This Time, Forever

by Pamela Britton

  Praise for Pamela Britton

  “Britton creates another fast-moving, heartrending romance where love triumphs, even in adverse conditions.”

  —RT Book Reviews on Slow Burn

  “This new installment in Britton’s NASCAR series is the best yet. It not only brings alive the sport but also the emotional roller coaster of those who have a loved one suffering from cancer. The story is heart-achingly real but also wonderfully hopeful. It’s an incredible read.”

  —RT Book Reviews on Total Control

  “To the Limit is a smooth read… It’s a well-written racing story with romance, fun and excitement!”

  —Joyfully Reviewed

  Praise for Dorien Kelly

  “Complex characters facing multiple challenges make this novel a page-turner.”

  —RT Book Reviews on Over the Wall

  “Warmly appealing thanks to its assured prose and deft characterizations.”

  —Publishers Weekly on Hot Nights in Ballymuir

  “[The hero] is fabulous—if he’s not the perfect male, he’s close—and Kelly makes good use of attraction between the characters…as they draw closer in this singularly intense romance.”

  —RT Book Reviews on The Littlest Matchmaker

  PAMELA BRITTON

  Before the glitz and glamour of NASCAR, Pamela wrote books that were frequently voted the best of the best by The Detroit Free Press, Barnes & Noble (two years in a row) and RT Book Reviews. She’s won numerous writing awards, including a National Reader’s Choice Award, and a nomination for Romance Writers of America’s Golden Heart.

  When not following the race circuit, Pamela writes full-time from her ranch in Northern California, where she lives with her husband, daughter and, at last count, twenty-one four-legged friends. Pamela’s always happy to hear from readers. You can reach her through her website, www.pamelabritton.com, or via regular mail at: P.O. Box 804, Cottonwood, CA 96022.

  DORIEN KELLY

  lives in Michigan with one or more of her three children, two westies and a special-needs coonhound named Bubba. When she’s not writing, she’s simply avoiding her writing deadlines. Or possibly out having fun….

  This Time, Forever

  Pamela Britton & Dorien Kelly

  CONTENTS

  PROLOGUE

  An excerpt from Hilton Branch’s journal

  OVER THE TOP

  Pamela Britton

  CHAPTER ONE

  CHAPTER TWO

  CHAPTER THREE

  CHAPTER FOUR

  CHAPTER FIVE

  CHAPTER SIX

  CHAPTER SEVEN

  CHAPTER EIGHT

  CHAPTER NINE

  CHAPTER TEN

  CHAPTER ELEVEN

  TALK TO ME

  Dorien Kelly

  CHAPTER ONE

  CHAPTER TWO

  CHAPTER THREE

  CHAPTER FOUR

  CHAPTER FIVE

  CHAPTER SIX

  CHAPTER SEVEN

  CHAPTER EIGHT

  CHAPTER NINE

  CHAPTER TEN

  EPILOGUE

  An excerpt from Hilton Branch’s prison journal…

  You can always count on Maeve. I don’t know how she managed it, what she had to say to get Penny to visit, but somehow she did. I couldn’t explain everything in a letter. Who knows who is reading my mail in this godforsaken place?

  So she came here, my princess, to this place that stinks of misery. And she looked at me with pity instead of the admiration my little girl always had for her daddy. It was a bitter pill.

  Far more bitter, though, was my news for her.

  She cried, my Penny. And hates me a little more for the fresh evidence of my disloyalty.

  I had to explain, too, about the money I’d put in Fred Clifton’s hands for safekeeping for Rose and her girls. The look of betrayal in Penny’s eyes killed me. Nearly everything she had was tied up in my company’s stock, and when it collapsed, she was nearly bankrupt, just like her mother and her brothers. To learn that I’d made provisions for a second family when I hadn’t protected my first one…

  Never have I felt more a failure as a man. Rose would hate me, too, if she knew.

  But she may hate me already for my desertion, never knowing that I did it to protect her.

  I can almost live with that, as long as she’s safe—she, and her Amelia and our Lily.

  I’ve run out of options. I talked to the prison shrink, the only person in this place I can trust. I laid out the threats and asked her—begged her—to go to the police with them. Not for me, but for my loved ones. My children and Rose.

  Dr. Danforth didn’t say it in so many words, but the message was clear—my credibility is in question. The police know that I’ve lied to them before and don’t trust me now.

  I’d lie for attention, they say. Because I need to feel important.

  Damn them—in former days, they would have been jumping when I snapped my fingers. Now lives—good lives, worthy lives, precious lives—are at stake, and all I hear about are jurisdictional issues. That it will take time.

  I don’t have time. My children don’t have time. Saunders had men stake me out in the exercise yard. They made it clear that they could take my life between one heartbeat and the next.

  He doesn’t understand that my own life means nothing to me now.

  But my children’s lives mean everything.

  I cannot wait for the authorities to act. And so I begged my daughter to help Rose and her daughters. In the end, the mother in Penny won out—she has agreed to look for Rose and Lily and Amelia and help me keep them safe. She will talk to her brothers, too, and warn them.

