by Wood, C
“Can we have the salmon, the chef’s salad the dill dressing and the new potatoes, please?” He took the menus from us and he smiled, holding my hand.
“You do still like salmon and your salads, don’t you? I always remember you attacking it when we went to the staff parties at the Harbour House, all the other kids went for the sausage rolls and the cocktail sausages and you would take a whole load of the salmon and make me eat it too.” He remembered.
“I do yes; I really love it and I can eat it all the time, in fact I do, fancy you remembering that.”
“I remember lots of things. The way you sleep, you tuck your hand under the pillow and cuddle it whilst you hold the corner between you thumb and finger you play with it until you sleep. You liked vanilla coke floats, jelly beans and you like banana and jam sandwiches, you smile when your feet first touch the cold grass in the morning, and you love shuffling along the grass like your skating leaving two lines, then when you think no one is watching you write your name in it.” He did remember a lot about the small details in my life.
“I remember when I wanted to learn how to kiss, you wouldn’t let me practice with you, you just wanted to keep building stupid dens, and climbing trees. I remember a kiss that wasn’t a kiss, it was a dare, and after that, you didn’t want to come near me again. I thought that kiss had turned you away from girls! Such a pity Tom, because had you kissed me again, I don’t think I would have looked at Jack.” Tom laughed as his thumb caressed my hand.
“Do you really want to know why I ran away from you after that?” I nodded. He went red and smiled.
“You made me actually come in my pants for the first time. That kiss was the best thing you and me had ever done and wham, my poor little fella came. I hadn’t a clue what it was, and how you had done it.
I know I liked kissing you, and felt funny as my tongue touched yours, and as I touched your boob’s, I groaned into your mouth, had a head rush and a pain down there, and all that stuff came out. I had to ask Jack and Ben what had happened to me, they said you had to touch my little fella, for that to happen. You hadn’t, it was just a fantastic kiss. I was embarrassed because every time I saw you after that I got excited, and the little fella raised his head and did it again and again, every time I saw you, do you know how embarrassing it was having a constant hard-on?” I laughed.
“Glad you got over it.” He smirked.
“Who said I did? I had to run this morning, I held back as long as I could.” Our dinner came and as we ate we chatted, I got round to the reason the family had fallen out.
“I was told you had a drug problem by a couple of girls we went to school with.” He smiled.
“Oh, you don’t say, I am a smack head and a hermit, I have fallen out with the brothers Thompson, and I am mysterious and strange?” I laughed.
“Pretty much, word perfect in fact have you been listening into our conversation?”
“No, I suffer from Migraines really bad ones have done, well since I was away at university. I have to inject myself to block the pain from traveling to my brain. Yes, when I have a bad attack they wipe me out as if I’m on hard drugs. When I came back and lived back at home. Jack came in as I was ‘shooting up.’ He told everyone I was a junkie, and Ben believed him too, I was past caring what the brothers dumb thought, and I let them believe what they wanted, they never once, the pair of them asked me what I was taking.
I had to inject, myself with a drug prescribed by the doctor. It works by narrowing blood vessels in the brain, and by stopping pain signals, going to my brain. It stops my brain from thinking I am having a migraine, they were sickening and painful, and I still have them occasionally, and inject only if, my normal pills don’t work. If, we take things further you will need to learn how to inject me, if I can’t do it myself. Would that be a problem?” I held his hand tightly.
“God no, hate needles, but to help you of course I would. Is that why you lock yourself away and why you are sometimes strange with people?”
“Correct and why I can’t drink a great deal and why I love the fresh air and why I keep myself to myself.”
“I need to ask you something, I know this will be really embarrassing but it’s about you only loving me, can I ask have you been with anyone else?” He roared laughing.
“I had a few girls in collage, and a couple in universities, but no one I wanted to settle down with I have only ever loved you.”
“Oh, I thought…”
“You thought I was a forty two year old virgin? I think I have disappointed you now?” I laughed loudly.
