The Cowboy's Baby

by Giovanna Reaves

  “After being with Ryker, I don’t think I’ve ever been in love, either.” Cole turned back around. “I had stopped believing in fated mates for a while too.”

  “What changed your mind?”

  Meeting you, he wanted to say but instead, he said, “My parents. Papa told me a story about him and my dad that made me think. I want to feel the kind of love they are always talking about and it made me realize that I rushed into things with Ryker.” He looked back around and gazed into Kane’s eyes. “But with you”—he didn’t know how to phrase his words without giving away his true feelings—“things feel so easy and right.”

  “Do you think I’m the man for you?”

  “Maybe,” Cole answered.

  Kane cupped one of his cheeks before leaning in to kiss him. “We’ll figure things out because now that I have you in my life, I’m not letting you go, whether I believe in mates or not,” he said when he pulled back from their kiss.

  The doorbell rang, pulling him from his thoughts. He sighed, calming his nervous thoughts and walked to the door.

  “Hi,” he said when he opened the door.

  “Hey yourself.”

  Kane looked so good Cole wasn’t sure if he was going to be able to keep his hands off him during dinner. He had on jeans with a buttoned-down dark-blue shirt, the two top buttons were open; enticingly teasing him. He wasn’t wearing a baseball cap or any of the Stetsons that he’d seen him wear since they started officially seeing each other.

  Looking at the man now, he realized how much he’d missed him that day. They hadn’t seen each other at all, not even by choice. It just happened that they were both busy. Fingers gripped the back of his neck and lips landed on his, pulling a loud moan from him. There wasn’t a need for Kane to fight for dominance in their kiss, because he was ready to give himself freely to the man.

  “That’s how you say hello from now on,” Kane said against his lips.

  Cole nodded. “Come inside.” His voice sounded dreamy, but he couldn’t help it. Kane’s kisses always left him feeling dazed and confused.

  “I’m already inside, gorgeous.”

  Cole didn’t get to say another word as Kane took his lips in another kiss. He swallowed Cole’s hiss when his back touched the wall. Kane peppered kisses down his chin and then his neck, sucking up a mark. His fingers trailed through Kane’s curly hair, gripping onto the base of his neck before kissing his way back up to Cole’s lips.

  Their kiss was getting hot and heavy, his cock pressing against the zipper of his pants begging for release. He reached between them, palming Kane’s cock through his pants. Kane moaned into their kiss when he pinched the head of his lover’s leaking cock.

  Kane separated from their kiss, resting their foreheads together. “Gods, I want to be inside of you so fucking bad.”

  Cole opened his eyes and gazed up into the other man’s blue-gray eyes that seemed more gray than blue at the moment.

  “I want you inside of me too.”

  He leaned in and kissed Kane’s strong chin, licking his way down his neck then back up to his lips. He trailed his fingers to the zipper of his pants, pulling it down. He reached in, taking out Kane’s hard cock. He swiped his thumb across the head and brought his finger to their joined lips so they were both able to taste Kane’s precum. He reached back down gripping the other man’s hard cock, jerking it slowly.

  Kane hissed separating their kiss, once again connecting their foreheads together. Cole reached up and cupped one of his cheeks with his free hand. Kane moaned loudly as his hips started moving in tandem with Cole’s hand.

  “I want to feel you stretching me, making me scream your name.” He tightened his grip on Kane’s cock, moving his hand faster. With his other hand, he unbuckled Kane’s belt and fastenings, pushing his jeans and boxers down below his hips. Carefully and slowly Cole went to his knees, sucking Kane’s cock into his mouth, taking him as deep as he could. The size of Kane’s cock surpassed his imagination in length and girth.

  Kane howled his name and both of his hands went to the sides of Cole’s head. His head bobbed up and down, moving with the same rhythm of his hand and Kane’s hips. Saliva pooled in his mouth, making it easier for him to suck the large cock deeper into his mouth. He hollowed his cheeks, sucking harder and deeper.

