I look at my watch as I switch off my car in the driveway. It was eleven seventeen. It was late. She must be asleep by now. I had not wanted to stay out this late, but couldn’t pass up the opportunity to have diner with Sam and Edgar. I lock the car and walk up to the front door. The house is dark and I hear the soft mumble of the TV. I see her lying on the couch watching TV wrapped up in a blanket. She was fast asleep. I walk to my room and sit down on the bed. I take off my clothes and walk back to the kitchen to pour myself some water. I look to where she was sleeping and feel my heart skip a beat as I remember our moment this morning beside this very sink. I feel him moving in my pants and shake my head to dismiss the thought. I walk over to the couch and look down at her. She was so beautiful. I cover her with the blanket and make my way back to my room. I couldn’t fall asleep not with her being right in the next room. I wanted to go in and wake her up carry her to my bed and show her what she had been missing. Love her until the sun came out. Suddenly I hear Ethan crying I hear the TV being switched off and then I hear her coming down the hall. She moves pass my door but doesn’t stop. Then Ethan is quiet and I feel at ease again. I finally fell asleep but woke up early. I got up and saw that it was only six thirty. I hear something moving outside my door and realize that Jane must be awake too. I get up and relieve myself before I open the door. There she stands in the patio door with a cup of coffee just looking over the back yard. Ethan must still be sleeping I think since I don’t hear the TV playing. I walk closer softly not wanting to disturb her thoughts when she looks up and at me. I stand frozen like a criminal who just got caught and then I see her smile. I smile at her too and walk closer. She was wearing her night gown but she was bare feet. I loved how messy her hair was and the sleep still lingering on her face. I walk to her and stand beside her and look at whatever it is she was looking at. She smiles and I smile to. “You had a late night” She finally says after a while and walk back inside. I follow her and she goes to sit on the couch. “Yes… That wasn’t the plan but I only got to see some close friends of mine for this day” I say and pour myself a cup of coffee. I walk to where she was sitting on the couch and plant myself right next to her. My body felt hot and I wish I had put a t-shirt on as I see her looking at my chest. But she looked mesmerized and hot. Oh God; she was desiring me. I feel him tingle under my pants and I shift. She looks up at my face and I feel hot under her stare. She started making small conversation asking me about what the conference was about and if I had enjoyed it and so on. But all I thought about while talking to her was kissing her lips and her neck and her breasts. I wanted to taste her and savor her. She seems to have relaxed and I had to fight the rising need to not start showing my desire for her rising in my pants. Suddenly we hear small foot steps coming down the hall calling out to Jane. She quickly gets up from the couch and walks up to Ethan and picks him up. I feel relieved at her sudden departure and try to get my now erect penis to relax. I switch on the TV and flip through the channels until I find something interesting to watch that will take my mind of Jane. She doesn’t reappear for awhile and I venture through the rooms to find where she could be hiding. I find her fast a sleep with Ethan in her arms on her bed. Her gown had slipped open and her leg and thigh were showing her bun had come loose and her hair was scattered all over the pillow. The nighty was tight around her breast showing them off perfectly. Oh God how was I going to survive alone with this woman in this house today. I need to get out and find distraction. Just as I was about to turn and leave she wakes up. I hear her lifting herself up from the bed and then I freeze… he was semi again Shit! I try to think of something horrific but all I see is beautiful breasts and thigh. “Are you okay…” She asks and I start walking out of the room and back to my room. I need to get away from her. She comes walking up behind me and I duck into my room quickly I head into the bath room and take a piss. I needed to get this lust out of my system. I hear her talking at the door about coffee and I agree quickly. I come out of the bathroom and hear my phone go off. It was a text message from my writer he wanted to meet. Good thank you some distraction. I text him back and we set up our meeting for ten this morning. It was nine now so I had an hour to finish up before he would get here. I put a t-shirt on and walk to the kitchen. Her hair was tied up in a bun again and she had on a yoga pants and long top. She looked even more beautiful than before. She smiles at me and gives me my coffee. I take it and take a sip. She walks over to the fridge and takes out some food for breakfast. I watch her move and imagine her pregnant. Whow… Stop it I scold myself. I hear my phone go off again and I check my text it was from Sam and Edgar thanking me for a wonderful night and wishing good luck with Jane. I let out a little laugh and shake my head. I get up and see little Ethan coming into the kitchen he smiles at me and then at Jane. She gives him his sippy cup and then he heads outside. The clouds looks like it was going to bring some rain and I think it would be best if he stayed indoors today. I talk him into coming inside and Jane stands looking at me. She smiles and switches the TV on to his favorite channel. He plants himself with his blanket on the carpet and sings along to the tunes. I talk to Jane about the groceries list and Cole who is coming to collect Ethan for the weekend. She rolls her eyes at the mention of his name and I smile. She places the plate of food in front of me and goes to get Ethan so that he can eat to. We eat in silence as she reads her messages on her phone. She looks serious and suddenly her mood has changed I wonder what could have happened. I don’t know if I should ask but I try.