“I would be frightened if you were, and I messed it up for you, am definitely messed up in that department, you will have to be patient with me.”
“On that note I think we should have coffee back at mine, I have plans to show you.” He signalled for the bill and as he helped me up from the chair.
“I think coffee at yours is just what the lady ordered, what do you have in the way of desert?”
“Oh, I think I have something we both will enjoy.” I was a bundle of nerves, my very core was shaking, I stared at his face as he drove, and as I watched, he smiled.
“Something you like the look of? You seem to be starring. I can drop you off at home if you want Carrie?”
“No, I think I need desert. In fact, I definitely need desert. I need a lot of desert.” I blushed, I was shivering as he spoke and the cold breeze that chilled me, was like ten times the feeling I had felt for Jack, god, how can I have got it so wrong?
“You better believe you can have as much desert as you want Carrie, not had dessert, in a few years.”
“I, if I was a gambling woman, would have money on it Thomas Thompson. In fact how far are we from your house?” He laughed, as he pulled up.
“We are roughly thirty steps to my bedroom, ten to the front room…”He opened my door and as we walked to the door I looked at him as he opened the door, the times I had been in here, with him and with Jack, as he shoved the door open he picked me up in his arms.
“Do you want to change your mind? I can if you want take you to your hotel?” I kissed him to stop him speaking. He shut the door with his foot and as he carried me to his room. I continued the onslaught of his lips; his tongue fighting with mine for dominance, and as he opened the door to his room, I half expected the three lads beds lined against the wall.
He placed me in the biggest comfiest bed, he collapsed on top of me and the moans and clash of lips, the sounds as our kisses got louder and the groans as we hurriedly undressed and as I looked at myself I wondered what he thought? I had paid a fortune for the new body and as he kissed, my neck and I looked at him in all his glory as his kisses headed in a southerly direction down. I gasped as he kissed my belly. He feasted on it, and as he worked himself lower, I cried out in sheer pleasure.
“This, Carrie was worth the wait baby, and god I need to be in here.” His fingers traced the entrance to my inner me, and as he did, I cried as the soft touches drove me to the edge of reasoning, why were we doing this exactly? I didn’t care we were, and it was just what I needed. He looked into my eyes and smiled, his grin wide, as his lips kisses the now wet wild moist folds, he murmured in delight as I cried in sheer pleasure.
“Oh, hell Tom yes, baby yes. I want love that argh, Tom, Tom please argh…” I threw my legs over his shoulders and as I ran my fingers through his dark hair, I noticed the slight peppering and cried as he brought me to a heady climax. He kissed my belly and moved upwards, as I devoured his kisses he climbed between my legs, and as we groaned, we kissed.
As our lips danced and our tongues fought, he entered me in one swift hard jolt. I moaned my sheer pleasure as he raised himself to his full arm length, and he looked down and thanked me. He leant in and bit at my lip kissing it and letting in fall back. As his body rocked within me, I held on to his legs with mine and as we moved together our bodies a sea of sweat, and the glorious sounds we made as our skin touched, sent him into a frenzy, I gripped him tightly
as I neared release.
“Baby, I love you relax, this is fantastic, you’re coming, and I feel you tensing what if I do this…” With that he withdrew from me and smiled as he toyed with me; he laughed as he thrust inside me again causing me to spasm around him, he let out a long satisfying groan as he thrust in wards and collapse in a spent heap on top of me.
“God I don’t think I could have waited for another year for that CC, thirty years, is a long time between you making me rise to the occasion and come. That was well overdue and I need to do that again.” I um as his fingers traced my cheek, and as he grabbed my chin in between his fingers, he kissed my nose and held my face to his with his hands and as I kissed him on his lips, he smiled.
“You’re quite, was that not good for you?” I smiled.
“I don’t know, I forget what it’s supposed to feel like after, I know I feel alive and god embarrassed, I can’t believe I have just had sex with my TT, and we didn’t burst out laughing, I thought you were just joking and were seeing how far you could take it?”
