“Tell me it you need me to stop, or if it hurts please, I don’t want to hurt you baby.” I pulled his face to mine and kissed him. He very gently put himself in. In doing so I got yet another helping of the strange feelings. Ouch the tight pinching pain and a hot flush and tingle each and every fibre of my body I wanted this man to stop, it hurt, but I wanted him so badly. These feelings were multiplying it was too much, too painful, this was hurting. As he slid in me I tensed the pain was something else, painful yet different, no hell no, I don’t like this! All this time spent waiting for this wonderful happening, but it’s hurting and not a nice feeling. Shit stop Sam please, my silent voice muffled.
“Yes, oh yes, Michelle I love you, I can’t stop, I can’t stop, you're oh hell you’re so tight relax baby.” He looked down into my face, hopefully not seeing the pain I felt, the tear he kissed away as I held on to him. This is hurting, he kissed me again, he oh godded as he continued, he slowly enter me taking it and me. I grabbed the sheets tighter to the side of me, he watched my face as he entered and he looked worried. I just smiled and put my fingers in his hair, pulling his lips to mine.
“Argh, Sam... That’s… Oh, Sam please don’t stop.” It hurt and he would stop, if he knew exactly how much that hurt.
“Are you all right baby, please tell me?” I kissed him again and wow this was worth the wait and then some. I was so in need of him. I wanted him, I wanted to show him just how much I loved him, but this was mind blowing. It was hurting me so much, even with Sam being gentle and slow and he was. He stopped, perhaps he sensed I was hurting or I was just too tense around his dick? He stopped where he was in me. Inside me but not fully, but in doing this, he was allowing me to relax, he just kissed and caressed me, looking into my eyes shaking as he did.
“We fit baby, we are perfect and I love you so much, this is the best place in the world here with you.” I relaxed a little then oh wow, the kisses and the relief I finally relaxed as he spent down kisses on my lips! Yes and he slipped the rest of himself into me, finally buried deep within me and smiling as he held me looking in my eyes and kissing me, thanking me, the aching, the touches. I was definitely feeling something different, oh yes this was nice. The tingles were never ending the pain wasn’t a pain anymore it was nice, I held him tightly, we were joined and holding each other, he looked into my eyes.
“Michelle baby your crying, shit please baby am I hurting you please tell me?”
“Shush and keep doing what you’re doing, this is wonderful. I’m more than fine. Now shush.” This was so nice the surges rushing through my body. He relaxed more we were actually making love. The pain had eased slightly and the pleasure was out of this world, he really was good at this too, he slowed down and looked into my eyes again. I shivered underneath him and I felt everything he did, every movement, all the touches.
“Thank you Mi cielo, you are so beautiful and all mine, we're going to be so happy.” His tender caresses, the tears, the kisses. He just had to touch me and my whole body exploded. He kissed me hard, his tongue searching, he moved in and out of me so gently. We were hot and sweaty and moving together, he amazed me with his stamina. My legs tightly wrapped around him. His arms out stretched as he shivered then exploded within me, letting out a loud roar through his teeth and a groan as he collapsed on top of me. He kissed me again.
“Wow... That was like nothing I have ever done before. Are you all right Michelle, did I hurt you, please tell me you’re all right?” I couldn’t speak it was wonderful, nobody else could ever do to me what he had done. Definitely, an emotional wreck of feelings, of confusion and relief yes we had finally done it. The love, his loving touches his worry long gone from his eyes and the sheer relief that the deed was done, wow. What a rush of hormones, adrenaline and sex, wonderful, yet painfully nice sex.
“Umm, I’m fine Sam more than fine, I’m different can’t explain how, I just am, and no you didn’t hurt me, can we do that again please?” He withdrew from me smiling. Now that was sore. I moved closer to his side and put my head on his chest he pulled me in to him his arms wrapped tightly round me, he kissed me softly and his tongue parted my lips he ran it over my teeth one at a time and leaned in for a longer more passionate kiss. He said the words, he’d said before.
“Always and forever Michelle, I love you, baby, marry me?”
