by KL Myers
Afraid this is a dream I don’t want to wake from, I pull her closer, hold her tighter, and refuse to let go. I whisper in her hair, “Tell me this is real, Red. Tell me you’re here and I’m not dreaming.”
She stirs in my arms, snuggling closer to me. Kissing the top of her head, I say, “Lex, wake up, beautiful, and tell me this isn’t a dream.”
If I weren’t listening, I would miss her whisper. It is so quiet. “It’s not a dream. Now let me sleep, please.”
I want to wake her up, demand answers to the thousands of questions I have but I can’t do it. I just hold her tighter to me vowing to myself to never let her go. She’ll explain when she wakes, and I’ll be patiently waiting for that moment to come.
I lie there for hours, placing kiss after kiss on her head just to remind myself that it’s real, she’s real and in my arms. When the clock reads ten a.m., my patience is pretty much gone, and I need answers.
“Wake up, Lex,” I say while placing kisses on her forehead, her cheeks, and her lips. A stifled moan comes from her lips. “Come on, beautiful, wake up for me.”
Her eye’s slowly open and regret fills my gut immediately. They are bloodshot as if she hasn’t slept in days. I know she’s tired, but I can’t wait any longer for answers. It’s selfish of me, but I need to know she is here for good.
“What time is it?” she asks.
“Ten, babe. When did you get here?”
“Around four,” she says smiling up at me. “I’ve missed you so much, Gauge.”
“Missed you, too, more than you can imagine,” I say before devouring her mouth with mine.
My cock is rock hard and wants to take her pussy the way I’m taking her mouth, but I know that needs to wait. I need answers right away, and patience is not something I have much of. Breaking our kiss takes everything I have in me.
“Tell me you’re back permanently, Red.”
“I’m back permanently, Gauge.”
“Good, now get up. I’m showering, and you’re joining me. I’ve been three weeks without you or your mouth, and right now I need hot water and your lips wrapped around my cock.”
I hear Lex giggle as I get up out of bed. “I guess you don’t want to hear how much my pussy missed you, then?”
Looking over my shoulder, I say, “Christ, Lex, you can’t say shit like that right now.” I continue to walk, reaching down with my hand to put some pressure on my dick before it explodes.
Steam fills the bathroom as the hot water rolls over my shoulders and down my back. I know the minute Lex enters the room; my dick stands at attention immediately. See, my cock is like a divining rod when it comes to Lex. The minute she is near, it twitches and stands straight out, hard as a rock, and right now, I don’t think it can get any harder.
The shower door opens, letting some of the steam out as she enters. When Lex sees how hard my cock is for her already, she drops to her knees instantly, kissing the head. I feel her hand wrap around the base, holding me in place as she sucks me off. It’s not my finest moment. I blow my load down her throat in a matter of moments. That’s how much I missed her and her mouth.
When she lets my dick fall from her mouth, I reach down and lift her by her armpits until she is tight against my chest. Her arms immediately wrap around my neck and her legs around my waist. I can taste myself when I kiss her, which just makes my dick hard all over again. I’m not sure it’s ever going to be soft today.
“I’ve missed you, Gauge, so very much. Take me, please.”
“You don’t have to ask me twice, but this is going to be at my pace, Lex, not yours.”
This time, I’m going to take my time. Show her just how much I missed her. Taking the shower gel, I squeeze some of it into my hands and work them together until I have a nice foamy lather going. Starting from the bottom of her legs, I massage the soap into her skin, rising ever so slightly until I reach the junction between her legs. My finger grazes her labia ever so lightly, sending a shiver through her body. Then, as fast as I touched her, my hands pull away, going for more soap. I do the same with her arms, massaging the soap into them as I work my way up, landing on her tits. Lightly, I squeeze each one, nibbling at her nipples and sucking her areola into my mouth. My tongue flicks back across her nipple before I move to the other side and repeat the process.
“Oh God, Gauge, that feels so wonderful.”
