“Perhaps Shelly because the people who matter to us, have been told and are very happy about it?” I left him to it. I went out the back door and caught up with the others.
“Andy who is Shelly?” He smiled.
“She is our nightmare kissing cousin.” I looked at him he was laughing, Teddy and Kim were laughing too.
“She fancies Sam always has. She has an evil streak about her too we don’t like her at all. Why do you ask?”
“She’s over in the Stockton Arms with him now.” I turned and walked back, she had her arms all over him. He was actually fending her off. I put my arms around his waist.
“You all right angel? Come on everyone’s waiting for you and I to join them. It is after all turning into our engagement do, so come on hubby to be!” He looked relived and smiled. She began following us.
“I don’t think I’d like you to come with us Shelly, it has to be said. I don’t think Sam wants you with us either, nor do your cousins, it seems they don’t like you either. You’ve had your last kiss and grope of my fiancé.” She got angry and right up in my face. I wasn’t afraid of her one little bit.
“Who the bloody hell do you think you are? You’re never going to be enough for him bitch, your too young and still in school you bitch.” I looked at her in disbelief. She was evil, her eyes burned into mine.
“Wow, he’s your cousin and my fiancé, so don’t push. I push back hard. As to being enough for him, when and if that time comes, I’m sure he will let me know, but for now I know I am more than enough and then some, and I’m in college and start uni later this year, you know getting an education bitch! Why the hostility you moron?” He wrapped his hand in mine and we left her.
“Thanks for the rescue I needed it. Why did you come back?”
“I asked Andy about her and decided not to leave you in her grubby hands. She seemed to want more than Kim did sorry does as a cousin, she’s too handy, too erg, touchy feely? Those feely things are all mine.” He smiled and kissed me.
“You don’t know how right you are and for the record you are more than enough for me, now and forever.” We re-joined the group. I was being handed another drink.
“Go easy on those, your drinking them like pop. I don’t fancy carrying you home.” I laughed.
“Taste it Sam it is pop, I only have cokes from Andy. The only drinks I have had you’ve bought me. I want to enjoy and remember tonight plus you love carrying me home, don’t lie.” He smiled at me and kissed me.
“Umm I do, tonight, are you still sure this is what you want?” I smiled.
“Commitment issues again Samuel?” I went to talk to the others as he watched me and smiled. Kim was by my side.
“He really does love you Michelle I think you’re going to be really happy together.” I looked at Kim and gave her a thank you hug.
“I wonder if I’m enough for him, I’ve no experience and I fly of the handle at the slightest thing. I’m sure he could do a lot better.” She hugged me.
“You’re so wrong, so very wrong on that one Michelle. Please believe me he has loved you for ages. He spoke to Mama earlier in the year and she and Aunty Emma had been to see their lady, and her dead friends told her there would be a clearing in the fog that was their life, and that a trouble would be no more with the arrival of a son’s true love.
I laughed at the time, as Mama said it couldn’t be Teddy Bear, he needed to leave the house first, nor Jimmy who was mooning after you, who didn’t know he existed, but you were the girl in question, even though Sam didn’t know it, you were the one the others had said were coming. ‘Spooky Ville’ or what? Zoe well, enough said about her, she can’t help herself let alone others, then there was Sam, poor stupid Sam, he came to tea that same night, and he cried with Mama for ages, he had met someone, but not met her and he was afraid to ask her out, afraid she would say no!
Mama realised whomever it was, was the girl coming to save us all, and it turns out I need to go to see this woman she got it spot on. Apparently you see others too? Sam was telling Mama the other night, when you were drunk at dinner, very rude of you to go for nooky in the alcove?” I went red, both her and Jimmy had heard us who else? I was smiling back at her.
“I do occasionally see others, I call them helpers or others, but I don’t like speaking about it or them, it tends to get people riled or upset at me? I see people they say things and then well I sometimes, I understand them but they can be very cryptic, the messages may mean something to that one person, but means nothing to me!”
“Oh, have you seen anything around me?” I see the same two people a sad lady and an angry faceless man.
