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Gena/Finn

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by Kat Helgeson


  got your weird number text,

  thanks, why am I sending

  you this when you won’t get

  it. Hey future Evie.

  Text with Alanah

  hey girl. hows college?

  crestland’s amazing.

  levine’s a good kisser

  lolllllllllllll

  Aug 14, 9:17 PM

  hey come on i miss you.

  we’re okay right? trying

  to be a grown up and shit

  Aug 15, 11:26 AM

  come visit slut best parties

  Aug 15, 10:26 PM

  Text with Dad

  sorry about no service, bug!

  should be back now.

  Aug 19, 4:20 PM

  sorry, just found out that was

  only our service!

  fixed now, right?

  Sept 9, 5:06 PM

  Text with +1 (416) 555-9173

  is this genevieve goldman?

  Aug 16, 5:33 PM

  oh sorry this is zack

  Text with John C.

  i’ve been trying to call you

  you’re not even answering

  emails now?

  Aug 17, 10:20 AM

  that girl carolyn you texted

  me from was a bitch btw

  probably majoring in

  Unhelpful

  Aug 17, 10:50 AM

  genevieve i love you

  Text with +1 (401) 555-9942

  Automated Message from

  the Oakmoor Student Health

  Center. We are unable to

  fill your prescription without

  confirmation of your

  insurance information. Please

  come to the Student Health

  Center to resolve this issue

  at your earliest convenience.

  Text with Finn

  on your way?

  in cab now en route to

  airport

  is this going to ruin things with

  charlie?

  fuck charlie

  Sept 10, 1:49 PM

  is this gonna piss off your

  roommate?

  let’s hope

  Sept 10, 1:55 PM

  im a fucking homewrecker

  Sept 10, 2:23 PM

  sorry I was going through

  security

  they didn’t find my weapons

  of mass destruction

  oh good

  this feels like coming home

  Text with Zack

  hey it’s genevieve. you had the

  right number

  Sept 10, 2:41 PM

  gena!!

  hey :)

  actually have some downtime

  right now, can i call/email?

  email’s probably best, i’m a

  mess

  k

  from: Zack Martocchio

  to: Genevieve Goldman

  date: Wednesday, September 10 2:56 PM

  subject: :-/

  Hey lady. Been thinking about you a lot, didn’t know what to say.

  The truth is it’s been hella tough not knowing what you were up to, and maybe after nine years that’s really fucking pathetic. Maybe it’s that my whole damn childhood was with you or maybe it’s that I looked you up a few times and couldn’t ever find you (I’m not sure I would know how to use my fucking email if I didn’t have a PA to tell me, thank you TV business for helping stupid people survive) but I don’t think it’s because of how you left so if that makes you feel any better then...let it.

  That’s never going to be who you were to me. You were just this sweet fucking little kid who got fucked up by the system and the stress and maybe a little by that too smart for your own good brain of yours but mostly by those chemicals like you said.

  I guess what I wanted to say is you’re not like a Jake, dorky little fangirl.

  So don’t worry.

  --big brother

  from: Genevieve Goldman

  to: Zack Martocchio

  date: Wednesday, September 10 3:14 PM

  subject: RE: :-/

  big bro--

  you’re not stupid. possibly wrong (if you heard my soggy i’ve-just-been-crying-my-eyes-out voice you might not be so confident about not-crazy) but not stupid. so shut up. i hear you use that in interviews all the time, aww i’m just a dumb head of hair. doesn’t work on me.

  just like me being kind of evasive and sarcastic hasn’t worked on you, huh. we can’t get anything past each other.

  --little sis

  from: Zack Martocchio

  to: Genevieve Goldman

  date: Wednesday, September 10 3:17 PM

  subject: RE: :-/

  Except that we do. Maybe we shouldn’t be trying to do that.