“Shhh, just relax and enjoy the feeling of my hands on your body, baby.”
Kneeling down, I lift her left leg and place it on my bent knee, exposing her sex to me. I spread her lips apart with my two hands, then lick across her opening, letting me savor her juices for a moment before I thrust a finger inside her.
“Turn around, Red, hands on the wall, and spread your legs for me.”
Without hesitation, she does exactly what I asked of her. It takes all of my strength not to plunge deep into her tight pussy. With my left hand, I reach around, finding her clit, and slowly rub circles on it. My chest is tight against her back, and the feeling of her skin on mine is amazing. I place little kisses from one shoulder blade to the other, my cock hard as a rock between us and nuzzling between her ass cheeks. My right hand drops between us, finding the seam of her ass, and then I’m sliding one finger deep into her tight hole. He breath stops for a moment, then resumes, but this time a bit faster than before.
“You want my cock, Red?”
“Please, Gauge, please, I need to feel you.”
With both hands on her hips, I pull her ass back slightly, giving me better access to her cunt, and I thrust into her without hesitation. I pound into her over and over again, taking her to the edge but stopping before she falls over. I hold her there for a moment, letting her feel my cock pulse inside her before I start thrusting again. Her hand lowers so she can rub her clit, giving herself the extra stimulation she needs to go off, and go off is what she does, screaming my name over and over again. Hearing her call out to me is my undoing, and in seconds I’m emptying everything I have into her.
Lex collapses, and I catch her in my arms before she hits the floor. Tears are falling from her eyes, and I just hold her tight, letting her expel all the emotions she is feeling. I haven’t been there for her for three weeks. I want to be here for her now, no matter how long it takes. I stand under the water, holding her tight to me, letting it cover us until it runs cold. Shutting off the water, I exit the shower with Lex still in my arms, her legs wrapped around me and my cock nestled between us. It’s not going soft anytime soon. I walk us to the bed still soaking wet, but I don’t care. “Lex, you have to let go so I can get us under the covers.”
“No, Gauge, I won’t let go. Don’t ask me to do that. I just can’t right now.”
Not really sure how I accomplish it, but I get us into bed and under the covers, where I continue to hold her as she cries even more.
“Shh, babe, it’s going to be OK,” I tell her as my hands rub up and down her back. “I promise, whatever has you so upset, I’ll make it right.”
I have no clue what I agreed to make right, but whatever it is I’ll find a way to do it. For her, I would stop the world if I could. I want to take away all of her pain.
Lex lies in my arms for an hour before she speaks to me. My heart aches for her and what she went through in the three weeks she was gone. The first week was spent comforting her mother and mourning the loss of her brother.
“Do you know what it’s like to see your mom break down and beg you to go with her to a funeral that you have no business being at since you don’t exist to the outside world? Do you, Gauge?” she cries.
The next two weeks were spent trying to convince her uncle that she wants nothing to do with the business and to forget that her dad ever told him she is alive. Just like Gunner called it, Uncle Jacob is not so on the up-and-up. He has been doing business with Cummiskey Corp. all along, but her brother was getting greedy and wanted a say in what happened at McLean. He was planning on using Lex to get her uncle to sign over part of the business
. Now that Bobby is out of the picture, she is safe. But what Gunner wasn’t right about was that Jacob didn’t know all along where Lex was. I can’t wait to tell him that his perfect instincts aren’t as perfect as he thinks.
“I’m free, Gauge, truly free. Only my mom and Uncle Jacob know where to find me, and I have their word that they won’t bother me. You know as well as I do that their word is like the law. I’m home, here with you, and I’m not going anywhere.”
Those are the sweetest words I’ve ever heard. “You’re damn right, you are not going anywhere. The fact that you came to me, babe, the minute you got to town tells me all I need to know. My place and my bed are where you belong, so don’t go thinking you’re ever moving back into that apartment of yours. This is your home now, you got me?”
“Yeah, Gauge, I got you. I’m here and never leaving again. By the way, have I told you how much my pussy and I have missed you?”
