I remember when I would hear church folk singing: “It’s me! It’s me, oh Lord! Standing in the need of prayer.” Now, as you hear the news nationally or locally, and even world news, you hear and see people are just talking about killing. There be father against son, mother against daughter, friend against friend; and if that’s not enough you got nations wantin’ to wipe out nations, and there seems to be no end to this madness. But in some or all cases this is to be expected. I often think about the times I was out there shootin’ up, and that’s all I was thinking about. At that time I wanted nothing but my dope. I wasn’t a greedy junkie. I was just a junkie that loved to shoot dope all the time and didn’t really care how I got to my goal as long as the end result was high. But getting back to the situation. There’s so much killing going on. It’s bad enough that you be trying to kill you with drugs, here come some clown and say, “God told me to do this.” Negro my God is about love. Now the other God . . . now that’s something else altogether. You can kinda see where they be coming from but those are the ones that done took the sheets off and now wearing suits and all that phony mess. Well all I can say is, “Ha! You need Jesus in a big way.” Look I thought I would never say anything like that and it just goes to show you that Jim Crow ain’t dead. He’s just flying a little higher, that’s all. Now anybody can change but they got to want to look. Any kind of change that you need to make begins with you, but you need some help and I am not talking about from man. You know what I am saying? It’s too short for you to think it’s gone happen because of your mom or dad. They got their if they go it and you got to get yours. Are you listening too? And it won’t happen because you are a creation of God. Understand, I don’t care who you know or how good you are; who you are to people or how much you give. Look, that won’t help you get where you need to be ’cause everybody know God, or about who or what they perceive to be God; but we must know his son as Savior, and that’s real. Not only that, we must develop a relationship with him. Look, because of the victory you wantin’ in your life for you there have to be battles fought and won by you with God’s help through his son Jesus. Now you won’t be able to see him but he will be right there beside you, but you must believe in God and trust Jesus and it will happen. Look, he did it for me and I know he’ll do it for you. One thing: you can’t look to your old friends or keep running with them because they want you to stay in turmoil with them. Trust me, the only help they will give is if you all get together and they come up with most of the dope after they have given you a water shot if you’re not watching him or her. You would be expecting that from a dude but from a girl? Come on now. Look, you need a spiritual sledge-hammer to tear down walls of discomfort and the partitions of mayhem that have erected themselves in our Godly lives. I say Godly because we as a people, and especially black people, were raised knowing God. Now whatever happened between then and now is another story, and that ain’t no joke. Look, check this out. I want to help you pray. Say:
Father, I thank you, I praise you, and we give you honor and glory Lord. I know that these drugs are wrong for me and are destroying my mind, body, and soul. But Lord I’ve been doing this for a while and I am tired of not being myself. I want to learn to love you, myself, and my family. Help me father because I know they love me. Father, I guess what I am asking for is strength to say no to a lot of things that would hinder me from your love, my family’s love, and the respect from my friends. Lord, I don’t know how to begin to love you so I need your help. I need the power that only the Spirit gives. I need the wisdom, I need your power. I want for you to help me know that you are God, and your son as my Savior in Jesus name. Amen.
Look up now. Ha, with this ring I thee wed! That’s what I would think Jesus would have, and will, say to you. A man is supposed to protect his bride no matter what, and I believe this is what happens when you accept Christ. Now, I am not saying that you don’t have any other gods in your life but what I am saying is that they will not protect you like my God. I think that the reason we use drugs and do a lot of other crazy things is that we want attention. We want to be it; whatever it is. And life is moving so fast that we think that we need to do something to keep up, but that’s not the case. It took me a few minutes to find this out. There are a few reasons we tend to look the other way. One is that we want attention, but the attention we get is from the wrong people with the wrong ideas of how it’s supposed to be. Then we think that it’s kool, but cool ain’t spelled with a ‘k’. Then we think that it makes us look good not knowing that the life we have ventured into is taking us out backwards when we should be moving forwards. Then there’s respect for ourselves, for others, and whoever else might care about you. Then it makes you think that the world owes you, and sooner or later you start thinking that everybody owes you something; and that’s when drugs have really emerged in your life to be the embodiment of who you see yourself to be when in reality you are the sum total of nothing. You become elusive to everyone around you, and you become unwilling to embrace life as it really is. Ha. Don’t think for one second that I haven’t lived it firsthand. Look, only when you start caring and stop craving for these powers, pills, whiskey, or whatever floats your boat, will things start to get better. Now check this out. I am not saying that there won’t be some hard times when you don’t get high that your world will stop. But listen: my God knows the thoughts and intents of your heart. And if you really want to stop pimpin’ yourself and others and start trying to live the way that life l as intended through my Lord, then you just need to make up what little mind that drugs haven’t taken. Peace.
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