Learning to Love

by Erin Trejo

  Where would I go? What would I do? I have no money or no way to get around. My world is slowly creeping in on me. The one thing I’m sure of, is that I will not be used again.

  “Link. Shit, I need you to get all the information you can on my dad. Dave Grayson,” Jace says. Link looks at him a little confused but nods his head.

  “Let me fill him in. I’ll meet you in the room,” he tells me. Releasing my hand, I nod before heading that way.

  My mind is in a daze. I don’t want to drag Jace or any of these guys into this shit. Seems I already have, though.

  I could run I suppose. I have a friend in New York. I wonder if I could make it that far?

  The thought rolls around in my head as I pull my t-shirt off, tossing it to the bed. I slowly push my jeans down my legs, wanting to change into something that hasn’t been tarnished by that man’s evil gaze. I saw Jace in those eyes though. If that man is evil, Jace is the devil. I could feel the heat rolling off him. Much like the heat I feel now.

  I turn slowly to see him standing in the doorway. He steps into the room, his presence overpowering.

  The door closes behind him before he reaches back, flicking the lock in place. My heart slams in my chest as his gaze eats me alive.

  It’s a feral, heated gaze, that has my insides clenching.

  “Are you just going to stand there and look at me?” I ask when he doesn’t move. His eyes are unnerving. He’s hard to read, but the look of lust can be seen sparkling in those eyes.

  I start to move to cover myself, when his husky voice echoes through the room.

  “Don’t move.” My eyes jerk to his, my arms falling to my sides.

  Jace stalks toward me just like the prey he said I was. I’m his mouse.

  He stops mere inches from me, my breathing has quickened.

  Just the way he looks at me has my thighs soaking wet. My arousal drips from within me, but that look, God, I want to see that look all the time.

  His hands wrap around me, unhooking my bra before sliding it down my arms. The brief touch of his fingers on my skin ignites bumps that cover my body.

  His eyes never leave mine, though. A connection that I so much need is holding us in place.

  Jace tosses my bra to the floor as the hunger in his eyes intensifies.

  “I’ve been waitin’ for this, Mouse.”

  Chapter 41

  Bullet

  If I died right now, I’d be in heaven. This woman is everything I’ve ever wanted. She’s perfect in ways she will never know.

  Her body may be covered in scars from what those assholes did to her, but her heart is opened to me.

  Our stare is heated. As much as I thought I could hold off and let her take some time, coming in this room, seeing her standing there looking as perfect as ever, that’s gone.

  I need her. I need to feel her, to touch her.

  I reach for her, letting my fingers slowly graze her collarbone. I love the way her lips part, her head tilting back.

  Watching the bumps form and the shiver roll over her, I can barely hold on.

  I trail my fingers over her shoulders, down her arms and back up again. I love that I can touch her now. Those months when all I had was her fingertips was enough for then, but now? No, I need to feel all of her.

  I step in closer to her, our bodies touching. I can feel her hardened nipples through my t-shirt.

  Leaning down, I take her lips with mine. She gladly gives them to me, too. She’s eager and willing to let me have her.

  Our kiss starts out slowly but it quickly takes on more heat. Mouse’s hands come to my shoulders before I pull away.

  “Hands at your sides.” The growl must surprise her. She lets her arms fall back to her sides before looking back at me.

  “You can’t refuse me again, Jace,” she says. The hurt in her eyes is clear. I’m not refusing her. Hell no, it’s more than that.

  “Refuse you? This isn’t refusin’ you.” Sliding my cut down my arms, I toss it to the chair before lifting my shirt over my head.

  “This is teasin’ you. You don’t think I know how much you want to touch me?” When my shirt is off, Mouse licks her lips as she lets her eyes roam over my chest. Yeah, I know she wants to have those hands on me.

  “That’s not fair,” she whines. Slowly bringing her eyes back to mine, I smile at her.

  “Life’s not fair.” Slowly unbuckling my jeans, I shove them to the floor with my boxers as her eyes follow. Fuck, the heat rolling off her is stifling.