  --bb

  from: Genevieve Goldman

  to: Zack Martocchio

  date: Wednesday, September 10 3:18 PM

  subject: RE: :-/

  except that we do. --ls

  from: Zack Martocchio

  to: Genevieve Goldman

  date: Wednesday, September 10 3:22 PM

  subject: :’(

  Why were you crying?

  from: Genevieve Goldman

  to: Zack Martocchio

  date: Wednesday, September 10 3:25 PM

  subject: no no no

  ugh no i’m so bored of me. tell me about you. you and toby really as close as you tell people? is the girlfriend real or a publicity stunt?

  keep in mind i will, of course, be selling all your answers to tabloids.

  from: Zack Martocchio

  to: Genevieve Goldman

  date: Wednesday, September 10 3:30 PM

  subject: :) infinity.jpg

  Aww, yeah, Toby’s the best. Except when he’s being a dick to you, obviously. (Seriously, he feels so bad. He’s making you A CAKE when you come. It’s gonna be awful, trust me, I know the guy.)

  Miranda’s real! Actually has been for way longer than people think. We dated on and off through HS and we’ve been solid for the past four years. She’s fucking unstoppable, I’ll try to make sure she’s on set one of the days you’re here. She hates tv so she’s kind of awful but I love her. I’m attaching her with my cat on her head.

  from: Genevieve Goldman

  to: Zack Martocchio

  date: Wednesday, September 10 3:32 PM

  subject: ;D

  sweet lord that’s adorable.

  from: Zack Martocchio

  to: Genevieve Goldman

  date: Wednesday, September 10 3:33 PM

  subject: :$

  Yeah, his name’s Buzz Lightyear. My nephew named him.

  from: Genevieve Goldman

  to: Zack Martocchio

  date: Wednesday, September 10 3:34 PM

  subject: XD

  i meant the girl!

 
from: Zack Martocchio

  to: Genevieve Goldman

  date: Wednesday, September 10 3:35 PM

  subject: :p

  Ahhhh I see. I like the cat better.

  from: Genevieve Goldman

  to: Zack Martocchio

  date: Wednesday, September 10 3:36 PM

  subject: :-,

  stupid big brother.

  from: Zack Martocchio

  to: Genevieve Goldman

  date: Wednesday, September 10 3:37 PM

  subject: :’(

  So come on. Why were you crying?

  from: Genevieve Goldman

  to: Zack Martocchio

  date: Wednesday, September 10 3:44 PM

  subject: (no subject)

  i think i’m ruining my best friend’s life.

  from: Zack Martocchio

  to: Genevieve Goldman

  date: Wednesday, September 10 3:47 PM

  subject: RE: (no subject)

  Boy or girl?

  from: Genevieve Goldman

  to: Zack Martocchio

  date: Wednesday, September 10 3:52 PM

  subject: RE: (no subject)

  girl. stephanie. goes by finn. she was at the con but you probably don’t remember.

  from: Zack Martocchio

  to: Genevieve Goldman

  date: Wednesday, September 10 3:54 PM

  subject: RE: (no subject)

  Eesh, sorry, yeah, there was a lot of people there. Cute, though.

  from: Genevieve Goldman

  to: Zack Martocchio

  date: Wednesday, September 10 3:55 PM

  subject: RE: (no subject)

  yeah, she is.

  from: Zack Martocchio

  to: Genevieve Goldman

  date: Wednesday, September 10 3:57 PM

  subject: |:-)

  I meant the name...

  from: Genevieve Goldman

  to: Zack Martocchio

  date: Wednesday, September 10 4:04 PM

  subject: :$ :$ :$

  fuuuuuuuck

  from: Zack Martocchio

  to: Genevieve Goldman

  date: Wednesday, September 10 4:08 PM

  subject: :D

  Still crushing on girls, curious little eight year old?

  from: Genevieve Goldman

  to: Zack Martocchio

  date: Wednesday, September 10 4:11 PM

  subject: :(

  is that relevant?

  from: Zack Martocchio

  to: Genevieve Goldman

  date: Wednesday, September 10 4:12 PM

  subject: :p

  You tell me.

  from: Genevieve Goldman

  to: Zack Martocchio

  date: Wednesday, September 10 4:38 PM

  subject: (no subject)

  she’s married. practically. okay not practically. but her boyfriend wants to marry her and deep down she wants to marry him and she doesn’t know but i do, except the husband has (WE HAVEN’T) set this up as a genevieve vs charlie kind of situation and right now she’s on her way to me so like...god, fuck me. i don’t know why my tendency for pushing everyone away the second after i let them in doesn’t apply to her. she’s immune to me like you are i guess.

