I saw her juices flowing around my meat and running down her thighs as I pumped her nice and slow.
When she fisted the sheets and slammed her pussy back hard enough for her ass to shake I knew that the pain and discomfort had lessened.
I used both hands on her hips to pull her back onto my cock and pounded her pussy in a frenzy until something inside her loosened up and let me in.
I felt the give inside her just before her body seized up and then the shivering tremors started. I pulled her head back and just as I thought, her eyes were rolled back in her head.
I could do no more than watch and feel as her body took over. She made the loudest scream I’d ever heard come out of a woman before her body convulsed once, twice and she dropped to the mattress completely spent.
“Well fuck!” I pulled out of her quickly and turned her to her back giving her my mouth again. She tried pushing my head away. “No more, it’s too much.”
From the way her pussy was breathing when I looked at her there, I guessed her body was too sensitive, but that didn’t stop me. I held her in place and feasted on her pussy until my cock revolted.
I pulled her legs over the crook of my arms, opening her to take me, and slid back inside her taking a long deep slide until I hit bottom.
I took one of her nipples between my lips as I ground my hips into hers moving my cock from side to side, hitting her walls and butting against her cervix.
She pulled at me trying to bring me closer and I gave her what she wanted, wrapping my arms around her as she cradled my hips and met me pound for pound, thrust for thrust.
This is the point where I usually want to bite into her flesh, where a sort of madness takes me over and I lose all sense of self.
“Mine, mine, mine, mine, mine…” I didn’t realize I was choking her until she started to gag and her pussy locked down. “Shit!”
I released her and kissed her in apology but that wild fire still burned out of control in my gut. I happened to look down at her face just then and the fire became calm even as it burned brighter.
What the fuck are you doing Evan? Why do you keep forgetting to be careful with her? It wasn’t just lust that I saw in her eyes, but a softness that she couldn’t hide from me while I was inside her.
It was enough for now though I’m determined to own her completely before long. So I gentled my touch, and seduced her with soft kisses, even as I wanted to ravish.
She responded as well to my lovemaking as she did to my rough handling, though I was better able to feel all of her this way.
Her soft walls, the rough patch deep inside her that made her pussy cream each time I stroked into it.
The supple firmness of her nipples as they pressed into my chest, and most of all the wild beating of her heart beneath me.
I wanted to tell her what was in my heart, wanted to whisper it in her ear or roar it out loud. But I wasn’t ready, not yet, not until my mind was settled.
So instead I once again showed her with my body, hoping that she got the message. Hoping that each time I gave her my seed, something I’d never shared with another woman, that she understood what it was I had in me for her.
She was the one who begged me in her sweet voice to go faster, to fuck her harder, words that made my cock spit pre-cum deep inside her.
“So deep.” She arched her back as I lowered my mouth to her tit and danced on my cock. She rolled her hips and moved her ass as she dug her nails into me, making the fire inside me rage out of control.
I fucked in deep making her pussy cream even more. “I’m cumming, cum with me, I want you with me.”
In the final throes of lust I used my cock like a piston to pummel her pussy, chasing that feeling of sweet bliss as it tingled up my spine.
My only thought as I came inside her was the same as it was since the first time I took her. I wanted her to give me a child.
It had become a fucking obsession this need to breed her. And it was no longer just about the fact that she’d had a child for another man, it was something I seemed to need as much as I needed air.
What man doesn’t want his woman to bear his seed? Only with me it went much deeper than that. I felt like I would suffocate if I didn’t see her body rounded with my child, and soon.
I laid on top of her a long time after the last of my seed had dripped into her, feeling the softness of her body as it settled around my cock which refused to go down.
When I finally pulled out and saw the condition she was in, I left her on the bed and headed into the kitchen for some ice. She’s gonna need it.
I checked in on a sleeping Amber on the way back and was satisfied that she was tucked up nice and tight before going back to my bed and my woman.
“Here baby, this should help.” I held the ice against her heated bruised flesh, ignoring her complaints until she settled down.
Once assured that she was okay, I threw the bag wrapped in a towel on the night stand and turned out the light before pulling her onto my chest to sleep.
“Go to sleep, you wore me out. I’ll feed you more in the morning before she wakes up.” She pinched my side and I felt a little more of the doubt that had a tight grip on me ease.
28
For the next few days we were busy getting ready for our trip. Our affair was now an open secret at the office, though no one dared mention it in front of me.
I was more worried about her, and that pride of hers, but she seemed to be holding up well. Someone had even leaked the news about the home I’d bought to share with her and our children.
The realtor or someone associated with her had sold that particular story to the tabloids, which made things a bit tense this close to our departure. So I had no choice but to move up one of my plans.
I ran my finger over the ring in my pocket as I sat behind my desk waiting for her to come to me. I’d had Mary summon her five minutes ago and sat back awaiting the fireworks that were sure to come.