“Why do you need to know things, are you not happy as you are?”
“Oh yeah, I love Mama and my crazy family, I just have this feeling of not knowing who I am, who I was, you know?”
“Nope I don’t sorry, but if your happy as you are don’t dig further Aunty Allison, is super cool and you’re lucky to have her as a Mum, sorry Mama!”
“I know, I love her to bit’s and since you have been with us she’s a damn sight more tactile and kisses are well received, she likes to be gruff and she isn’t far from it, argh I love her so, and talking of loves he’s watching everything you do soppy sod!”
“I know I love him too, and he loves me but we haven’t done it yet, and then I’m panicking will I be good enough. He’s already told me he loves me loads of times and that we are perfect together.” She looked at me and shrugged her shoulders at me.
“I know he loves you, we joked about the impending knee drop a couple of days after you finally said yes, boy he was so happy.” I blushed again!
“We’ve had so much other stuff going on I think when it happens it happens.” I explained about hearing Janet and all the shit we went through with her, her laughing and ripping him to pieces in the toilets. Everything, including all the Andy stuff, asking her please not to mention it. She promised. She wasn’t as shocked at the Andy thing as I thought though so perhaps they already know of his sexual preferences?
“I knew she did bad things to him, I just wasn’t sure how badly he took them, obviously pretty badly, but your right don’t tell him about Andy, ever they have a special bond and I’d hate for it to be broken Andy needs Sam in his life he loves him like no other, it’s endearing to see what Andy will do to protect Sam from, and he always has, he’s a sad man and needs someone other than that cow by his side, someone less fucked up than he is.” She didn’t like Zoë either then? He was coming over as she laughed. “There is always other stuff to do Michelle I know a thing or two.” I grabbed her arm.
“We do the other stuff cheers, very well and lots of it.” She left me laughing and heading to the bar for more drinks.
“What were you two deep in conversation about? Sam was back at my side, arms around my waist.
“Oh, I don’t know girlie stuff, new clothes makeup, why you an expert in that field now Sam?”
“No all-girl stuffs a bit alien to me, as you’ve probably guessed already, you lot are hard to figure out she’s a good friend to have Michelle, ask her anything, she never lies and is goddamned fruity and fun, and a hell of a great cousin, who it seems likes you too.” I held his hand tightly; perhaps I would wait until he was ready. I’d wait forever to keep him happy and with me. Andy was on drunk wrangling as we had gained yet more revellers Jenny smiling and holding Teddy’s hand, something Kimmy noticed too and we smiled aww cute!
“On we go to the next pub, the George.” We left mob handed, we had picked up another few people. A couple of the jolly boys had joined the party. I went in search of my fella. He’d disappeared to the toilet ages ago.
“Have you seen Sam, Andy I can’t find him again?” He pointed to the door. I walked to the door and he was sitting alone on a bench.
“What you doing out here all on your own, we’re off next door to the George baby?” He held his hand out and I took it and sat on his lap.
“I need to ask you something.�
� This didn’t sound like it was going to be good news. “If we do this, we do it tonight Michelle. I really can’t wait to have you and well I’m nervous and I’m dreading ruining it for you. You know about everything now, I just don’t know if I will be good enough for you?”
“I’m sure you will be fine Sam, you do the other things so very well, as long as it’s what we both want, it’s going to be fantastic. I may be useless, you have had practice unlike me, what if you don’t like me and I’m useless?”
“You are very good at what you do too. I’m sure it will be fine Michelle, we can practice getting better too and we probably are going to have to practice day and night, that's going to be such a chore having you in bed all night. I can’t wait. Come on drinks are on Andy and his pet moths then we go home. You have something I want and I definitely have something to give you Mi cielo.” That I laughed at, nervous didn’t quite cover it now it was actually happening. We had a couple in the George and headed off to Heaven.
“Hello you lot, how many are with your party Michelle?” I counted them thirty four. He laughed and called me the pied piper of drunks.
“Yes and they like spending their money too.” He walked us down and informed Dotty we were a party of thirty four, and an engagement party. I laughed turned out to be a bigger group than I imagined. I grabbed Sam and took him to dance straight away.