“Oh, Red, you’re trying to poke the bear again, aren’t you?”
“Maybe.” She laughs as she says it.
“Stop teasing. Now, get up and get dressed. I need to feed you.”
Mending Family Ties
I’M NOT INVITED to my brother's wedding. Yes, it hurts a bit to know he doesn’t want me there for his special day, but with everything that has transpired between us I can understand.
I sneak into the room quietly and find the first seat at the back of the room. My intention is to witness Braedyn and Rylee exchange their vows and then sneak out before the reception and head home to Lex. Showing up here today was the furthest thing from my mind when I left the house this morning, but the more I thought about it, the more I couldn’t stay away.
No one has noticed me, which is always a good thing. Making a scene at a wedding is the last thing I want to do. I can’t keep my eyes off my brother, watching the range of emotions cross his face. Joy, anxiousness, concern, and love have flashed through his eyes at one point in time, and as I hear the wedding march begin to play, pure elation is etched in his eyes, which is soon followed by tears as I watch Rylee walk her way down the aisle to join him.
As they exchange their vows, I realize it may never be me standing at the altar waiting for the love of my life to join me. I’m not even sure I deserve that much joy and happiness in my life. I know I’d love to share forever with the right person, but men like me have penance to pay, crimes to atone for, which usually means they die alone unless they can find a way to leave shit in the past.
Lex has been helping me learn to leave my sins in the past; she’s bringing out the best in me each day. With each sun that rises, I am one step closer to a future that could have a happy ending. A future that I hope one day will include a wife and children, and I hope to have Braedyn, Rylee, and my niece or nephew in it.
As my brother professes his love to the one woman who completes him, I fantasize he is me, and I let myself believe the woman is Lex. What would I say in my vows to her? Would I promise to be a better man? The man who she deserves, who I question I can be? Would she even consider being my wife if that day ever came?
Hearing the words ‘I now pronounce you husband and wife’ has me snapping back into reality. Now is the time to sneak out before Braedyn realizes I’m here, but as I move to stand, my eyes lock with his, and I can tell I have completely surprised him. Braedyn raises his eyebrow in question to me as if asking me, “Where do you think you are going?” So I remain seated watching Braedyn and Rylee walk down the aisle arm in arm.
Once the room has cleared out, I’ve got the opportunity to make a break for the exit, which is exactly what I am planning to do. However, just as I reach for the door, I feel his hand on my shoulder.
“Gauge, what are you doing here?”
“I’m sorry, Braedyn. I’m leaving now before anyone notices me. I didn’t plan on being here, it just sort of happened. I was on my bike riding around this morning, and before I knew it, here I was, and I couldn't bring myself to leave.”
“Don’t go.” Those are the last words I ever expected to hear him say to me. “Stay and enjoy yourself for a bit. It's OK.”
“Really? I didn’t think you wanted me here.”
“That was wrong of me to do to you. I should have never excluded you, Gauge. You're my brother. You should be here. Forgive me.”
My mind is still trying to comprehend what I just heard. My body is stiff as a board as I feel his arms go around me to hug me. “I’m sorry, Gauge, really, I am.”
“Thank you, Braedyn, for letting me stay.”
“Come on. Mom, Dad, and Rylee will be so pleased to see you.”
I’m a bit apprehensive as I follow Braedyn through the building, but all my nerves evaporate when I see the smiles on the faces of Mom and Dad. They’ve always championed my reconciliation with Braedyn.
“Mom, Dad, so good to see you.”
“Gauge, I’m so happy you’re here,” my mom says while tears are falling from her eyes.
“Oh, Gidget, stop with the waterworks already. I’m all out of tissues,” my father tells her. “You keep this up, and I’ll have to buy stock in Kleenex, silly woman.” Turning to me, my dad grabs me by the shoulder. “Gauge, do you know I have a pocket full of used Kleenex already? Nice to see you, son, glad you are here.”