This past weekend after she’d spent the night at my place I thought I’d gotten somewhere but she’d awakened the next morning full of piss and vinegar.
I’d barely rolled away from her and had the bad sense to ask her what she thought about the house when she let me know in no uncertain terms that she did not appreciate me planning her life for her.
Apparently I’m a stubborn overbearing ass without reason and she wasn’t having it. I ignored her ranting and focused all my energy on my new daughter, which only seemed to make her more rabid.
She knew what I was doing of course and I knew she would do anything for her daughter. If I had to use that to break down her defenses, if that was one of the things hindering her from giving herself to me completely and without fear, why not put her mind at rest?
But no matter what we faced during the day. How she hid herself in her office once she got here, forcing me to go drag her out, she spent every night under me.
I wouldn’t say that she’d given in to me and accepted her fate, but as long as I keep chipping away at that wall she has surrounding her heart, I was sure to win.
Now I’m waiting here to put the final nail in her coffin. Listen to me, this is the woman I love and I have to run our relationship like a battleground.
She came in and closed the door behind her, her eyes already wary. She stood there with a folder held to her chest looking at me with distrust in her eyes. She knows me so well!
“Come in!” She moved towards my desk and stood defiantly in front of me. I’d forbidden her to raise her voice to me so I was sure she was biting a hole in her tongue.
Only this morning, a few short hours ago to be exact, when I’d just got through fucking her against the wall in the shower, she’d asked me not to call her into my office so often as it was giving everyone something to talk about.
I stood from my desk and walked around to stand in front of her. “Have you learned to trust me yet Giavanna?”
I lifted her chin and read her eyes. Her eyes never lie to me even when her mouth is skirting
the issue. “I’m asking you a question. What more do I need to do to get you to believe?”
When she didn’t answer but looked down at her feet instead I knew she was still scared. “I’ve been thinking. Knowing you as I do, there’s no way you would’ve let me get close to your child unless you felt some of what I am feeling.”
That got a reaction from her, even if it was just a slight shift from one leg to the next. I know all her tells now. While she’s been busy fighting me, I’ve been studying her.
Apart from the deep fear that she keeps so well hidden from the world, she’s an open book. She’s sweet and strong and so fucking gorgeous it makes my heart ache.
The fact that she makes my dick hard just by breathing might have a lot to do with my besotted condition, but it was the way she made me feel when she walked into a room.
That sense of purpose I have when I’m with her. The way I sometimes feel like she needs me to stand between her and the world, that makes me do the things I do.
As my brother had said when I let him in on my latest plan, two people as stubborn as us will always butt heads. It was up to the stronger of the two to take the reins. That’s me.
If I wait for her ass to come around we’d be ninety. “Have you heard? It seems someone has leaked the news about our home to the papers. I expect the story to be front page news tomorrow.”
“We can’t afford any blemishes on the company or it’s executive staff at this time, not with the project looming. So…”
I reached into my pocket as I spoke hoping she wouldn’t see through my bullshit. I could give a fuck about gossip and who thought what. But I’d made up my mind to use any and everything to keep her by my side.
Her eyes widened and she took a step back when she saw the ring in my hand. “Evan…”
“Give me your hand.” I took her shaking hand in mine and slipped the ring on her finger.
“This doesn’t come off. If you have an issue, you talk to me about it, but this ring never leaves your finger. Understood?”
She was still speechless after the ring was in place and I held her hand in mine to admire my handiwork.
It had been a pain in the ass coming up with the right ring for her, but I wanted to do it myself from beginning to end.
I’d looked for and found the best designer and worked diligently on coming up with something I thought would suit her.
I had to pay out the ass to have it delivered on such short notice, but I was more than worth it. She was worth it.
Only Gavin knew what I’d been up to and it had been hard keeping this particular secret from her since we spent so much time together.
“Do you like it?” The tears in her eyes were answer enough but it was still good to hear the words once she was able to speak. “It’s beautiful but...”
I lifted her finger to my lips before dropping her hand. “You can go back to your office now. Remember what I said, that ring doesn’t come off your finger for any reason.”
“Evan!”
“Tone!” Her voice was just a little too loud.
“Do you ever listen?”
“When you have something worth hearing to say I’m all ears.”
She muttered some shit under her breath and marched out the door. She thinks I’m frustrating I wonder what she thinks I think of her.
I’m only doing to her what she does to me. I just happen to be better at it than her stubborn ass. I grinned as I turned back to the report I’d been reading before she came in.
I never would’ve got that ring on her finger if she didn’t want it and I know that shit as well as she does. All I’m doing is giving her what she really wants but for whatever reason is too afraid to take for herself.
It’s been that way ever since I figured her out. I knew that because of all she’d suffered as a child, the lost of her parents, and later the death of her husband when she was still so young.
Being left alone to raise a sick child on her own, all alone in the world. I knew that it was because of these things that she was hesitant about sticking her neck out.
