The Complete Vampire Chronicles 12-Book Bundle (The Vampire Chronicles)

by Rice, Anne

  “Yes.…”

  “But they weren’t. They were psalms that never appeared in any Bible. I figured that much out, simply by comparing them to other Latin reprints of the same period that I got out of the library. This was some sort of original work. Then the illustrations, the illustrations contained not only tiny animals and trees and fruit but naked people, and the naked people were doing all sorts of things!”

  “Bosch.”

  “Exactly, like Bosch’s Garden of Earthly Delights, that kind of luscious sensuous paradise! Of course, I hadn’t seen Bosch’s painting yet in the Prado. But it was here in miniature in these books. Little figures frolicking beneath the abundant trees. Old Captain said, ‘Garden of Eden imagery,’ that it was very common. But two books full of it? No. This was different. I had to crack these books, get an absolutely clear translation of every word.

  “And then Old Captain did the kindest thing for me he’d ever done, the thing that might have made a great religious leader out of me, and may still make one in Dora, though hers is wholly another creed.”

  “He gave you the books.”

  “Yes! He gave me the books. And let me tell you more. That summer, he took me all over the country to look at medieval manuscripts! We went to the Huntington Library in Pasadena, and the Newbury Library in Chicago. We went to New York. He would have taken me to England, but my mother said no.

  “I saw all types of medieval books! And I came to know that Wynken’s were unlike any others. Wynken’s were blasphemous and profane. And nobody, nobody at any of these libraries had a book by Wynken de Wilde, but the name was known!

  “Captain still let me keep the books! And I set to work on translating them right away. Old Captain died in the front room, the first week of my senior year. I didn’t even start school till after he was buried. I refused to leave him. I sat there with him. He slipped into a coma. By the third day of the coma, you could not have told who he was, his face had so changed. He didn’t close his eyes anymore, and didn’t know they were open, and his mouth was just a slack sort of oval, and his breath came in even gasps. I sat there. I told you.”

  “I believe you.”

  “Yes, well, I was seventeen, my mother was very sick, there wasn’t any money for college, which every other senior boy at Jesuit was talking about, and I was dreaming of flower children in the Haight Ashbury of California, listening to the songs of Joan Baez, and thinking that I would go to San Francisco with the message of Wynken de Wilde, and found a cult.

  “This was what I knew then through translation. And in that regard I had had the help of an old priest at Jesuit for quite some time, one of those genuinely brilliant Latin scholars who has to spend half the day making boys behave. He had done the translation for me gladly, and of course there was a little of the usual promise in it of my proximity and intimacy, he and I being alone and close for hours.”

  “So you were selling yourself again, even before Old Captain died?”

  “No. Not really. Not the way you think. Well, sort of. Only this priest was a genuine celibate, Irish, almost impossible to understand now, this sort of priest. They never did anything to anyone. I doubt they even masturbated. It was all being near boys and occasionally breathing heavily or something. Nowadays religious life doesn’t attract that particular kind of robust and completely repressed individual. A man like that could no more molest a child than he could get up on the altar at Mass and start to shout.”

  “He didn’t know he felt an attraction for you, that he was giving you special favors.”

  “Precisely, and so he spent hours with me translating Wynken. He kept me from going crazy. He always stopped in to visit with Old Captain. If Old Captain had been Catholic, Father Kevin would have given him the Last Rites. Try to understand this, will you? You can’t judge people like Old Captain and Father Kevin.”

  “No, and not boys like you.”

  “Also, my mother had a disastrous new boyfriend that last year, a sugar-coated mock gentleman, actually, one of those people who speaks surprisingly well, has overly bright eyes, and is obviously rotten inside, and from a totally unconvincing background. He had too many wrinkles in his youngish face; they looked like cracks. He smoked du Maurier cigarettes. I think he thought he was going to marry my mother for the house. You follow me?”

  “Yes, I do. So after Old Captain died, you had only the priest.”

