A Wanted Man

by Linda Lael Miller

  Lark's body went achy hot. Yes, it said. Oh, yes.

  "No!" she gasped, and then smiled a wobbly smile at a woman on the sidewalk, fearing she might have heard.

  Rowdy chuckled. "I figure you've been with at least one man in your life," he went on, just as if she hadn't protested—indeed, as if she'd encouraged him, which she had not. "But I'd bet anything you've never felt the things you're going to feel when I have my way with you."

  "Stop."

  "Stop what?"

  "Stop seducing me."

  "Way too late for that. You're almost there right now." He waved companionably to Jolene Bell, who scowled back at him from the doorway of her saloon.

  "I most certainly am not," Lark argued, but she wasn't all that certain, and Rowdy clearly knew it.

  "Of course, after that first time, which will take place in a bed, like it should, I might have you just about anywhere, as long as we're alone. Against a wall, maybe, with your drawers down around your ankles—"

  "Rowdy Rhodes," Lark said heatedly, "stop it, or take me home!"

  "You don't want to go home," Rowdy told her. "You wouldn't want to disappoint Maddie like that. She's been snowed in awhile, just like you have, and she's probably looking forward to the visit." He paused as they passed out of Stone Creek, into the open countryside. The roads were deep with mud and slush, just as he'd said they would be. "And you don't want me to stop talking about making love to you, either."

  "What makes you so sure of that?" Lark demanded, incensed.

  And wickedly aroused.

  "The way you keep squirming on the wagon seat, because you can't get comfortable, for one thing. The flush rising from your neck to your hairline for another, and the little throb at the base of your throat."

  "This wagon seat is hard," Lark protested, in her own defense.

  "Not nearly as hard as I will be," Rowdy said.

  Lark closed her eyes against an onslaught of feelings and images, but it was no use. Autry had been old and awkward and he'd smelled funny, too. Rowdy was her former husband's opposite in every way—he was young and virile. He was comfortable in his own skin, with a gunslinger's dangerous grace, and he always smelled of sun-dried laundry and strong soap.

  He undoubtedly knew how to please a woman.

  Think about Autry, she told herself sternly.

  But she couldn't, because Autry was miles away in Denver, and Rowdy was right beside her, so close, in fact, that their thighs were touching.

  "Inside," Rowdy went on mildly, "you're wound up tight as a watch spring when the stem's been turned too far. And I knowjust the way to make you let go. Won't even need a bed to do it."

  Lark's heart hammered in her throat. Her stomach jumped.

  And she parted her legs ever so slightly under the skirts of her blue silk dress.

  "Rowdy," she pleaded.

  "That's more like it," he said.

  Her temper surged again. Where the devil had it been when she needed it? "That wasn't what I meant—"

  "Wasn't it?" Rowdy teased.

  She realized then that he was baiting her. Of course, he was merely nettling her, and she'd played right into his hands. So to speak.

  "Go to hell, Rowdy Rhodes," she said.

  "Yup," Rowdy said solemnly. "Tighter than a watch spring."

  They traveled in silence for a while. Passed a farmhouse or two, and copses of oak and cottonwood trees, bare-limbed and seeming to strain toward the sky, as if offering a desolate prayer for spring.

  They'd probably been on the road for at least forty-five minutes, with the O'Ballivan place nowhere in sight, when Rowdy suddenly stopped the wagon.

  "Horses need to rest," he explained, when Lark stiffened. "It's hard pulling for them, with the mud and all."

  She let out her breath.

  Nothing could happen here.

  They were on the open road. It was broad daylight. And anyone could come riding by on a horse, or driving a wagon, at any moment.

  She was completely safe.

  Then Rowdy leaned into the back of the wagon and picked up one of the blankets.

  "You're cold," he said, his eyes twinkling, when she started again.

  He smoothed the blanket over her lap.

  Lark tensed, closed her eyes, opened them again when he kissed her.

  She wanted to resist.

  She truly did.

  But when he persuaded her to open her mouth for him, his lips warm and firm against hers, his tongue exploring—she couldn't help responding.

  She whimpered softly and kissed him back.