“Is everything okay?” I ask and she looks at me and I’m not sure if she was going to yell at me or if she was going to cry. “My father… His sick… the doctors think it might be cancer but they are waiting for the results to come in.” She says and I see her heart breaking oh God how do I console her when death had become a norm to me? I walk up to her and pull her into my arms and hold her close to me. She rests her head on my chest and I smell her hair. She then lifts her head up to me and I don’t know what to say. Ethan starts laughing and I let her go of her. She moves out of my embrace and I go sit and eat my food further. She goes out into the back yard to make her call. I hear the door bell ring and Timothy is as always a couple of minutes early. I offer him a cup of coffee and then we disappear into the study. Jane had not done with her call yet so I made Ethan comfortable in front of the TV and look out back to check on her. She looks up and catches my eyes and quickly says her goodbyes and comes walking back to the house. “I’m sorry I just had to find out how my father was doing” She says and I see her fear in her eyes. “Hey it’s no big deal it’s your dad.” I say and press her shoulder lightly. She gives me a warm smile and we head back into the house. “I’m going to be busy for a while… We will chat later” I say and start walking to the study. Jane looks wounded and hurt and it breaks my heart that I can’t comfort her right now. Timothy and I go back and forth for hours. “No…It doesn’t sound right. It’s a too obvious description” I say and Timothy looks at me at his wits end. “Then I don’t know what it is you want” He says and close his laptop. I feel like a diva shooting down most of his ideas, but need everything to perfect my career depend on this book. “Look… You know this is not my type of writing and I appreciate that you wanted to make me apart of this, but maybe you should find yourself another writer buddy… There is no way I will ever be able to find the right words to describe everything that is alive in these photos.” Timothy says as he looks at the boards in front of him with all the death and famine captured in them like the very souls living it and I feel my heart sinks to the floor. There is no time to find another writer the book needs to be done in two weeks. I watch Timothy pack up his things and head out the door. “This is truly remarkable and the world needs to see it… Good luck buddy” Timothy says and I see him disappear out the door. I sit in my chair staring at the boards of photos and feel like ripping them all off and calling my publishers and tell them there is not going to be any book. I look at the clock its three in the afternoon and the day
was turning out to be beautiful.
“Hey… would like to join us on our groceries trip?” I hear her speaking from behind the door and I feel at ease hearing her voice.
Chapter Three
“Milk… So why don’t you just say what you want to say…” Jane ticks the milk of the list and I pack it inside the trolley. I look at her and see how attentive she looks around the store for the next item on the list. “It’s not that easy…” I say to her in response and she turns to look at me. I see her eyes burning into me hard. I remember our disagreement for a lack of not wanting it to seem like a battle over the photos of the dead children. I wanted to put them in a chapter on its own showing the reader how bad it was for children in these wars but my editor felt the book will come off to harsh and explicit. She completely gutted everything my editor had said and made me do it the way I wanted. I remember feeling quiet liberated after her outburst. “Why not?” I hear her say and she looks at me waiting for an answer and then we get into the politics of what to write and not to write about and how to phrase and say things and she looses her mind. I swear she was going to explode if I hadn’t held her in place and told her to relax. “I’m sorry… But I just don’t think that you should cage yourself in with whatever the worlds wants you to say and express. You were there… only you know what happened and felt the emotion. Every picture tells a million different stories to the reader… Tell the world the truth as seen through your eyes” She says to me and I’m lost in her words. “God you’re beautiful” Is all I can get out and she looks at me shocked. I want to say I’m sorry but I wasn’t sure; it was after all only the truth. “Well… you’re quite beautiful too” She says and then she starts walking again. I feel quite flattered at her compliment. I have been called many things but never beautiful. I follow her down the aisle and we finish up the rest of the grocery shopping quickly. The drive home feels awkward and I can’t find anything