The Siders Box Set

by Leah Clifford

  “She’s the one who found you. Eden, what the fuck happened?” Jarrod asked.

  “I don’t know,” she mumbled, closing her eyes to blot out Adam’s face. She felt color rush to her face. It was no less embarrassing, even though she couldn’t see them. She’d totally lost control.

  “You’re lucky Libby got to you right before you fell. This could have been a lot worse.” Adam’s fingers gently probed the back of her scalp as he turned to James. “She’s gonna need some ice. She’s too drained to heal right now.”

  “She’s been sick for weeks. Now she’s hurt. This has to stop.” Jarrod paced the length of the room before he turned on Adam. “Why aren’t you backing me up on this?”

  “Jarrod, not tonight.” Eden tried to sound commanding, give them some illusion that she still had control of the group. Of herself.

  “You wanna self-destruct, fine,” Jarrod spat, pointing an accusing finger in her face. “But what happens to us when you do? This isn’t just about you, Eden! You’re paying the rent. Buying the things we need to survive. You won’t let us help. You realize if something more serious happens to you we’re all screwed?”

  “She said not now, Jarrod,” Adam snapped. James handed Adam a bag of ice wrapped in a kitchen towel. He pressed the compress against the knot rising on Eden’s scalp. She flinched.

  He slid out from underneath Eden, beckoning Jarrod to the room the boys shared. She heard them arguing through the closed door, their voices muted. She made out Adam’s “No, you’re right. Tomorrow we’ll tell her…” before the conversation dropped too low to hear.

  “Do you need anything?” Libby asked, trying to fill the awkwardness in the living room. “Water, maybe?”

  Eden nodded absently, draping an arm across her forehead. James rushed to the sink, handing the water to Libby as if he was afraid of getting too close to Eden. The cool glass was lifted to her lips. She grabbed it from Libby before the girl could tip it like a sippy cup.

  “I got it,” Eden said, taking a deep gulp to prove her point. She wasn’t an invalid.

  Still, the crestfallen look on Libby’s face made her feel a little guilty. “Thank you,” Eden added and handed her back the glass. She leaned back into the cushions and closed her eyes, but it did no good. She could still feel Libby’s persistent staring.

  “What?” she asked finally.

  She heard Libby shift. “You killed them? All of them?”

  “I don’t know,” she answered, surprised by the exhaustion in her voice. “Not all. But probably some.”

  “But—”

  Eden cut her off with a flick of her hand. “Listen, I can’t do this right now, okay? Tomorrow.” Libby had been there. Adam and Jarrod hadn’t. Eden owed her now. There was no getting around it. Stupid, she chided herself, letting her head sink deep into the cushion, relishing the numbness of the ice pack.

  She heard the click of the bedroom door opening and Jarrod asking Libby if she wanted to stay, if there was anyone waiting for her.

  “I don’t have anyone,” Libby replied. “I’m not like you guys.” And for just a moment before sleep stole over her, Eden almost felt sorry for the girl.

  Eden jolted upright. For a second, she wasn’t sure where she was; not in her bed. A blanket had been tucked around her like a shroud sometime during the night. Now it made her claustrophobic, but the warmth kept her from ripping it off.

  Wet hair clung to the nape of her neck. Am I bleeding? she wondered, but the fingers she pressed there came back clean. A soaked wash cloth lay on the pillow.

  “Hey! You’re awake!” The chipper tone came from the kitchen, then Libby stepped out smiling with the wattage turned up far too high. Even the room itself seemed too bright, the window shades raised to let in the morning sun.

  This morning, everything seemed…too something. Libby held out a cup.

  “Coffee. Black. Adam told me you like it that way. Is it okay?”

  “Yeah, perfect. Thanks.” Eden took a small sip and set it down on the coffee table.

  She looked around the room, stiffening. “Where’s Adam?” she asked. “Jarrod? James?” She called the names, a vulnerable feeling catching her off guard.

  “Relax,” Libby said. “They went out for a few. Jarrod said to tell you he was taking James out. He said you’d understand. It’s okay though, they left me to watch you.”

