Sins of Thy Mother 3
By: Niki Jilvontae
Sins Of Thy Mother 3
-A Novel Written By-
Niki Jilvontae
Copyright © 2015 by True Glory Publications
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Acknowledgements
First I’d like to give praise to The Most High for my gift. I want to thank my family for supporting me endlessly, Shameek A. Speight for giving me a chance when no one else would, and my entire TGP, PHP, MLP, RDP, BDP families. Also my wonderful supporters like Ciera Lawrence and Myre Childs, and I can’t forget about my true friends. LaToya Brown, Latasha Burg, Nina Shanta, and Cassie Fason…my forever friends…love Yawl for life. Thank you ALL for supporting and believing in me. There’s so many more supporters and friends I could mention but I gotta make this short, but know that I love and truly appreciate you all. Also…to that special guy that makes me smile from my heart and treats me like I’m the only woman in the world…Thank you handsome, chocolate, ambitious black man. Thank you for supporting and loving me through good and bad.
Dedications
I dedicate this book to my children: Briuna and LaDaveon…My Heart and My Soul. Everything I do is for you two, to give you all a better life than I ever imagined. I love you both more than you will ever know and I’m so proud of the intelligent, mannerable, compassionate people you both are. So this book is for you two because I couldn’t imagine my life without you two… You all are my everything! Mommy loves you, my two piece.
Table of Contents
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 1
“She’s waking up. Young lady, what is your name? Can you tell me your name?” Someone asked at me as I tried to make my way through the dark, suffocating, and agonizing haze I was trapped in.
I felt as if I was floating in a coffin of smoke so thick and over-powering that I couldn’t see, I couldn’t move, and I couldn’t even think. Pain surged all through me and it felt almost impossible to take in a breath as my body suddenly began to shake violently.
“Young lady, what happened to you? Did you fall or did someone do this to you? Please tell me!” the voice yelled as everything around me began to spin.
Suddenly, violent flashes of my life played before my eyes and I remembered everything up until the moment I fell down the stairs. I saw the beatings, the torture, and the multiple rapes my sister, Terricka, and I had to endure at the hands of our sadistic mother. I saw all of the evil things she did to Sha whenever he was around. Shamel, my little brother, so sweet but forced to endure so much. Sha was the baby I raised as my own, although when he was born, I was only six. He was still mine and I loved him just as much as I loved the baby in my stomach.
I felt my heart break into a million pieces again as I remembered my brother being thrown over the railing by the monster we called mother. I remembered the sound his head made when it hit the floor and split open. I remembered that vacant look in his eyes as his lifeless body laid at the bottom of the stairwell. I remembered every single detail of that horrific scene and the thought drove me crazy. As I remembered Sha’s eyes, his face, his love; all that I could do was cry and scream out his name.
“SHAAAAAAAAAAAA!! Where is my brother? SHAAAAA!” I screamed as I glanced around, trying to figure out where I was. My vision was blurry and my head throbbed but I could see oxygen machines, tubes, and first aid materials, so I quickly concluded that I was in the back of an ambulance. As soon as that realization became clear, everything in the back of the ambulance began to spin. I felt panic creep in as everything went dark and it felt as if my heart would beat out of my chest.
I tried to catch my breath and focus my eyes on the short, dark-skinned female EMT working on me, but my eyelids were so heavy and my vision was so blurry. I couldn’t even make out my hand as I held it in front of my face. The last thing that I heard was the beep of machines and the EMT yelled, “We’re losing her!” After that, everything was quiet again.
“I’ll walk to the moon and back for you Cupcake, you know that. But I can’t let you do this. I can’t let you leave right now because you have too much to do, Tisha. Your baby needs you and so does your sister. I know stuff hard out there, but hold on. Your happiness is on the way Cupcake, I promise. Denise will get hers. And don’t worry, I’ll take care of the boy. Uncle Scooby loves you, now go back Tisha.” I heard my Uncle Scooby say to me in my coma-like haze, as I reached out to him in my dream while trying to wake up.
“Tisha. TISHA. SHARTISHA, OPEN YOUR EYES PLEASE. TISHA, IT’S ME, TERRICKA. PLEASE WAKE UP!” I heard my sister yell through the haze as my uncle’s voice began to fade and some invisible force pushed me towards a bright light.
Before I could resist or try to go back, I was being pushed into the light and my body felt heavy, as if it weighed a ton. Soon, I could feel warmth on my skin as lights beamed down on me and someone touched my face gently with the back of their hand.
“Please wake up.” I heard my sister whisper, as her warm tears fell down on my face while she kissed my forehead and prepared to walk away.
I couldn’t fight the excitement that filled my body, despite the pain I felt all over, as I struggled to get my eyes open. The bright light in the room hurt my eyes as they fluttered open and I squinted, trying to clearly see my sister’s face. When Terricka’s cocoa skin and big brown eyes came into perfect view as she turned away, something came over me. I felt my heart flutter with relief from the mere sight of her. I missed my big sister, my protector. Terricka and Sha were all I had and no matter what, I couldn’t lose them both.
