Forever, My Homeland: The Final Book in the All My Love, Detrick Series

by Roberta Kagan

  “Tova Ben-Levi, will you please be my wife?”

  Tova felt her knees go weak. Life was so strange. God was so miraculous. Only a year ago, she’d gone into work, and her boss had told her she was to interrogate a Nazi for kidnapping two Jewish teenagers. Then she not only found out that he was not a Nazi, but a good man, and now she was about to accept his proposal of marriage. It was so strange how one could turn a corner and when they least expected it, their lives could change forever.

  “Yes…Yes, Gerhard. Yes, I will marry you.”

  The crowd of people who’d gathered around the two of them began to clap. Gerhard slipped the ring on Tova’s finger. Then, he stood up and took her into his arms. This too, was Israel.

  CHAPTER 46

  Katja recognized Noa Amsel when she walked into the rehearsal. There was to be a talent show that featured all of the best talents from the local schools. Everyone who was prominent in society would be attending because the cost of tickets was to be donated to the organization for The Wives of Fallen Israeli Soldiers. This was the last year that Katja would be president of the organization. She and John wanted to travel, and she’d finally decided that she’d devoted enough of her life to charity. It was her turn to enjoy life.

  After Zofia passed quietly in her sleep six months prior, Katja had felt a terrible loss. She leaned heavily on her husband for support. That was when John suggested that they take some time to relax. He’d suggested that they go somewhere exotic, like Australia. Money was not an issue. He had a good job, with plenty of vacation time available, and she had made good investments with the money that Mendel had left her.

  Katja had spent most of her life in retribution for the thoughts that had possessed her mind the night before Mendel went to war. It was not until she explained all of her feelings to John, that Katja could finally release the guilt. For years, she’d carried that remorse like a weight that bore down on her, keeping her head below the surface of life.

  As she and John had predicted, an interracial marriage had plenty of challenges. Many times they went into a restaurant, and others turned and stared. People who Katja had believed were friends turned their backs on her when she married John. She and John were not invited to lots of parties, and that hurt Katja. But the love and support they shared well-outweighed the pain of being ostracized.

  “Good morning, Mrs. Russell,” Noa said as she came bouncing through the back door of the auditorium, carrying her pink plastic duffel bag that held her ballet shoes, her costume, and a towel.

  “Good morning, Noa.”

  “You remembered my name? After a whole year? You still remembered me,” Noa said, smiling.

  She was such a pretty child, Katja thought. “But of course. You remembered my name, didn’t you?”

  “Everyone knows who you are, Mrs. Russell. You’re a very important lady.”

  Katja laughed. “I don’t know about all of that. But it is good to see you again, Noa.”

  “Thank you. I’m glad to be here. I was so nervous during the audition. I still can’t believe I was selected.”

  “Well, we are glad to have you. You are an excellent dancer.”

  “I want to go into the theater when I get older,” Noa said. “I would love to be in musicals.”

  “I believe that you can do whatever you set your mind to doing.” Katja smiled.

  She watched Noa climb the stairs to the dressing rooms. She looked a little like Elan, but her mother must have been beautiful, Katja thought. Suddenly Katja felt that old stab of pain, the pain of the past, the pain of the love she and Elan had once shared so long ago.

  How different she’d thought her life was going to be when she and Elan were engaged. A bittersweet smile crept over her lips. It was sad that things had turned out the way that they did.

  She’d loved Elan. But then again, if she and Elan had married, she would never have given birth to Ima, her wonderful daughter who had just told her last week that she was going to have a baby. Katja smiled. She was going to be a grandmother. If she had married Elan, she would never have known Mendel’s tender devotion and thereby built an organization that had been the saving grace for many widows.

  But most of all, if she and Elan had married, she would never have known the joy of reciprocal love. Reciprocal love—the love she shared with John, her best friend, her confidant, her true beshert. John was the man who taught her that God did not see color, or bloodlines, God saw only love…

  CHAPTER 47

  Later that night Elan was sitting in his favorite easy chair. Noa came out of the shower wearing a pink terry cloth robe with her hair wrapped in a matching towel. She was giddy with excitement. Elan smiled. He knew that Noa was always filled with exuberance after a performance. He’d been at the show, sitting in the back row alone and watching his daughter as she danced the ballet. How lovely she was and how much she looked like her mother.

  “Did you like the show, Daddy? Did I do okay?”

  “Of course, you know I loved it. And yes, you were excellent, a true prima ballerina. I’m so proud of you.”

  “Oh, Daddy. Of course, you would say that, you always say that.” She laughed.

  “To me, you are a princess, a beautiful princess.” He smiled.

  “That’s because you’re my dad. I called Bari and told her about the show. She was really excited for me.”

  “You like having a sister, huh?”

  “Yeah, I do, even if she is in America. Maybe someday I’ll go to America and see her, or she’ll come back here again.”

  Elan smiled and nodded. Noa was just a child, why burst her bubble? There was no reason to tell her that he doubted Janice or anyone from Janice’s family would ever set foot in Israel again. But it was okay. At least, he and Janice were on good terms now. The past was finally behind them. Noa had a sister, and he had a daughter even if she lived in America.

  “Is all of your homework done?”

  “Not yet. I just have a few things left to do.

  “Okay. You finish your homework, and then get right off to bed. You have school in the morning,” Elan said.

  “Yes, Daddy.” Noa kissed Elan’s cheek. “Sleep well.”

  Elan nodded.

  Elan’s heart swelled with pride and a little pain as he watched Noa go into her room. Soon she would grow up and leave him, first for college, then for her husband.

  Elan took a long breath and opened the sliding glass door. He walked outside and sat down on one of the wicker chairs on the patio. Then he took a cigar out of his pocket. After he struck a match and lit the thick body, he puffed. Smoking cigars was something new he’d come to enjoy. A bad habit, he thought, but he didn’t do it too often.

  The sun was setting, painting the sky in shades of fuchsia, orange and purple. Elan closed his eyes for a moment. Then in a soft voice he whispered. “Nina...” How he wished that she were here beside him.

  When he opened his eyes and gazed at the land surrounding him, he was once again struck with his love for this country, his love for Israel. Nina had shared that love with him.

  “Oh, Nina, if only you could be here. If only you could see how big Noa has gotten. She is a wonderful dancer and almost as beautiful as you.”

  Of course, he was alone speaking only into the stillness of the coming night.

  Elan Amsel had sacrificed much for the love of his country. He’d given up his first girl, gone to war, and had come close to death more times than he could count. And yet, he would not have his life any other way. He was an Israeli.

  The darkness was fast approaching as the full moon made her royal entrance and the stars became visible in the sky.

  In the distance, Elan saw a shooting star and wondered if perhaps it was Nina’s way of telling him that she was with him. How sentimental I have become as I am aging. You’re getting soft, Amsel, he thought, as he took another puff.

  Yes, he was becoming soft and every year he was growing older. His was a lonely life. He had no wife, and he knew that
one day sooner than he wished, Noa would marry and leave him behind. But there was nowhere else on earth that he would rather live out the remaining years of his life, nowhere else he would rather see Noa grow into a woman. There was no other land he would wish for his grandchildren, to build the future of Judaism upon. This was Israel—this was forever his homeland.

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  Roberta Kagan

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