  With his free hand, he cupped Kane’s balls, pulling and squeezing it gently. He tortured his lover, pulling Kane closer to the edge and then easing off. He wanted it to last just a bit longer. Sucking cock was something he enjoyed doing. It made him feel more powerful than his lover.

  “Shit, Co—”

  Kane couldn’t finish his words and it made Cole smile around the cock in his mouth. He felt his lover deserved to cum for his reward and brought him to the edge. Taking Kane’s cock to the back of his throat, moaning and releasing the firm hold he had on his testicles.

  Cole pulled his mouth back to the head when he felt the first burst of warm liquid on his tongue. Kane’s hips jerked as he orgasmed. Cole didn’t stop sucking and when he thought his lover was finished, he licked the man’s cock clean. He looked up at Kane, pleased as punch that he left his lover lost for words and breath.

  Cole pulled up Kane’s jeans and underwear and carefully tucked Kane’s cock back into his pants. He stood to his feet, not giving Kane a chance to fully catch his breath. He kissed the other man, sharing his taste between them. Kane grabbed onto his waist, trying to deepen their kiss. The timer on the oven went off reminding him of the original reason why Kane had shown up in the first place.

  “Holy shit,” Kane said. “What a way to start out the night.”

  “I’m glad you liked it.”

  “Liked it? I want an encore.”

  Cole smiled. “That will have to wait until after dinner.”

  He slipped out of Kane’s arms before he could lean down to give him a kiss.

  “Where the hell are you going?”

  “My roast will be ruined if I don’t get it out of the oven. And I still need to sauté the mixed vegetables.”

  “So, we’re having pot roast?”

  “Yup, and my famous mashed potatoes.” He walked over to the sink and washed his hands. He turned around and bumped into the wall that was Kane Cartwright. Slowly, his eyes traveled up to Kane’s eyes. “Um . . .”

  “What’s for dessert?”

  “Chocolate cake.”

  “How long will the roast keep?”

  Shit, what is this man trying to do to me? “Um . . .”

  “That’s good enough for me,” Kane said before smashing their lips together.

  The towel fell from his hands as he wrapped them around Kane’s neck. Hands slid down his back to his hips and back up to his shoulders. The groan that sounded more like a light growl turned Cole on. Kane stepped back slightly, and before he could complain, he was lifted in the air like a damsel which should have pissed him off. But all he felt was safe.

  With one arm around Kane’s neck and the other on his chest, he was carried out of the kitchen and up the stairs. Kane must have known where his room was because he passed by Marla’s room and right to his bedroom. Kane kicked the door open and gently laid him down on the bed. Cole reached up and grabbed Kane’s hand that was closest to him, pulling him down beside him. Kane cupped his upturned cheek.

  “I guess, we’re having dessert first?” Cole asked.

  He was nervous and hoped it didn’t show. He knew eventually they were going to sleep together and although he’d sucked the man’s cock not moments earlier, he was terrified. He was about six months pregnant, and was self-conscious about the changes of his body. Even though he and Ryker had their problems, the one thing he knew was the man had found him sexy, and he wasn’t sure if Kane would see him the same way.

  “Why are you nervous?” Kane asked. Apparently, he didn’t hide it well.

  “I wanted our first time together to be perfect,” he whispered.

  “It doesn’t need to be perfect. I just need you to be here
with me.” He leaned down and kissed Cole on his lips.

  He opened himself up to Kane, trusting the other man to not let him fall. Kane kissed and licked all the way down to his neck. Slowly, Kane’s hands went to his stomach and Cole froze. Kane realized and raised his head.

  “Open your eyes.”

  Cole would have objected but the way Kane spoke to him, he knew that he couldn’t. Slowly he opened his eyes and stared into the other man’s gray-blue eyes.

  “Watch me,” Kane said.

  Kane’s hands went to the first button on his shirt and popped it open. He went to the next button and then the next until he got to the last. He pushed the shirt aside revealing Cole’s small baby bump. Kane stared down at his belly not saying anything. The uncomfortable feelings about his body came back and he was about to get up, but Kane stopped him by placing a hand on his stomach.