“TERRICKA!” I yelled as I outstretched my arms, and my sister turned around surprised, before hugging me tightly.
“TISHA, I’M SO SORRY SISTER. PLEASE FORGIVE ME. I’M SO SORRY I COULDN’T SAVE Y’ALL. I’M SO SORRY I HAD TO LEAVE YOU TWO. PLEASE TISHA, FORGIVE ME. PLEASEEEE,” my sister said while crying hysterically. She held me so tightly that I couldn’t breathe, as I cried right along with her.
I released all of the hurt, anger, fear, and pain I had held for months, tied up in that house of horrors, as I cried like a baby in my big sister’s arms. I cried for that once innocent, loving, kind, caring girl I was, but probably never would be again. I cried for myself, my siblings, and even the evil monster who tortured us as my sister held me, giving me her strength. Suddenly, the
words to our Salvation song filled my ears and my heart as my sister got up on the bed with me and held me while she sang. When Terricka finished singing, tears flowed from my eyes like water, as I begged her to tell me what was going on.
“Terricka, where is Sha? What’s happened to him? Is he ok? Where is Denise’s evil ass at, Terricka?” I asked my sister through my hysteria, as she wiped away my tears and tried to contain her own.
When Terricka sat back and I saw the look in her eyes, I knew that any news she was about to give me about Sha would not be good. I could tell from the way her tears were flowing, without permission, that my dream was a true reflection of reality. At that moment, I remembered how my uncle had said he would take care of Sha. I tried to ignore that part of the dream as I remembered the love I felt coming from my uncle, but as Terricka told me what I never wanted to hear with her eyes, I knew. I knew that my mother had successfully lived up to the motto she said every day.
“I brought you into this world, and I will take you out!” I whispered out loud through my tears, as Terricka sat forward and hugged me again, realizing why I had said Denise’s famous quote. That quote had put fear into us our entire lives because we knew our mother was just crazy enough to follow through. As I sat there and stared into my sister’s sad eyes, I knew that we were right all along.
“No, Tisha. Sha is still with us, she didn’t win. We just gotta pray Tish because it doesn’t look good. She hurt him bad, Tisha,” Terricka said as she held my face in her hands. I pleaded with her, using my eyes. I pleaded with her to be lying. I didn’t want what she was saying to be true. Suddenly, all of the machines I was hooked up to began to go off as my heart raced, and I felt out of breath. I reached down and touched my stomach for the first time since I had fell down the steps, as the baby inside of me seemed to toss and turn out of the same hurt and distress I was feeling.
“No, he’s okay T, he has to be. Tell me he’s okay, Terricka. Tell me. I have to go see him. Let me up to go see him. Pleaseee, I can make him get up. Please, let me wake him up!” I screamed as my machines continued to go off and nurses ran into the room.
I tried to snatch the I.V. out of my arm as a cute, dark skinned, tall male nurse came around my bed to grab my hand gently, yet firmly, in his. He and a short, red-headed nurse tried to calm me by telling me that I was putting my baby in distress by getting so upset. However, at that moment, I couldn’t hear or see anything. The only thing that I could do was see Sha hitting the ground and hear Terricka telling me he was alive but it didn’t look good. My body shook as I balled like a baby and clawed at the arms of the nurses trying to restrain me.
“TERRICKA…Tell me Sha’s okay. Tell me he gonna walk in this room in a second. TELL ME SHATERRICKA. TELL MEEE!!!” I screamed as my head throbbed, and a nurse dressed in all white came in to calm me by shooting a clear liquid into my I.V.
The warmth of the medicine quickly filled my body and I felt tingly inside; however, I fought through the feeling and continued to plead with my sister as she tried to rationalize with me. “Tisha, please calm down. Think about your baby. We have to pray sister. Pray for Sha, Tisha,” Terricka said to me through her tears, still not saying the words that I wanted her to say.
I could clearly hear Terricka talking but I didn’t want what she was saying to be true, although my heart knew it was. I knew when I saw Shamel’s body hit the ground with such force, that he was gone. I knew from that vacant look in his eyes, as he laid there motionless. My mind knew what my heart would never accept as I fell back on the bed defeated, letting the haze the medicine induced take me away.
When my eyes snapped open sometime later, the throbbing in my head was gone but there was a nagging, dull, aching feeling in my heart that wouldn’t let me rest, even for a second. I quickly remembered what had caused me to crash in the first place before I called out for the nurse standing by the door. “Nurse, where is my sister?” I asked in a hoarse voice as I held my throat.
I watched the older, gray-haired black woman turn around quickly with a warm smile on her face. After she glanced me over and seen me holding my throat, the nurse rushed over to give me a sip of water out of the cup on the bedside table before she answered my question.
