A Life Plan Without You.

by Christine Wood

  “You have him totally hooked, I thought Jimmy had it bad for you, Sam can’t believe you want to be with him, and for him to bring you to meet Mum is so not like him at all. She thinks you’re wonderful by the way and would love to see you again.”

  “Thanks for that. Oh your friend was in earlier and a little worse for wear. Zoë I think Sam said she was called?” His face looked so sad.

  “Was she with anyone?”

  “No, she came across to talk to Sam, who told her to go home and sleep it off because she was drunk and had been crying from the look of her eyes.” He looked so ashen and so very unhappy.

  “Are you all right? I’m sorry I didn’t mean to upset you.” He put his head on my shoulder and began to cry, I’m confused as to what’s going on? “You okay Andy? I’m sure things aren’t that bad, is it the Zoë thing what’s making you so unhappy? I’m no expert but your upset and she’s drinking to forget. Are you sure you can’t work stuff out between you, because it seems your both unhappy without each other?” What did I know about such things I’d only had Sam in my life for days, so hardly the person to give advice? People asked me about all sorts of crap, all the time.

  Sam returned to see me cradling his big brothers head and him crying on my shoulder, I shrugged my shoulders upwards, Sam help please.

  “Are you okay, Andy, what’s this in aid of then?” He was very apologetic, looked at me, got up and put his hand on Sam’s back.

  “Thanks Michelle I’m going to sort this out, your right. You chose well our kid, she’s great.” He walked out the pub.

  “What did you say to him?”

  “Nothing, I just told him Zoë was in here and that she was drunk, and did he not think him being so unhappy and her drinking herself stupid was something that they both needed to discuss at some point. Obviously he did, and he’s going to sort it.” He sat at the side of me.

  “I’ve been telling him that for weeks, funny he doesn’t listen to me, but you say something and he goes running. I’m sure he’ll be fine, drink up. What do you want to do stay in here or pictures? I’m easy it’s up to you.” He had his hand around my waist as his fingers were stroking the skin above my waistband. We sat and talked for a while, his fingers locked with mine, he has a thing for curling a strand of my hair round his finger too, Grandad does that when I sit at his feet on Sundays, it’s so nice.

  We had another drink and he asked again. Not sure if this is his sort of film, but I just really wanted to show him off, I had a hunk of a fella in love with me, and I wanted them all to know he was mine, all mine.

  “I’d like to go if that’s okay? Though I don’t know which of my lot are coming. Tasha, she well mentioned it on Friday, as we walked home from college it’s a double bill of both of my favourite films, but I’d said I didn’t want to go not just to be a spare wheel, so will you take me?” His hand grabbed my side, pulling me into him.

  At last she actually tells me what she wants, I knew but I wanted her to make the decision, she needs to know she can and I won’t railroad her into things, I smiled and pulled her towards me, now I have to face the friends, only fair she had to face some of mine…

  “Not a problem drink, your drink and we’ll go.” He stared down at me and kissed my lips gently. “I was after all, promised a snogging session on the back row, was I not?” I blushed.

  “I think I may have said something along those lines.” We walked out of the pub and right into my best friends. All of whom turned towards me and had watched me coming out of a pub with a fella. “Well we’ve made our entrance Sam.” He actually laughed he spun me around under his arm, twice. Good dance move.

  “Now take a bow.” So being a complete idiot, I did. We joined my friends in the queue.

  “What you doing in there, Michelle?” Tasha asked.

  “I sorry we, we’re just killing time until this place opened. It’s just a pub, it is allowed and I am eighteen.”

  “You ever going to introduce us then?” Kelly P shouted out.

  “Everyone this is Sam, Sam these are my friends, that’s Kelly, this is my best friend Tasha, with her Danny, that is another Kelly.” I named most, if not all the bunch. Too many for him to take in really, but the girls all pushed forward to see him, yes happy dance. I kiss him just to let them know I can, so immature I know, but they did it to me enough! I say thank you as he looks at me.

