Finger Bang

by Jade C. Jamison

  “You’re running the show?” he asked, amazed by the growl he could hear in his voice.

  She grinned and nodded before running her tongue down his chest as her fingers grasped the button on his jeans. He felt her run the zipper down and wriggle her hand inside as her tongue traced a pattern on his belly. He opened his eyes, letting the air escape his lungs, because he was pretty sure he was about to get his first blowjob from sweet Kaylee. She was on her knees, pulling his cock out of his jeans and underwear, and he swallowed, leaning his head back against the door and closing his eyes again, hoping to maintain for a bit. He ran his fingers through her hair, clenching his jaw together as he felt her warm hand encircle him at the base while her tongue licked the head lightly. A small groan flowed out of his mouth and he forced his hands to relax. It had been a long damn time since a girl had given him head, and Kaylee wasn’t just any girl…she was a girl he was starting to care about very much. On top of that, he knew she wasn’t entirely comfortable with a lot of sexual situations, and he hadn’t planned to force her to do anything, so for her to decide to do this of her own volition was—

  Holy shit. Amazing. He wondered if she’d ever done this before—not that it mattered. He’d been wound up already and knew he wasn’t going to be able to hold himself back long, and her technique was ensuring his prediction would hold true.

  He tried to focus on holding out, though, because it felt so fucking good. He loved sex. Being inside a woman was incredible, but once he started moving at whatever chosen angle he was positioned in, he knew what to expect. That wasn’t a bad thing, because the continual motion would build to climax every single time without fail. But what he liked about a blowjob was that it wasn’t predictable. He didn’t know what the woman was going to do next. He knew and trusted that it would feel amazing, but he didn’t know what to expect. Would she take his entire length into her mouth or only halfway? Would she lick and tease and suck and alternate speed and position? Would she use her hands at all?

  He forced his attention on her hair, on making sure he didn’t pull it out of her head or hurt her somehow by losing control. It helped him keep himself under control so he wouldn’t lose it quickly. He felt himself getting closer and closer, though, and knew it was going to happen sooner rather than later.

  He wanted her to know how much he appreciated it, so as he let out his next breath, he said, “Oh, God, Kaylee.” She tilted her head a little and made a tiny noise that vibrated his cock, and that was all it took.

  All he could think of was that he was pretty damned sure he was falling in love with this girl…and then nothing but explosions inside his head.

  * * *

  Blaze’s dinner was incredible—a stir fry in a homemade teriyaki sauce with rice. Kaylee had never been able to cook rice well, so she was impressed with how fluffy his was. He even commented that he was surprised but happy it had turned out so well.

  He had insisted upon taking care of her after he recovered from his massive orgasm. She was so happy she’d managed to do such a good job. She could see in his eyes how much it had meant to him, and she felt like her friends had given her excellent advice the night before. It had all paid off.

  She would never tell Rachel, though, because she didn’t want her friend to feel awkward about having too much information.

  They hadn’t been together for very long, but already Kaylee was feeling closer to Blaze. Just little things like making dinner simply because she said she was going to come over for a while meant a lot to her.

  And she thought she could see it in his eyes too, the idea that maybe they wanted to be boyfriend and girlfriend for a long time to come.

  Yeah, she thought she could handle that. She was looking forward to giving it a try.

  Chapter Twenty

  THE SUMMER WAS half over when Rachel made a crazy suggestion. Blaze had spent the night, and he and Kaylee were enjoying a cup of coffee before his class that morning. Kaylee was impressed that Blaze had wanted to start working on his master’s degree during the summer term, but she wasn’t going to try to stop him. She was amazed by his motivation and drive, not to mention his intelligence.

  Blaze had been teasing Kaylee about how ticklish her knee was when Rachel entered the kitchen. “Hey, bro, you got a new roomie yet?”

  “Nah, not yet. Sam has one more week. I kinda don’t want him to feel rushed or anything.”

  Rachel grabbed a cup out of the cabinet and rolled her eyes. “Don’t be a dumb ass, Blaze. You might not want to make him feel bad, but he’s not gonna give you rent for August just because he feels bad for you. He’ll understand. It’s not like you’re rolling in the dough.”

