Again, Dangerous Visions

by edited by Harlan Ellison

  I was going to go into detail about those two swell times I had with Bradbury—one at the newsstand on Cahuenga and Hollywood Boulevards, the other an afternoon we spent on the same podium with Frank Herbert, where the spark-gap was leapt and seven hundred California English teachers wept and laughed and gave us a standing ovation and for one of the rare moments in my life I truly believed, down to the gut core of myself, that it was the noblest thing in the world to be a writer—but space doesn't permit, and besides I'd rather tell it to you when we meet and have more time to talk.

  So I'll just tag out by saying Ray Bradbury is a man who has written some 300 stories that have been collected in books like The October Country, Dark Carnival, The Golden Apples of the Sun, The Illustrated Man, Something Wicked This Way Comes, The Anthem Sprinters, I Sing the Body Electric!, The Martian Chronicles, A Medicine for Melancholy, The Machineries of Joy, Dandelion Wine and Fahrenheit 451. He wrote the screenplay for John Huston's production of Moby Dick (which, strangely, looks much better on a TV screen than in a theater). He also wrote the script for an animated film history of Hallowe'en in collaboration with Chuck Jones, The Halloween Tree, and he's now at work on a stage play titled Leviathan '99. He wrote a "space age cantata" dealing with the possible images of Christ on other worlds, Christus Apollo, music by Jerry Goldsmith, and he is a very good, kind, committed man who was in no small part responsible for getting LBJ booted out of office.

  And he's the only man whose poetry I would have included in this, a book of stories. Well, maybe Robert Graves . . .

  CHRIST, OLD STUDENT IN A NEW SCHOOL

  Ray Bradbury

  O come, please come, to the Poor Mouth Fair

  Where the Saints kneel round in their underwear

  And say out prayers that most need saying

  For needful sinners who've forgotten praying;

  And in every alcove and niche you spy

  The living dead who envy the long-since gone

  Who never wished to die.

  Then, see the Altar! There the nailed-tight crucifix

  Where Man in place of Christ gives up the ghost,

  And priests with empty goblets offer Us

  As Host to Jesus Who, knelt at the rail,

  Wonders at the sight

  Of Himself kidnapped off cross and man nailed there

  In spite of all his cries and wails and grievements.

  Why, why? he shouts, these nails?

  Why all this blood and sacrifice?

  Because, comes from the belfries, where

  The mice are scuttering the bells and mincing rope

  And calling down frail Alleluiahs

  To raise Man's hopes, said hopes being blown away

  On incensed winds while Christ waits there

  So long prayed to, He has Himself forgot the Prayer.

  Until at last He looks along a glance of sun

  And asks His Father to undo this dreadful work

  This antic agony of fun.

  No more! He echoes, too. No more!

  And from the cross a murdered army cries: No more!

  And from above a voice fused half of iron

  Half of irony gives man a dreadful choice.

  The role is his, it says, Man makes and loads his dice,

  They sum at his behest

  He Dooms himself. He is his own jest.

  Let go? Let be?

  Why do you ask this gift from Me?

  When, trussed and bound and nailed,

  You sacrifice your life, your liberty,

  You hang yourself upon the tenterhook!

  Pull free!

  Then suddenly, upon that cross immense,

  As Christ Himself gives stare

  Three billion men-in-one blink wide their eyes, aware!

  Look left! Look right!

  At hands, as if they'd never seen a hand before,

  Or spike struck into palm

  Or blood adrip from spike,

  No! never seen the like!

  The wind that blew the benedictory doors

  And whispered in the cove and dovecot sky

  Now this way soughed and that way said:

  Your hand, your flesh, your spike.

  You will to give and take,

  Accept the blow, lift the hammer high

  And give a thunderous plunge and pound,

  You make to die.

  You are the dead.

  You the assassin of yourself

  And you the blood

  And you the one Foundation Ground on which red spills

  You the whipping man who drives

  And you the Son who sweats all scarlet up the hills

  to Calvary;

  You the Crowd gathered for the thrill and urge

  You both composer and dear dread subject of the dirge

  You are the jailor and the jailed,

  You the impaler and you the one that your own

  Million-fleshed self in dreams by night

  Do hold in thrall and now at noon must kill.

  Why have you been so blind?

  Why have you never seen?

  The slave and master in one skin

  Is all your history, no more, no less,

  Confess! This is what you've been!

  The crowd upon the cross gives anguished roar;

  A moment terrible to hear.

  Christ, crouched at the rail, no more can bear

  And so shuts up his ears with hands.

  The sound of pain he's long since grown to custom in his wits,

  But this! the sound of wilful innocence awake

  To self-made wounds, these children thrown

  To Revelation and to light

  Is too much for his sanity and sight.

  Man warring on himself an old tale is;

  But Man discovering the source of all his sorrow

  In himself,

  Finding his left hand and his right

  Are similar sons, are children fighting

  In the porchyards of the void?!

  His pulse runs through his flesh,

  Beats at the gates of wrist and thigh and rib and throat,

  Unruly mobs which never heard the Law.