“Umm, yes please, if I get that every night and as much as I want hell yeah, I can’t wait to marry you Sam.” He sighed as he held me tightly and protectively in his arms. I fell asleep with him holding me close.
As I watch her sleep I can’t describe the feelings I have for her, my need to protect her is primal she’s mine just mine, I have never made love for as long or as nicely as that, stopping to feel her to appreciate her and what she gave me, what she always gives me unconditional love, I too ache from the amazing sex and as I look at her I need her again, now I know its forever I feel alive for the first time ever, with things to look forward to, damn whose coming in and they are damned loud. I go down to see Jimmy as pissed as a fart and Teddy oh hell he’s drunker than a skunk too, they are falling around the floor laughing.
“Where’s my sister then, seeing as she isn’t my girlfriend, you stole her away, Sam. Sam have you been doing naughty things with Michelle your back is all scratchy! You have had sex haven’t you? Don’t leave her Sam, please don’t.”
“Jimmy get up, no I am never leaving her, come on up and sit down, where the hell have you been its like five in the morning?”
“We were in a caravan park in a tent and drinking Guinness and whiskey and I think Teddy is in love aren’t you Edwardo?”
“I may have found my soul mate yes, she is called Jennifer Smith, and she has the biggest green eyes I have ever seen and black hair and is wonderful, my new cousin introduced her to me! You have scratches on your back Sam. Where is my favourite cousin?”
“She’s sleeping but the noise you two are making could wake the dead!”
“You’ve killed her Sam?”
“No you idiot, she’s asleep and is safe and in Aunties bed!”
“Hahaha, you have had sex, was it good did you do everything on her list?”
“James, enough she is sleeping and shout louder and you will wake her, where did Ellie disappear to?”
“Home, on her own in a taxi, she was a bloody nightmare and she didn’t wanna kiss me either, fuck I’m screwed!”
“Not literally though?”
“Fuckkkk Off! I am going to bed you Edward can sleep on the couch!” I laughed as they both raced for the bed I had a coffee and went to see if Michelle was up for more…
When I woke he was sitting on the bed, watching me he smiled and joined me, leaning over he kissed me again.
“Are you all right Michelle?” I smiled, an embarrassing smile at him, in that single moment I, knew I was never going to leave him, the love I felt for him was hard to explain. I had a weird ache in my heart, like I’d die if he left me and I’d kill to keep him.
“You taste of coffee, yes angel and you are you all right, with what we did? Was it okay for you? Was I all right?” He climbed in bed at the side of me.
“You were wonderful, it was wonderful, really the best thing ever. I loved you before but now. I need you again and I need you now Michelle. I can’t believe I waited for this night for so long, to do this with you baby.” He was on top of me and kissing my neck, nibbling at my ear, kissing my mouth, he lowered himself into me slowly. Oh my God, my body writhed in absolute pleasure again. He was within me with every inch of my body feeling as if it was complete, I was less tense, I'd enjoyed the last time, even if it was painful, it was so exhilarating, it had brought us closer together. This time I didn’t hurt as much, I hoped that this would get easier every time. Slowly pulling a little out, I grabbed his back with both hands raising my whole body to match him, to put it back in.
His hands holding me gently at my hips and he moved his body, slowly his body was moving inwards and outwards, a tidal wave of s
trange emotions were running through my mind, my body moved with his, responding to his gentle touches, he smiled down at me, as I put my arms around his neck, he leant down kissing me, the passion was out of this world.
“Baby, your mine, relax wow this is fantastic, are you alright? Michelle are you alright am I hurting you?”
“No, I’m fine it just feels strange.”
“Just fine? I’m offended.” He smiled as he kissed me, it was beyond fine it was amazing, like no other feeling I’d had before. Now, thrusting in and out a little quicker, and then he’d slow down teasing me. I wanted him, needed him. I felt my whole body shudder, a chill, and then a heat surged through my body. My feet are resting on the back of his legs, holding him in me, as we worked up to a sweaty mass he kissed me. This was getting better, the all new sensations rushing throughout my body. We moved slowly together, the tiny kisses the touches, and then he is a little harder with the thrusting he carried on in and out. I was either dying or coming again.