“So we are ring shopping tomorrow then?” He smiled he had my hand to his lips and kissed my knuckles.
“Yes please, yes baby. I need to show Mick I’m serious so it has to be a serious ring, please don’t argue with me. This one I was fine when it was just us two, now I want the world to know I’m serious about you.” I kissed him and we smooched on the dance floor. I heard the DJ announce a Saturday night fever dance challenge.
“Excuse me for one minute.” I kissed him and went in search of the girls and Mandy. As part of our dance lessons Lee had insisted we learn all the dances from Saturday Night Fever and Greece, so we could teach extra classes, they were popular too. The girls who’d had more than me to drink were all up for it, Karen and Ellie Mandy and me against Shane and his team.
“Love it and you think these girls can beat us?” I laughed because he was going to lose the dance war tonight.
“I think Shane as they say the proof is in the pudding, watch and learn cuz.” The music started and we were joined by Zoë and Carol too. We had a great dance thing going on.
We were wiping the floor with Shane’s dancers. It switched to the song by Tavares, Heaven Must Be Missing An Angel, Lee had shown us the entire dance a few weeks before, and I hoped they remembered it. I started the war dancing against Shane, I swished my hips doing the steps and adding in the arm rolls with the sexy bum roll, as the girls followed behind, the foot work, the funky chicken, the forward kicks, the shuffle, as we danced the room clapped. Shane bowed out and danced with me not against me. Gheeze he picked me as I hung of his hip I was spun around, then the arms and cross overs, I was breathless, then the music switched to Baccara, Yes Sir I Can Boogie, the others joined us, as Sam was laughing at Stuarts attempt at dancing. I danced as if I hadn’t a care in the world.
“Michelle, do you do this every weekend?” I laughed at Karen.
“No, we normally just come out Saturday.” Lee’s favourite tune came on Disco Inferno.
“I loved Lee making us do these dances eh Ellie?” She laughed. “I think you have a one man supporter there Ellie.” Jimmy was looking on mouth open. Sam stood smiling on the side with Shane laughing. Someone was dancing right behind me and whoever it was moving, his hands up and down my backside. I turned because it wasn’t Sam he was over the other side of the floor watching, as the not so nice bloke got intimate with my arse. Sam jumped in and pulled me into him and he then danced with me, I had my arms over his shoulders, going in for a kiss. The idiot came towards me and pulled me from Sam.
“She’s dancing with me fella fuck off.” I stopped dancing and walked away from him, taking Sam with me. “I said she was dancing with me fella.” He put his hand on Sam’s shoulder, pulling me away from him with the other. Sam just belted him straight in the chin. The fella was out of it. Shane came over having seen the man, take the first shot and the grab at me, which Shane wasn’t happy about at all, the boys dealt with the problem.
“Samuel Todd, what on earth possessed you, I could have just sent him on his way.” He looked at me.
“You’re mine, nobody else’s. I saw red and well, I’ve never hit anyone like that before. It felt good standing up to him and protecting you.” I held his waist tightly I hadn’t needed protection and was handling it, but he seemed to need to protect me and I said no more.
“Can we go home please?” I said goodbye to the rest. Kim was going to a party with Nick. Sam gave Jimmy more money, Andy said he’d keep an eye on Jimmy, but he was stopping at Zoë’s and we’d lost Teddy in the club, Jenny had disappeared too, funny that! We got in a cab to his aunt’s house. I held his shaking hand all the way home. Getting in I went straight to the bedroom, I had a wonderful hot shower, with Sam talking to me from the bedroom, as I day dreamed the hot water flowed over me. He said we would do it tonight but would we, will we?
“Did you have a nice time baby?” I was knackered and all danced out. Sam sat on the bed and watched.
“My headaches a little, but yes I had a great night thank you.” He smiled as I walked out of the bathroom. He came forward and picked me up in my towel.
“If we do this, it’s for keeps. I don’t think I could take it if you left me, Michelle, promise me you won’t?” I looked into his eyes.