“Good to see you, too, Pop. It’s been way too long.”
“Yes, son, it has. Think we’ll be seeing you more these days?”
“I’d like that, Dad, more than you know.”
From the corner of my eye, I see a blur of white rushing my way, followed by squeals of joy. “Gauge, I’m so glad to see you.” Before I can even tell her how beautiful she looks, her arms are around my neck, and Rylee is squeezing me tight.
“Rylee, it’s good to see you too. You look beautiful.”
I thought I’d feel uncomfortable around so many people at one time, but honestly, it feels good. I spend several hours with my family, sharing only bits and pieces of myself. One thing I’ve learned over the years is, the less you share with those that are close to you, the safer they are.
When I finally decide I’ve had all the attention I can stand for one night, I hug my family good-bye with the promise I’ll visit sometime soon and rush back to the one thing I’ve been missing all night long: Lex.
Bound And Determined
“I’M HOME,” I call out as I walk through the front door of my home, only I’m met with no response. Immediately, the worst comes to mind: she’s left me again. Making my way through each room, the pit in my stomach growing larger and larger as I find them empty, I finally give in and text Lex.
Me: Where are you?
Twenty minutes go by and still no response from her. When I’m about to grab my keys and leave, I hear the beep of an incoming text.
Red: Got called into work, see you later tonight.
Me: Should have left a note, Red, don’t like not knowing where you are.
Red: Didn’t have time. Stop being so controlling, I’m fine.
Me: I’ll show you controlling when you get home.
Red: Why wait? Meet me at Fetishes at midnight. You can show me then.
Me: Consider it done, see you then.
All the things I’m going to do to Red when I see her tonight run through my mind. The first thing I need to do is call and make sure there is an available private room. I rarely use them, haven’t really had a need to until today. It only takes one phone call to Walrus, and my plan is in motion.
The heavy beat of the music echoes through the building. The base is so hard you can feel it through your bones. Closer by Nine Inch Nails reverberates off the walls as the words ‘I wanna fuck you like an animal’ echo in my ears. Yeah, I’m so ready for tonight, my cock is already hard. I’ve thought about what I’m going to do to Red all night, planning each scene in my head and preparing for it as I loaded up my bag of tricks.
I spot Red behind the check-in desk as I arrive. Damn, she looks hot in black leather. Her tits are being contained by a leather br
a with silver spikes attached. Her ass is barely covered by the tight leather shorts she has on, and her wrists are adorned with cuffs. Yes, those, too, are black leather with spikes. Her red hair falls to one shoulder in a fishtail braid. When she sees me, her face lights up with excitement.
“I’m off in five. Don’t you look all big, bad, and dominant.”
“Keep it up, Red. You are already on my shit list for earlier. Insulting the way I look will only add more torture to your punishment.” I see the hitch in her breathing as I finish my warning. I’ll bet a thousand to one that if I reach down between her creamy thighs right now, she’ll be soaking wet with arousal.
“Sorry, I wasn’t trying to insult you.”
“Meet me upstairs in the St. Andrews room when you get off. I want you naked and kneeling when I walk in. Do you understand?”
“Yes, I understand, Gauge.”
“Ten minutes, that’s all the time you get. Five to get off work and five to be ready.” Lex nods her understanding as I leave to go set up the room.
Once everything is in place, I head back downstairs to give Red a chance to prepare for me. While I wait, I go to speak with Bob about an idea I have. After witnessing what Braedyn and Rylee have, I know I don’t want Lex dancing anymore. Call me stupid, but just seeing those two together made me realize I don’t want anyone else watching my girl take her clothes off.
I’m not stupid; men jack off to watching Lex work the pole. Hell, she’s so good at it there are times I almost blow my load just from watching.
“Bob, hey, got a minute for a favor, please?”
“Sure, what’s up, Gauge?”
“I haven’t said anything to Lex just yet, but I’d like to ask her to stop dancing at the club and just work check-in here at Fetishes for you, if you’ll say it's OK.”