“Sam, argh please this is, oh hell please baby don’t stop please don’t stop.” He quickened the pace, a lot harder and quicker. He stopped and spoke softly his finger stroking my cheek, I looked into his eyes he smiled kissed me gently.
“Baby girl, this is amazing I love you. I can’t believe I am going to make love to you every single day of our lives.” He kissed me, repeatedly. Biting my lip and letting it fall. The tears slipped down my cheek as he told me he loved me, he kissed away the tears. He started to move gently within me oh so slowly, making my sex come alive, the passion in his bodies slow and rhythmical movements within me were leading to a wondrous orgasm and as I neared, grabbing at the sheets for some kind of tie to the bed, I honestly thought I was going to float of the bed towards heaven, and as I reached the point of no return I couldn’t stay quiet any longer the subtle groans turned into loud instructions for the man smiling, as he hovered above me!
“Oh hell, oh God, oh God-God-God help me. Sam please, don’t stop baby don’t stop.” His lips gentle touch of my breasts savoured, as he worked those kisses towards my sensitive nipples and as he suckled each one in turn my body came alive and the tingling sensation as my orgasm reached a fevered and body shivering end, I begged for more. His lips touched mine and our tongues danced their usual dance
Our skin when it met sounded like a gentle clapping, our bodies were making music, the noises it made, combined with the sound of our kisses, then hearing him groan and finally cry out my name and telling me what he wanted me to do and asking what I needed, was too much, I shuddered and came again and for a silent minute, the only sound I could hear was the beating of my heart, our heavenly sex sounds were silenced as Sam held me whilst I shivered and shook below him and then the only sound that remained was that of the pounding in my chest, I died for just one tiny minute, that minute though felt like a lifetime, as I held Sam tightly.
I recovered pretty quickly awakening from my sex coma, to the cries of Sam saying he loved me over and over. All this made me want more from him, grabbing his head and pulling his lips to mine I began kissing him deeply, I felt a wetness between my legs and the pain was now not painful, but pleasurable, a weird yet pleasing and wild experience, one I hoped to feel again and again this was an extreme high like nothing I had felt before.
The hair grabbing seemed to turn him on more and after those final few hard strokes he came crying my name and shaking as he collapsed, spent onto my chest, kissing me with his gentle kisses, to my now sore lips.
“Oh hell Michelle, what have you done to me? I can’t get enough of you baby, I never want this to end, the feelings I have are like… Shit, I don’t know what they’re like? They are so extraordinary Michelle, like you. I can’t explain just how phenomenal I feel being here with you, your mine all mine and I love you like I have never loved anyone before, oh hell baby thank you.” He kissed my nose with a gentle peck. He lay on top of me watching me, as I smiled up at him.
“Umm, shush. Trying to catch my breath you here Samuel, you’re wearing me out, my poor lips are all kissed out and I ache in places I didn’t think you could, plus I think you may have broken my doodah.” He laughed.
“I am sorry for my crudeness there for a moment I don’t know what came over me? Well I do and I want to express a little more crudeness baby, if that is possible? But alas I fear I may have broken my favourite toy, my poor little doodah is all broken but is it beyond repair? I sincerely hope not because I quite like being in your doodah baby, now I have been there and sealed the deal. Yep so fucking crude I know, but I fucking love you Michelle Welles, I really can’t believe I waited so long, I’m so sorry.” He pulled me in for a head kiss and a cuddle.
“Having sex makes you crude; you do know you dropped the F word in there a few times angel?” He laughed and held me tightly.
I love after sex cuddles; he smells differently, his skin smells of him, sex and my perfume. He pulled out slowly, shish that hurt again. I moved to one side he filled the space at my side. My sex was so tender and as he lay smiling I lay at his side worn out and sore.
“Are you okay? Did I hurt you because I was as gentle as I could be? Please tell me you’re okay?” I turned to face him.
“I’m fine really my doodah is sore, but I’m fine I’m more than fine in fact, I feel complete if that makes any sense? You have something of mine which nobody else can ever have.” He smiled then pulled me to him and kissed me.
