Complete Novels of E Nesbit

by Edith Nesbit

The way to set a line or snare;

  But not the way to truss a chick,

  To fry a fish, or baste a roast,

  Nor how to tell, when folks are sick,

  What kind of herb will ease them most!

  Forgetting seems such silly waste!

  I know so many little things,

  And now the Angels will make haste

  To dust it all away with wings!

  O God, you made me like to know,

  You kept the things straight in my head,

  Please God, if you can make it so,

  Let me know something when I’m dead.

  THE CONFESSION.

  I HAVEN’T always acted good:

  I’ve taken things not meant for me;

  Not other people’s drink and food,

  But things they never seemed to see.

  I haven’t done the way I ought

  If all they say in church is true,

  But all I’ve had I’ve fairly bought,

  And paid for pretty heavy too.

  For days and weeks are very long

  If you get nothing new and bright,

  And if you never do no wrong

  Somehow you never do no right.

  The chap that daresent go a yard

  For fear the path should lead astray

  May be a saint — though that seems hard,

  But he’s no traveller, any way.

  Some things I can’t be sorry for,

  The things that silly people hate:

  But some I did I do deplore,

  I knew, inside, they wasn’t straight.

  And when my last account is filed,

  And stuck-up angels stop their song,

  I’ll ask God’s pardon like a child

  For what I really knew was wrong.

  If you’ve a child, you’d rather see

  A bit of temper, off and on,

  A greedy grab, a silly spree —

  And then a brave thing said or done

  Than hear your boy whine all day long

  About the things he musn’t do:

  Just doing nothing, right or wrong:

  And God may feel the same as you.

  For God’s our Father, so they say,

  He made His laws and He made me;

  He’ll understand about the way

  Me and His laws could not agree.

  He might say, “You’re worth more, My son,

  Than all My laws since law began.

  Take good with bad — here’s something done —

  And I’m your God, and you’re My man.”

  WORK.

  WHEN I am busying about,

  Sewing on buttons, tapes, and strings,

  Hanging the week’s wet washing out

  Or ironing the children’s things,

  Sweeping and dusting, cleaning grates,

  Scrubbing the dresser or the floors,

  Washing the greasy dinner plates,

  Scouring the brasses on the doors —

  I wonder what it’s all about,

  And when did people first begin

  To keep the dirt and wornness out

  And keep the wholesome comfort in:

  How long it is since women bore

  This round of wash and make and mend,

  And what God makes us do it for

  And whether it will ever end!

  When God began to do His work

  He made a new thing every day —

  Even now He is not one to shirk,

  But makes things, always some new way

  He made the earth, and sky, and sun,

  The creatures of the sea and wood,

  And when his first week’s work was done

  He saw that it was very good.

  But He — for all He worked so fast

  To finish air, and wave, and shore,

  Knew that this work of His would last

  For ever and for evermore.

  On Saturday night He was content,

  He knew that Monday would not bring

  Need for another firmament,

  Another set of everything.

  But though my work is easier far

  Than making sky and sea and sun,

  It’s harder than God’s labours are,

  Because my work is never done.

  I sweep and churn, save and contrive,

  I bake and brew, I don’t complain,

  But every Monday morning I’ve

  Last Monday’s work to do again.

  I’m good at work — I work away;

  Always the same my work must go;

  The flowers grow different every day,

  That’s why I like to see them grow.

  If, up in Heaven, God understood

  He’d let me for my Paradise

  Make all things new and very good

  And never make the same thing twice!

  THE JILTED LOVER TO HIS MOTHER.

  You needn’t pray for me, old lady, I don’t want no one’s prayer,

  I’m fit and jolly as ever I was — you needn’t think I care.

  When I go whistling down the road, when the warm night is falling,

  She needn’t think I’m whistling her, it’s another girl I’m calling.

  If I pass her house a dozen times, or fifty times a day,

  She needn’t think I think of her, my work lies out that way.

  If they should tell her I’ve grown thin (for that is what they’ve told me)

  This cursed weather counts for that, and not the girl who sold me.

  And if they say I’m off my feed I still can tip a can;

  If I get drunk what’s that to her? I am not her young man.

  I know I’ve had a lucky let-off — she ain’t no class, she ain’t,

  For all she looked like a bush o’ roses and talked like a story book saint.

  I never give a thought to her. Don’t worry your old head,

  I’ve quite forgot her pretty ways and the cruel things she said,

  There’s lots of other gals to be had as any chap can see,

  So you cheer up, you’ve got no call to go and pray for me.

  But all the same, if you want to pray, you’d best pray God take care of them,

  For if I catch them two together, by hell! I’ll swing for the pair of them.