  She didn’t promise to return to visit, however. Seeing her frigid contempt was a blow. Maeve was right when she told me that, in my search for wealth and power, I sacrificed the real treasure that was my children’s love.

  I did better with Lily, in our brief time together, but that is small comfort now.

  All I can do is sit back and hope.

  Over the Top

  Pamela Britton

  For all my coffee shop pals…

  you know who you are. You guys make my days brighter!

  CHAPTER ONE

  “HE’S here.”

  Marley Sizemore glanced up from the document she’d been studying and resisted the urge to shake her head. There was no need to ask who he was. Linc Shepherd, Double S Racing’s newest driver was slated to arrive today, and she knew for a fact that Emma-Lee Dalton was one of his biggest fans, something her new boyfriend, Holt Forrester, seemed to put up with.

  “Well then, what are you doing up here?” Marley teased. “You should be downstairs, asking for an autograph.”

  Emma-Lee looked like a cat who’d just seen the world’s biggest mouse. “Oh. Do you think he’d mind? I’ve always wanted to get his autograph. I even have one of his die-cast cars at home; the first car he drove. The one he won the NASCAR Sprint Cup Series champion ship in. Shoot. I should have brought it with me today.”

  Marley couldn’t keep herself from chuckling. Emma-Lee was her boss’s personal assistant, a dynamo of energy that could make even the grumpiest of individuals smile.

  “Take heart,” Marley said. “He’s going to be around for a long time.” Well, as long as most drivers stuck around—which wasn’t long…normally. “You can bring your die-cast to work tomorrow.”

  “You’re right,” Emma-Lee said with an answering grin, blue eyes as bright as a Christmas morning. “I’ve got all the time in the world. This is going to be so great. I can’t believe Linc Shepherd is actually going to drive for us.”

  At least one of them was happy, Marley thought, her smile fading a bit. She’d wanted to kill her brother for hiring the f
amous driver. But that was the problem with working for a family member—in this instance, the owner of Double S Racing—sometimes you reverted right back to childhood and the days when you were good at ignoring each other—even when you knew the other person was right.

  Linc Shepherd should retire.

  Everyone in racing knew it. Sports Scene magazine had even written a piece about it. After the plane crash that had nearly taken his life two years ago, he’d been out of it. But Linc seemed to think he was as good as new. Unfortunately, one only had to watch Linc walk to know that wasn’t true. He’d been in a wheelchair for six months—and it showed. But Gil was convinced Linc still had what it took. Her brother saw “confidence in the man’s eyes,” whatever that meant.

  “You coming down?” Emma-Lee asked, glancing back down the hall as if Linc might be right behind her.

  “In a minute or two,” Marley said. “I’ve got something I need to finish.”

  Emma-Lee nodded, the blond curls she could never seem to tame jiggling around her like birthday ribbons. “I better get going before your brother notices I’m gone,” she said. “I just thought you should know Elvis is in the building.”

  She ducked back out the door before Marley could form a retort.

  Elvis, indeed.

  Sure there’d been a time back when her brother had first gotten into racing when she’d thought Linc Shepherd was a god. She’d been a naive teenager back then, so consumed by racing that she’d pestered her brother into letting her accompany him into the garage. He’d finally given in, but only because she wouldn’t let the matter drop: she’d had a massive crush on Linc and nothing was going to keep her from meeting him. Not anymore. Lord, she still couldn’t believe how idiotic she’d been. After everything she’d done to gain his attention, she wouldn’t blame Linc if he took one look at her and ran in the other direction—like a trophy elk eluding hunters.

  But that was in the past. Time to focus on work.

  That proved impossible. If she were honest with herself, she could admit that she was as worked up about Linc’s arrival as everyone else at Double S Racing, albeit for different reasons.

  “Guess I should just get this over with,” she muttered to herself.

  “Get what over with?”

  Marley just about shot out of her chair.

  What the hell was he doing in her office?

  He was the equivalent of a male panther, right down to the sleek black hair and aloof gray eyes. Those eyes always seemed to smolder whenever gazing at women. In her youth she’d mistaken that gleam as male interest. Now she knew better. Now she recognized what she saw was nothing more than the feral glimmer of a stray cat. Rumor had it he’d had more girlfriends than a male Siamese. When she went to the track these days, she mainly stayed in the sponsor suite, but the few times she’d bumped into him in the garage, he’d always had a gorgeous woman on his arm.

  “Linc,” she said in what she hoped was a normal voice. “What a surprise,” she said.

  He had not, she admitted, lost one iota of his sex appeal.

  Not one.

  “Gil said I should come up and see you. Said you had a big fish on the line.”

  Big fish? What big fish? What was he talking about?

  “That’d be great if you could solidify a sponsorship deal before my first NASCAR Sprint Cup Series race next week.”

  Sponsorship. Duh. God, what was it with her? Two seconds in his company and she was already losing brain cells. Did his male testosterone suck it right out of her? Was she the equivalent of a stepped-on sponge?

  “Um, yeah…” She looked at her computer screen for a moment and tried to recover some of her intellect. “I’m going to try.”