  Blaze shrugged. “Maybe.” He brushed his fingers over Kaylee’s bare knee again, grinning at her. Kaylee smiled at Blaze but wondered, like Rachel, why he wasn’t more concerned about it. She herself was starting to worry about her own roommate situation, and she, Maddy, and Rachel hadn’t even reached their school deadline.

  Rachel must have been thinking the same thing. She said, “Oh, my God,” and took several quick steps to the table to sit down. Her dramatic presentation made Blaze and Kaylee focus on her, wondering what was on her mind. She set her coffee cup down and then splayed her fingers and held up her hands as though to get their undivided attention. “I have the perfect solution.”

  Blaze said, “Solution? For what?”

  “What if you moved in with us?” He looked a little confused, and Kaylee didn’t say a word, because if Rachel was suggesting what Kaylee thought she was suggesting…

  Blaze shook his head. “What?”

  “You know, be our fourth roommate. We’d kill two birds with one stone. Problem solved.”

  Blaze didn’t say a word, maybe feeling like his sister had put him in an awkward situation. He instead looked over at Kaylee as though deferring to her. And apparently he was, because Rachel started staring at Kaylee too, waiting for her to say something.

  It was Kaylee’s turn to say, “What?” As the ramifications of what Rachel was suggesting started to wash over her, she felt less inclined to say anything. What were the old Miranda rights? Anything you say can and will be used against you…

  Rachel asked, “What do you think?”

  Rachel wasn’t looking at Blaze, and Blaze acted like he shouldn’t say a word. Well, after a couple of months of dating Kaylee, she knew he was starting to understand her, and he likely knew what she would say before the words even came out of her mouth. “I think my parents would have a cow if they knew a guy was living with us.”

  A sly grin passed over Rachel’s face. “Yeah, especially if they knew you were sleeping with said guy.” Blaze gave his sister a look. “Sorry, but you know it’s true.” She looked back to Kaylee. “Okay…but what if the guy wasn’t Blaze? I mean…Shannon’s room is still empty. What if we had a male roommate instead of a girl? Would they take issue with it then?”

  Kaylee processed it, trying to come at it from every angle her parents might approach. If Kaylee assured them that no hanky panky went on with a roommate who just so happened to be a guy, she thought they might be okay with it. But…Blaze was not a guy she could make that claim about. And she didn’t know that she could be dishonest with her parents.

  Besides, Blaze was one of the first guys Kaylee liked enough that she wanted him to meet her parents.

  So the discussion presented a dilemma. “Uh…” She looked at Blaze and put her hands on one of his. “You know I—” Oh, shit. She almost said that word, one that would freak her and him and Rachel out if it slipped out of her mouth. And she didn’t know that it was true anyway. The l word? Really? No way. Way too soon. Right?

  Yikes. She hoped the pause wasn’t noticeable. “—care about you so much.” She looked over at Rachel then. “But I think it’s a really bad idea.”

  “Oh, come on, Kaylee.”

  Blaze shook his head. “No, Rachel, she’s right. If having me live here would make her uncomfortable or put her in an awkward
situation, I don’t want to do it.” He looked at Kaylee. “I don’t want to make your relationship with your parents weird or anything.”

  Rachel’s voice got a little louder. She was being her usual rational self, presenting one well-formed argument after another. “Wait a second.” She looked at Kaylee again. “How often do your parents visit? Once a year? Would you make Blaze suffer for one frigging visit?”

  Kaylee had no comeback for that and was ready to relent, but her knight in shining armor came to her rescue. “Drop it, Rachel. She’s not comfortable with it, and I don’t want to pressure her into doing something she doesn’t want to do.”

  “But it’s—”

  “We’re done.” Blaze’s tone of voice was one Kaylee had never heard before, but he shut Rachel down. Kaylee was astounded and impressed that Rachel actually listened to her brother. She was more amazed because she knew Rachel typically had a lighthearted give-and-take with Blaze, but something about Blaze’s voice told Rachel there was nothing else to discuss. She was also a little shocked because Blaze was so laid back all the time, she didn’t think he had that in him.

