born again into sight and fury was a thing for which I would give my soul. Even for an hour, with a blade in my hand, to duel once again with my brother.

  I lay back on my mat and slept. When I awakened, there was food, and I ate once again and paced. My fingernails and my toenails had grown long. My beard was very long and my hair fell across my eyes, constantly. I felt filthy, and I itched all the time. I wondered whether I had fleas.

  That a prince of Amber could be brought to this state drew a terrible emotion from the center of my being, wherever that may be. I had been reared to think of us as invincible entities, clean and cool and diamond-hard, like our pictures on the Trumps. Obviously, we were not.

  At least, we were enough like other men to have our resources.

  I played mental games, I told myself stories, I reviewed pleasant memories — there were many of these. I recalled the elements: wind, rain, snow, the summer’s warmth, and the spring’s cool breezes. I had had a small airplane on the Shadow Earth, and when I flew it I had enjoyed the sensation. I recalled the glistening panoramas of color and distance, the miniaturization of cities, the broad blue sweep of sky, the herds of clouds (where were they now?) and the clean expanse of the ocean beneath my wings. I remembered women I had loved, parties, military engagements. And when all was done, and I could help it no longer, I thought of Amber.

  One time, when I did so, my tear glands began to function again. I wept.

  After an interminable time, a time filled with blackness and many sleeps, I heard footsteps which paused before the door to my cell, and I heard the sound of a key within the lock.

  It was a time so long after Rein’s visit that I had forgotten the taste of the wine and the cigarettes. I could not really estimate its span, but it had been long.

  There were two men in the corridor. I could tell this from their footsteps even before I heard the sounds of their voices.

  One of the voices I recognized.

  The door swung open and Julian said my name.

  I didn’t answer right away, and he repeated it.

  “Corwin? Come here.”

  Since I didn’t have much choice in the matter, I drew myself erect and advanced. I stopped when I knew I was near him.

  “What do you want?” I asked.

  “Come with me.” And he took my arm.

  We walked along the corridor, and he said nothing and I’d be damned if I’d ask him any questions.

  From the echoes, I could tell when we entered the big hall. Soon after, he guided me up the stair.

  Up, and into the palace proper we went.

  I was taken to a room and seated in a chair. A barber set to work cutting my hair and my beard. I didn’t recognize his voice when he asked me if I wanted the beard trimmed or removed.

  “Cut it off,” I said, and a manicurist set to work on my nails, all twenty of them.

  Then I was bathed, and someone helped me to dress in clean garments. They hung loose on me. I was loused also, but forget that.

  Then I was led into another black place filled with music and the odors of good food and the sounds of many voices and some laughter. I recognized it to be the dining room.

  The voices subsided a bit as Julian led me in and seated me.

  I sat there until the trumpet notes, to which I was forced to rise.

  I heard the toast called out:

  “To Eric the First, King of Amber! Long live the king!”

  I didn’t drink to that, but no one seemed to notice. It was Caine’s voice that had called out the toast, from far up along the table.

  I ate as much as I could, because it was the best meal I had been offered since the coronation. I gathered from conversation overheard that today was the anniversary of Eric’s coronation, which meant I had spent an entire year in the dungeons.

  No one spoke to me, and I didn’t make any overtures. I was present as a ghost only. To humiliate me, and to serve as a reminder to my brothers, no doubt, as to the price of defying our liege. And everyone had been ordered to forget me.

  It went on well into the night. Someone kept me well provided with wine, which was something, and I sat there and listened to the music of all the dances.

  The tables had been removed by this time, and I was seated off somewhere in a corner.

  I got stinking drunk and was half dragged, half carried back to my cell in the morning, when the whole thing was over save for the cleaning up. My only regret was that I hadn’t gotten sick enough to dirty the floor or someone’s pretty garments.

  Thus ended the first year of darkness.

  Chapter 9

  I shall not bore you with repetition. My second year was pretty much like my first, with the same finale. Ditto for the third. Rein came twice that second year, with a basket of goodies and a mouthful of gossip. Both times I forbade him ever to come again. The third year he came down six times, every other month, and each time I forbade him anew and ate his food and heard what he had to say.

  Something was wrong in Amber. Strange things walked through Shadow and presented themselves, with violence, to all and sundry. They were destroyed, of course. Eric was still trying to figure out how they had occurred. I did not mention my curse, though I later rejoiced in the fact that it had come to pass.

  Random, like myself, was still a prisoner. His wife had joined him. The positions of my other brothers and sisters remained unchanged. This bolstered me through the third anniversary of the coronation, and it made me feel almost alive again.

  It.

  It! One day it was there, and it made me feel so good that I immediately broke out the final bottle of wine Rein had brought me and opened the last pack of cigarettes, which I had been saving.

  I smoked them and sipped and enjoyed the feeling that I had somehow beaten Eric. If he found this out, I felt it might be fatal. But I knew he didn’t know.

  So I rejoiced, smoking, drinking and reveling in the light of that which had occurred.

  Yes, the light.

  I’d discovered a tiny patch of brightness, off somewhere to my right.

  Well, let’s take it like this: I had awakened in a hospital bed and learned that I had recovered all too soon. Dig?

  I heal faster than others who have been broken. All the lords and ladies of Amber have something of this capacity.

  I’d lived through the Plague, I’d lived through the march on Moscow.

  I regenerate faster and better than anybody I’ve ever known.

>   Napoleon had once made a remark about it. So had General MacArthur.

  With nerve tissue it takes me a bit longer, that’s all.

  My sight was returning to me, that’s what it meant — that lovely patch of brightness, off somewhere to my right.

  After a time, I knew that it was the little barren area in the door to my cell.

  I had grown new eyes, my fingers told me. It had taken me over three years, but I had done it. It was the million-to-one thing I spoke of earlier, the thing which even Eric could not properly assess, because of the variances of powers among the individual members of the family. I had beaten him to this extent: I had learned that I could grow new eyeballs. I had always known that I could regenerate nerve tissues, given sufficient time. I had been left paraplegic from a spine injury received during the Franco–Prussian wars. After two years, it had gone away. I had had my hope — a wild one, I’ll admit — that I could do what I had done then, with my burned-out orbs. And I had been right. They felt intact, and the sight was returning, slowly.

  How long till the next anniversary of Eric’s coronation? I stopped pacing and my heart beat faster. As soon as someone saw that I’d recovered my eyes, I’d lose them again.

  Therefore, I’d have to escape before the four years had passed.

  How?

  I hadn’t thought about it much up to this time, because even if I could figure a way to get out of my cell, I’d never make it out of Amber — or out of the palace, for that matter — without eyes or aid, and neither were available to me.

  Now, though…

  The door of my cell was a big, heavy, brass-bound thing, with only a tiny grille at a height of about five feet for purposes of looking in to see whether I was still alive, if anyone cared. Even if I succeeded in removing it, I could tell that I couldn’t reach out far enough to touch the lock. There was a little swinging gate at the bottom of the door, large enough to push my food through and that’s about all. The hinges were either on the outside or in between the door and the jamb, I couldn’t tell for sure. Either way, I couldn’t get at them. There were no windows and no other doors.

  It was still almost like being blind, save for that feeble reassuring light through the grille. I knew my sight hadn’t returned fully. That was still a long way off. But even if it had, it was nearly pitch dark in there. I knew this because I knew the dungeons under Amber.