for us to talk about. Everything ends by the second sentence and then we only stare at each other. When we get to the house Ethan had fallen asleep. Jane carries him inside and I start unloading the groceries. I hear thunder striking and look up at the dark clouds rolling in; just what I need a weekend home alone with the rain. Great. Jane will be leaving as soon as Cole comes to pick up Ethan and then it will only be with the board of photos of people who needs me to be their voice. Jane joins me back at the car and helps unload the bags and we head inside as the first drops of water start to fall. She takes Adele’s list and walks to Ethan’s room. I watch her leave and feel my heart swell in a few hours she will be leaving and I will be stuck here all alone. Maybe I should see what movies are playing and treat myself to a night off but I know I couldn’t the narrative for the book needed to get done. I shake my head and walk into the study. A few minutes pass and then Jane pokes her head in the door. “Something to drink?” She asks and smiles at me. I look at her and nod my head. She disappears again and I look at the script beside me. I pick it up and page through the pages and scan the words. None of it was real. I needed to be more honest… Like Jane had said earlier. I look at the boards and take out my sticky notes. I look each photo and write down what happened that day and paste it on the photo. A couple minutes later I hear Jane entering and she takes a sip of her coffee as she hands me my cup. I take it from her and thank her politely she nods in return. “That’s a good idea” She says and walks to the couch by the window and sits down with her feet tucked in underneath her legs. She looks out of the window and takes another sip of her coffee. So elegant and graceful she is. Nothing seems hard for this woman. Though her eyes tell of great sorrow and pain her mouth talks of great conviction and acceptance. Maybe there is a reason why is still a virgin besides the one she gave Adele. Maybe she had a bad experience the first time she ever got close to having sex. I look at her and she turns to look back at me. She smiles softly. “Listen to this…” I say and read out loud to her what I have written on the sticky note in front of me. “Well it sounds horrible… so I need to see for which photo it is” She says and gets up from the couch and comes standing next to me. She looks at the photo long and then she takes the sticky note from me. She scratches out a few words and puts in new ones with the same meaning and then she smiles. “How does it sound now?” She asks and I start laughing. The woman read my mind. She was inside my head and I loved it. “How do you do that?” I ask and she frowns. “How do you know what is going in my mind” I say and she blushes. I walk closer to her and touch her cheek then we hear the doorbell ring. Dammit. I close my eyes and she starts laughing.
“It’s probably Cole… Adele sent me a text saying he got in earlier so let me get that.” She says and starts walking out of the study. “I will go and get Ethan then.” I say and she calls to me to rap him up nicely in his blanket since it was raining now. I see Cole standing in the doorway talking to Jane. She seems more relaxed as she sees me coming closer carrying the sleeping child. I hand Ethan to Cole and walk with him to the car carrying Ethan’s bag and things then we say our goodbyes. I look at Jane as I close the door and she looks a bit awkward and I decide to not put her in a difficult position again. “Come… You need to work your magic on me” I say and start walking towards the study again. She follows behind me and I smile. “What do you me…” she says as we enter the study and I go and stand in front of the boards. I look at the notes I had written and ask her to look at them and write new one’s where she thinks is necessary. She looks completed chuffed with herself for receiving this new project. “I’ll make us some more coffee; it’s going to be a long night” She says and my heart skips a beat. She walks out of the study and I hear her talking on the phone to someone. She comes back and smiles brightly at me. She starts looking at the sticky notes already written on and then I see her looking around the room frantically. “Looking for something?” I ask as I look up from the writing my notes. She looks at me and I start looking around the room too. “Yes… you don’t perhaps have a writing pad for me?” She asks and I dash to the desk and retrieve an empty pad for her. I also hand a pad of sticky notes and she smiles. I take a deep breath and we start working. The time flies by filled with chats about photos, disagreements about phrases and amount of words, and then laughs about spelling errors.
