“Ocean…”
“What baby?” I asked with my lips pressed against her throat.
“I want you, Ocean, I want all of you. Just take me.” I moved down to her collarbone and traced it with my tongue, then moved down to her perfect breasts. I sucked her nipple into my mouth, and the high pitch squeal she made drove me crazy.
She was going to make me cum just by the sounds she was making. I sucked and nipped at her nipples giving them both the same attention. Her breathing was deep and heavy as she writhed her hips against mine. I continued in a straight line down to her belly button and that’s when I felt her tense up again. Her hands were moving down to grab my face, but I pushed them off.
“You want me to make it stop, baby?” She nodded her head yes. “Then let me do this.”
“But, you’ll see them, and I don’t…”
“Shh. I want all of you, Liv… scars, attitude, bad fighting skills, and all.” She gave me a half smile and my heart skipped a beat. I went back to sucking on her stomach making my way down past her belly button and to the sensitive skin on her smooth pussy. I slid back further and sat up a little. I took her entire body in. From the jet-black silk strands splayed around the white comforter, the swell of her breasts, to the curves of her stomach and hips. I ran my fingers across one of her scars, and she closed her eyes. I placed both hands on her thighs and traced every scar one by one until there were no more scars to run my fingertips across.
I bent forward and then traced her scars with my tongue, and her breath caught as she arched her back and tried to bring her legs up, but I held them down in place. I licked each scar on each leg, and when I was done, she was crying.
“Baby, don’t cry. I told you I wanted all of you, and that includes the good and the bad, baby.” She nodded her head. “Now, baby, I’m going to make you cum hard. Don’t hold back, baby. Tell me how you feel. I want to hear you say my name over and over again.”
I took her silence as the confirmation I wanted. I got up and pulled her ass to the edge of the bed, and I knelt down on the floor. The more distance I put between my dick and her was better for her, because she was killing me. I took one last look at her face, and she nodded giving me the okay. I slipped my arms underneath her thighs and gripped her hips. I spread her legs a little more so I could see all of her, and her pink folds were glistening with wetness. I inhaled her scent, and with my tongue, I gently traced around her clit. Her hips bucked and she squealed as she searched for something to grab onto. I was thankful it wasn’t my hair, because she had a death grip on the sheets. I continued to suck, lick, and tongue fuck her. I was relentless, not appeasing her when she started begging me to stop.
“O… Oshhh. OCEAN!” I hummed on her clit, and she screamed my name as she came hard trembling from her release. She tried to talk, but she was too breathless. I made her come twice more before I finally complied with her cries for mercy. I came up and kissed her hard on her lips, and she sucked on my tongue taking in the taste of her body. I picked up her limp body and pulled back the covers. I laid her in the middle of the bed and took off my wife beater and sweats. I didn’t wear any boxers underneath, so I climbed in bed with Liv naked. As soon as I climbed under the covers, she climbed on top of me and laid her head onto my chest.
“Ocean?”
“Yeah baby.”
“Please don’t leave me like everyone else, don’t let me drown, Ocean.”
I hugged her tighter. “Livie, I won’t let you drown. If you drown, I drown, baby.” I held onto her and closed my eyes, and silently cried myself to sleep.
Chapter Thirty-One
Livie
I woke up in the middle of the night with a start, and immediately felt two powerful arms tighten around me. It took me a moment to remember what all had happened exactly, and I was more than ashamed of the show I had put on. I showed him the worst of me, he saw what I was doing to myself, and Ocean Hawthorne still told me that he wanted me. I knew in my heart that not even his love could protect me from myself. I was unsalvageable, and no matter how much he cared for me, I would still be a cutter. I lifted my head from his hard chest and looked up at him. One of his hands came up and started rubbing my back. I exhaled and rested my cheek back onto his chest.
“You okay, baby?”
His voice was deep and husky, vibrating in my chest as he spoke, and I smiled to myself.