  “Jace, please.” Reaching for her, I run my thumb over her bottom lip.

  “As much as I like hearin’ you beg, I’d like to see what these lips can do. I know your hands feel like heaven, but these lips?” Shaking my head, she sucks in a breath before she grins.

  “Challenge accepted,” she purrs. Sticking her tongue out, she licks the end of my thumb before sucking it into her mouth.

  Damn, I just issued a challenge I think I’m going to enjoy.

  Mouse moves her hands around to her back before she leans into me. Her lips slide over my skin like the finest piece of silk.

  Chapter 42

  Mouse

  God, his skin is so soft under my lips. I’ve never had anyone challenge me like he is. I’ll take it, though. I want nothing more than to touch him and feel him against me.

  I’ve never had anyone take control either. I’m not sure how much I like it right now, but this, I love this. My mouth on his body... I’ve waited so long to have this.

  My tongue twirls over his nipple as Jace sucks in a breath. I bite down gently, feeling his dick respond to my every touch.

  Heat courses through my veins and all I want is him inside of me, but he’s making me work for it.

  I continue to brush my lips over his body before kneeling in front of him. His dick jerks in my face, but when I stick my tongue out, caressing the tip, Jace nearly loses his balance.

  I open my mouth wide, sliding his length inside. He’s so big, but so silky on my tongue. Jace’s hand comes to the back of my head, barely touching me as I take him further.

  I suck and run my tongue down that pulsing vein only a few times before Jace yanks my head back.

  “Get up.” His demand is hot and heavy, much like his breathing.

  I do as I’m told, standing in front of him. His hands move to my panties, ripping them off my body in one move.

  His eyes never leave mine and that’s the part that mesmerizes me.

  I watch his throat bob as he swallows hard.

  “You mean a lot to me, Mouse. This… if we do this, you have to know I won’t let you go.” He’s giving me a way out. A way that I’ve thought about taking.

  “I don’t want to go.” That’s all he needed to hear. His arms wrap around my waist before he places me on the bed. Jace spreads my thighs, climbing in between.

  “When you cum, I want to see your eyes. I want to see what I make you feel.” It’s as if he needs that. He needs to see that I feel something with him.

  Jace may be a lot of things, but he isn’t trusting of words. He needs that action and I will give him just that.

  He grips his length, stroking it slowly before positioning it.

  “I need you, Jace.” His eyes burn deeply into me before he slides in slowly. My mouth opens, all the air being ripped from my lungs. I knew he’d feel good, but this is a pleasure I’ve never felt.

  My eyes close on their own, but I quickly snap them back open.

  My eyes meet his heated ones as a small grin crosses his face.

  Lifting my legs, Jace pushes into me deeper than I thought he’d be able to.

  His grin stays in place as he watches me for every little reaction I have.

  And I give it to him. I give him everything I have in me.

  Chapter 43

  Bullet

  God, that look in her eyes. I fucking love it. Being inside of her, this is it. This is the only place I want to be.

  Mouse is doing just as I said, her ey
es are staying on me. I just need to see that I’m not the only one feeling this way. Like the air in the room is only for the two of us.

  I rotate my hips, getting deeper inside of her. I want to take her roughly, God knows I do, but I won’t. Not this time anyway.

  “I want to touch you, Jace.” Her whines make it hard for me to say no.

  “Do it. Touch me, Mouse.” My breathing has intensified. There’s no way to describe what I feel right now.

  Her hands come up, wrapping around my back, pulling me closer to her. I let my head fall into the crook of her neck, kissing and sucking as my hips keep their slow torturous pace.

  It’s like a living hell trying to control myself with her. I want her in ways I’ve never wanted a woman before.

  Her nails dig into my back and my hips respond. Moving faster, I can feel that sweet pussy of hers clenching around me.

  I gasp for air. She sucks everything from within me. She consumes me in ways I never thought I’d let someone.

  A few more rough thrusts, I pull my head back.

  “Show me those eyes, Mouse.” Her eyes snap open as I pick up my pace. There it is. I can see it.