  “Pleased to meet, you all.” Tasha was mouthing wow behind Sam’s back and he got a thumbs up. Kelly the wasp was ogling and the lads looked like idiots in their T-Bird jackets and hairstyles to match, will they ever grow up? It has to be said though our entire group of girls had the Sandy outfit’s tight black pants, pink jacket, black top and killer shoes mine were brand new and red, but Daddy wouldn’t allow me to wear them, they are too slutty, so as yet still in the box unworn. We were at the front of the queue. Funny that none of the lads wanted to argue, he had his arms wrapped around my waist and was kissing my neck.

  I knew these friends were the main reason that I’m here, she looks so happy for me granting such a small request, I get to see my reward, it’s something simple and pure. What is my reward? Just that look of happiness stretching across her face, her eyes sparkle and that smile wow. The kiss I got after I was introduced was a nice bonus too. The lads are idiots and the girls are giggling at her show of affection, umm she certainly needs more kisses and as I look into her eyes she mouths thank you…

  “Sorry about all this, it wasn’t exactly what you wanted for a night out, me and my group of friends was it?” He was too busy kissing, and nipping at my neck.

  “Erg what friends, I thought it was just you and me?” I lifted my head and kissed him right back again in front of everyone. There were, sniggers from the group. I turned around and they got my best sod-off-or-I kill-you look. We were inside on the back row, tucked up nice and cosy in the corner.

  “So when do we get to the snogging part? I think that’s what I was promised was it not, Michelle?”

  “I think I can oblige you a little with that one.” He smiled and with that smile he could melt ice, I leant towards his mouth and kissed him, his tongue slipped between my lips and then bam those strange feelings were a rising, his kiss is so soft, I wanted more, much more. He this time had to say it…

  Yes baby, oh God yes her kisses have us both aroused and as I feel the tent being pitched and she is helping bloody action man erect it. Fuck anywhere else and without that frizzy haired gawking I may have let her continue…

  “There’s a time and a place for that and it’s not here. Your hands got a mind all of its own.” I looked down and hadn’t realised. I had my hand on his bits.

  “Shit… Sorry, I didn’t realise that’s what I was doing.” He kissed me again.

  “I’m not complaining at all, it’s just your mate is enjoying the show.” I looked down and Kelly P was looking back and catching them there flies. I kicked the back of her chair. Sam laughed.

  “Turn around Kelly, the films that way.” Had to be said didn’t see much of the film, I was sang to though, have to say hopelessly devoted to you, is a nice song to have sung to you. “You fella it has to be said, are quite hard to keep entertained, with an audience watching.”

  “Well, no audience next time.” He whispered into my ear, whilst nibbling my lobe and kissing my neck.

  “Oh, that’s a must.” Pictures finished and goodbyes to the rest said. We only part watched the films and I didn’t mind one bit, I was hopelessly devoted to my man and those kisses. I had to get home, the last week of college before holidays. Sam had me in a tight grip.

  Hell we can’t spend the day together tomorrow, this weekend has gone so quickly and so well, when did I get so lucky? I don’t want to leave her yet, I don’t like leaving her. Oh hell I have it bad, why has she got me hooked, well stupid question having been kissed and fooled around with her, but before it was a mystery, umm thank you Guardian Angel, whoever you are…

  “Wow, I need to breathe Sam, what�
��s the matter?” He looked down.

  “I’ve had an amazing weekend and I just don’t want it to end. Can I come and see you tomorrow, or have you got plans?” He looked at me with those dreamy eyes and almost begging for an invite.

  “I can’t see why not, they all know about you now. I have to be in bed early, college in the morning… We will have a house full, so no funny stuff.” He nuzzled my neck as I said yes, and sighed. How serious, was this getting, was he after something casual, or what? He’d already said he loved me loads of times, sheisk I hope he wants more, lots more.

