To Love a Lord: A Victorian Romance Collection

by Tanya Anne Crosby

  Why did she want passage and why did she choose Jack?

  “I do believe it’s going to bruise,” he taunted her, thinking she must be vain to be so bloody beautiful. Those lips made him crave the taste of her. “A nice fat bruise, deep purple maybe.”

  “Really, Mr. MacAuley!”

  She scowled up at him but held her tongue, and Jack had to smile because he knew she was struggling to keep her temper. She couldn’t hide the fire in her eyes, however. He could swear they were glowing.

  Saucy chit.

  She really was desperate, it seemed.

  “Why?” he persisted. “Why my ship, Miss Vanderwahl?”

  She cocked her head backward a bit, looking as though she were suddenly at a loss for words.

  “Why?” she echoed, looking stupefied.

  “Yes, that’s what I want to know ... why?”

  “W-well,” she stammered, “why not?”

  He started back up the ladder.

  “Wait! You are bound for the Yucatan, are you not?” Jack had the fleeting suspicion that Penn might have sent her to spy on them. He wouldn’t put it past the idiot. Someone had been checking up on them, and Penn had made his name by stealing the theories and grants of others—Jack’s in particular.

  He stopped, looking down once more. “My destination isn’t a secret, Miss Vanderwahl.”

  “Yes, yes I know ... I know ... but you just don’t understand.” She pressed her hand to her head, and her expression turned pitiful. “I simply must go with you!”

  “Must you?”

  “Yes! You see, I can’t stand being away from Harlan so long, and I think I will die if I don’t see him soon!”

  Irritation welled up inside him.

  The last thing Jack needed just now was a spoiled little rich girl who was missing her fiancé—particularly when that fiancé had stolen grants right from under his nose, grants Jack had worked hard to win.

  Harlan Penn had worked with him one year, had been privy to all Jack’s research. Jack had just about had a grant pinned down, had worked hard to woo the powers-that-be, and then Harlan had run to them, twisting Jack’s research, both against Jack and for himself, snatching the grant money Jack had been waiting for right out from under his nose. Before Penn’s interference, Jack’s theories had been deemed “bold and innovative, free thinking.” Afterward, Jack had been named a blasphemous charlatan, and accused of wanting nothing more than press. Penn had known just what to say to turn their heads. He had plucked out bits of radical summations from Jack’s theories and used them against him, his only counter-evidence being conventional theology, and then had walked away with the rest, using it as his own.

  “I’ll give you seven thousand dollars!” she exclaimed. “Seven thousand dollars and the first thousand is right here!” She thrust her purse at him.

  So that’s why she’d been looking so smug; the damned thing was filled with bribe money. Everyone had his price, and she thought his would be mere money.

  “I’ve taken the liberty of opening an account for you at my bank,” she continued presumptuously, “and I can deposit the remainder at once!”

  Damn her, it was tempting.

  But he wouldn’t carry the little fool to her own funeral, much less to exchange spit with the man he most held in contempt.

  Everybody knew, it seemed, except his china doll fiancée and puppet father-in-law-to- be, that Harlan Penn used his academia as a convenience. The man no more took his studies seriously than he did his fiancée. He had accompanied Jack on his first trip to the Yucatan, and Penn had spent most of the time entertaining women in his tent rather than working. Penn was lazy and oversexed, in tune only with his own pleasures. Jack had felt sorry for the fiancée Penn never spoke of. It had been obvious to Jack, even then, that it was Maxwell Vanderwahl’s fortune to which Penn was so intent to be married.

  Still, it irked him that she could toss around money so easily when he had paid out of his own pockets nearly every cent he had for this meager little ship. He’d had to scrounge so deep into his personal finances that he hadn’t even had money enough for all the extensive repairs the ship needed. Most of his crew were volunteers as committed to their expedition as he was, scholars, not seamen, who cared enough about their journey to put little things like comfort and pay aside.

  “Let me get this straight... you want me to take you to the Yucatan because you miss your boyfriend so much that you can’t live without him?”