“I promise I will never leave you, you may hate this Sam and leave me.” He placed me on the bed kissing me tenderly, he threw the covers off the bed leaving behind just the two sheets, shit it was happening and there was nobody in either, wow, now I’m nervous and excited and feeling sick…
“That’s never happening Michelle your mine for ever, always and forever baby.” He stripped off slowly and I watched as his clothes came off that body and right down to his boxers, finally taking those off too. He stood at the bottom of the bed leaving me looking at his very ready package. I’m watching smiling and waiting for him under the sheets, nervous, excited and relived it was finally going to happen and now it was… I was terrified... The thing was happening and now. I am panicking, what if… Shush, we will be fine… I hope… Shit, he looked massive and he too looked nervous. It’s not too late to change your mind Michelle? Shush I need him I want him tonight I want him inside me, I wanted to belong to him, in every way possible and to Sam this was that way.
He knelt on the bottom of the bed, lifting the sheet. He climbed under, kissing my ankle then he made his way slowly up my leg, kissing every inch of my skin. Oh my list was and is being obeyed. Getting to my thigh, his kisses stopped at the very top of my leg. He moved between my legs, as his tongue was searching out the folds of my now excited sex, I was powerless to sit still as my legs stretched and my toes began gripping the sheet and my heels were digging into the soft sheets.
My back arched into him, as my buttocks clenched tighter, he moved his tongue in and out of my sex. Circling the centre of my sensitive spot and gently flicking it on the sensitive nub. All those mind-blowing feelings are running throughout my body, the anticipation building. In and out repeatedly, groaning at the sheer pleasure of his tongues performance. We both were making noises like never before and with nobody here we could be as passionate and vocal as we wanted this heightened the whole experience, noisy and no holding back with no pillow hugging. Boy he was right it was a hell of a lot better.
“Sam, please argh. No, don’t stop please I need you, argh. Hell please baby, take me now Sam now.” I cried as he sent me wild, one orgasmic crash after the other. No time to enjoy them before his touches did it again, my sex was hot and throbbing and so ready for him. He was so gentle and I needed him, he was sending me to heaven and back, I ached for him. He blew along my sex before again invading
the warmth he had created, his tongue searching out and flicking the spot that made my body start shivering with every gentle touch.
“Michelle baby, you taste so sweet. What do you want me to do?” Placing a finger in and stroking my sex, his thumb stroking that spot repeatedly. “This is nice I could make you come like this again Mi cielo, or do you want more?” He was teasing me, sending my whole body into a shivering and shaking wreck. In my desperation for him, I cried for him telling him I needed him and now, before I passed out from all the foreplay.
“Sam I want you; all of you pleaseee don’t please don’t, don’t make me wait any longer.” He continued arghhhh my sex was on fire, I couldn’t take much more and as he knelt between my legs, his finger continued massaging my sex, another orgasm and then another straight after. This was so nice, exciting even. The anticipation building higher, with each and every touch and then his mouth took the place of his fingers again.
“Sam stop please, I want you I need you. Oh don’t stop keep doing that I’m coming ohhh...” Too late he had a mouth full of Lord knows what. This turned him on more. He carried on kissing my body, from the top of my sex, right up to my belly button his tongue circling in there too. Kissing all the way up to my breast, he bit one and played with the other, he suckled at it letting it fall and immediately picking it up between his teeth and his tongue played, feverishly. I grabbed at the sheets the orgasms were wild and fierce. His fingers took over, he made me come again and again, quivering to a stop under his gentle touches. He smiled as I finished.
“So, so wet and oh so ready for me are you sure this is what you want Michelle baby, I want you to want this, I need to be inside you and make us one, do you want me to make love to you?”
“Oh hell stop talking about it and take me Sam. Please baby now.” The sheer thought of him doing it made me shake. He was at the top of my chest. Kissing my neck, his erection I could feel against my leg, he moved his mouth to my mouth, he had my head in his hands, his deep breathing and the pounding of his heart I felt, he too was nervous. He parted my legs with his, his touch gentle the warmth now building up between them. We were both shaking, nervous wrecks.
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