“Hahahaha, Oh, Miss CC, we have only just started to play baby, we are going to be well and truly playing doctors and nurses, before very long, like we started that one time. Remember, when mum came up and dashed through those doors very doors, as I was just about to see if we could see were the babies came from?” I blushed he had my dress over my head and was looking at why we looked different down there, he had no sisters, I had no brothers and we were exploring. Jack had told him women have babies through their belly button
“We found out we were different to each other that day. And that day we found out that it was naughty to lift a little girls dress up and a little girl can’t pull off the little boys willy. No matter how hard she tried.” We collapsed in a sea of laughter. He held me tightly as he looked into my eyes.
“We are going to be alright aren’t we CC? This means something to you doesn’t it?” I um as he kissed my lips.
“Yes, very much it means something. I think Thomas Thompson we have to see if that thing will come off if we over exercise it?” As we made love again, and again, I collapsed on top of him after hours of madness in his bed.
“If, this is a onetime thing I will kill you Thomas. I think, I may like this every night and sometimes during the day, oh and quite a lot in the mornings.” He held me to him.
“I will have to see what I can do; I would hate to disappoint my oldest friend, and woman I intend marrying!”
CHAPTER 10
“Carrie, wake up baby, we have to get ready for our dirty week to Blackpool. Do you still want my expert opinion, on what constitutes too much sex, in one night? I have reconsidered, and it’s still seven.”
“I still say seven times is way too much for a nightly show. I want you in my life for a lot longer, now I have been proposed to, can’t have you dying from a heart attack due to too much exercise, Tom.”
“Alright Carrie, you said four and I say six how about we do it three times a night and five times a day?” I laughed as he came in for a kiss.
“How many surgeries have you had baby? You’re not having more are you?” I blushed, how rude, then laughed as I told him.
“I had a tummy tuck, to get rid of the mess when I lost the weight, a boob job, and liposuction, to my baggy bits, and my teeth done, I have extensions in my hair, and I nearly had my virginity sew back in.” He gasped.
“They do that? I think you’re perfect as you are, as your Fiancé I hereby declare you are too perfect as you are.” He kissed my belly, wow fluttery feeling again.
“Fiancée, I don’t think I can get used to that. Two days and you’re asking me to marry you, how do you know I’m not going to rob you blind and run away?” He laughed.
“Because, how can you rob me if I give you everything? How can you rob what’s already yours? I need to tell you something about money, Carrie, I have quite a lot, and well to be honest with you I well, god, I won the lottery a year ago.” I laughed as he said the magic words.
“Snap, I won the euro a few months ago I have a fair bit too.” He looked at me.
“No shit?”
“No shit, I won sixty eight million and some change and would you believe I am worth more now than I was then, my hotels are already making money.” He laughed.
“Seems I’m the poor relation, I only won five million.” I laughed as he brought me into a hug.
“Pre-nups will be a breeze; you keep yours, I keep mine and bugger the change we make before we die when we are old and grey.” I sighed, how did I get so lucky?
“Have you told anyone you have won the lottery Tom?” He laughed.
“Would you believe, I didn’t have anyone to tell, I was like, I have all this money, who can I tell, so I told nobody, and just banked the money?” I laughed, same, as I had done.
“Have you done anything stupid with it? I did, and you may want to reconsider you proposal after I tell you what I did and what I plan to do still.” I told him everything from the simple revenge, to finding him again. What also, I had planned to do to the twin’s father, I also told him I planned to ask Jack why we split up and, what could I have done, anything to keep him? He looked sad at that.
“That was before, I don’t care why he did it now; I was just glad you were still here, bit of a bonus the other stuff, and boy you are here, just here for me, right?” He held me to him.