  THE WILL TO LIVE.

  SINCE Faith is a veil that has nothing behind it,

  And Hope wanders lost where no mortal can find it,

  Since Love is a mirror we break in a minute

  In snatching the image our soul has cast in it,

  What is the use of the Summers and Springs,

  The wave of the woods and the waft of the wings —

  Since all means nothing, and good things and ill

  Make madness, — a mirage tormenting us still?

  Since all the fighting, the ardent endeavour,

  The heart cast bleeding to feed the Ideal,

  Are vain, vain, vain, and the one thing real

  Is that all’s vain, for ever and ever;

  Why then, be a man and stand back from the strife,

  Fall by the sword, but keep out of the snare;

  Will but to be — and be willing to bear

  All that the gods may lay on your of life!

  In the far East, where light ever dawns first,

  There has man learned how the Fates may be cheated,

  How by our craft may their strength be defeated,

  Though all our best be no match for their worst!

  Kill the desire that they set in your bosom,

  Long not for fruit when you gaze on the blossom,

  Dream not of flowers when you gaze on the bud,

  Kill all the rebels that shout in your blood.

  Sorrow and sickness, disease and decay —

  These toll the hours of Life’s desolate day;

  Hopes unfulfilled and forbidden delight

  These are the dreams of Life’s treacherous night.

>   So let me image an infinite peace

  Touched with no joy but the ease of release.

  Out of the eddies I climb and I cease

  Keeping, in change for this man’s soul of me,

  Something which, by the eternal decree,

  Is as like Nothing as Something can be!

  Not to desire, to admit, to adore,

  Casting the robe of the soul that you wore

  Just as the soul casts the body’s robe down.

  This is man’s destiny, this is man’s crown.

  This is the splendour, the end of the feast;

  This is the light of the Star in the East.

  So, Silence reconciles Life’s jarring phrases

  Far in the future, austere and august:

  Meanwhile, the buds of the poplars are falling,

  Spring’s on the lawn, and a little voice calling:

  “Daddy, come out! Daddy darling, you must!

  Daddy come out and help Molly pick daisies!”

  And, since one’s here, and the Spring’s in the garden

  (How many lives hence will that thought earn pardon?)

  Since one’s a man and man’s heart is insistent,

  And, since Nirvana is doubtful and distant,

  Though life’s a hard road and thorny to travel —

  Stones in the borders and grass on the gravel,

  Still there’s the wisdom that wise men call folly,

  Still one can go and pick daisies with Molly!

  THE BEATIFIC VISION.

  OH God! if I do my duty

  And walk in the thorny way,

  Will you pay me with heavens of beauty,

  Millions of lives away?

  Will you give me the music of heaven,

  And the joy that none understands,

  In place of what life would have given

  If I had held out my hands?

  I have lived in a narrow prison,

  I have writhed ‘neath a bitter creed,

  And I dare to say that no heaven can pay

  The renounced dream and deed,

  But when my life’s portal closes,

  If you have no heaven to spare

  God! give me a garden of roses,

  And some one to walk with there.

  II.

  MUMMY WHEAT.

  LAID close to Death, these many thousand years,

  In this small seed Life hid herself and smiled;

  So well she hid, Death was at least beguiled,

  Set free the grain — and lo! the sevenfold ears!

  Warmed by the sun, wooed by the wind’s soft word,

  Under blue canopy they hold their state:

  For this, ah, was it not worth while to wait

  Through all the centuries of hope deferred?

  What could they know who laid the seed with Death

  Of this Divine fruition fixed and planned?

  Love — since Life parts us — lend my hand your hand

  And look with me into the eyes of faith.

  For here between your hand and mine there lies

  A little seed we trust to Death to keep

  Through unimagined centuries of sleep

  Until the day when Life shall bid it rise.

  Our harvest waits us. Who knows where or how,

  What worlds away, wrapped in what coil of pain?

  But Life shall bid us pluck gold sevenfold grain

  Grown from the love she bids us bury now.

  THE BEECH TREE.

  MY beautiful beech, your smooth grey coat is trimmed

  With letters. Once, each stood for all things dear

  To foolish lovers, dead this many a year,

  Whose lamp of lighted love so soon was dimmed.

  You have seen them come and go,

  And heard their kisses and vows

  Under your boughs,

  The pitiful vows they swore,

  Have seen their poor tears flow,

  Have seen them part; to meet, and to return, no more!

  And in old winters, through your branches bare,

  The north wind drove the blue home-scented smoke

  That on the glowing Christmas hearth awoke

  Where the old logs, with eager flicker and flare,

  Sang their low crackling song

  Of peace and of good will.