  She was dazed when he stopped, sweetly alarmed when he knelt between the wagon seat and the footboard and slipped beneath the blanket.

  A molten shiver went through Lark as she felt him go under her skirts and petticoats, too. What was he going to do?

  Autry had never done anything like—

  He ducked under her left leg, set both her feet against the front of the wagon.

  Oh, mercy. He was between—

  She felt the delicate fabric of her drawers give way, right in the middle.

  She sucked in a shocked, exultant breath.

  And then his mouth was on her.

  Lark gave a strangled cry, but it wasn't a protest, and Rowdy must have known that, because he chuckled, under the blanket and her skirts and petticoats. The sound echoed through her.

  "Rowdy," she managed to gasp, clutching the edges of the wagon seat, "someone could come—"

  He chuckled again. "Someone could," he agreed in a wicked drawl, his voice muffled by her garments and her skin. "In fact, I'd bet on it right about now."

  Lark began to breathe harder, and more quickly. "Don't—" she whimpered.

  "Don't what, Lark?"

  "Don't—stop."

  He feasted on her then. He tugged at her, and he teased, until she was wild with need, rocking in the wagon seat, her feet pressing hard into the footboard. Her nipples ached and perspiration broke out all over her body and she was climbing toward something, climbing and climbing—

  And then the world shattered.

  Lark threw back her head and shouted his name aloud.

  He stayed with her, bringing her to several more releases, each one softer, and yet keener, than the one before.

  She was dazed—melted—when Rowdy finally threw off the blanket, righted her petticoats and skirts, and shifted himself back onto the wagon seat. He wiped her wetness from his face with the sleeve of his trail coat, and Lark was suddenly, belatedly, mortified by what she'd allowed him to do.

  She looked away.

  He caught her chin in his hand and made her look back.

  "That's what you ought to feel when a man makes love to you, Lark," he told her when she finally met his gaze. "It ought to make you moan and writhe and holler out his name when you come undone."

  Tears sprang to her eyes. She'd never felt that way with Autry, never even known it was possible. With Autry lovemaking was something to be endured. Fumbling and sometimes painful, and always done in darkness.

  Rowdy Rhodes had just—he'd just put his mouth to the most intimate part of her body, on a public road, and she'd not only let him, she'd reveled in it, and she'd have done it again. And yet again.

  She put a hand to her mouth, horrified by this realization. She'd always thought herself to be one kind of person, only to find out now that she was quite another. The next time she looked into a mirror, she'd see a wanton stranger gazing back at her.

  She didn't know how to be this woman she had just become.

  Rowdy smiled, pulled her hand away from her mouth, and kissed her again, lightly this time. Then he brushed the tears from her cheeks with his thumbs and turned to release the brake lever and take up the reins again.

  Lark sat, baffled and damp, profoundly satisfied and conversely in greater need than before, still clutching the edge of the seat.

  Suppose it showed, what she'd just done with Rowdy?

  Suppose Sam and Maddie guessed, some
how?

  "I'm going to have to mend my bloomers," she said.

  Rowdy laughed. Shook his head. His blue eyes soothed her, even though they twinkled with mischief. "Where did that come from?" he asked.

  She summoned up a little huff. "You tore them, remember?"

  "I surely do. Leave them like that. It'll save wear and tear and be easier next time."

  Lark stared at him, aghast. "Next time?"

  'Tomorrow night, maybe," he said. "Before or after the dance." The mischievous glint in his eyes intensified. "Or maybe on the way back to town tonight, after supper."

  Lark flushed again.

  Rowdy chuckled.

  "You wouldn't," Lark told him.

  "You know I would," Rowdy answered.

  Lark lapsed into sweet misery.

  Half an hour later the O'Ballivan house came into view, nestled in a wide meadow beside a winding creek that had frozen blue in the cold. In fact, there were two houses on the property, at some distance from each other but enclosed by the same rail fence.

  Smoke curled invitingly from their stone chimneys.

  Rowdy seemed to know which place belonged to Sam and Maddie, and when Maddie came out onto the porch to smile and wave, Lark stopped worrying and relaxed.

