Delphi Collected Works of Max Brand US

by Max Brand

  As for Sinclair, having found his pastureland, where the grass grew thick and tall, he was in no hurry to return to his clumsy companion. He listened for a time to the sound of the horses, ripping away the grass close to the ground, and to the grating as they chewed. Then he turned his attention to the mountains. His spirit was easier in this place. He breathed more easily. There was a sense of freedom at once and companionship. He lingered so long, indeed, that he suddenly became aware that time had slipped away from him, and that the venison must be long since done. At that he hurried back up the slope.

  He was hungry, ravenously hungry, but the first thing that greeted him was the scent of burning meat. It stopped him short, and his hands gripped involuntarily. In that first burst of passion he wanted literally to wring the neck of the schoolteacher. He strode closer. It was as he thought. The twigs had burned away from beneath the steak and allowed it to drop into the cinders, and beside the dying fire, barely illuminated by it, sat Jig, sound asleep, with his head resting on his knees.

  For a moment Sinclair had to fight with himself for control. All his murderous evil temper had flared up into his brain and set his teeth gritting. At length he could trust himself enough to reach down and set his heavy grip on the shoulder of the sleeper.

  Even in sleep Jig must have been pursued by a burdened consciousness of guilt. Now he jerked up his head and stammered up to the shadowy face of Sinclair.

  “I — I don’t know — all at once it happened. You see the fire—”

  But the telltale odor of the charring meat struck his nostrils, and his speech died away. He was panting with fear of consequences. Now a new turn came to the fear of Cold Feet. It seemed that Riley Sinclair’s hand had frozen at the touch of the soft flesh of Jig’s shoulder. He remained for a long moment without stirring. When his hand moved it was to take Jig under the chin with marvelous firmness and gentleness at once and lift the face of the schoolteacher. He seemed to find much to read there, much to study and know. Whatever it was, it set Jig trembling until suddenly he shrank away, cowering against the rock behind.

  “You don’t think—”

  But the voice of Sinclair broke in with a note in it that Jig had never heard before.

  “Guns and glory — a woman!”

  It came over him with a rush, that revelation which explained so many things — everything in fact; all that strange cowardice, and all that stranger grace; that unmanly shrinking, that more than manly contempt for death. Now the firelight was too feeble to show more than one thing — the haunted eyes of the girl, as she cowered away from him.

  He saw her hand drop from her breast to her holster and close around the butt of her revolver.

  Sinclair grew cold and sick. After all, what reason had she to trust him? He drew back and began to walk up and down with long, slow strides. The girl followed him and saw his gaunt figure brush across the stars; she saw the wind furl and unfurl the wide brim of his hat, and she heard the faint stir and clink of his spurs at every step.

  There was a tumult in the brain of the cowpuncher. The stars and the sky and the mountains and wind went out. They were nothing in the electric presence of this new Jig. His mind flashed back to one picture — Cold Feet with her hands tied behind her back, praying under the cottonwood.

  Shame turned the cowpuncher hot and then cold. He allowed his mind to drift back over his thousand insults, his brutal language, his cursing, his mockery, his open contempt. There was a tingle in his ears, and a chill running up and down his spine.

  After all that brutality, what mysterious sense had told her to trust to him rather than to Sour Creek and its men?

  Other mysteries flocked into his mind. Why had she come to the very verge of death, with the rope around her neck rather than reveal her identity, knowing, as she must know, that in the mountain desert men feel some touch of holiness in every woman?

  He remembered Cartwright, tall, handsome, and narrow of eye, and the fear of the girl. Suddenly he wished with all his soul that he had fought with guns that day, and not with fists.

  17

  AT LENGTH THE continued silence of the girl made him turn. Perhaps she had slipped away. His heart was chilled at the thought; turning, he sighed with relief to find her still there.

  Without a word he went back and rekindled the fire, placed new venison steaks over it, and broiled them with silent care. Not a sound from Jig, not a sound from the cowpuncher, while the meat hissed, blackened, and at length was done to a turn. He laid portions of it on broad, white, clean chips which he had already prepared, and served her. Still in silence she ate. Shame held Sinclair. He dared not look at her, and he was glad when the fire lost some of its brightness.

  Now and then he looked with wonder across the mountains. All his life they had been faces to him, and the wind had been a voice. Now all this was nothing but dead stuff. There was no purpose in the march of the mountains except that they led to the place where Jig sat.

  He twisted together a cup of bark and brought her water from the spring. She thanked him with words that he did not hear, he was so intent in watching her face, as the firelight played on it. Now that he held the clue, everything was as plain as day. New light played on the past.

  Turning away, he put new fuel on the fire, and when he looked to her again, she had unbelted the revolver and was putting it away, as if she realized that this would not help her if she were in danger.

  When at length she spoke it was the same voice, and yet how new! The quality in it made Sinclair sit a little straighter.

  “You have a right to know everything that I can tell you. Do you wish to hear?”

  For another moment he smoked in solemn silence. He found that he was wishing for the story not so much because of its strangeness, but because he wanted that voice to run on indefinitely. Yet he weighed the question pro and con.