  Wow. Kane thought. I knew he was pregnant but seeing it up close is something different.

  A small pang of hurt crawled its way to his heart. He wanted the child that Cole was carrying to be his. He couldn’t change that. He knew that he wanted Cole even if he wasn’t pregnant. And he wanted to be the man, and possibly the father, the child and Cole would need. Kane placed a hand on Cole’s stomach then looked up at the man. The look on his face crushed his heart.

  “Gods, you’re beautiful.”

  “You’re just saying that to make me feel better. I’m fat and not sexy like I used to be.” Cole turned his head, looking the other way.

  He sighed and scooted up the bed. Taking Cole by the chin, he turned his face to his.

  “I think you just called me a liar. That’s one thing you need to know about me. I never say things I don’t mean.” He reached down and rested a hand on Cole’s belly. “The day you got out of the car I thought you were handsome then, and even more now.”

  Cole stared at him and Kane saw the signs of tears in the corner of his eyes. “I’m not usually superficial, but since I’ve realized the change in my body, I can’t help but feel a bit self-conscious around you.”

  “Don’t be,” Kane told him. He leaned down and kissed Cole on his lips. “Don’t ever hide away from me. I want to see all of you,” he said looking down at him.

  “You might not like the real me, once you get to know me.”

  “I doubt that,” Kane said to him.

  They gazed at each other and Kane knew he needed to take his time that night loving every inch of Cole. Because although he was ready to be in the man’s life, he didn’t want Cole to have any doubts about them.

  “I want this,” he said honestly. “I don’t want to make promises I can’t keep. And I will have doubts about things: like am I the partner you need or”—he paused for a few seconds and looked down at Cole’s stomach—“the father that your baby will need.”

  “I don’t know if I will be a good dad, either,” Cole said. “But maybe we could try together.”

  “I’d like that. I’d like to be in both of your lives.” Kane lay on his back and pulled Cole with him. They lay halfway on the bed, the thought of sex was in the back of his mind.

  “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to break the mood.”

  Kane smiled. “You didn’t do anything wrong. I just realized how much I care about you and your feelings. I’ve never cared about anyone I’ve slept with.”

  They lay silently on the bed and after a while, Cole fell asleep. Gently, Kane kissed him on the crown of his head before slipping out from under the sleeping man. He sat up and stared down at Cole and smiled. After that electrifying blowjob earlier that night, he had planned to take the other man to his bedroom and fuck him until he saw stars. But that didn’t happen.

  Things changed and Kane realized that being with Cole meant nothing was ever going to be the same. Maybe that was what he needed all along and why no one ever caught his attention the way Cole did. The unpredictability of having his world turned upside down didn’t scare him as much as it should have. He got up from the bed and made his way down the stairs.

  The cabin wasn’t that big, it was the same as all the other guest cabins. Everything was within a stone’s throw. He looked at the table and saw that the candles that Cole had lit earlier for their romantic dinner had gone out, and on the kitchen counter the chopped vegetables were still there waiting to be cooked.

  He’d had the foresight to turn off the oven before he had taken the other man up to his bedroom with the hope of having his way with him. Sighing he started cleaning up, putting the vegetables in a container and placing it in the fridge for later. He walked over to the oven just as his stomach growled, reminding him that he hadn’t eaten.

  Taking the roast out of the oven, he lifted the lid off it and the delicious scent assaulted him. He wasn’t in the mood for mashed potatoes and looked around for some bread and made a sandwich for himself. He sat down at the table and ate as he looked around once more. Sooner or later Cole was going to need to move.

  Once he had the baby, he was going to need his own place. Then a thought occurred to him, but he didn’t know if Cole was going to go for it. The man held on to his independence like a badge of honor. He realized that he would need help in convincing Cole to move in with him. He had a large house with rooms that needed to be filled with joy and not his silent brooding.

  “I’m such a terrible date.”

  Kane looked up and saw Cole standing at the bottom of the stairs. He extended his hand for the other man to come over to him. He wrapped his arms around Cole’s waist.