  Something like fury flashed in her eyes, but the expression was so fleeting that Jack had to wonder if he had seen it at all.

  “Yes,” she replied firmly.

  “No!” Jack exploded. “Ask your daddy for a ride!” He dismissed her once and for all, hoisting himself up the ladder, muttering about the overconfidence of men—and women—with money. He’d like to build a bonfire and burn every last bill.

  “You don’t understand!” she cried, and he could hear the ladder creak under her slight weight. He made a note to fix the thing before someone took a nasty spill. “My father wouldn’t let me go!”

  Jack spun on her, giving her his fiercest glare, hoping it would scare her away. She was nearing his cabin, and in his present mood, he’d just as soon tell her yes, drag her into his bed, and seduce the haughtiness out of her.

  In fact, he’d almost enjoy doing that only to get back at her weasel of a fiancé. But he liked to think he was a better man than that.

  He liked to think so, but damned if those pouting lips weren’t begging to be kissed. Had Harlan ever even kissed her? Jack, in fact, wasn’t a gentleman. He hadn’t been born to seasoned manners and cultured words. He and Kell had both come from a different world than hers.

  “Maybe your daddy isn’t so brainless after all,” he suggested.

  “I beg your pardon!”

  “Poor little rich girl... you should listen to your papa!”

  She hesitated just a moment and then lifted herself onto the lower deck. “That really isn’t a very nice thing to say!” she reproached him.

  Jack stood there staring at her in disbelief, and had to restrain himself from taking her into his arms, kissing her brutally, teaching her a bloody lesson for following strange men practically into their bedrooms.

  She stood facing him without backing down, without fear, and he thought she was either stupid or truly desperate—the sort of desperate that made you truly stupid.

  She reached out and touched his arm tentatively, but Jack could feel the plea in the barest touch. “Mr. MacAuley. Please, you don’t understand how important this is to me. Please... please… ”

  Jack wavered suddenly, seeing the sincerity in her eyes.

  Penn didn’t deserve such loyalty. He didn’t deserve the passion so apparent in her resolve.

  “I’ll give you ten thousand dollars,” she offered, and he knew that she had reached her limit. There was, for a moment, fear in her eyes while she waited for his answer. “This is possibly the most important thing I have ever done in my life!” she appealed to him. “Please... I will make myself useful. I will do anything you say ... please ...”

  Damn it all to hell!

  If Sophia Vanderwahl wanted to squander good money to spend two weeks spewing her guts out over a ship’s rail, who was he to stop her?

  Jack might be principled, but he sure wasn’t stupid. He could use the money, and his crew could use some pay.

  “All right, damn it!” he said, and grumbled after.

  Her eyes lit up.

  With the light shining down on them from above through the nets, her eyes looked almost like nuggets of gold, with specks of green.

  Beautiful.

  “Oh my! Did you really say yes?” She clapped her hands together joyfully.

  Jack was going to sorely regret this, he could tell already, and he’d be damned if he’d let her dripping enthusiasm dampen his irritation, so he said sternly, “Be here before four P.M. tomorrow, packed and ready to go, or we leave without you!”

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sp; She shrieked so loudly Jack winced at the sound, and then she hurled herself at him with the force of a cannonball.

  The feel of her body pressed to his sent a jolt through him. He let her hold him as she laughed with glee, not daring to touch her. He kept his hands outstretched, his senses reeling.

  “I’m already packed!” She jumped up and down, hugging him happily, her arms going about his neck, choking him. “Oh, thank you! Thank you! You won’t regret this! You won’t! I promise!”

  He already did.

  With every little leap of joy, he could feel her nipples, aroused with excitement, clear through her dress. The sensation tortured him mercilessly.

  He stared up through the nets, trying to get hold of himself, holding his breath, trying not to notice anything at all... not her sweet feminine scent or the mint of her breath ... especially not the sudden burst of heat in his groin ... and saw Kell peering down at them.

  The bastard was grinning.