  “Right. Now you get it. Father Kevin and I worked a lot at the boardinghouse, he liked that. He’d drive up, park his car on Philip Street and come around and we’d go up to my room. Second floor, front bedroom. I had a great view of the parades on Mardi Gras. I grew up thinking that was normal, for an entire city to go mad two weeks out of every year. Anyway, we were up there during one of the night parades, ignoring it as natives can do, you know, once you’ve seen enough papier-mâché floats and trinkets and flambeaux—”

  “Horrible, lurid flambeaux.”

  “Yes, you said it.” He stopped. The drink had come and he was gazing at it.

  “What is it?” I asked him. I was alarmed because he was alarmed. “Look at me, Roger. Don’t start fading, keep talking. What did the translation of the books reveal? Were they profane? Roger, talk to me!”

  He broke his frigid meditative stillness. He picked up the drink, tossed down half of it. “Disgusting and I adore it. Southern Comfort was the first thing I ever drank when I was a boy.”

  He looked at me, directly.

  “I’m not fading,” he assured me. “It’s just I saw and smelled the house again. You know? The smell of old people’s rooms, the rooms in which people die. But it was so lovely. What was I saying? All right, it was during Proteus, one of the night parades, that Father Kevin made the incredible breakthrough that both these books had been dedicated by Wynken de Wilde to Blanche de Wilde, his patron, and that she was obviously the wife to his good brother, Damien; it was all embedded in the designs of the first few pages. And that threw an entirely different light on the psalms. The psalms were filled with lascivious invitations and suggestions and possibly even some sort of secret codes for clandestine meetings. Over and over again there appeared paintings of the same little garden—understand we’re talking miniatures here—”

  “I’ve seen many examples.”

  “And in these little tiny pictures of the garden there would always be one naked man and five women dancing around a fountain within the walls of a medieval castle, or so it seemed. Magnify it five times and it was just perfect. And Father Kevin began to laugh and laugh.

  “ ‘No wonder there isn’t a single saint or biblical scene in any of this,’ Father Kevin said, laughing. ‘Your Wynken de Wilde was a raving heretic! He was a witch or a diabolist. And he was in love with this woman, Blanche.’ He wasn’t shocked so much as amused.

  “ ‘You know, Roger,’ he said, ‘if you did get in touch with one of the auction houses, very likely these books could put you through Loyola, or Tulane. Don’t think of selling them down here. Think about New York; Butterfield and Butterfield, or Sotheby’s.’

  “He had in the last two years copied out by hand about thirty-five different poems for me in English, the best sort of translation—straight prose from the Latin—and now we went over them, tracing repetitions and imagery, and a story began to emerge.

  “First thing we realized was that there had been many books originally, and what we possessed were the first and third. By the third, the psalms reflected not mere adoration for Blanche, who was again and again compared to the Virgin Mary in her purity and brightness, but also answers to some sort of correspondence about what the lady was suffering at the hands of her spouse.

  “It was clever. You have to read it. You have to go back to the flat where you killed me and get those books.”

  “Which means you didn’t sell them to go to Loyola or Tulane?”

  “Of course not. Wynken, having orgies with Blanche and her four friends! I was fascinated. Wynken was my saint by virtue of his talent, and sexuali
ty was my religion because it had been Wynken’s and in every philosophical word he wrote he encoded a love of the flesh! You have to realize I didn’t believe any orthodox creed really, I never had. I thought the Catholic Church was dying. And that Protestantism was a joke. It was years before I understood that the Protestant approach is fundamentally mystic, that it is aiming for the very oneness with God that Meister Eckehart would have praised or that Wynken wrote about.”

  “You are being generous to the Protestant approach. And Wynken did write about oneness with God?”

  “Yes, through union with the women! It was cautious but clear; ‘In thine arms I have known the Trinity more truly than men can teach,’ like that. Oh, this was the new way, I was sure. But then I knew Protestantism only as materialism, sterility and Baptist tourists who got drunk on Bourbon Street because they could not dare do it in their hometowns.”