  “Here’s the point, Jig,” he said at last. “I got a good deal to make up to you. In the first place I pretty near let you get strung up for a killing I done myself. Then I been treating you pretty hard, take it all in all. You got a story, and I don’t deny that I’d like to hear it; but it don’t seem a story that you’re fond of telling, and I ain’t got no right to ask for it. All I ask to know is one thing: When you stood there under that cotton wood tree, with a rope around your neck, did you know that all you had to do was to tell us that you was a woman to get off free?”

  “Of course.”

  “And you’d sooner have hung than tell us?”

  “Yes.”

  Sinclair sighed. “Maybe I’ve said this before, but I got to say it ag’in: Jig, you plumb beat me!” He brushed his hand across his forehead. “S’pose it’d been done! S’pose I had let ’em go ahead and string you up! They’d have been a terrible bad time ahead for them seven men. We’d all have been grabbed and lynched. A woman!”

  He put the word off by itself. Then he was surprised to hear her laughing softly. Now that he knew, it was all woman, that voice.

  “It wasn’t really courage, Riley. After you’d said half a dozen words I knew you were square, and that you knew I was innocent. So I didn’t worry very much — except just after you’d sentenced me to hang!”

  “Don’t go back to that! I sure been a plumb fool. But why would you have gone ahead and let that hanging happen?”

  “Because I had rather die than be known, except to you.”

  “You leave me out.”

  “I’d trust you to the end of everything, Riley.”

  “I b’lieve you would, Jig — I honest believe you would! Heaven knows why.”

  “Because.”

  “That ain’t a reason.”

  “A very good woman’s reason. For one thing you’ve let me come along when you know that I’m a weight, and you’re in danger. But you don’t know what it means if I go back. You can’t know. I know it’s wrong and cowardly for me to stay and imperil you, but I am a coward, and I’m afraid to go back!”

  “Hush up,” murmured Sincl
air. “Hush up, girl. Is they anybody asking you to go back? But you don’t really figure on hanging out here with me in the mountains, me having most of the gents in these parts out looking for my scalp?”

  “If you think I won’t be such an encumbrance that I’ll greatly endanger you, Riley.”

  “H’m,” muttered Sinclair. “I’ll take that chance, but they’s another thing.”

  “Well?”

  “It ain’t exactly nacheral and reasonable for a girl to go around in the mountains with a man.”

  She fired up at that, sitting straight, with the fire flaring suddenly in her face through the change of position.

  “I’ve told you that I trust you, Riley. What do I care about the opinion of the world? Haven’t they hounded me? Oh, I despise them!”

  “H’m,” said the cowpuncher again.

  He was, indeed, so abashed by this outbreak that he merely stole a glance at her face and then studied the fire again.

  “Does this gent Cartwright tie up with your story?”

  All the fire left her. “Yes,” she whispered.

  He felt that she was searching his face, as if suddenly in doubt of him.

  “Will you let me tell you — everything?”

  “Shoot ahead.”

  “Some parts will be hard to believe.”

  “Lady, they won’t be nothing as hard to believe as what I’ve seen you do with my own eyes.”

  Then she began to tell her story, and she found a vast comfort in seeing the ugly, stern face of Sinclair lighted by the burning end of his cigarette. He never looked at her, but always fixed his stare on the sea of blackness which was the lower valley.

  “All the trouble began with a theory. My father felt that the thing for a girl was to be educated in the East and marry in the West. He was full of maxims, you see. ‘They turn out knowledge in cities; they turn out men in mountains,’ was one of his maxims. He thought and argued and lived along those lines. So as soon as I was half grown — oh, I was a wild tomboy!”

  “Eh?” cut in Sinclair.

  “I could really do the things then that you’d like to have a woman do,” she said. “I could ride anything, swim like a fish in snow water, climb, run, and do anything a boy could do. I suppose that’s the sort of a woman you admire?”

  “Me!” exclaimed Riley with violence. “It ain’t so, Jig. I been revising my ideas on women lately. Besides, I never give ’em much thought before.”

  He said all this without glancing at her, so that she was able to indulge in a smile before she went on.

  “Just at that point, when I was about to become a true daughter of the West, Dad snapped me off to school in the East, and then for years and years there was no West at all for me except a little trip here and there in vacation time. The rest of it was just study and play, all in the East. I still liked the West — in theory, you know.”

  “H’m,” muttered Riley.

  “And then, I think it was a year ago, I had a letter from Dad with important news in it. He had just come back from a hunting trip with a young fellow who he thought represented everything fine in the West. He was big, good-looking, steady, had a large estate. Dad set his mind on having me marry him, and he told me so in the letter. Of course I was upset at the idea of marrying a man I did not know, but Dad always had a very controlling way with him. I had lost any habit of thinking for myself in important matters.

  “Besides, there was a consolation. Dad sent the picture of his man along with his letter. The picture was in profile, and it showed me a fine-looking fellow, with a glorious carriage, a high head, and oceans of strength and manliness.

  “I really fell in love with that picture. To begin with, I thought that it was destiny for me, and that I had to love that man whether I wished to or not. I admitted that picture into my inmost life, dreamed about it, kept it near me in my room.