  and maybe that’s the issue, that you both have this weird thing where you know too many parts of me. i mean we didn’t talk in years and you still know me better than my ex-boyfriend who thinks he loves me because i’m good in bed and i held his hand when his mom was dying and i let him read my weird feminist poetry from my high school phase back when i hated everyone and not just me. and him.

  but you know weird child actor me and crazy me and now you know eighteen year old rambly me and you’re not judging me for coming to a con for your show like a stalker person or for running out of there or for, let’s hope, having crushes on girls. ex-boy

  didn’t get all of that. ex-bff didn’t get all of that. because why would i tell people? why is telling someone everything something people need? i didn’t have you for years and as nice as it is talking now, and as much as i all the time thought about getting in touch with you, it wasn’t because i needed you to fill some void in my life and i’m pretty sure you feel the same way so whatever.

  and then Finn comes along.

  this fucking girl, she has no damn idea how amazing she is, and i think if she did then maybe she’d understand why charlie loves her enough to marry her and there we go to the part where i’m ruining my best friend’s life, because instead of telling her she’s amazing i’m letting her come stay with me, and instead of telling her she needs to forget me and let him love her i’m letting her come stay with me, and instead of feeling bad about those things i’m here crying because i know that at some point she’s going to have to leave and go back home and i don’t want her to

  she knows everything about me. she knows about man of the house. she knows about me coming to your show. she knows about my parents never being home and the issues i’m having right now at college and weird shit i’m into in bed and what i want

  to do when i grow up and how i went crazy and how i hear fire alarms in my sleep and how i think i might be going crazy again and what if i tell her too much and finally push her away, and why haven’t i figured out how to do that yet.

  i’m crying because my practically-married friend can’t live with me in my dorm forever.

  so there you go.

  from: Zack Martocchio

  to: Genevieve Goldman

  date: Wednesday, September 10 4:49 PM

  subject: RE: (no subject)

  College is bad?

  --bb

  from: Genevieve Goldman

  to: Zack Martocchio

  date: Wednesday, September 10 4:53 PM

  subject: RE: (no subject)

  i have to go, she’ll be here soon.

  Text with John C.

  you don’t love me

  wtf? THAT’S what you have

  to say? i’ve been fucking

  FREAKING OUT.

  why

  because going back to

  acting is your version of

  suicide.

  suicide is my version of suicide

  is that supposed to be a

  joke?

  stop telling me you love me.

  fine.

  you don’t even know me

  what the hell?

  you know me knowing you.

  three haikus scrawled on the back

  of an
A-minus paper

  Important Things

  I've grown pretty sure

  that I am two-thirds cliche.

  One-third girl. Or you.

  Pretty Things

  I sat still. You tore

  us to pieces. I pictured

  sweet photos of me.

  Real Things

  But, dear, the truth is

  no one wants to hear these things.

  Even me. Sorry.

  browser history, September 10

  From SocialGrace.net

  KevinAce writes: “Is it normal to have friends who are four or five years younger than me?”

  Foodie writes: “My best friend is five years younger. I don’t think it’s that strange.”

  BaseballFan writes: “It is when you’re kids, but as you get older age matters less and less. You can be 35 and have a friend who’s 30, and that isn’t weird at all.”

  Admin writes: “Age doesn’t matter, but if your feelings go beyond friendship you should tread carefully until both parties involved are of age. -- Grace”

  From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

  Rhode Island’s official nickname is “The Ocean State,” a reference

  to the state’s geography, since Rhode Island has several large bays and inlets that amount to about 14% of its total area. Its land area is 1,045 square miles (2,710 km2), but its total area is significantly larger.

  From Oakmoor.edu

  Oakmoor students make up a vibrant community with a zest for life. Both in and out of the classroom, young men and women of Oakmoor are curious and involved citizens of the world. Ours is a close-knit community that offers a unique camaraderie. Indeed, the bonds formed here are truly life-long friendships.

 

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