  It had been years since she’d seen him, she realized. He’d been at the top of his game back then. On the verge of winning a second championship. And then—tragedy. The plane he’d been flying in had crash landed. All on board had been killed, including his best friend.

  And yet he claimed to be ready to get back to work again. In vain she searched his eyes for evidence of the killer instinct Gil had talked about. All she saw was a man who seemed just the tiniest bit nervous, maybe even a little scared. That took her aback for a moment.

  “Who is it? If you don’t mind me asking.”

  “Actually,” she said, “I’d rather not say. At least not until I talk to them some more.”

  He came into her office then, and the minute he stepped through her door, it was as if a comic book character had entered the room. One of the big ones—like The Incredible Hulk or Wolverine. He made her feel all small and diminutive, the same, damn way she’d felt when she’d been a teenager and she’d crossed paths with him. Over the years she’d attributed that feeling to pubescent hormones.

  Guess not.

  “Why?” he asked, pulling a chair out and sitting down.

  “Shouldn’t you be cutting the ribbon on your new car or something?” she asked, trying to maintain her composure. Her gaze found the door, a part of her contemplating the distance between her desk and the exit and how long it’d take for her to get there.

  Calm down.

  You’re acting like a moron. He’s just a man. A washed-up race car driver who’d limped as he’d walked toward her. A man who apparently recognized how important she was to him, judging by the anxiety in his eyes.

  “I thought it was more important to speak to you. If you’ve got a potential sponsor interested in financing the No. 459 car, I’ll do anything you want. Anything. You just say the word.”

  I’ll do anything.

  Had he used the words on purpose? Did he remember when she’d said pretty much the same thing to him? Albeit she’d been trying to get him to notice her and had come up with the brilliant idea of being his personal assistant in order to do so. She would never forget the look on his face when she volunteered for the job.

  “Anything?” she repeated softly.

  Something in his eyes flickered. He did remember. “Yeah, anything.”

  It was déjà vu. Only this time she had the upper hand. Back then he’d brushed her off as if she were no more than a summer mosquito that happened to land on his arm. She’d been crushed. Not many days later, Gil had insisted she stay home on race days. She wondered now, as she did back then, if Linc had lodged a complaint about Double S Racing’s gawky teenage mascot.

  She stood up suddenly, held out her hand. “Good to know, Mr. Shepherd. I’ll be certain to take you up on that offer should the need arise. Thank you for stopping by.”

  Atta girl. Show him who’s boss…and that you’re no longer a seventeen-year-old girl consumed by puppy love.

  “You never answered my question,” he said, ignoring her hand and continuing to sit.

  She should have recalled then just exactly who this was. A man who made his living by keeping his cool. Someone who was dark and dangerous and predatory toward women. Someone who was good at maintaining the upper hand, despite the fear she saw in his eyes.

  How had her brother missed that?

  “What question?” she asked, her hand dropping to her side.

  He slowly stood, those feral gray eyes of his narrowing a bit. “Who’s interested in sponsoring me?”

  “And like I said, Mr. Shepherd, I’d really rather not say. At least until the deal progresses a little further.”

  They were at a standoff, Marley wondering when the last time was someone had stood up to him—specifically a woman. He was such a good-looking man, she would bet he was notoriously spoiled where women were concerned. But she refused to be a doormat. Not again.

  “I see,” he said.

  “Although it’s nothing personal,” she said, part of her wondering why she was being so secretive. It wasn’t like her to withhold information like this, especially from a driver. “I just don’t want word to leak out. You know how it is. Someone might hear we’re talking to so-and-so and the next thing you know, so-and-so’s phone is ringing off the hook with a million other people t
rying to convince so-and-so why their driver is the one they should sponsor. It can get crazy.”

  “Did you tell him about Shelter Home Improvement?”

  Marley nearly groaned out loud. What rotten timing.

  “You know,” her brother added. “I think it’d be great if he went down there with you.” At six foot three, Gil Sizemore was a big man and so he filled the doorway much as Linc did, her brother stopping alongside Linc’s chair.

  “Shelter Home Improvement, huh?” Linc said, his eyes twinkling.

  “Down where?” Marley asked, ignoring him.

  “Down to Atlanta,” he said, “to meet with Shelter Home Improvement.”

  Linc’s gaze settled on her. Was she imagining things, or was that a smile hovering on his lips? She hated when he looked at her like that—as if he was recalling the world’s greatest stand-up comedy act, but he wasn’t going to share that information with her. It was an expression she remembered from her younger years, although back then he’d looked at her like that after she’d offered to wash his race car. She noticed, too, that some of his anxiety had faded. No doubt he was pleased that such a big fish was willing to talk to him about sponsorship.

  “Go down to Atlanta with you,” Linc said. “That sounds like a great idea.”

  “Actually, I think it might be better if I do that meeting alone.”

  “Nonsense,” Gil said. “Just think what a thrill that’ll be for the bigwigs at Shelter Home Improvement. I’ll get Emma-Lee started on the arrangements right away.”

  And then her brother was gone, leaving behind a quiet akin to the stunned silence that followed a pistol blast.