  Chapter 5

  It was going to be a long voyage.

  Sophie dragged what Jack would allow of her baggage down one ladder and up another. She peered up through the netting at clear blue skies and white billowing sails and wondered irately why she couldn’t have just removed the netting and tossed down her luggage rather than tow it after her up and down ladders.

  He hadn’t even bothered to help her, merely carried on with his work, and even if she was feeling just a wee bit grateful that he’d refused to allow her to bring aboard three more pieces, she wasn’t about to relinquish her annoyance.

  He’d placed her in a tiny cabin near his own that was barely big enough to sleep in. One couldn’t even stand upright in it. Nor could one wash within it, or do the necessary. Absolutely primitive!

  Sophie thought perhaps he’d been hobnobbing with savages far too long.

  The water closet, for example, was disgraceful. It was no more than two donut-shaped seats on the fo’castle that hung out over the side of the vessel. Really, what did they expect her to do? Hoist up her skirts in full view of his crew and let it rain down on the little fishies in the sea? The very notion made her shudder. Men were absolutely shameless.

  However, she was determined to make the best of the situation. She began to whistle a merry tune, telling herself that she would make do, that she would not complain, because she had promised to do nothing that would make him regret his decision—but mostly because they weren’t so very far out from shore, and she wouldn’t put it past Jack MacAuley to toss her overboard and make her swim back. He was that rude.

  So she tried to whistle as she made her quarters more comfortable, giving it as much of a homey feel as she possibly could. She couldn’t quite manage a tune, because she didn’t really know how to whistle. It wasn’t seemly for a lady to whistle, her mother said, and of course Vanderwahls never did anything unseemly.

  Removing her portrait of Harlan from her suitcase, she set it on a small shelf at her bedside—not because she adored him so much that she couldn’t live without his image, but because it served as a reminder of her mission ... and because she’d hidden his letter in the back of it. She didn’t want it out of her sight.

  She was going to get satisfaction from him if it was the last thing she did. Harlan was a rotten louse, and she wasn’t going to rest until she gave him a piece of her mind—not until she had the pleasure of seeing him wretched at the thought of losing her father’s money.

  She had completely misjudged him. She had thought him an honorable man.

  Suddenly feeling the urge to draw, Sophie retrieved her pencil and pad from her baggage. She couldn’t go anywhere without it. Somehow, it was as essential to her as breathing. She sat back on the cot and began to draw.

  She’d hoped Harlan would love her—as her grandfather had loved her grandmother. Her own parents were merely tolerant of each other, partners certainly, but confidants ... or lovers... she didn’t think so. They traveled together often, but rarely told the same tales on their return, and Sophie had long ago surmised that the only time they spent together on those extended trips was the time spent en route.

  She sighed at the thought, but hardly blamed her father. Her mother had always been a trifle overbearing. As their only child, Sophie had been expected to behave as an adult from the instant she had been able to walk and talk. Her mother had allowed nothing less.

  Her father was a dear soul, but he hadn’t been happy as long as Sophie could remember. He seemed to spend his entire life trying to live up to her mother’s expectations. Sophie wanted to believe he would applaud her this moment, wanted to believe he would revel in her courage. She wanted to believe he would understand, he above all others, but she knew he couldn’t allow it. Never once had he taken a stand against her mother, and Sophie thought it rather sad that, for love, he had lost his own spirit. And yet some little part of her could feel him just now ... some slightly rebellious piece of his soul. In her mind’s eye, she could see his secret smile and single nod of approval.

  Taking a rest from her sketching, she glanced at Harlan’s picture, allowing herself a moment’s sorrow. She wouldn’t mind so much being alone. There would be no one to tell her what to do, but to tell the truth, she was lonely already. She might deny it, but she couldn’t lie to herself. With a sad smile she recalled the days so long ago when, as a child, she’d snuck away to play with the boys. Her mother had been furious but those had been the only times that Sophia had felt a sense of communion with other human beings. She often wished she’d had siblings ... if for nothing else than simply to share confidences with.