  “And just about that time came news that my father was seriously ill, and then that he had died, and that his last wish was for me to come West at once and marry my chosen husband.

  “Of course I came at once. I was too sick and sad for Dad to think much about my own future, and when I stepped off the train I met the first shock. My husband to be was waiting for me. He was enough like the picture for me to recognize him, and that was all. He was tall and strong enough and manly enough. But in full face I thought he was narrow between the eyes. And—”

  “It was Cartwright!”

  “Yes, yes. How did you guess that?”

  “I dunno,” said Sinclair softly, “but when that gent rode off today, something told me that I was going to tangle with him later on. Go on!”

  “He was very kind to me. After the first moment of disappointment — you see, I had been dreaming about him for a good many weeks — I grew to like him and accept him again. He did all that he could to make the trip home agreeable. He didn’t press himself on me. He did nothing to make me feel that he understood Dad’s wishes about our marriage and expected me to live up to them.

  “After the funeral it was the same way. He came to see me only now and then. He was courteous and attentive, and he seemed to be fond of me.”

  “A fox,” snarled Sinclair, growing more and more excited, as this narrative continued. “That’s the way with one of them kind. They play a game. Never out in the open. Waiting till they win, and then acting the devil. Go on!”

  “Perhaps you’re right. His visits became more and more frequent. Finally he asked me to marry him. That brought the truth of my position home to me, and I found all at once that, though I had rather liked him as a friend, I had to quake at the idea of him as a husband.”

  Sinclair snapped his cigarette into the coals of the fire and set his jaw. She liked him in his anger.

  “But what could I do? All of the last part of Dad’s life had been pointed toward this one thing. I felt that he would come out of his grave and haunt me. I asked for one more day to think it over. He told me to take a month or a year, as I pleased, and that made me ashamed. I told him on the spot that I would marry him, but that I didn’t love him.”

  “I’ll tell you what he answered — curse him!” exclaimed Sinclair.

  “What?”

  “Through the years that was comin’, he’d teach you to love him.”

  “That was exactly what he said in those very words! How did you guess that?”

  “I’ll tell you I got a sort of a second sight for the ways of a snake, or an ornery hoss, or a sneak of a man. Go on!”

  “I think you have. At any rate, after I had told him I’d marry him, he pressed me to set the date as early as possible, and I agreed. There was only a ten-day interval.

  “Those ten days were filled. I kept myself busy so that I wouldn’t have a chance to think about the future, though of course I didn’t really know how I dreaded it. I talked to the only girl who was near enough to me to be called a friend.

  “‘Find a man you can respect. That’s the main thing,’ she always said.

  ‘You’ll learn to love him later on.’

  “It was a great comfort to me. I kept thinking back to that advice all the time.”

  “They’s nothing worse than a talky woman,” declared Sinclair hotly. “Go on!”

  “Then, all at once, the day came. I’ll never forget how I wakened that morning and looked out at the sun. I had a queer feeling that even the sunshine would never seem the same after that day. It was like going to a death.”

  “So you went to this gent and told him just how you felt, and he let your promise slide?”

  “No.”

  Sinclair groaned.

  “I couldn’t go to him. I didn’t dare. I don’t imagine that I ever thought of such a thing. Then there were crowds of people around all day, giving me good wishes. And all the time I felt like death.

  “Somehow I got to the church. Everything was hazy to me, and my heart was thundering all the time. In the church there was a blur of faces. All at once the blur cleared. I saw Jude Cartwright, an
d I knew I couldn’t marry him!”

  “Brave girl!” cried Sinclair, his relief coming out in almost a shout.

  “You stopped there at the last minute?”

  “Ah, if I had! No, I didn’t stop. I went on to the altar and met him there, and—”

  “You weren’t married to him?”

  “I was!”

  “Go on,” Sinclair said huskily.

  “The end of it came somehow. I found a flood of people calling to me and pressing around me, and all the time I was thinking of nothing but the new ring on my finger and the weight — the horrible weight of it!

  “We went back to my father’s house. I managed to get away from all the merrymaking and go to my room. The minute the door closed behind me and shut away their voices and singing into the distance, I felt that I had saved one last minute of freedom. I went to the window and looked out at the mountains. The stars were coming out.

  “All at once my knees gave way, and I began to weep on the window sill. I heard voices coming, and I knew that I mustn’t let them see me with the tears running down my face. But the tears wouldn’t stop coming.

  “I ran to the door and locked it. Then someone tried to open the door, and I heard the voice of my Aunt Jane calling. I gathered all my nerve and made my voice steady. I told her that I couldn’t let anyone in, that I was preparing a surprise for them.

  “‘Are you happy, dear?’ asked Aunt Jane.

  “I made myself laugh. ‘So happy!’ I called back to her.

  “Then they went away. But as soon as they were gone I knew that I could never go out and meet them. Partly because I had no surprise for them, partly because I didn’t want them to see the tear stains and my red eyes. Somehow little silly things were as big and as important as the main thing — that I could never be the real wife of Jude Cartwright. Can you understand?”