  “I’m sure I don’t know, what you mean. I need to ask Susan if I can take you out at the weekend anyhow, because it’s bound to be a late night I’m sure she’ll be fine with it, if I tell her I’m walking you home?” I laughed because he didn’t know Susan, like I knew Susan! She was no pushover wasn’t my mother, and she was nothing compared to Dad.

  “Good luck, I argued for the midnight curfew on Saturday night. That one, I’m going to leave in your hands.” He will need it, Dad wants me in at night and looked after he needs to know where I am, I’m still eight in his eyes, not eighteen, though when he said those things to Sam about people out to get him through me, I know now why he has worries about going out alone, and in pubs and clubs.

  We took the short cut down the path to the cricket steps. My come to think on steps. I often sit on these at dinnertime and just tell them my problems they listen and don’t judge me; but they’re not really good on the advice though.

  “We still have an hour.” I grabbed that cute bum of his and we sat on the steps. Sam sat down and I sat on his lap facing him my legs behind him clinging to his backside. I was cold, Sam had me in a tight hug, and he kissed me. He had me tightly wrapped in his arms, and it was spine chillingly wonderful. I kissed him back and wow the snake had awoken and his moaning deepened, his kisses became more urgent.

  “I want you, Michelle, and how I want you.” He was busy kissing my neck.

  “I want you too, but not here and not now.” He continued to kiss my neck. “Ouch, what did you do?” He stopped what he was doing and winked.

  “You have a hicky from Sam, not Kenickie. See I did learn something from the film.” I was well… I don’t know what I was? So I returned the favour right back, this wasn’t a punishment after all. He was now, even more worked up in the trouser department and I wasn’t helping him any, as my bum was massaging the little bugger, he begged me to carry on, so I did, we made out and our kisses were wild, he held my head to his as our tongues worked together feverishly, I continued with the bum massage whilst sat on his lap, his breathing laboured. His kisses were hot and needy, this felt weird and yet wonderful.

  “Please Michelle… Oh hell yes…God, yesssss…”

  Oh hell I could stop here all night doing just this, her backside grinds into my lap, and as it’s so nice I want more, I’m hard for her and need her, but what if I do that and she leaves me what will I do then? No we need to wait, I want to wait well at least until we have known each other and I get my shit sorted? But for now yeah this I can do all night, fuck arghhhh stop baby I’m coming this is too much, too much fuck, fuck, fuck yesssss…

  I didn’t know what he expected, but I carried on rubbing his bulge with my bum, I loved he feelings in my own sex too, very arousing, to say the least. Whilst kissing him harder and harder, my sex got tinglier and tinglier. He grabbed my hair and pulled my head back his kisses were as wild as that first time, in the alley. He grabbed my tongue with his teeth, and let out a long slow moan, he it seems liked the bum massage…

  “That wasn’t quite what I had planned and it was something I had not at all prepared for, but that was fantastic. I love you so much… It’s crazy, people talk all the time about love at first sight and I never believed them, but from the moment I saw you dancing down there.” He pointed to the path alongside the field. “I was hooked, one hundred per cent hooked.” I blushed at him declaring his love for me I too was so smitten, I loved him and he loved me back… Wow.

  “Sam I fell for you too and as soon as you came into Ridgley’s that night. I thought you were so damn sexy, and I couldn’t wait for Friday nights.” We kissed and he walked me to the door. I felt on top of the world with his arm wrapped tightly around me.

  “This isn’t the door I posted your cards through by the way. It was next door.”

  Shit, there were a few valentines cards too, I do hope they didn’t open them, how did I get it so wrong? I never saw the actual house for fear of her seeing me? I just knew it was either this one or the one I chose…

  “Next door? Alice, she wouldn’t have thought to post it through our door, and she will still have it, she’s a compulsive hoarder, thank the Lord, wow I get to see my birthday card. I’ll pop in tomorrow for it. The flower shop know who we are, that’s why they didn’t question it. My Dad’s always getting Mum flowers when they’ve rowed. As to the card on them perhaps Millie their daughter, and not one of my friends, read it and had taken it off? She’s a bit of an interfering, jealous, and nosey bitch.” He laughed taking his hand from my waist and holding my chin in his hand leant down and kissed me.