  Maddie wore a brown silk dress, and she was beaming. "Sam," she called, through the open doorway behind her, "they're here!"

  Rowdy stopped the wagon, tipped his hat to Maddie andjumped down to come around to Lark's side and lift her from the seat. At the touch of his hands on either side of her waist, and for just the merest moment, she was back where he'd taken her earlier, at the height of ecstasy.

  She crooned involuntarily, under her breath.

  Rowdy winked at her and made sure she traveled the whole hard length of him before her feet finally struck the ground.

  Sam came out of the house, and he and Rowdy unhitched the team, led the horses to the barn, so they could rest comfortably before the long trek back to Stone Creek later that night.

  "I'm so glad you're here," Maddie told Lark, squeezing her hand and then pulling her into the house.

  Mrs. Porter would have been impressed. It was a beautiful place, with paintings on the walls and bright Indian rugs gracing the wooden floors. The spinet gleamed in the light of a crackling blaze on the hearth of the big stone fireplace.

  Lark took a step toward the little piano before she caught herself.

  Mustn't touch the keys, the still, small voice reminded her. Mustn't sing.

  Ever.

  Those things were part of her old life, gone for ever.

  "I thought I'd go mad, cooped up here during that blizzard," Maddie confided. "Sam was here, of course, but talking to him isn't like talking to another woman."

  "Where's Terran?" Lark asked, remembering that she was a teacher and ought to inquire about her student.

  "He's over at the major's, with Ben," Maddie answered, indicating that Lark should take one of the chairs near the fire. "And Sam, Jr., is already asleep." She sighed, glanced wistfully out one of the windows. "It gets dark so early in winter."

  Inwardly Lark started slightly. It was dark.

  When had the sun gone down. How could she have failed to notice?

  "Would you like a cup of tea while we wait for Sam and the marshal to come back from the barn? Supper's almost ready, but they're likely to stand out there and talk awhile."

  "Tea would be lovely," Lark replied gratefully. She stood again, and was instantly aware of the ripped seam in her bloomers. She would mend them the moment she got home, she told herself.

  She really would.

  Supper smelled heavenly—Maddie had made chicken and dumplings, one of Lark's favorites.

  The two women chattered as Maddie brewed and poured the tea.

  Maddie was so obviously happy, through and through, that she glowed.

  When Sam and Rowdy came in from the barn, entering by the back door, Sam introduced Rowdy to his wife. The look in Sam's eyes as he gazed at Maddie made Lark's heart catch painfully. Their love for each other was palpable, as real and eternal as the land the house was built upon.

  Lark glanced at Rowdy, found he was watching her.

  His expression was thoughtful, even a little solemn.

  Maddie served supper in the kitchen, on sturdy dishes with flowers painted on the edges, and the meal was delicious.

  Maddie and Lark laughed a great deal.

  Sam and Rowdy were more subdued, though they exchanged the occasional word or two.

  "Are you coming to town for the dance tomorrow night?" Lark asked Maddie, and then wished she hadn't brought up the dance, because Rowdy had said he was going to do that to her again, before or after.

  If not on the way home that very night.

  "If the weather holds, we'll be there," Maddie said. Mischief shimmered in her brown eyes. "I would surely love to make Sam O'Ballivan dance."

  Sam grinned, shifted a little on his chair. But he didn't say he wouldn't dance. Lark concluded, a bit wistfully, that Maddie could probably get him to do almost anything.

  Too soon, the meal ended, and the dishes were done, and Sam and Rowdy went back out to the barn for the team.

  "I wish you'd stay the night," Maddie fretted. "Suppose another storm comes up?"

  "We'll be fine," Lark promised. "And Maddie?"

  Maddie paused, looked at her curiously. "What?"

  "Thank you for tonight. It was wonderful."

  Maddie smiled, approached and squeezed both Lark's hands in her own. "You'll have to come back," she said.

  A few minutes later, when all the goodbyes had been said, and Lark and Rowdy were driving away from the ranch house, the lilting strains of the spinet reached Lark's ears, rippling over the melting snow like a silvery river.

  She began to cry.