  He answers panic thus:

  Now in one vast sad insucked gasp of loss

  Man pries, pulls free one hand from cross

  While from the other drops the mallet which put in the nail.

  Giver and taker, this hand or that, his sad appraisal knows

  And knowing writhes upon the crucifix in dreadful guilt

  That so much time was wasted in this pain.

  Ten thousand years ago he might have leapt off down

  To not return again!

  A dreadful laugh at last escapes his lips;

  The laughter sets him free.

  A Fool lives in the Universe! he cries.

  That Fool is me!

  And with one final shake of laughter

  Breaks his bonds.

  The nails fall skittering to marble floors.

  And Christ, knelt at the rail, sees miracle

  As Man steps down in amiable wisdom

  To give himself what no one else can give:

  His liberty.

  And seeing there the Son who was in symbol vast

  Their flesh and all,

  Hands him an empty cup and bades Him drink His fill

  And Christ, gone drunk on laughter,

  Vents a similar roar,

  Three billion voices strong,

  That flings the bells in belfries high

  And slams, then opens, every sanctuary door;

  The bones in vaults in frantic vibrancy of xylophone

  Tell tunes of Saints, yes, Saints not marching in but out

  At this hilarious shout!

  And having given wine to dissolve thrice ancient hairballs

  And old sin,

  Now Man puts to the lips and tongue of Christ

  His last Salvation crumb,

  The wafer of hi
s all-accepting smile,

  His gusting laugh, the joy and swift enjoyment of his image:

  Fool.

  It is most hard to chew.

  Christ, old student in a new school

  Having swallowed laughter, cannot keep it in;

  It works itself through skin like slivers

  From a golden door

  Trapped in the blood, athirst for air;

  Christ, who was once employed as single son of God

  Now finds himself among three billion on a billion

  Brother sons, their arms thrown wide to grasp and hold

  And walk them everywhere,

  Now weaving this way, now weaving that in swoons,

  Snuffing suns, breathing in light of one long

  Rambled aeon endless afternoon . . . .

  They reach the door and turn

  And look back down the aisle of years to see

  The rail, the altar cross, the spikes, the red rain,

  The sad sweet ecstasy of death and hope

  Abandoned, left and lost in pain;

  Once up the side of Calvary, now down Tomorrow's slope,

  Their palms still itching where the scar still heals,

  Into the marketplace where, so mad the dances

  And the reels, Christ the Lord Jesus is soon lost

  But found again uptossed now here, now there

  In every multi-billioned face! There! See!

  Some sad sweet laughing shard of God's old Son

  Caught up in crystal blaze fired out at thee.

  Ten thousand times a million sons of sons move

  Through one great and towering town

  Wearing their wits, which means their laughter

  As their crown. Set free upon the earth

  By simple gifts of knowing how mere mirth can cut the bonds

  And pull the blood spikes out;

  Their conversation shouts of "Fool!"

  That word they teach themselves in every school,

  And, having taught, do not like Khayyam's scholars

  Go them out by that same door

  Where in they went,

  But go to rockets through the roofs

  To night and stars and space,

  A single face turned upward toward all Time,

  One flesh, one ecstasy, one peace.

  The cross falls into dust, the nails rust on the floor,

  The wafers, half-bit through, make smiles

  On pavements

  Where the wind by night comes round

  To sit in aisles in booths to listen and confess

  I am the dreamer and the doer

  I the hearer and the knower

  I the giver and the taker

  I am the sword and the wound of the sword.

  If this be true, then let the sword fall free from hand.

  I embrace myself.

  I laugh until I weep

  And weep until I smile

  Then the two of us, murderer and murdered,

  Guilty and he who is without guile

  Go off to Far Centauri

  To leave off losings, and take on winnings,

  Erase all mortal ends, give birth to only new beginnings,

  In a billion years of morning and a billion years of sleep.

  Afterword

  What to say about this poem? Say that it is a metaphor of Christ and Man and the fact of man finding himself trapped in a flesh where the Beast rends Human and the Human tries to tame the Beast. Out of this stuff comes War. The trial of man trying to become truly Human over the centuries, in spite of his blood-lust, forces him to weep for his lost opportunities, his many murders, his dead children, done in by those Wars. Christ is the symbol of that failure, and the promise of new opportunities to have a final winning. So Bradbury says.

  Introduction to

  KING OF THE HILL

  One night in College Station, Texas, in the company of Chad Oliver—almost a legendary name in science fiction because of the scarcity and impossibly high quality level of his stories—I demolished a restaurant and turned a formal banquet at which I was speaking into a scene of loot and pillage.