  “When did you change your opinion?” I asked.

  “I’m speaking in broad generalities. I mean, I saw no hope for religions in existence in the West at our time. Dora feels very much the same, but we’ll come to Dora.”

  “Did you finish the entire translation?”

  “Yes, just before Father Kevin was transferred. I never saw him again. He did write to me later, but by that time I had run away from home.

  “I was in San Francisco. I’d left without my mother’s blessing, and taken the Trailways Bus because it was a few cents cheaper than the Greyhound. I didn’t have seventy-five dollars in my pocket. I’d squandered everything Captain ever gave me. And when he died, did those relatives of his from Jackson, Mississippi, ever clean out those rooms!

  “They took everything. I always thought Captain had left something for me, you know. But I didn’t care. The books were his greatest gift and all those luncheons at the Monteleone Hotel when we had had gumbo together, and he let me break up all my saltine crackers in the gumbo till it was porridge. I just loved it.

  “What was I saying? I bought the ticket to California and saved a small balance for pie and coffee at each stop. A funny thing happened. We came to a point of no return. That is, when we passed through some town in Texas I realized I didn’t have enough money to go back home, even if I wanted to. It was the middle of the night. I think it was El Paso! Anyway, then I knew there was no going back.

  “But I was headed for San Francisco and the Haight Ashbury, and I was going to found a cult based on the teachings of Wynken in praise of love and union and claiming that sexual union was godlike union and I would show his books to my followers. It was my dream, though to tell you the truth, I had no personal feeling about God at all.

  “Within three months, I had discovered that my credo was by no means unique. The entire city was full of hippies who believed in free love, and panhandling, and though I gave regular lectures to large loose circles of friends on Wynken, holding up the books and reciting the psalms—these are very tame, of course—”

  “I can imagine.”

  “—my principal job was that of business manager and boss of three rock musicians who wanted to become famous and were too stoned to remember their bookings, or collect the proceeds at the door. One of them, Blue, we called him, could really sing well. He had a high tenor, and quite a range. The band had a sound. Or at least we thought it did.

  “Father Kevin’s letter found me when I was living up in the attic of the Spreckles Mansion on Buena Vista Park, do you know that house?”

  “I do know it. It’s a hotel.”

  “Exactly, and it was a private home in those days, and the top floor had a ballroom with bath and kitchenette. This was well before any restoration. Nobody had invented ‘bed and breakfast,’ and I just rented the ballroom and the musicians played there and we all used the filthy bath and kitchen, and in the day, when they were asleep all over the floor, I’d dream about Wynken and think about Wynken and wonder how I would ever find out more about this man and what these love poems were. I had all sorts of fantasies about him.

  “That attic, I wonder about it now. It had windows at three points of the compass, and deep window seats with tattered old velvet cushions. You could see San Francisco in every direction but east as I remember, but I don’t have a good sense of direction. We loved to sit in those window alcoves and talk and talk. My friends loved to hear about Wynken. We were going to write some songs based on Wynken’s poems. Well, that never happened.”

  “Obsessed.”

  “Completely. Lestat, you must go back for those books, no matter what you believe of me when we’re finished here. All of them are in the flat. Every single one that Wynken ever did. It was my life’s work to get those books. I got into dope for those books. Even back in the Haight.

  “I was telling you about Father Kevin. He wrote me a letter, said that he had looked up Wynken de Wilde in some manuscripts and found that Wynken had been the executed leader of a heretical cult. Wynken de Wilde had a religion of strictly female followers, and his works were officially condemned by the church. Father Kevin said all that was ‘history,’ and I ought to sell the books. He’d write more later. He never did. And two months later I committed multi-murder completely on the spur of the moment, and it changed the course of things.”

  “The dope you were dealing?”

  “Sort of, only I wasn’t the one who made the slipup. Blue dealt more than me. Blue carried around grass in suitcases. I was into little sacks of it, you know, it made just about as much as the band made for me. But Blue bought by the kilo and lost two kilos. Nobody knew what happened to them. He actually lost them in a taxi, we figured, but we never knew.