  “Watch me?” Eden balked. “And they just left?” Libby either didn’t catch her snide tone or was ignoring it. She smiled again, plopping next to Eden on the couch. “Don’t touch me!” Eden shifted uncomfortably, turned to the bright light coming in through the windows. The angle of the sun sent the wrong patterns of shadow across the floor. “What time is it?” she asked.

  “Um, about twelve thirty?”

  “Shit.” Eden threw off the blanket. “I’m late.” She stood, was a half a stride from the couch before her body caught up with her brain. Her legs wobbled and gave out. Libby grabbed her around the waist. Already following commands, she was careful to only touch her shirt, not reach for her hand.

  “What the hell are you doing? You’re going to hurt yourself!”

  Eden couldn’t help but laugh at the thought of a slight bruise sidelining her. Her palms were already starting to heal from where she’d skinned them last night, but the bump was still a tender goose egg. Libby let out an unsure twitter. Eden leaned against her until she dropped back onto the couch. She felt better, but Adam’s dose last night hadn’t been enough. Touch built in the guys when they didn’t spread, but Eden’s came mostly from the Siders.

  Eden considered Libby for a moment. Clearly, the guys trusted her, which said a lot.

  “Go to the window for me. Tell me how many people are out there.” Eden jutted her chin at one of the windows facing the street. Libby shot her an inquisitive look but did as she said.

  “Eight that I can see,” she started. Eden wanted to sob. The number nearly doubled yesterday’s morning group. “Four across the street at the bus stop, two over on the…”

  Eden let out her breath. “How many on the stairs, Libby!”

  She stood on her tiptoes, trying to get the best angle. “I can’t really see…like maybe two? One for sure, but there are some feet.”

  Eden sighed in relief. Two would be perfect. Their Touch might even nix the last of her headache. And she’d already kept them waiting so long.

  “You’re going to help me get downstairs.” Eden didn’t bother making it a question. But Libby was already shaking her head.

  “Jarrod said he needs to talk to you. He told me I was not to let you go downstairs no matter what you tried to bribe me with.” Bribe, eh? Eden thought.

  “Those are Siders down there,” Eden said, choosing her words carefully. “And they’re here for me. For what I can do.” Libby twisted her hands. She had said at Milton’s that she’d heard what Eden did. “I won’t tell the boys either,” Eden added, hating the desperation leaking out. But she had to convince Libby. They were waiting.

  “No, he said you’d try to…” Libby started. “What do you do to them anyway?” Libby’s eyes gleamed, hungry for information. Eden met them.

  “If you help me,” she said. “I’ll let you watch.”

  Chapter 25

  Libby was first out the door. Over her shoulder, Eden watched the hopeful look in the two sets of eyes glaze over before she stepped out from behind her.

  “It’s her!” the guy on the stairs yelped.

  “Don’t be stupid.” The girl sitting beside him tossed a small rock down to the sidewalk. “That’s not even close to what she’s supposed to look like.” Her head rose as she spoke, catching sight of Eden. “It’s true,” she whispered in reverence.

  “Take me around the corner,” Eden told Libby, a new wave of dizziness rolling over her. “They’ll follow.” The moment Libby moved, the other two were on their feet, poised to run if need be. Not likely, Eden thought.

  In the alley, Libby leaned her against the wall and took a
n unsure step back.

  “Stand there,” she told Libby, pointing to the bricks opposite. The girl did what she was told. “Don’t come any closer.” Eden paused before adding, “No matter what happens.”

  She took the boy first.

  At the exhale, her eyes caught Libby’s. They blazed, taking notes on every detail, memorizing the way her hands gripped his, the way she kept her lips an inch away. As Eden’s breath did its work, his Touch passed into her, an electric current running up through her hands. Around her, the world steadied.

  The other one barely waited for her partner to fall before she stepped in to take his place. When it was over, the leftovers lay, still on the cold asphalt.

  “They’re really dead now, aren’t they? You killed them,” Libby said slowly.

  “No, I...” Eden hesitated. “It’s not fair that we’re stuck like this. We should be able to choose.”