  The old song is still,

  The old voices have died away,

  The hearth has been cold so long,

  And the bright faces dimmed and covered up with clay.

  And summer after summer wakes to glow

  The ordered pleasance with the clipped box-hedge,

  The drooping lilac by the old moat’s edge,

  The roses, that throw you kisses from below,

  The orchard pink and white,

  The sedge’s whispered words,

  The nesting birds,

  All these return to revel round your feet.

  And in the untroubled night

  The nightingale still sings, the jasmine still is sweet.

  My beautiful beech, I carve upon you here

  The master-letter which begins her name

  Through whom, to me, the royal summer came,

  And nightingale and rose, and all things dear.

  And, in some far-off time,

  I shall come here, weary and old,

  When the hearth in my heart is cold

  And the birds that nest there flown;

  I will remember this summer in all its prime

  And say, “There was a day —

  Thank God, the Giver, an unforgotten day,

  When I walked here, not alone,

  — O God of pity and sorrow, not alone!”

  IN ABSENCE.

  WAKE, do you wake in the dark in the strange far place,

  Window and door not set like the ones we knew,

  Leaning your face through the dark for another face,

  Stretching your arms to the arms that are far from you,

  Even as I, through the depth of this darkness, do?

  Sleep, do you sleep in the house in the lonely land?

  In the lonely room do you hear no steps draw near?

  Do you miss in the darkness the hand that implores your hand,

  See through the darkness your last dream disappear,

  And weep, as I weep, in the outer darkness here?

  Dream, do you dream? Nay, never a dream will stay,

  Never a phantom is fond, or a vision kind.

  Your dreams elude you and fly through the dark my way,

  My dreams fly forth to you whom they may not find;

  And we in the darkness weep, we weep and are left behind.

  SILENCE.

  So silent is the world to-night

  The lamp gives silence out like light,

  The latticed windows open wide

  Show silence, like the night, outside:

  The nightingale’s faint song draws near

  Like musical silence to mine ear.

  The empty house calls not to me,

  “Here, but for fate, were thou and she—”

  Its gibe for once is checked. To-night

  Silence is queen in grief’s despite,

  And even the longing of my soul

  Is silent ‘neath this hour’s control.

  RAISON D’ETRE.

  O WEARY night, O weary day,

  When heart’s delight is far away!

  What is the day? A frame of blue

  The vacant-glaring sun grins through.

  What is the night? A sable veil

  Through which the moon peers tired and pale.

  O weary day! O weary night!

  How far away is heart’s delight!

  Love hung the sun in his high place

  To give me light to see her face,

  And love spread out the veil of night

  To hide us two from all men’s sight.

  O kindly night, O pleasant day,

  Your use is
gone — why should ye stay?

  My heart’s delight is far away,

  O weary night, O weary day.

  THE ONLOOKER.

  If I could make a pillow for your head,

  Soft, pleasant, filled with every pretty thought;

  If I could lay a carpet where you tread

  Of all my life’s most radiant fancies wrought,

  And spread my love as canopy above you,

  Your sleep, your steps should know how much I love you.

  But — as life goes, to the old sorry tune —

  I stand apart, I see thorns wound your feet,

  Your sleeping eyes resenting sun and moon,

  Your head lie restless on a breast unmeet —

  And say no word, and suffer without moan,

  Lest you should guess how much you are alone.

  THE TREE OF KNOWLEDGE.

  I PLUCKED the blossoms of delight

  In many a wood and many a field,

  I made a garland fair and bright

  As any gardens yield.

  But when I sought the living tree

  To make new earth and Heaven new,

  I found — alas for you and me —

  Its roots were set in you.

  Oh, dear my garden, where the fruit

  Of lovely knowledge sweetly springs,

  How jealously you guard the root

  Of all enlightening things!

  AT PARTING.

  AND you could leave me now —

  After the first remembered whispered vow

  Which sings for ever and ever in my ears —

  The vow which God among His Angels hears —

  After the long-drawn years,

  The slow hard tears,

  Could break new ground, and wake

  A new strange garden to blossom for your sake,

  And leave me here alone,

  In the old garden that was once our own?

  How should I learn to bear

  Our garden’s pleasant ways and pleasant air,

  Her flowers, her fruits, her lily, her rose and thorn,

  When only in a picture these appear —

  These, once alive, and always over-dear?

  Ah — think again: the rose you used to wear

  Must still be more than other roses be

  The flower of flowers. Ah, pity, pity me!

  For in my acres is no plot of ground

  Whereon could any garden site be found,

  I have but little skill

  To water weed and till

  And make the desert blossom like the rose;

  Yet our old garden knows

  If I have loved its ways and walks and kept