  “There were a lot of stupid kids walking around then. They would get into ‘dealing’ never realizing that the supply was originating with some vicious individual who thought nothing of shooting people in the head. Blue thought he could talk his way out of it, he’d make some explanation, he’d been ripped off by friends, that sort of thing. His connections trusted him, he said, they’d even given him a gun.

  “The gun was in the kitchen drawer, and they’d told him they might need him to use it sometime, but of course he would never do that. I guess when you are that stoned, you think everybody else is stoned. These men, he said, they were just heads like us, nothing to worry about, that had been just talk. We would all be as famous as Big Brother and the Holding Company and Janis Joplin very soon.

  “They came for him during the day. I was the only one home, except for him.

  “He was in the big room, the ballroom, at the front door, giving these two men the runaround. I was out of sight in the kitchen, hardly listening. I might have been studying Wynken, I’m not sure. Anyway, very gradually I realized what they were talking about out there in the ballroom.

  “These two men were going to kill Blue. They kept telling him in very flat voices that everything was okay, and please come with them, and come on, they had to go, and no, he had to come now, and no, he had to come along quickly. And then one of them said in a very low, vicious voice, ‘Come on, man!’ And for the first time Blue stopped jabbering in hippie platitudes, like it will all come around, man, and I have done no evil, man, and there was this silence, and I knew they were going to take Blue and shoot him and dump him. This had already happened to kids! It had been in the papers. I felt the hair stand up on the back of my neck. I knew Blue didn’t have a chance.

  “I didn’t think about what I was doing. I completely forgot about the gun in the kitchen drawer. This surge of energy overtook me. I walked into the big room. Both these men were older, hard-looking guys, not hippies, nothing hippified about them. They weren’t even Hell’s Angels. They were just killers. And both sort of visibly sagged when they discovered there was an impediment to dragging my friend out of the room.

  “Now, you know me, that I am as vain as you are probably, and then I was truly convinced of my special nature and destiny, and I came glistening and flashing towards these two men, you know, throwing off sparks, making a dance out of the walk. If I had any idea
in my head, it was this: If Blue could die, that would mean I could die. And I couldn’t let something like that be proven to me then, you know?”

  “I can see it.”

  “I started talking to these characters very fast, chattering in a kind of intense, pretentious manner, as if I were a psychedelic philosopher, throwing out four-syllable words and walking right towards them all the time, lecturing them on violence, and implying that they had disturbed me and ‘all the others’ in the kitchen. We were having a class out there, me and the others.

  “And suddenly one of them reached into his coat and pulled out his gun. I think he thought it would be a slam dunk. I can remember this so distinctly. He simply pulled out the gun and pointed it at me. And by the time he had it aimed, I had both hands on it, and I yanked it away from him, kicked him as hard as I could, and shot and killed both men.”

  Roger paused.

  I didn’t say anything. I was tempted to smile. I liked it. I only nodded. Of course it had begun that way with him, why hadn’t I realized it? He hadn’t instinctively been a killer; he would never have been so interesting if that had been the case.

  “That quick, I was a killer,” he said. “That quick. And a smashing success at it, no less, imagine.”

  He took another drink and looked off, deep into the memory of it. He seemed securely anchored in the ghost body now, revved up like an engine.

  “What did you do then?” I asked.

  “Well, that’s when the course of my life changed. First I was going to go to the police, going to call the priest, going to go to hell, phone my mother, my life was over, call Father Kevin, flush all the grass down the toilet, life finished, scream for the neighbors, all of that.

  “Then I just closed the door and Blue and I sat down and for about an hour I talked. Blue said nothing. I talked. I prayed, meanwhile, that nobody had been in a car outside waiting for those two, but if there came a knock I was ready because I had their gun now, and it had lots of bullets, and I was sitting directly opposite the door.