  A long moment passed before Libby spoke. “I mean, maybe,” she said finally. “What are we going to do with the bodies? Do you need me to…?” She trailed off as Eden turned to the boy’s shell and blew. The remains scattered into a million pieces, dust glistening in the sunlight before it settled.

  A startled “Oh” drifted from Libby’s lips. She waved a hand over the girl’s body. In its wake was only stained asphalt.

  Eden pulled away from the wall and turned to walk from the alley. Libby was instantly at her side, but Eden traipsed around the corner, no longer needing help. She vaulted up the stairs two at a time and slipped the key into the deadbolt, not even out of breath.

  “You took their Touch, didn’t you?” Libby said as Eden opened the door and walked across the room, dropping onto the couch. “But it doesn’t affect you the way it does the rest of us.”

  Eden grabbed for the cup on the coffee table. She grimaced at the tepid swallow and then set it back down. Damn, the girl was clever. She knew just about as much as any of them did now. So let her stay, Eden thought. Jarrod had been right. Something had to give. And after last night, letting Libby move in might even be enough of a peace offering.

  “So, I mean, if you still need a place to crash, I owe you for yesterday.”

  “Really?” Libby looked shaken by the offer but held herself in check.

  “Well, there’s a catch. We’re kind of low on space, so you’d be on the couch. At least until we figure something else out.”

  “No, that’d be fine.” Libby hesitated. “Why the sudden change of heart?”

  “Because we could use another Sider in our crew. And yesterday you proved to be an asset. Consider it a trial period.”

  “Oh, totally. And I’ll do whatever you need. Really.” Libby blushed, though her smile stayed. “Sorry, it’s just…I haven’t had a good day in a long time.”

  “Yeah, I kind of figured, you being a Sider and all. Why’d you do it?” Eden asked. “I mean, you did kill yourself, right?”

  Libby sucked in a hiss of air, her smile vanishing as she dropped her eyes.

  Finally, she whispered, “Love.”

  Eden rolled her eyes. “What, the quarterback wouldn’t call you sober?”

  “First of all, fuck off,” she started, the tone lighter than Eden’s comment deserved. A ghost of a smile crossed Libby’s lips. “It was love. We did it so we could be together forever.”

  “Suicide pact?” Eden sat up a little, taking stock of the girl in front of her. “How’d that work out for you?”

  Libby turned away, hiding her face. “He’s not a Sider.”

  “Jesus,” Eden managed. Suddenly the room seemed too small. She could almost smell Az, crisp, like new snow. Her neck tingled, remembering his lips against her hammering pulse, the way his breath hit her skin. Her fingers curled as she closed her eyes. In her mind she was back there—the hotel, the sheets pulled loose and tossed aside, her heart pounding, hands pulling him closer, needing him closer. She forced her eyes open, shattering the memory.

  Yesterday, she realized, for the first day in weeks, he hadn’t called. He’d probably given up. What was there to say, anyway?

  “Oh, that’s interesting,” Libby said, studying Eden’s face.

  “What?” Eden asked.

  “Who was he?”

  She felt her face flush. “No one. He doesn’t matter.” Her phone hadn’t rung. Part of her wondered if he’d Fallen, if she’d never get the chance to answer. Had the tumble off the balcony been part of some ruse? Or had he really been hurt? Had her own death been so inevitable? She swallowed hard, willing up the familiar feeling of betrayal. Rage slid scabs over the wounds.

  “He really never mattered that much at all,” she found herself whispering.

  Both girls jumped at the sound of the slamming door.

  Jarrod stopped when he saw Eden sitting up straight, all traces of last night’s escapade reversed. “You let her downstairs.”

  Eden waved away his words. “Don’t be too hard on her. You know she didn’t stand a chance.”

  “Told you she wasn’t strong enough to prevail against the will of our mighty Eden,” Adam sighed as he and James pushed around Jarrod. He set a tray on the coffee table before he graced Libby with a smile to show her everything was forgiven. “Java Boy asked about you,” he added, turning to Eden.

  Jarrod tossed a newspaper at her, the pages rustling through the air before it landed with a heavy slap next to the cups.

  ‘Ecstasy-fueled Rave Leaves Twenty Dead After ‘Bad Trip’’ screamed the headline. Eden’s breath caught.