“I’m starving…”I hear her say as she puts down her pad and starts walking out of the study. I put my pad down and look at the time. Its nine o’clock. I suppose we could go out to get something to eat before I take her home. She comes back in with the phone and the delivery menu. Again my heart skips a beat. “What do you think we should get?” She says and pages through the booklet. I stand beside her as she stands bend over the desk. I watch the curve of her back and my mouth goes dry. She had taken off her top and is now only standing in her camisole and yoga pants. She said she needed to get comfortable. She had put on some Brazilian music playing softly in the background. I see her bun coming loose and I want to touch the lock hanging beside her ear. She looks up at me and catches me staring. “How about pizza?” I say quickly trying to lighten the mood before it became awkward again. She smiles and starts dialing the number. “I was thinking about a pizza too” and then she starts talking to the person on the other line. She comes back in the study and her hair is now hanging loose around her shoulders. God she was beautiful. She runs her fingers through her hair and bends her neck. She lets out a little yawn and then she catches me staring again. She smiles at me and comes walking closer. I feel my body growing hot and the lust burns high inside me. “I hope you’re not mad at me for ripping some of your notes apart” She says and smiles at me. I look at the boards and I feel proud. We had gotten so much done at this rate we might be finished within the next few days. “No… but you know you are going to have to help me with all of them right?” I say and she frowns. “Well it’s going to cost you?” She says and smiles at me narrowing her eyes. My throat goes dry as I see her coming closer and closer. “Well name your price” I say and she starts laughing and it sends a chill down my spine. “I
don’t want money… Just my name in the thank you speech when you win your first award for this” she says and motions around the room at all the boards. I smile at her and she turns to walk through the boards again. She folds her arms across her chest and looking attentively making sure she had everything right. I walk out of the study and head to the toilet. My privates have been aching for a while now and I know it’s been months since I had a woman. I walk to the kitchen and take out a bottle of natural sweet white wine and two glasses. Just as I was about to enter the study the buzzer of the gate goes off. I run in the study and put the bottle of wine on the desk and grab my wallet before I dash out to get the pizza. When I return Jane had poured us each a glass and she was standing at the chapter of the children and she looked sad. I didn’t want her to be sad tonight. “Pizza is here” I say bringing her out of her thoughts and back to the present. She looks at me and smiles. She takes a sip of her wine and comes walking over to me. I open the box and the aroma of garlic and cheese fills the room and I feel my taste buds tingling. She breathes in the aromas and grabs a slice and starts eating it slowly. It was still hot and I liked it hot. She finishes the first slice quickly and then grabs another takes another bite and walks to the boards again. She was taking the task very seriously and I loved that about her. I take another slice and walks over to where she was standing. She was dancing to the music slow and sensual. She smiles as I come standing next to her as she puts the last piece of pizza in her mouth. She takes a sip of her drink and then heads back to the desk. She takes another slice and then we here the thunder strike. She lets out a little yell and then she starts laughing. I start laughing too. I walk over to her and grab another slice. She starts walking over to the couch and sits down. I take the box and the bottle of wine and walk to the couch too. I pull the little side table closer and put the box and bottle on it. We hear the rain falling against the window glass and the thunder striking. September always has the oddest weather patterns. She sits looking at me for a while and then she comes closer. “I really don’t know how you’ve done it all these years” She says and for a second I feel confused about what she is referring too. “How do sleep at night?” She asks and points at the chapter of the children. I sit back and sigh. I look at the photos in front of us and feel out of place in the big study. “I don’t sleep… Well I didn’t. Not for a long time.” I say and take sip of my wine. She takes a sip too. “And now… do you sleep better?” She asks and I think about it for a second. “Yes… I would think so” I say and smile at her. She was so beautiful. “I have to tell you… You are the most beautiful woman I had ever seen. And another things I have to be honest about; sometimes it’s very overwhelming” I say and feel the need to be honest with her. She smiles brightly and I smile too. “Well I could say the same for you… The silver in your hair is very sexy” She says and lifts herself up and runs her fingers through my hair. My heart skips a beat and my mouth goes dry at her touch. Oh God being this close to her. “I love your eyes too… The look very sure” She says and touches my face and I close my eyes under her touch. She runs her fingers down my cheek to my lips. I keep my eyes closed just enjoying her touching me. I open my eyes and I see her looking right at me. Smoldering like hot coal. I put my hand on her cheek and she closes her eyes under my touch and I see her nipples getting erect under the fabric of her camisole. I smile softly at the effect my touch was having on her. She leans into me more. I lower her head to mine and our lips touch softly. I kiss her like a delicate flower. She tastes of wine and garlic and I loved it. Nothing about her could ever be wrong. Our kiss becomes more intense and I feel her tongue against mine and then the lust and love in me catches fire. I kiss her fiercely and she responds just as hungry and lustful. I feel her nipple hard against my forearm and my member goes from semi to hard with just the thought. I lift her