  The moon was out, and they didn't need lanterns to see by, so she couldn't hide her tears from Rowdy.

  "What is it?" he asked gently.

  "The music," Lark said. She'd lied for so long, about so many things, that she wasn't sure of anything anymore, but she still mourned. "The music."

  Holding the reins in one hand, Rowdy tucked the blanket around her with the other. Held her against his side for a long moment.

  She felt dangerously safe there.

  They'd gone a mile or two, perhaps, when Lark reached out from under the blanket to touch Rowdy's gloved hand.

  He glanced at her, confused.

  She swallowed.

  "Lark?" he prompted.

  "Do it to me again," she said, appalled at the brazen-ness of her words. "What.. .what you did before. Stop the wagon and make me feel all those things again."

  Rowdy drew the wagon up alongside the moon-washed road, under the arching branches of an oak tree. Somewhere in the near distance an animal howled, the sound so lonely and forlorn that it stuck in Lark's heart like a nettle.

  "You're sure?" he asked.

  She nodded.

  He climbed over the back of the wagon seat, made a little nest of the blankets there. Then, crouched, he held out his hand to Lark.

  She let him help her into the bed of the wagon.

  Let him lay her down.

  He took off his hat, set it aside, and lifted her skirts.

  This time, he removed her bloomers entirely. He bent her knees, parted them and lowered himself to her.

  Lark gave a sob of welcome, and entangled her fingers in his hair, holding him close, seeking him with the motion of her hips.

  He tongued her.

  He suckled.

  And she cried out to the wintry silver stars overhead as she spiraled up toward them and became a part of the night sky.

  -13-

  Rowdy returned the hired team and wagon to the livery stable, after he'd seen Lark safely inside Mrs. Porter's back door and heard the lock turn behind it, and as he walked toward the jailhouse, he wondered why he hadn't kissed her good-night.

  It wasn't as if he hadn't done plenty else.

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nbsp; He smiled at the memory of Lark's responses, still felt the press of her smooth, bare thighs against his ears. Damn, but it had been all he could do not to claim her in the back of that wagon, on that pile of scratchy blankets.

  She'd have taken fire, pitched beneath him like a wildcat. He knew she thought she'd released all her passion—but she was in for a surprise. She'd barely scratched the surface of what burned beneath this first surrender.

  But he'd made up his mind to have Lark Morgan in a bed before anyplace else, and until that sacred time came, he'd be content to keep unwinding that watch spring, every chance he got.

  The jailhouse was dark, meaning Gideon had probably locked up for the night, so Rowdy made his way around back. He smiled, wondering if Lark would stitch up that tear in her bloomers or wear them as they were.

  He'd find out tomorrow night, after the dance.

  There were lamps burning in his house, the light glowing yellow at the windows, and he heard Pardner barking and clawing at the door. It opened, and the dog shot out and rushed him, galloping around him in gleeful greeting.

  Rowdy bent and roughed up Pardner's ears.

  Gideon loomed on the doorstep, a shadow rimmed in the glimmer of the lanterns. "Coffee's on," he called.

  "Good," Rowdy replied. Thinking of Lark, and the way she'd shouted out his name when she reached her climaxes, he needed to walk around in the dark for a while. Cool off. "I'll be right in," he added. "Just want to see to the horses."

  Gideon nodded and stepped back inside the house.

  The lean-to was dark, but Rowdy could see his breath in the air. He reached for a lantern, struck a match to the wick.

  And that was when he saw the paint, standing in his regular place.

  Payton's black gelding was gone, and there was a note stuck through a nail on one of the weathered poles holding up the roof.

  "Keep your damn horse," Pappy had written, in his curiously elegant copperplate.

  When Rowdy had risen that morning, having slept on the cot in the jail cell, he'd known his pa was already gone, and he'd headed for the lean-to barn, right away, to confirm his suspicions and to mourn Paint's leaving, if not his father's.

  The black gelding had been right where Paint was now. Gideon's livery-stable nag was still there, too.

  Shaking his head, Rowdy ran an appreciative hand along the animal's side. Pappy had come back—God only knew when—and swapped Paint for his own mount.