“I need to know that this was all that you wanted, you did say you wanted to be made love to all night and you wanted to ache, when you gave me your list that night in the restaurant?” He laughed and held me tighter. He’d done as I asked, I did ached and my virginity was no more.
“Umm, well you did all that was in the brief and then some. I’m sure we could get more practice in Sam. I love you so much and I’m never leaving you, and for the record I asked when you were going to fuck me, all night.” I got up leaving the very messy sheet behind. “That’s going to take some explaining, if I can’t get it clean.” I grabbed a shower and washed the night’s sex from me, wow was I tender and sore, he was watching as I got back, the grin on his face priceless.
“The whole virgin bit wasn’t a lie then? It’s just that Jimmy said you’d had other boyfriends, and well you’re so good at the other things you and that mouth of yours I sort of wondered… Sorry, I know you don’t lie, he was just winding me up and we had only been seeing each other two days.” I jumped on the bed wet through and punched him.
“That hurt Michelle, but I’m happy you trusted me enough to actually give yourself to me. Really Mi cielo, now get dressed, we need to shop for a ring for that finger.” He smiled as he kissed me again. “You’re all mine baby thank you, now get dressed we have a man to impress and to ask if we can get married.”
“I don’t think I can bloody walk Sam? I ache really ache. I can’t believe we finally did it.” He just laughed, I wasn’t joking it hurt to walk. I put on the white dress, fresh underwear and shoes as he went for a shower and changed. I stripped and re-made the messy bed, the bedding I put in to wash with a ton of salt, I hoped that it would all come out in the wash. I put on the kettle and made us a drink. I sat in the front room with my feet up and hugging my legs, grinning like a kid in a free sweet shop, I could have all the Sam candy I could take, and he wouldn’t moan. I though ached, feeling like I’d been on a horse all week.
Well I had been rode hard all night erg I really thought that was funny? I laughed inwardly and sat hugging my knees smiling like a fool. He came down smiling too and fresh from his shower looking damn fine.
“Your first time has to be special, I wished it had been somewhere nicer and I could have done the whole champagne and rose’s thing. I wished it had been more romantic.” I smiled because to me we could have been anywhere and it would have been good with him and it certainly had been memorable, I ached for more of him, and loved him more, was that even possible?
“I’m glad mine was with you and for the record y
ou make me feel really special all the time, last night was wonderful for me thank you. I didn’t think we’d ever get there. Can I ask why you changed your mind?” He smiled with the hugest of smiles, matched only by mine.
“When that drunk, had his hands over you, I didn’t want anyone to touch you, I needed to protect what was mine. I knew days ago, after the Missy fit and a half you had at me over the Janet thing. I knew, I just knew when you said it wasn’t just sex to you it was giving yourself to me, that did it Mi cielo, that and how jealous I was when you said you could get anyone in the disco to have you, even both of my brothers. You were right and I was wrong. I knew then you’d never hurt me not like she did, and I wanted you, all of you. Nobody is ever having you but me Michelle. I wanted you from the first minute, I laid eyes on you and keeping my hands of you has been murder.
Do you know how many times in your warm and inviting bed, how many nights lying in your arms, those same arms, which hold me when you tell me you love me, the same arms that hold me when I cry, do you know how many times, I had my soldier ready to take you? Every single night Michelle, I fell so deeply in love with you, that I couldn’t think straight. When I’m not with you, I miss you. When I can’t hear you, smell you or touch you. I’m lost and alone. I love you all those ways too Michelle. I’m never looking back baby, because you are my future and like you, you’re the first thing I think of and the last thing I think of every single day, you’re all I think about all day. Now ring shopping for my fiancée.”
Oh hell, he quoted my argument right back at me. I smiled as if he had the choice I wanted him from the minute I laid my eyes on him too. I looked at my watch.
“Sam it’s dinner time, we’ve been at it all morning. Where’s Jimmy?” Sam smiled and went to check.
“He’s fast asleep with Teddy Bear you Mi cielo have had more sleep than me.” I looked in as he and Teddy were sleeping and cuddling. I laughed and shut the door.
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