  Now. You hear these myth fables about writers. About Scott Fitzgerald's "crazy Sunday" in which he threw himself into the pool at a producer's mansion. About Hemingway tossing his first novel, the one before The Sun Also Rises, overboard on the ship back from Paris, because he felt a writer should never publish his first novel. About Steinbeck going into deadly barrooms on the Jersey docks and challenging whole groups of wallopers to bare knuckle contests. About Faulkner when he worked in one of the Hollywood studios, sitting there for hours typing over and over again on the same sheet of paper, "Boy gets girl, boy gets girl, boy gets girl . . ." And there are stories told about your Gentle Editor—who does not for one moment publicly cop to an ego that puts him in the same league with the gentlemen noted above—and these are stories of rape and ruin that sound like the purest bullshit. Some of them are. But some actually happened, and there is always one person who was there and saw it: Silverberg was there when the drunken giant Puerto Rican came at me with the broken quart beer bottle; Avram Davidson was there when I walked into the middle of a street gang in Greenwich Village as they were getting ready to stomp us; a girl named Toni Feldman was there when I dragged an old woman out of a burning car after it had crashed into a fence and before it blew up; Norman Spinrad was there when I got the crap kicked out of me by a guy who was the muscle for a gang of ripoff artists in Milford, Pennsylvania; and Chad Oliver was there when I mobilized the restaurant.

  I treasure these people. Not only because they are the unimpeachable verification that the contretemps in which I find myself actually took place—thereby staving off the label of righteous liar I might otherwise wear—but because they are reference points for me, enabling me to distinguish between the colorful lies I tell about myself to enhance my own image of myself, and the truly unbelievable things that actually happen.

  It is my most fervent wish that these people stay alive and well, because if they go, then with them go the few pieces of reality to which I cling ferociously.

  So ask Chad about that evening.

  It was the only time we've ever been in each other's company, and exhausts my anecdotes about Chad. Except that he is a big, charming, pipe-smoking dude. The rest he can relate for himself:

  "DEMOGRAPHIC DOPE. Born in Cincinnati, Ohio, in 1928. All male Olivers were doctors (father, grandfather, uncle). I am therefore a mutant. Moved to Crystal City, Texas, when I was a sophomore in high school. I loved it—played football, edited the school paper, made friends that are still with me. (It's the town used as background in Shadows in the Sun.) Moved around some in Texas since (Galveston, Kerrville, now Austin) but I guess it's fair to say that Texas is Home. Married a Texas girl in 1952; she is known variously as Betty Jane, Beje, and B.J. Have two children: daughter Kim, 17 years, and son Glen, 5½. You might call that spacing them out.

  "ACADEMIC. I got my B.A. and M.A. at the University of Texas. Took my Ph.D. (in anthropology) at UCLA. I'm a cultural anthropologist, with particular interests in cultural ecology, the Plains Indians, and the ethnology of East Africa. My rank is Full Professor, not that anyone cares, and I am Chairman of the Department of Anthropology at the University of Texas at Austin. I am peculiar in that I happen to like to teach, especially undergraduates. I normally teach several hundred students each semester; out of that number, maybe 3 or 4 know that I write science fiction. I can recognize them by their beady little eyes.

  "WRITING. I discovered science fiction when I was a kid, back in the Paleolithic. I remember the story that hooked me: Edmond Hamilton's 'Treasure on Thunder Moon' in the old, fat Amazing. I hopped on my bicycle and went back to the newsstand and bought every science fiction magazine I could find. I bought a second-hand typewriter and—aged 15—began to Write. Seven years later, Tony Boucher bought my first story. I've sold virtually everything I have written since then—mostly science fiction, bu
t also a few historical westerns for Argosy and The Saturday Evening Post. I fear I have not been terribly prolific—it comes to around 50 short stories and novelettes, most of which have been anthologized.

  "Books include Mists of Dawn (1952), Shadows in the Sun (1954), Another Kind (1955), The Winds of Time (1957), Unearthly Neighbors (1960), and The Wolf Is My Brother (1967). The latter won the award as Best Western Historical Novel of 1967 from the Western Writers of America. I have a new science fiction novel, The Shores of Another Sea, from NAL (Signet) and a new collection, The Edge of Forever (Sherbourne), both published in 1971.

  "All of this, I guess, tells you very little about me. Maybe that is just as well. I am serious about my writing and I try to write as well as I can. If there is anything about me worth knowing, I hope it can be found somewhere in all those words I have struggled to put on paper."

  And finally, these three items. 1) The full name is Symmes Chadwick Oliver. In anthropology he uses Symmes C. Oliver; for fiction, he uses Chad. 2) Publishers' Weekly for 3 May 71 announces, "Sherbourne Press of Los Angeles has signed Chad Oliver for his first hardcover collection of science fiction short stories. All of the stories have an anthropological theme." See above. 3) "King of the Hill" is one of the best, tightest, most memorable stories Chad has ever written and I am deeply honored he sold his first short story in years to this anthology. Now go and enjoy it.

  KING OF THE HILL

  Chad Oliver

  She floated there in the great nothing, still warm and soft and blue-green if you could eyeball her from a few thousand miles out, still kissed under blankets of clouds.

  Mama Earth. Getting old now, tired, her blankets soiled with her own secretions, her body bruised and torn by a billion forgotten passions.

  Like many a mother before her, she had given birth to a monster. He was not old, not as planets measure time, and there had been other children. But he was old enough. He had taken over.