  She missed that desperately.

  Yet how could someone miss something so fiercely when she’d never had it to begin with?

  Deep inside, she was lonely, empty, and more so now with Harlan’s betrayal. He had offered her so much hope, and she had clung to it. She had built all her dreams around him. And now they were all gone.

  But she was stronger and wiser.

  She went back to her drawing, working absently.

  It had been all she could do not to be physically ill when she’d claimed to miss Harlan so fiercely. The louse. She hadn’t planned to explain anything at all to Jack MacAuley, because she really didn’t feel it necessary to air her dirty laundry. It was none of anyone’s concern why she wished to see her fiancé—ex-fiancé.

  She stopped to cast a malevolent glance at the portrait by her bedside. It wasn’t as though she were begging passage anyway. She had paid handsomely for the privilege of traveling aboard this wretched vessel, and doubted any man in her shoes would feel obligated to disclose his personal affairs. She simply hadn’t known what else to say to convince Jack MacAuley to let her aboard, and didn’t particularly like that she had been browbeaten into revealing all that she had. She knew Jack was not Harlan’s closest friend, but men tended to band together, and she doubted Mr. MacAuley would be party to some woman’s attempt at reprisal.

  Maybe she had even said it a little out of embarrassment. It wounded her pride not a little that Harlan could use her so meanly, and it made her feel a bitter shrew to admit to wanting revenge.

  And maybe she was a bitter shrew, but as soon as she recovered some measure of her pride, she could let it go, and live unencumbered by this terrible feeling ... this sense that she had been trampled on—and more, that she had allowed it.

  This was so unlike her, this ever-simmering sense of rancor. The sooner she rid herself of it, the better.

  “If you would have left at least one more of those monster pieces of baggage behind, you might have some room to sleep in.”

  Sophie started at the unexpected intrusion.

  She turned to find Jack MacAuley peering in on her, his head in the door. Her heart fluttered a little at the sight of him, but she ignored the sensation, refusing to explore the reason for its manifestation.

  She blinked down at the sketch she’d been working on. Jack’s face peered up at her, his eyes staring at her intensely, and she started, clasping it
to her breast in shock. Her heartbeat quickened. She hadn’t even realized!

  “Would you mind terribly knocking next time?” she snapped at him.

  He smiled mockingly. “I did knock.” He knocked again on the doorframe so as to prove it. Cad! Glancing at the picture of Harlan, he said, “You were so lovelorn staring at that picture you just didn’t hear me.”

  Lovelorn?

  Sophie cringed that he would think so, though she didn’t deny it. She clutched Jack’s caricature possessively, lest he see it. The blood seemed to rush into her brain, and her head suddenly hurt. “A fiancée is supposed to be lovelorned in the absence of her loved one,” she told him, trying to sound aloof, though she felt anything but.

  “Is that so?”

  Sophie thought so, but it occurred to her only after saying so that she had never really languished over Harlan. She considered that fact. “Yes,” she replied, but continued to puzzle over the realization. She had been engaged to Harlan for three years and had never felt as though she’d missed him terribly—anxious, perhaps to begin a new life with him, but miss him? Never.

  Perhaps because she’d spent so little time with him before he’d left?

  She resisted the urge to turn his picture over. The sight of him only seemed to elicit her anger.

  “I wouldn’t know,” Jack said a little acerbically.

  Neither would she, if the truth be known, but she wasn’t about to admit it.

  “Anyway, if you can bring yourself to stop pining long enough... I have a favor to ask of you.”

  The man had no respect at all, and it was probably her imagination but the portrait of his face pressed against her breast seemed to warm her even through her dress.

  She wondered irately if he had ever been taught his manners. It certainly didn’t appear so.

  “I am not pining!”

  “I beg to differ.”

  He cast another glance at Harlan’s picture and lifted a brow when his gaze returned to Sophie. “What else would you call sitting, gazing at a picture of your lover with that wistful look on your face?”