  She wasn’t complaining, though, because Blaze had just saved her a massive amount of grief. Her hands were still on his and she squeezed them. He leaned over and kissed her on the cheek and then he moved a hand to grab her knee again. “Now…where were we?” Kaylee giggled and then he inched his hand up her leg, making her consider whisking him off to her bedroom again before he left for class.

  * * *

  The next morning, Kaylee and Rachel were at the coffee shop. Kaylee had been considering what Rachel had said, that it wouldn’t be fair to tell Blaze he couldn’t live with them when she was lucky if her parents showed up once a year. She was considering it…but she didn’t know how they would go about it.

  As usual, Rachel likely sensed Kaylee’s weakness. When the coffee rush died down, Rachel started talking. She was roasting beans and Kaylee was wiping down the counter. Rachel’s voice was quiet when she said, “Look, girlfriend, I know why you’re paranoid about having Blaze come live with us. I get that. But I’ve been thinking. We actually have an empty bedroom. What if he took that room?” Kaylee nodded while her friend continued talking. “I know you. I know you don’t want to lie to your parents. If Blaze had his own bedroom, that would alleviate that problem.”

  Ah…but there was something else she hadn’t talked about with Rachel. “Yeah, that’s not a bad idea. But what if...” She paused. She didn’t know how to say what was on her mind other than just spitting it out, but she wanted to be delicate about the issue. She finally said, “What if Blaze and I don’t work out? What then?”

  Rachel half scowled at Kaylee as though she were growing impatient. “So? He has his own room.”

  “It would be really uncomfortable. I wouldn’t have a safe place.”

  “Kay, I told you Blaze stays friends with all his exes.”

  Yeah, and Kaylee thought she’d finally figured out why. She’d seen Blaze date lots of girls. Rachel might have talked about them a lot, saying Blaze had a type, and that might have been true, but Kaylee had never seen Blaze serious about any of the women he’d dated. She realized it might have simply been that Blaze was discreet, but she suspected it was because he hadn’t dated any of them for very long or maybe that hadn’t been important to him. While she was reluctant to label what the two of them had as anything more than dating, she knew what they had—what their relationship had become—wasn’t just a fling. Maybe Blaze had been able to maintain friendships with his exes because they’d never grown serious enough to progress to the stage of passionate hatred or anger or relief that the relationship was over. Kaylee wasn’t sure about how they’d get along if they decided to end their relationship.

  And it had nothing to do with how nice a guy Blaze was.

  “I hear you, Rachel.” Kaylee draped the rag over the basin on the wall and walked back to the counter to pull out the boxes full of little creamers and sugar packets so she could refill the little bins on the counter. “Blaze might stay friends with all his exes, but that doesn’t mean they have comfortable relationships.”

  “Sure they do. He and Laurie had coffee last week after class. You don’t have coffee with someone you’re uncomfortable around.”

  Kaylee felt a cool chill wiggle down her spine. Maybe it shouldn’t have bothered her, but it did. Rachel seemed to think it was perfectly okay for Blaze to remain friends with his ex-girlfriends and, on a logical level, Kaylee didn’t have a problem with it either, but the reality of Blaze sitting down to a cup of coffee with an ex bothered her.

  She wasn’t going to say a word to Rachel, though, because that was a different conversation that she needed to have with a different person.

  Back to the problem at hand…which might turn out to not be a problem in the long run, depending on how Kaylee’s conversation with Blaze about his ex-girlfriend turned out. Kaylee kept her eyes focused on the sugar packets. She didn’t want to look at Rachel and give away how she felt, particularly since—for some stupid reason—she felt near tears. “Listen…I know you’re trying to find the perfect solution, but I don’t know that one exists.”

  Rachel moved closer, so Kaylee had to make a more concerted effort to avoid eye contact. “I have a great idea. I’ll tell Blaze to come over for dinner tonight. We’ll all talk about it—and maybe if we decide he shouldn’t move in with us, we can help him come up with a good solution.”