“I think so. I’m not really sure how to answer that question yet.” He stretched under me and I could feel his solider pressing against my leg. I didn’t remember him taking off his clothes, but I wasn’t about to complain. Having every surface of my skin in contact with his was absolutely amazing.
“You want to talk about it?”
“Not really, but I do want to apologize. I shouldn’t have said the things I said to you, and I didn’t mean to attack you.”
His laugh vibrated deep into my womb, and I could feel the moisture between my legs building again.
“I’m ready to talk when you’re ready, Liv, but you have to try to promise me something. Promise me you will try not to cut. When you feel like you need to, please find me, call me, do whatever it is you have to, to get to me.” I was silent because that was a promise I couldn’t make, and he knew it. He rolled me onto my side so we could face each other. He brushed my hair out of my face and pulled me close to him so that our foreheads were touching. “I know I’m asking a lot from you, but just tell me that you’ll try not to.”
“I’ll try,” was all I could say. I traced the picture of the girl on his chest and he smiled to himself.
“What happened?” He rolled onto his back and stared at the ceiling. He put his arms up and crossed his hands behind his head. I rested my head on his bulging bicep. “Stormie was my sister, and she died.” I could feel him tensing up, so I stretched my neck and placed a kiss on his chin.
“You mean she is your sister, and she died.”
“Yeah, same difference.”
“Can you please tell me what happened?” He pulled his arm I was resting on from behind his head and used it to pull me closer. I snuggled close and wrapped my arm and leg around his body.
“On the night of my last fight, Stormie begged me to let her ride home with me on the back of my bike. I never let her ride with me, no matter how badly she begged, but that night I was fucked up. After the fight, I met up with my friends at the time, and I sniffed coke with them.
“It was only the second time I had tried it, but it was enough to ruin my life forever. Stormie was stubborn, sort of like you.” I pinched his nipple and he laughed, grabbing my hand and intertwining our fingers together.
“That night, she hid from my parents and Law to avoid catching a ride home. I found her waiting for me by my bike, and when I noticed that everyone was gone, I guessed she would be safe as long as she was with me. On the way home, I was so fucked up that I drove my bike straight into the back of an RV. How I’m alive today, I have no fucking clue, but from the time I held Stormie dying in my arms, I wished I would have died with her that night.”
I looked up at him and tears were sliding down the side of his face. I got up and inched myself closer to his face and kissed away his tears.
“After that I got strung out on coke, alcohol, and slept with any and every girl that I wanted to. A year after Stormie died, Law showed up at my apartment, knocked me out, and admitted me into rehab.”
I smiled because Law was a good man, and I was thankful for him. “Are you still clean?” I asked curious.
“From the time I checked out of rehab, I haven’t touched coke. As for being a man whore and drinking… well, that much didn’t change until I came back to Dunlap.
“I’m sorry, Ocean. I know the pain of holding someone you love in your arms as they died. My mom committed suicide by slitting her wrists, and I was too angry with her to save her. It was too late when I found her, and I hate myself for it everyday. We stopped having a mother daughter relationship after she lost my brother, but she was
still my mother. I should have been there for her.” We were both silent for a minute.
“Liv, can I ask you why you cut?” I tried to get up but he held me down. Figuring he wasn’t going to let this go, I caved.
“It takes the pain away. I can’t handle the way I hurt inside. The guilt and the shame are too much. When I cut, the physical pain takes over, and it numbs the pain I have inside.” Ocean rolled me onto my back and settled between my legs bringing them both up around his hips. He looked into my eyes and held his stare.
“Liv, I want you to be mine and only mine. I don’t care that we’re both fucked up individuals, but I can’t and won’t leave you. Please tell me you feel the same way.”
“Ocean, I do feel the same way, but I’d be lying if I didn’t say I’m terrified. If you change your mind about me, I won’t be able to handle it… I’m afraid I’ll end up like my mom.”
“As long as you let me in, Liv, I won’t let that happen. I’d die myself before I let you take your own life, baby. You have me, and I don’t plan on going anywhere.”