up on my lap and she sits looking at me consumed with lust and love. I love her so much. She bends down and kisses me again softly and then she kisses my cheek, all long my jaw line and chin. She lightly bites on my ear and then she kisses along my neck. I can’t help but gasp. I feel her shift on my lap and put my hands on her lower back resting on her well-shaped buttocks. She was something between Jennifer Lopez and Diana everything fitted with the elegance. I rub my hands up her back to the nape of her neck and pull on her hair softly exposing her neck to my assault of kisses. She moans and I love it. I see the confirmation in her eyes as I play with strap of her camisole and pull it off her shoulder. I trail kisses along her neck to her shoulders and she tugs on my hair softly as she enjoys the torture of my lips. She moans and I pull the other strap off as well… all the way down to her waist… Her beautiful breast in full view of my face and my mouth… I see her mouth drop open as the nipples harden as my hand cups them delicately. She wanted me oh she wanted me. I put my lips to her breast kissing it and then I let me tongue do the rest. She arches her back and I use my free hand to hold her in place. She starts moving slowly on my lap rubbing herself against me hard. She wanted me… I lick her nipples and I feel myself throb hard against my pants with pleasure. I wanted her too. Wait… This is going to be her first time. Her first time having sex and I can just imagine how her previous experiences must have been since it kept her from actually going through with it all this time. I have to make it last. Last forever. I take her camisole and lift it over her head. I kiss her lips again soft and lingering. I pick her up from me and let her lie on the couch next to me. I take of my t-shit and she gasps. She wanted me. I bend down and touch her lips and feel her touching my stomach. I wasn’t as ripped as I was a few years back but I was lean. I lean down and kiss her breast again and she puts her fingers in my hair and moans softly. I love the way she smells and tastes. I trail my kissed to her stomach and feel it trembling as I cover it in butterfly kisses. She shifts as I run my hand up and leg and thigh. I kiss her above her yoga pants and she shifts again. I know she is ready. I run my fingers along the elastic of pants and she moans. I sit up and start pulling them off slowly allowing my fingers to graze her thighs and legs. Her panties are white and can see the wetness seeping through. Oh I want to taste her. I look at her and she looks hot and ready. Should I ask her? Should I? Then she says the words. “I want you… Adam. Please have me” I feel my breath catch in my throat and I know that this night will be the night she never forgets. I take off her panties and see her beautifully shaven love nest. Swollen and wet. Gosh it was so inviting. I bend down and kiss her again. She kisses me with urgency and I stop to look at her. She wanted me now but I knew I needed not rush. Tonight was all about her. I take her and roll her around on her stomach. I stand up and take off the rest of my clothes. She looks at my naked body and smiles. Okay she has seen other men naked before I take it and I guess no-one has looked like me because she looks pleased and silly all at the same time. I walk closer and climb on top of her. I start kissing her neck and run my kisses all along her back she arches herself towards me and feel myself resting between the swells of her buttocks. She smiles as she feels me rubbing against her cheeks. I continue rubbing her back and kissing. She moans and I love the sound she makes in response to my pleasure. I turn her around and starts kissing her again and she touches my back and trails her hands along my side and then down to my waist she slowly makes her way to me touching it softly with unsure fingers and I shift knowing that it’s not going to take much for me to let myself go all over her right now. I lift myself up from her and look into her eyes. She frowns at me and I give her a scolding look. “Okay okay…” she says and smiles. I kiss her on the lips a few times and then move down to her breast and stomach and then lick on her secret pleasure spot softly. She jerks and lets out a little yell. I smile knowing that she had never done this before, dry humping she’s had and she liked but she has never gotten this close. I take my finger and rub it up and down her wetness and she moans again. I lower my mouth and she gasps. Oh she tastes like heaven. I savor her for a while and then I enter my finger slowly. She was tight as hell and I knew this
is going to hurt her. She shifts and moans. I lick her spot and love her with my touch and then she reaches her peak hard and wet all over me. She lies panting heavy and hard. I see a smile on her face and I smile to myself. There was no way I’m going another day without this woman. I lift myself up on top of her and look into her eyes. Suddenly she looks scared and wipes the hair out of her face and smile. “We don’t have to go all the way if you’re not ready” I whisper in her ear and her eyes widen. She looks shy and I feel stupid for making her feel ashamed of being a virgin. I bend down and start kissing her again trying to break the tension and she kisses me back. “You said my name in your sleep… You said that you loved me” She says to me and I feel my whole body tighten. I could not believe it. I was completely blown away. My heart starts beating fast and I knew that there was no turning back now and know that this was the moment where I have her for the rest of my life or loose her forever. I look at her and without hesitation I hear myself saying the words. “Well… I do. I do love you” I say and she looks at me and touches my face. We start kissing again and she pulls me up on top of her again. I feel her wetness against my head and I allow myself to enter her slowly. She digs her nails into my back and I feel her head pressing against my shoulder. It takes a while for us to find our rhythm but when we get there it was magic.
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