  “Mystery solved then.” He kissed me good night, and waved as he rounded the corner. Wow what a weekend. Off to face mum. I closed the front door and walked into the front room, dad wasn’t there and mum was watching the telly.

  “Your back a bit late Michelle, don’t make a habit you’ve got college in the morning.” I shook my head in disbelief, how old did she think I was? It’s not even ten o’clock.

  “I’m off to bed Mum night.” I undressed in the dark so as not to wake Becky, but she was awake.

  “What’s made you be in a happy mood then, and when did you get knockers?”

  “In the summer, now go to sleep.” Tonight I would dream about a weekend of new things, wild things, sexy things him and me things.

  Waking up in the morning to Becky, screaming abuse at her clothes drawers wasn’t a great start to the day! She is looking for her missing jumper that was just there and now had just gone? She is so damn loud. I turned and pointed at the door.

  “I know I took it off somewhere, Mum says it’s in the bottom drawer, it isn’t, though.” I shook my head.

  “It’s on the back of the door open your sodding eyes can’t you see it?” She’s so unorganized.

  “Thanks, Mum says get your bum outta bed now or you’ll be late.” As if, we live less than two hundred yards from the college gates, and I’m organized. Getting dressed today was easy I didn’t have to faff with the hair, it went up in a bobble and sprayed it to my head, and it had a sort of coconut meets pineapple thing going on? My clothes are already waiting for me on the back of the door, grabbing a slice of toast, and out I go. Mandy walked with me, talking about Paul, Paul this and Paul that, I wasn’t interested, but I listened, it would have been rude not too.

  “How was your weekend then Michelle? The last thing I saw was you heading off with that hunky fella, at dance classes.” I wanted to scream his name aloud…

  “Oh it was great. I’m actually seeing him now, and he’s Called Sam.” She looked as shocked as the others did yesterday. However with that Paul came by and I was history.

  “See you later.” Off she went via the park and into the shelters for a quickie, classy or what? My merry band of mates we’re waiting by the gates for me, as I rounded the corner to the gates. I didn’t expect a welcoming committee, but those who hadn’t been there yesterday had all been told today that I had a fella and he was a lot older than I was.

  “You kept that quiet Michelle, why has he got two heads?” I was about to answer when I was grabbed from behind. I didn’t have to turn because I knew who it was, from the hands.

  “So, you came to walk me ten foot to college did you? Or is there an ulterior motive, perhaps letting a certain person know I’m yours?” He just shrugged his shoulders.

  “I’m on my way to uni, fancy meeting me at dinner? The other is an add
ed bonus.” He kissed me and asked again about dinner, the others were watching opened mouthed as his kiss deepened. He pulled away kissing my nose as he repeated, the question.

  “Sorry I can’t, we’ve got hockey practice at dinner time. You’re going to have to make do with tonight.” I kissed him again and off he went, smiling. I watched as he crossed the yard and up the hill towards uni, his mission had worked. My heart was without a doubt Sam Todd’s, and his alone.

  I head of towards tech, her kiss still lingering on my lips, and God do I feel like the cat that got the cream. Slapping sad lads back on the way there, he’s with that cow Karen. I get to my classes and I grab my week’s assignments, and I’m immediately called through to the office, and I’m handed a note.

  “Can you let my tutors know please that I have to get to the hospital? My mum’s been rushed in?” I grab a taxi and I head to the reception area.

  “Emma Todd, she’s my mother she’s been brought in by ambulance?” I’m panicking. What’s he done to her this time? I dread these phone calls, never knowing how bad the injuries are or how life threatening. One day we will get that phone call.

  “Mr Todd she’s in x-ray, follow the red line around and its sign posted please don’t worry.” I thank her and find her waiting to be seen, I didn’t need the red line my feet know the way. She was sat on her own her leg up and looking frail.