Sex, Lies & Stellenbosch
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Her friends whooped appreciatively.
“I don’t have anything much to say other than thank you for being here tonight. It is her wish that I tell you to drink, eat and be merry. I now hand this microphone, gladly, to my gorgeous sister, who will present a slideshow of our mom, depicting a life that spans five decades.”
Jen hadn’t been happy about a presentation that would include pictures of her ex-husband and her estranged friends. But, during discussions with her psychologist, she had acknowledged that she had a past, and that it included the people who had played an important role in her journey. Jen knew that if Sharon had explained this to her in consultation, the two of them would have had a good chuckle.
The presentation started with new-born Jen in the arms of her mother, whom she had loved and had learned to forgive and appreciate over this past year and a half. There was a portrait of her small family – her father looking stern and full of self-importance, and a tiny scowling Jen sitting on her mother’s lap. Brig had included pictures of the farm on which she had been raised. There were photos of her school friends, although Jen had lost contact with every one of them.
There was the image that Jen had dreaded seeing, but had agreed to when Brigit had asked, of a handsome John and a very pregnant Jen on their wedding day. Jen had looked excited and radiant. Oh yes, she had loved him. And they had included a recent picture of Lee wearing a t-shirt that read, “I’ll be back”. Oh, how Jen wished that were true, and how she knew Lee would have loved the irony were he alive. There were photos of Jen and Frankie on various overseas holidays and of her book club friends lounging in colourful nineties swimming costumes wearing Ray-Ban sunglasses with their hair pulled back in banana clips. How beautiful they all were. They had been happy together, and they were a part of her past, a part of the person she had become.
These were followed by the pictures of her two children, showing them from birth to toddlerhood, from their first days of school, to their gawky teenage years, to the independent young adults they were today.
There was one she’d never seen before of her and Claudia at the spa where they had met. She remembered Claudia asking Gerard to take a photo of them at the pool in their swimming costumes, eating slices of pineapple for breakfast. There was another of Sharon, Claudia and Jen at the game lodge, bent over, just about peeing with laughter. At what, she couldn’t remember. Next was a picture of Patty and Jen having drinks at Café Caprice in Camps Bay – Patty soliciting gawks from the arbitrary men in the background, as usual. This was followed by Gerard and Jenny, hamming it up at the spa, serving their day guests, Claudia, Sharon and Jen. And finally – Brig had kept Jen’s new love for last – Myron, looking lovingly into Jen’s eyes, captured by one of his friends at a party; Myron and Jen, laughing uproariously at being sprayed with champagne at a cycle race; and finally, Jen, happily tipsy on that same evening, being carried to the car, her arms hooked around his neck, their lips locked in a kiss.
Despite her reservations, she loved what had been put together. The slideshow had helped contextualise her life, not only for Jen but for all her guests. It was an overwhelmingly moving and happy display of love, friendship, life and time, past and present, hinting at joy and anticipation for the future. Looking around, wiping her eyes, Jen noticed that pretty much everyone around her had been moved to tears as well.
And then it was her turn to speak. She stood there, clutching the microphone, looking at her guests, taking in the beauty of her children and her new man and her beloved new friends.
“The last time I made a speech, I got into terrible trouble. It was the beginning of the end of a cycle – and the start of something new – and I’d like to thank each and every one of you, because you’ve all been travellers with me on this new journey.
“I’m not going to pretend that I wasn’t afraid. That I wasn’t crippled by the past. But I learned, I’m still learning, that the past is something that doesn’t exist anymore. In fact, it had stopped existing for a very long time. But my journey has not only been about letting go, it’s been about letting go with love. It’s about acknowledging that whoever was in my life was there for a purpose, and that whatever has happened in my life has happened for a reason.
“I have untold love, gratitude and affection for absolutely everyone whose life has touched mine – even that of my ex-husband, John. The result of our union is our two beautiful children: testimony to a bond and love that once existed.” She turned to them. “And it is because of you that I have no regrets.”
She continued, hoping to keep the tears at bay for just a little while longer, “As most of you know, I love music. And while I love you Myron,” she said, blowing him a kiss, “and you, dear friends, I adore Zucchero. His song ‘Flying Away’ perfectly encapsulates my journey so far. What life has meant to me.
“I hope you’ll indulge me while I read a few lines of the song’s poignant lyrics, and when I’m finished, Pete will play it for us, because it’s so much better sung than read. As I said, this song resonates with me because this is exactly what I have tried to do on my life’s journey.” Jen swallowed some champagne before she read the lyrics.
“I have ‘left the sorrow and the dark memories behind’ and I have kept the good, because there has been so much good. And in so doing, I have done what Zucchero urges us all to do: ‘Sweep the rest behind’.
“Right now, dear friends, not only am I flying. I am soaring.”
As Jen concluded her speech, Zucchero’s voice wafted hauntingly through the speakers. Myron walked up to Jen, took her hand in his and led her to the dance floor, where, together, they moved to the slow rhythm of the ballad. His body pressed tightly against hers, their eyes locked. The guests soon followed. They all moved to the music that spoke of her life. And Jen realised that this was one of those moments that would be forever etched into her memory. She had ‘blessed her past’, but not walked away. She had danced away. And, oh, how she loved to dance.
Epilogue
At 7:28 the next morning, as Jen was slowly becoming agonisingly aware of the hangover, her phone beeped her into consciousness.
Myron lay asleep beside her, his delectable body rising and falling like a baby’s in contented slumber. Still facing her man, and feeling ‘hashtag-blessed’, she grabbed her phone from her bedside table.
Number unknown.
Jen sat up. She glanced at the message, then re-read it. A deep flush of heat gathered from deep inside. “Morning Jen, Wishing you a happy birthday from beyond the grave. Hope you’ve been dancing. Remember to tango your way through the next fifty years.”
Before she could react, the message was deleted.
Acknowledgements
Melinda Ferguson, my publisher and risk-taker
Thalia, Maria, Catherine and Carina: the fabulous four who read my manuscript from its inception (sagapo)
Penny Hill, my astute grammar guide and grammar geek – your jist the best ;)
Claire Strombeck for her valuable first edit and Jenna Barlow for her invaluable guidance
Shelagh Foster for her final edit and Linda for the final proof
Dom, for believing I could
My team of feisty and sometimes ‘wined-up’ cheerleaders, as well as my wonderful girlfriends and family (too many to mention) for pushing the should
Simona and Andi for seeing the bigger picture
The team at Jacana Media for allowing me to pitch my manuscript and then directing me to Melinda at MFBooks Joburg
Sexy Stellenbosch – a backdrop like no other
And to my daughters – strong, feisty and brave, you anchor me always
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