  “You’re not a terrible date. Although, I’ve never had anyone fall asleep on me before I got the chance to take them to bed.” He smiled before taking a bite of his sandwich. Cole’s stomach was right by his ear and he chuckled when he heard the loud grumbling.

  “It seems someone is hungry.” He looked up and Cole was looking down at his sandwich. “I could make you one.”

  “No, I can do it.”

  He turned away from Kane and grabbed the bread and started making his sandwich. Or should he say concoction because the only thing he recognized was the meat and the bread, everything else was completely unrecognizable. When he finally sat down and started to eat, Kane lost his appetite.

  “I begged this kid not to let me eat anything too gross, but I guess the kid couldn’t help it.” He took a large bite of his sandwich and moaned. And all Kane could think was he wished he was the one making him moan like that. When Cole’s tongue peeked out to lick the sauce from the corner of his lips, he had to shift in his chair because his cock was starting to show a lot of interest.

  Needing something to do to keep his mind and body off sex, he decided to bring up a conversation. “Do you know what you’re having?”

  “I do, but I’m not telling anyone yet.”

  Kane smiled. “Why the secrecy?”

  Cole shrugged a shoulder. “I want it to be a surprise for everyone. I know that my dads are planning a baby shower so I’ll tell them then. Besides, if I tell them what I’m having ahead of time they will go crazy and buy out an entire store.”

  “They are happy to be grandparents. Can’t fault them for that.”

  “I’m not faulting them for being happy,” he said then sighed. “I might not look it, but I’m scared as hell and at the same time I want to do this by myself.”

  Kane could understand that. After he took over running the ranch, he tried to do everything alone. It worked out well for him in the beginning until he realized he couldn’t do everything on his own and be everywhere he needed to be at the same time. It was a hard lesson to learn: to depend on others.

  “You don’t have to do this by yourself. You have a ranch full of hands who pretty much adopted you in some way.”

  “And what about you? Are you one of them?”

  He looked up with pleading eyes that broke Kane’s heart. Getting up from his seat, he walked over to Cole. He extended a hand to the other man who placed a hand in his. Kane pulled Cole up from his chair and rested his hands on the
other’s hips.

  “Move in with me?”

  Cole’s eyes widened. “What?”

  Kane couldn’t believe he’d just done that. It wasn’t what he was going to say, but the words flew out of his mouth before he could stop himself.

  “I—I—” Cole stuttered. “I don’t think that’s a good idea.” He pulled his hand away from Kane’s and stepped around him. “I mean we don’t know each other well enough. And we just started seeing each other.”

  “Wait, I think you have it wrong,” Kane said turning around. “I like you, a lot. And I’m not going to lie, I want to have you begging me to fuck you all night and calling my name if it’s any indication from earlier. But you are going to need a place to stay once you have the baby. And I live in a big house with lots of room. You can have your own room and so will the baby.”

  Cole stared at him and Kane wondered if he’d explained himself properly.

  “Look, it’s no rush. I want us to last, but I don’t want to rush you into anything you don’t want to do.” Kane stepped closer to him. “This whole relationship thing is new to me. I’ve never wanted to let anyone into my world before and with you, I’m ready to let you in, and for the life of me I don’t know why.”

  “That’s because I’m likable,” Cole said with a smile.

  Kane smiled back. “That might be it.”

  They were silent for a while, staring at each other before Cole spoke. “Can I think about it? I’m not saying yes or no, I just need time to sort things out.” He closed his eyes and sighed. “I promised myself never to get involved with my boss ever again and here I am about to have another man’s baby and praying to all the gods that you still want me after what happened tonight.”

  Kane cupped his cheeks and raised his head. “Never doubt that I want you.” He leaned down and kissed him softly on the lips then stepped away.

  They gazed at each other and there was a different atmosphere from the one earlier and he wondered if Cole could feel it. Cole leaned forward and pressed their lips together. His hands slipped down from his cheeks to his hips, pulling him in as close as he could. Cole opened his lips letting Kane in.