“I wish I could believe you, but it’s not that easy. I’ve never had this, I’ve never been with anyone like this, and I don’t know how I’m going to deal with all the emotions, Ocean.”
He lowered his head and placed his lips on his favorite spot on my neck where my pulse was the strongest. I felt him push up into my opening and I gasped.
“Liv.”
“Yes, Ocean.”
“I thought I would be able to wait, but I need you, baby. I want to take that pain away and replace it with me inside of you.” He pushed up on me a little more, and I started breathing heavily.
“Can I see it?” His laughter calmed my nerves a little, but I was still scared shitless. This wasn’t just a boy I was going to make out with. Ocean was all man, and I wasn’t sure I could handle him. He’d break me.
“What’s wrong, baby, you scared?”
“Honestly, I am.”
“I promise I’ll be gentle, Liv, but if you want to see it…” He rose up and leaned back on his knees. My hands flew up to my mouth to keep from screaming. If a horse saw it, they’d probably take off galloping the other way. Ocean was long and thick with a deep vein encircling his complete length. I wanted to smack the grin off his sexy face, but I had to admit that I wanted to know what he would feel like inside of me.
“Do I meet your requirements?”
I narrowed my eyes at him. “I haven’t decided that yet, but I’m thinking not really.”
His grin disappeared and he launched himself on top of me. I almost made it off the bed, but he grabbed my leg and pulled me back into place as he lowered himself on me again. He grabbed my breasts and palmed them tight. He sucked my left nipple into his mouth teasing my pebbled nipple, and my legs automatically opened up for him, allowing him to settle himself at my opening again.
I grabbed his hair and pulled causing him to look up at me. “If you’re not ready, I’ll stop, Liv, I promise, but you’re going to have to put up with me renting one of those porn flicks.”
I pulled on his hair harder. “Ouch! Just playing. I’d rather whack off to your body.” I couldn’t help but laugh at him.
“I’m ready, Ocean. I’m ready for you to take my pain away.” His lips met mine, and he gently nipped my bottom lip and pulled it into his mouth, sucking on it. His hands started to roam my entire body, and I moaned in response to his touch. He was true to his word and touched me gently, not rushing it. He licked and sucked on my flesh, and I couldn’t help the cries that poured out of my mouth.
“That’s right, baby, don’t hold back. I want to hear you, baby.”
Ocean pulled back and flung the heavy comforter off the bed. He reached over to both of the bedside lamps and turned them on to the dimmest setting. I gave him a puzzled look and he just smiled back.
“I’m not shy, baby. I want to see every inch of you. No need to hide from me in the dark.” I blushed and shook my head at him. When we came back down to my body, he positioned himself in my center, and he rubbed his tip against my clit lazily. I cried out his name pulling his body down toward mine. I wanted our bodies to touch in every way possible.
“Baby, just tell me to stop, and I will.” I shook my head no.
“I need you, Ocean. I need you to make me hurt.”
He came down and kissed me, but this time it was possessive and rough. He jerked up my legs, spreading me wider. His tip started to enter me, and my abs started contracting. He slid himself inside of me inch by inch letting me get used to his size, which by the way was massive. He was filling me, and it felt amazing. I was doing okay until he inched up further, the burning ripping through me, and my muscles clamped down on him.
“You need me to stop, baby?” I pulled him down closer, and he grinned, licking my earlobe.
“That’s my girl, baby, tell me how it feels.”
I tried to speak, but as he pushed himself further into me, all I could do was cry out from the pleasure and pain that was Ocean. If I could get his entire name out, it would have been a huge accomplishment now.
The burning was a beautiful pain even though my pussy felt like it just took a shot of a hundred proof tequila. “Relax, baby, I need you to take all of me, Liv.” I let his voice calm me, and as he rocked in and out, I let my muscles relax as much as I could. When he was finally all the way in, I felt as if he were rocking against my belly and that is when the need for him to move faster overtook me. I started rocking my hips up to meet his, and the heated friction took over.