“Just here, and just for you, but, I know why he dumped you, and I have always known, he was threatened. He was told he wouldn’t walk again, if he didn’t end it with you, and he was given a week to do it, he was threatened by the Hutchinson brothers, and they were serious too. He was heartbroken for weeks and weeks; so, I guess that means we had a short engagement then CC?” I smiled.
“Oh, damn short, how about we get married really quickly?” He looked at me in disbelief.
“I blamed him for so long; for dumping me and Peter picking me up. I had the choice, I chose to see him; but I didn’t choose the rape, on the night of the school final awards, nor for him to treat me as he did after, and for years after too. I should have; but he threatened to kill Jack, if I told anyone what he had done.
What he did that the night of the school awards ceremony, made me who I was, for such a long time, it made my judgment of people become clouded, and my life was so screwed up because of that night and allowing him to get away with it for so long. Now I just want to start again, I want to put the past behind me and start a fresh.” He rushed from the room and he threw up. I waited for him to come back.
“What’s the matter Tom? Why did you need to be sick? It’s over for me that part of my life, I’m sorry but I thought it was better you heard it from me. Before I have to go to court to testify, and it’s in the papers. You need to know what he will say, is a lie, I never asked him to do those things to me, I didn’t even kiss him, well not consciously.
I just hope they, admit it all and I don’t have to go to court at all, I told you I was messed up, if you want to call that a nice night, no hard feelings and I go back home, I will understand.” I wouldn’t like it but I could understand.
“Carrie, that evening, I think I heard him and you, you… I know I heard you, Jack came into the school hall and said he thought, he had got you in trouble, just talking to you, so, so oh god Carrie I went out the double doors and I heard noises, followed them and heard you having sex, I was devastated, but I didn’t think he was raping you. I would have stopped him, I thought you were just having sex, I am so sorry. Oh hell Carrie, I could have stepped in, but I ran back inside and told Jack you were fine and enjoying yourself.” I sat on the bed, sat in shock, what did I do now?
“Carrie, speak to me, I’m sorry but I didn’t hear you cry out for help, not that I stood round waiting for you, to finish. I was devastated, the girl I loved, was having sex in a school outbuilding. I am sorry but what was I supposed to do, I didn’t know that’s what he did to you Carrie… Please speak to me.” I was in shock.
“I begged who ev
er opened the door for help, I screamed for help, I asked him to stop, what part of that sounded like I wanted him to continue? Oh I have to get out of here, I need to clear my head, get myself together, shit I just don’t know what to do?”
He looked dejected, hurt, and as confused as I was! He left me to dress. I showered and cried. I dressed and went downstairs; he had poured a cup of coffee and sat watching the stairs waiting for me to come down!
“Where does this leave us Carrie, is there still an, us? I can’t turn the clock back, would that I could, but I can’t. Carrie I can’t tell you how sorry I am, please baby believe me?” I shrugged my shoulders.
“I don’t know, I will have to talk it over with Catherine, my psychiatrist, she has been helping me over the past weeks video nasty’s, some of which I had forgotten he did to me.
Look, I’m going to walk home clear my head, go to Blackpool on my own and sort these issues out, give me a couple of days to get my head round all this and I promise I will come back and we will talk some more, but for now I just need some space, corny as that sounds!” He got up and came towards me, I put my hands up asked him not to, turned, and walked away! I know he followed me for a while, but as I got home, he had gone.
I packed my bag and headed North, I needed to think about something else, Peter Hutchinson, was still ruining my fucking life, revenge had gone some way to help, but moments like this didn’t help! A quick call to Uncle Harry and I told him I would be up later, I had to see the doctor first, Catherine would see me right away! I headed to Surrey and as I drove I had a few calls and texts from Thomas, poor Thomas, he hadn’t heard me scream, or call out, I have to wonder, and did I scream out, did I just shut down and go quite? Told by Catherine and the several people I have seen over the years, I quite possibly just shut down, and my mind went blank! I arrived at the clinic, and headed in.
“I have an urgent appointment with, Catherine?”