It’s up to me to know what she wants and give it to her no matter what. I’ll make sure she gets all that’s good in this world after the hell she’s been through, in spite of her fear.
“Have you seen this?” Gavin barged into my office and one look at his face was enough to tell me that whatever it was wasn’t good.
“What is it?”
“This online rag.”
“Of course not. I don’t have time to look at that shit.”
“You’re gonna need to make an exception this time bro.” He threw a printout on my desk.
I looked at it long enough to see that they were digging into her pass.
They’d even touched on something that I had shied away from, her past in laws. Here it said that they’d rejected her.
I read on to see that…his family had been wealthy, not as wealthy as mine, but wealthy enough. They’d rejected the orphan girl, but their son had forsaken everything to marry her anyway.
No wonder she was holding on to those memories. Jealousy still raged in my gut, and it hurt that he’d loved her that much. How the fuck am I supposed to deal with this shit when it never seems to fade?
29
“What is this shit? Who wrote this?” It wasn’t so much the story about her past that bothered me but the asshole went on to cast doubt on our relationship.
If that wasn’t bad enough there were pictures of her everywhere. “Who the fuck authorized them to use her face?”
“I thought you might want to know so I have the investigative department working on it right now.”
“Has she seen this?”
“I’m not sure but if she hasn’t it won’t be too long before she does.”
“Fine, you take care of this I’ll see to her. Call legal, I want her pictures off of there before end of day.”
“What’re you going to do?”
“Bury this fuck.” I was beyond pissed when I went to her office. I knew right away that she’d seen it. “Come ‘ere baby it’s okay.”
I pulled her up from the chair and into my arms holding her close to my chest. “I was afraid of something like this, didn’t I tell you?”
“Didn’t you tell me what? If you tell me that we shouldn’t be together because of shit like this you’ll only piss me the fuck off.”
“That’s easy for you to say. It’s not your name being dragged through the mud. I don’t want any of this…”
“Giavanna!”
My harsh retort shut her up and my slight shaking of her got her attention. “We’re not doing this. I’ll do what I can to have the story removed and your pictures erased, as to the rest of it, you and I know the truth, I refuse to let you hide behind this.”
“I came in here to see if you were okay. Where is my strong opinionated woman? You’re always ready to spit in my eye and defy me, but this is how you handle others?”
She pouted and looked down at my chest. “I see, you can only be that bold with me. It’s a wonder you don’t understand what that means.”
“What do you mean by that?” I studied her for a long minute before taking her head in my hands and kissing her forehead. I released her and headed for the door.
“Think about it. Think about why you’re able to confront me, go head to head with me at every turn, but you hide from everyone else.”
Hopefully she’ll come to the truth on her own without any help from me. But if I needed any more proof of her feelings for me that was it. She already felt safe with me and she didn’t even know it.
Back in my office I sat in deep contemplation of this turn of events. The news was bound to spread and though it had been a while since I battle the tabloids over my privacy, I well remember how they work.
As I sat there a plan began to form in my mind. Maybe I could use this to my advantage after all. There’s nothing better than turning a negative into a positive.
I waited until end of day,
after I’d made some follow up calls to make sure that the story and her illegally taken photos would be removed to make my move.
Since she isn’t a public figure and had given no one the right to take let alone post her photos online, it wasn’t going to be too hard to take care of.
Now I had to convince her that it was for the best if she let Amber stay at my place while we were gone. I still haven’t grown fond of her neighborhood.
I went to her office an hour after everyone else had left because I knew we would be the only two left here. Sure enough she was still at her desk making last minute adjustments to her plans for the hotel.
“It’s time to quit baby you’ve been at this all day.” She looked up startled like she hadn’t even heard me come in and I knew she had more than what was on that screen on her mind.
I sincerely wished she’d open up and share some of her burdens with me, but the more I tried the more she retreated.
Sure things had changed a lot between us these last few weeks, but we still had a long way to go. She still kept herself locked away from me, which makes me crazy.
“What were you thinking about?” I held her eyes as I made my way around her desk. “Didn’t I tell you not to worry about that stuff, that I’d take care of it? Why don’t you ever listen?”
I pulled her up from her chair and kissed her. “I missed you at lunch today. Sorry, I got caught up in stuff. I’ve called ahead and asked Alice to stay late tonight, I need to talk to you.”
“Why did you do that without asking me first?”
“If I’d asked would you have said yes?” She didn’t respond but we both knew the answer. “There’s your answer.”
“Do you see why we have problems? It’s because of your arrogance. Each time I think you’ve changed you go and pull a stunt like this.”
“Oh it’s my arrogance, I thought it was your stubbornness. Either way, what’s done is done and I still need to talk to you about something. You know very well if we go home right now Amber will want both our attention and after she goes to bed we’d be distracted by something else.”
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