  “Twenty?” she whispered. I should have listened to Jarrod, she thought. I shouldn’t have let it build.

  James’s hand squeezed her shoulder, an offer of comfort she couldn’t bring herself to take.

  “Eden, we need to talk,” Jarrod said.

  Adam fished two twenties out of his pocket and handed them to Libby. “You mind going down to Milton’s? Through the alley, right and a block down on the left. One caramel latte, two black, all tall? Grab something for yourself.” Libby reached out to take the money, looking down at the tray of steaming cups on the table, then back to the bills in her hand. Adam blushed. “Yeah, I’m not so good with the whole ‘subtle’ thing. But can you just…?”

  “Yeah, sure,” Libby said.

  Adam snapped his fingers at James. “You’re going with her,” he said. The boy turned to Eden, who nodded. Pulling her coat around her, Libby went for the door, James at her heels. It had barely shut behind them before Jarrod started in on Eden.

  “Can you please just admit that it needs to end? We’ve tried talking to you, yelling. Nothing gets through to you, Eden! You were out of control last night!”

  “Hey,” Adam cautioned, taking a step closer to Jarrod. “She didn’t do it on purpose.”

  “Yeah, well she doesn’t seem to be too eager to cast aside all that power either, now does she?” Jarrod pointed out. “And it’s pretty obvious from last night that she can’t handle it after all. Not as much as she takes.”

  “Any power I take is for our benefit. You do know that’s why no one bothers us? Why Madeline doesn’t come after us? They’re afraid. They haven’t even thought of challenging.” Challenging me, she wanted to say.

  “Look at you,” Jarrod spat. “This isn’t about you saving the Siders anymore. You can’t stop. You’re addicted.” He looked her dead in the eyes. “You’re a junkie, Eden.”

  Eden felt her face grow hot.

  “Jarrod, you’re blowing this out of proportion,” Adam said.

  “You agreed with me.” Jarrod’s eyes flashed bitter sparks as he took a step closer. Mere inches separated the two. “She’s losing control.”

  “Maybe you’re just jealous you can’t do what she can,” Adam growled back. It was almost as if they’d forgotten Eden was there at all.

  “Don’t go getting all weak in the knees now that your little girlfriend is here,” Jarrod pushed.

  Adam’s punch cracked against Jarrod’s eye.

  “Stop it!” Eden screamed, th
rowing herself between them, pressing her hand against Adam’s heaving chest. “You have no idea what it’s like! They look at me like I’m the answer to their prayers.”

  “You’re obsessed with them, Eden!” Jarrod said, his hand cupped over his eye. He didn’t even pause, the built-up anger coming out in a rush. “What about us! What if Madeline had picked last night to kick you out of Manhattan and take over? You think you could have stopped her? You couldn’t even stand.”

  With each word from him she flinched, her hands clenched across her chest. “What happens when they wear you down to nothing?” he whispered, his forehead knocking against hers. “And what happens to us when they do? Don’t you care?”

  She turned her head away until his fell onto her shoulder. “I’m supposed to turn them away because I’m having a hard time? I can’t just stop, Jarrod.” Why can’t he see this is important? she thought. “They need me.”

  His sharp, sudden push sent her sprawling, sliding across the wood floor. Her mouth dropped open in shock as she came to a stop against the wall.

  Adam was on him before she could react, fisting the neck of Jarrod’s sweatshirt into a knot and lifting him off the floor.

  “Don’t you ever lay a hand on her!” he growled.

  Neither of them even noticed when Eden slunk to her bedroom, quietly locking herself in. She didn’t bother to climb into the bed, just curled into a ball on the floor next to the door. So she could hear what Adam said after, even though he’d lowered his voice to a whisper.

  “She knows how fucked up she was last night. If that doesn’t get through to her, nothing will.”

  It wasn’t until then that the tears came.

  Chapter 26

  Hours passed before anyone dared knock, but finally a soft rap sounded against the wood.

  “Eden?” Libby said through the door. She paused for a moment and then went on. “James bet me a twenty you wouldn’t open the door, and I only have Adam’s change left which isn’t even technically mine, so I was hoping…”