  Kaylee nodded but was frowning, still out of Rachel’s sight. It sounded more like a session where they would all try to coerce her into agreeing…so, she might have been agreeing on the surface, but she wasn’t sure how she really felt about it.

  Chapter Twenty-one

  KAYLEE DECIDED SHE’D talk to Blaze about the whole having-coffee-with-the-ex thing after dinner and the whole discussion Rachel had planned. She didn’t know what would come of that, either, but she didn’t want to confuse the issues.

  That was her plan, but when Blaze got there that evening and kissed her, he asked, “What’s wrong?”

  That was one huge thing she’d say about Blaze—no matter how well she thought she could hide her feelings, Blaze managed to see through her. She didn’t want to talk about it now, though, because she didn’t want it coloring the whole roommate conversation, so she said, “We can talk about it later.”

  Blaze gave her a look, one that told her he wasn’t going to take no for an answer. He took her hand and said, “Let’s go out back.”

  She found it hard to say no to sweet, sincere Blaze. He was one of those guys who genuinely cared about people and how they felt, especially the ones who meant something to him, and that was something she hadn’t realized until they’d started dating. So she followed him, enjoying how strong and warm his hand felt holding hers.

  When they got out there, they paused on the patio. The air was almost too warm after being inside where a swamp cooler was keeping the air temperate. She tried not to let it bother her, though, instead giving Blaze her full attention. She got lost in his dark eyes when he said, “Come on, Kaylee. Tell me what’s bothering you.”

  She sighed, knowing she would tell him now. There would be no way she could hold it in because he asked. She didn’t want to hide her feelings from him. So she blinked and looked down at the design on his t-shirt. Part of her didn’t even want to say it—what if she didn’t like his answer? But she took a deep breath, trying to steel herself, and looked up in his eyes. “Is it true…that you had coffee with your ex-girlfriend last week?”

  He blinked twice and she saw the recognition light up his eyes. “You mean Laurie?”

  She nodded. “Yeah, I guess.”

  “It wasn’t just for coffee, Kaylee. We’re in the same class and there are three of us. We have a group project we’re working on that has to be done by the end of the semester and we were going to work on it after class—at the coffee shop. The third person in our group didn’t show.” He held Kaylee’s shoulders in h
is hands. “Where do you think I met Laurie in the first place? We had the same major, and she’s going for her master’s degree too. But there is nothing there, Kaylee. Are we friends? Yeah, I guess so. But my relationship with her didn’t work out. Hell, it never went very far in the first place.” His eyes searched hers. “I…I care very much about you, and I don’t think I’ve ever felt this way about any other woman. Other women don’t even register anymore.”

  She kissed him then, because she knew he was telling the truth, and she felt bad about even thinking anything suspect.

  Unfortunately, that didn’t help the second problem…which was what he was at her house for in the first place, but she supposed that would wait until after dinner.

  Rachel had made dinner, and they sat down to one of the woman’s favorites—an Indian curry of some sort. Kaylee had never been into Indian food until she and Rachel had become friends. She didn’t think about Indian food when she tried to decide what she wanted to eat on a nightly basis, but she enjoyed it every time she had it.

  Maddy had been helping Rachel and, when they sat down to dinner, Kaylee felt a little sad. The last time Rachel had made a large dinner with Indian food, Shannon had been with them. That only underscored the fact that they needed a new roommate.

  They’d barely loaded up their plates when Rachel said, “I suppose you’re all wondering why I’ve gathered you here today.”

  Blaze grinned. He looked at Kaylee and then said, “What? Eating’s not a good enough reason?”

  Rachel rolled her eyes at her brother. “Well, I have an ulterior motive.”

  “What would that be?”

  “Look…I know we talked about this yesterday, about you moving in with us. You need a roommate and so do we. I know you’re used to living in an apartment, but this house has plenty of room, and so you’d have your own space to do your guy thing. And I know Kaylee has objections, but it would be silly for you to not move in with us. It’s really the perfect solution.”