  My balls tighten with each slap against her ass. Her pussy clenches like she’s holding on for dear life.

  “Let it go, baby.” Watching her eyes and giving her a few more good thrusts, she does just that.

  Mouse cums harder than she did in that shower, that’s for sure. Her body pulses around me as I fill her with me.

  Her nails are digging so deliciously into my skin as I let my release take me away.

  I lean my head down softly biting her neck. Every time I do, I feel her pussy tighten up again. Damn, she is reactive to me.

  “Mouse.” Her name slips from my lips before she tightens once more.

  “You tryin’ to kill me?” I ask. Her giggle fills me with a joy I’ve never felt before.

  “Never. I need you again.” I pull my head back as she chews her lip. Fuck, this is perfect.

  “Do you know how sexy you look when your eyes are on me?” I ask. Shaking her head, I lean down, my lips brushing over hers.

  “I’ve never seen anything like it, Mouse. The way you look at me like I’m the only man in the world. It’s sexy and erotic. The way your tongue moves over your lip when you want to scream.” My dick twitches inside of her.

  “The way the vein in your neck pulses when you fill me with you,” she says. Her words take me by surprise. I pull back to look her in the eyes.

  “You better get used to seein’ it.” Winking at her, she laughs before pulling me down on top of her.

  Chapter 44

  Mouse

  My body aches in a good way. I don’t think I’ve ever been brought to orgasm as many times in one night. Jace can do things with that body of his that no one else could come close to.

  My pussy has a delicious burn that only he could have put there.

  “What do we do now?” Jace lights up a cigarette before looking over his shoulder.

  “Sweetheart, as much as I’d like to fuck you again, my dick needs a break,” he says winking at me. I highly doubt that.

  “Not what I meant. With my dad, Jace. What do we do now?” He blows out a ring of smoke before walking over toward me. Sitting in the main room, everyone is going on about their business, but he’s all I see.

  “We don’t do anything. I will handle that shit when the time comes,” he says. Something isn’t settled in me. I don’t like the idea of him going up against my dad. I know he has people and this club, but my dad has more.

  “I’m scared, Jace. He has a lot of people he can call on.” His eyes narrow on me for a second before shaking his head.

  “Thanks for havin’ so much faith in me, Mouse. Do you think that I’d be that stupid? That I’d not have backup?” Oh, I pissed him off.

  I never thought about it that way though. This club is large but I don’t know anything else.

  “I don’t know who you know, Jace. This is new to me, remember?” I snap. His eyes flicker for a second before I see him calm down.

  “Sorry. I didn’t mean to come at you like that.” Shaking my head, I shove off the chair to stand in front of him.

  “No, I shouldn’t have said that. You’ve done nothing but take care of me.” His free hand comes around my waist, dragging me into him.

  “Just let me do what I do,” he says with a wink. He gives me a grin before sliding his tongue into my mouth. The taste of cigarette, mixed with Jace, overwhelms my senses.

  “CHURCH!” I hear someone yell before he pulls away.

  “What’s that mean?” I ask. I know I look like a fool, but I have no idea what’s happening now.

  “I gotta go have a meetin’ with the guys. Wait here for me.” Kissing me once more, he walks away.

  I watch as all the guys filter into a room while the girl’s kind of disperse throughout the main room. Some go outside, others sit at the bar.

  I’m left alone again in a world I know nothing about but I have Jace, and that’s all that matters to me.

  I sit back down when another girl walks over.

  “Who are you?” She’s snotty. She looks like she just stepped off the stage at a strip show.

  “Trinity,” I say. Rolling her eyes, she looks me up and down.

  “Who are you here with?” Damn, she is nosy!

  “Jace.” She looks at me, clearly confused by what I just said.

  “Bullet. I mean, Bullet.” Her lips curve into a smile that I want to slap off her.

  “Bullet, huh? He’s a good fuck, but don’t get too attached. He doesn’t do relationships.” She turns on her heel and walks away as I watch in a stunned silence.

  He’s a good fuck? How the hell would she know?

