#65 WALLPAPER
These two days were cruel. These days were the worse days up to now for him. She didn't say a word. She was so dispassionate and emotionless. She didn't even look at him. She flickered like a candle light when he came to the room and after a short, minimal look, she looked away. It was horrible.
Julian thought it would be much easier to deal with this situation. After he left her meals, mostly sandwiches, that he had prepared for the first time ever, he went to the door and when she thought he left the room, he disappeared, became invisible, and stayed in the room with her. Julian was standing at the door, he didn't move, he was just standing there and observing her.
Mia hardly moved and apparently, she was worried and confused. Was she thinking about what he was? Was she scared of him? He admitted to be something else than a human being, and now she was surely fighting with her thoughts whether he was dangerous for her or not. If it was him, he would probably leave this house or at least ask to take him home. She was still calm and it was impossible for him to read her mind.
It was incredibly hard for him to watch her. Julian didn't know what to do. There was a wall between them and it was impossible to break it, if one of them wouldn't make a step forward. Even by making a step forward, he wasn’t sure whether it would be enough to break this wall. It was impossible to tell her the truth, because he wanted to protect her. On the other hand, it was strange to watch her in these circumstances. When he thought about living like this as long as she was alive, then he wasn't sure which solution was worse.
One thing he was sure about: it was harder than he thought. In addition, she was too important for him to let her alone just like that. It was inhuman.
At night, he was still standing next to her bed watching her sleeping. She was unsettled. Compared to the previous nights she was quite restless and moved herself every now and then. It was strange to see her like this, so broken. This time it wasn’t about her physical wounds. This time it was about her internal break down. She moved her head to the left, then back to the right, and whispered some inaudible words. He couldn't understand what she wanted to say. Her lips were moving, but there wasn't sound, no words. She breathed heavily. Sometimes she even stopped breathing and when he was sure she was sleeping deeply enough, he gave her some energy by using his sapphire-like ray. It relaxed her for a while.
It was nice to see her change. Stress-free and peaceful.
The next night she was even more mixed up and she didn't sleep well. Julian couldn't “charge” her as he called his energy transmissions. He was at her bed and watched her carefully when she moved from one end of the bed to the other and he didn't know how to help her or how to calm her down. He was just looking at her and hoped she would sleep deep enough to be able to help her. Unfortunately, this night it was impossible.
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