We were moving in an amazing rhythm, and when I was about to climax, Ocean started slamming himself balls deep inside me, and my cries erupted like a million violent volcanoes. The feeling of the warmth of his seed spilling into me was amazing. My body convulsed and my legs trembled as he slowed his pace after his own release. Instead of pulling himself out of me, he wrapped his arm around my back and moved me with him as he rolled onto his back. I rested my head in the crook of his neck and concentrated on getting my breathing under control. He kissed my forehead, and before I drifted off to sleep, I could have sworn I heard him tell me that he loved me, so like my body always did with him, my mouth opened, and I said, “I love you more, Ocean.”
Chapter Thirty-Two
Lawrence
Man it was good to be back home! I was glad when we finally got back from Boston, because ever since I heard my Sunshine and Ocean getting it on, I’ve been traumatized. It took Ocean all of one night to turn my little Sunshine into a super freak. I couldn’t blame him, because while he was with Sunshine, I was having a threesome with the blondes from the pool. I could be a whore when I wanted to, but who the hell cared. Not me.
When Ocean told me what the big secret was, he made me promise I wouldn’t bring it up, and after seeing her that morning full of sunshine, I decided to keep my mouth shut. Ever since she let Ocean in, she was smiling more, laughing harder, and just being herself. It felt good seeing her like that. I was finally able to convince Ocean it would be a good idea to drop her off at her hotel first, so we could figure some shit out. He wasn’t happy about it, but I told him he couldn’t be up her ass 24/7.
As we walked out into the hospitals’ parking lot, I started to get the beginnings of a killer headache. The yelling my mom gave us both was brutal, and she finally got to smack Ocean upside his head, which was well worth the visit. Climbing into my truck, I turned to Ocean who looked like he was starting to get a headache, too.
“Hey, I’ve been thinking.”
“Aw, shit, man, don’t think. It makes you really unstable. I think you kill off your brain cells when you think too hard.” He was laughing at his dumb ass joke.
“Not funny, but I was thinking we need to move in together, and by we I mean you, me and Sunshine.” The laughter left his face, and he got serious and sat up straight.
“You really think that’s a good idea?”
“Of course it’s a good idea. Why wouldn’t it be? Sunshine’s one of u
s now, and I don’t want her to be alone, especially after finding out what she does to herself. You can keep an eye on her, or your dick, which ever you prefer.” Ocean rolled his eyes at me.
“Whatever!”
“Don’t lose your tampon, man. I really think it would be good for all of us. If she’s going to be the assistant manager of the studio, she might as well.”
“You going to tell her about this?”
“Actually, I was hoping you would. Now that you two are love birds and all, I think she’d like to hear it from you.”
“Hell no, no way. She’s not kicking my ass for this, man. You have to tell her, it was your idea.”
“Fine, pussy, I’ll tell Sunshine. Let’s go find a place.” I started my truck and drove off in search for our new home.
Livie
Alone in my room I felt empty again. I’m surprised Ocean agreed to leave with Law after everything, and the attitude he had when Law tried to get him to leave. I know that we still each needed our space, but I felt a void without him. I looked around the suite and the urgency to get myself together and find my own place set in. I only had four days left here in the hotel. I could easily extend my stay, but I’d rather save my money.
Before I did anything though, I needed to call my Clooney. I’m sure he has a mouth full to dish out. I really did feel like I was a teenager when it came to my dad. I would forget that I was a twenty-three year old woman, and I would become the little broken girl he left. I shook off the thought and walked into the office. Everything was exactly the way I had left it. I sat down in the chair and opened my mac. I opened my Skype app and called my dad.
My dads face popped up on my screen, and my heart lit up like Christmas morning. He looked tired and worried, but the happiness in his eyes erased any doubt that he wasn’t okay.
“Daddy!”
“Hey, kid, where’ve you been? You sort of disappeared on me; I was starting to get worried about you.”
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