  Has she already fucked him? Why would that surprise me? It’s not like I’ve been around very long, but the thought alone makes me sick.

  Chapter 45

  Bullet

  I sit in my spot at the table, my nerves firing off.

  Bomber says, “Link has some new intel. Now, we know why Bullet’s girl is here and we all know who she is. So, listen up.” Bomber looks around the room, waiting for anyone to protest but they don’t.

  Link stands up, a pile of papers in his hands.

  “You all know Bullet asked me to look into his dad. Once he knew who Trinity was, there were questions.” The guys all nod or grunt.

  Link takes a deep breath before looking at me. Shit! I can tell this isn’t going to be good.

  “Daniel Huffman has a right-hand man. We all know that it’s Julius Vincent. What we didn’t know, was that Julius had his own right-hand man. That’s where your dad comes into play. Daniel used Trinity as a pawn any way he could. We all know that much. Julius was in the know of what was happenin’ when she was taken. David orchestrated the whole thing.” My eyes snap closed as I let that sink in.

  He had her taken? Why would he do that? What was his gain?

  “I know what you’re thinkin’, Bullet, and I’m lookin’ into it. I’m not exactly sure where he plays into all this just yet. What I do know is there’s a club on the outskirts of town that they all seem to be involved with,” Link continues. I keep my eyes closed, letting that play over in my head.

  I was in the same house as that motherfucker! I could have killed him. I could have fucked him, the way he fucked her.

  Rage boils inside of me. I had him within my grasps. Anger eats at me.

  “We’re takin’ a ride out there in a few days. I want to check this fuckin’ club out. I want to know what the fuck they are to Huffman,” Bomber roars. I open my eyes to look at Bomber. His face is as deadly as mine.

  “My own goddamn father, Bomber! I want him!” He nods his head, knowing me all too well.

  “You’ll get him…. In time. We can’t just go in after the fuckin’ underground kingpin without a set plan, Bullet. You, of all people, know that.” Nodding once, I do know that.

  Micah stands, placing his han
d on my shoulder.

  “We take that ride this week. We find out what we can. Link stays on his end of shit. We don’t fuckin’ move in until we’re fuckin’ solid,” he says. Micah glances around the table as everyone nods their agreement.

  “This isn’t the club’s fight, brother. It’s mine,” I grumble. Micah’s eyes shoot to mine. I pissed him off.

  “And who the fuck are you, Bullet? Where the fuck do you belong?” he asks. God, I hate when this fucker is right.

  “Right here in this club,” I say with as much pride as I have. Bomber laughs before shoving out of his chair.

  “Then shut the fuck up! We go into this as a family—we come out the same.”

  Chapter 46

  Mouse

  That tramp prances around in front of me with a grin on her face. I want to slap the shit out of her.

  “Don’t let Brit bother you. Club whores are just that.” Did she just say club whores? Oh, my God. She does know who he fucks.

  My face reddens as Aubrie sits next to me.

  “What happened? What did she say?” Aubrie asks. Shaking my head, I don’t know why that surprises me. He had other women. I should have realized that. I just suppose I didn’t think I’d have to hear from them.

  “Nothing. She just said something about Jace.” Aubrie cuts her eyes at Brit, and I almost laugh when she looks away.

  “She’s a lot of talk. Put her in her place once, she’ll leave you alone,” she says. That sounds easier than it is.

  “I don’t like to fight,” I tell her. Aubrie laughs a little before facing me.

  “One thing you will learn around here is how to fight. These club whores are just that. They provide a service so to speak, but they want what they can’t have. They will push you too, to see if you break. Don’t let them break you.” Aubrie shoves out of her seat and walks away as I watch her.

  She’s so confident and sure of herself. I wonder if she’s ever had to fight any of the girls here for her man.

  The door opens after what seems like forever and the guys start to file out. Jace comes out behind the guy I met the other day, Bash. They talk and smile at each other when Brit walks up. She throws her arm around Jace’s waist and to my surprise, he throws his arm around her shoulder.