“Your sister is in with your brother, darling. You just lay back and rest. That baby needs to stay in there three more weeks,” the nurse said as I quickly looked her over like she had done me. I read her nametag and noticed her name was Kathy.
I didn’t hear shit she had said as I thought of a way to get out of that fucking room to see my brother. I had to see him and feel the love and life that was still left in his body while I could. I racked my brain quickly, thinking of some nickel slick shit to say to the nurse to distract her. Suddenly, the truth didn’t seem so bad as I told her exactly what was in my heart and hoped that it would set me free.
“Look Nurse Kathy, please let me go see my brother. You don’t understand what we have been through. I have to see my brother. Please, my mother is the monster who did that to him and she has done some horrible things to me and my older sister too. No one believes us, so we always go right back to her. That’s why Sha is where he is right now. Please, just let me get up for a minute to see him and I won’t ask again. Otherwise, I’m going to act a damn fool until you give in, or I kill myself trying,” I said to Nurse Kathy with conviction as big, crocodile tears streamed down my cheeks.
I saw the nurse’s heart melt in her eyes as she quickly tiptoed to the door, looked around outside before she dipped over to the nurses’ station to get a wheelchair. She was back in a flash. She smiled at me as she helped me out of bed and into the wheelchair. My heart raced in my chest as she helped me to get situated in the chair for my ride to the children’s wing. As she pushed me out of my room and through the hallway, my mind drifted back to happy memories with my little brother. I remembered all of the descriptive stories he told me and how we could talk for hours on end about the stupidest things. I couldn’t help but to let my tears fall, as we entered the children’s wing and the laughter of children filled my ears.
When we got to the door, she abruptly stopped, and caused my heart to beat in my throat. I hoped she wasn’t about to change her mind because if she planned on doing that bogus shit, I was prepared to football jug her old ass and run down the hallway until I found my brother. Nothing was stopping me from seeing Sha. NOTHING!
“Baby, I just wanted to warn you that he may look a little worse than he really is. You have to be strong Shartisha, not just for yourself but for your baby, your sister, and for Shamel too. Can you promise me that you will be strong and that if things get overwhelming, you will ask to leave? Can you?” Nurse Kathy asked me as I shook my head yes.
I sat there and lied to the nurse’s face because I had no idea how I would react when I saw Sha. I didn’t have to wonder long though because before I knew it, she wheeled me through the door. I was greeted by Terricka as she quickly stood up and ran over to me, and blocked my view of Sha.
“Tisha, you don’t need to be in here. Please Tisha, just go back to your room,” Terricka pleaded with me as tears ran down her face fast and hard.
My body shook as I cried harder, feeding off my sister’s emotions while I pushed my chair past her towards Sha’s bed. “I have to see him Terricka, you know that he’s my brother too and I have to tell him…see ya later,” I said balling, as I finally broke around Terricka and rolled to a stop just inches away from Sha.
I sat there frozen in horror as I stared at my skinny 90lb, 5'1" brother who was so swollen all over that he looked as if he weighed 300 pounds. His head was the size of a basketball and there were big silver staples sticking from under the bloody bandage on his head. I couldn’t stop my tears from flowing as I wheeled myself right up to his face and leaned over to kiss his hand. He looked so fragile and helpless with a tube down his throat and other tubes running into his arms and groin.
“Sha, wake up. It’s me Sha, its Tisha. Please wake up for me.” I cried as
I kissed my brother’s hand and watched his eyelids as they fluttered frantically.
“Sha, wake up. We made it out Sha, you can’t go now. I need you Shamel. Please, don’t leave me. WAKE UP SHA…I LOVE YOU! I’ll get Denise, I’ll make her pay, just wake up. WAKE UP SHA!!” I cried as my body began to shake and the monitors Sha was hooked up to began to beep like mine had done.
Before I could even think, the nurse was behind me. She wheeled me away from the bed as medical personnel rushed in and ordered us out. Nurse Kathy quickly handed me off to Terricka, as I continued to cry and call Sha’s name while being wheeled out of the door.
Chapter 2
“Please Tisha, you have to calm down. Please, I don’t know what to do, Tisha. I’m falling apart. Without you, I have nothing. Please Tisha, you have to be okay.” My big sister cried behind me as she quickly pushed me down the hall and around the corner.
Terricka pushed me so fast and was so blinded by her tears that she didn’t even notice someone coming around the corner, until we had run right into them. My chair hit the woman so hard that it sent her flying backwards to the floor as her male friend jumped back. When the commotion was over, I looked down at the woman on the floor and I almost had a heart attack.
There, before my eyes and laying on the floor like a poor, innocent person, was my evil ass mother. The mother who had made my life a living hell from the second I was brought into the word. The mother who loved no one other than herself and her drugs. Before I could even think about what I was doing, I had lunged out of my chair on top of my mother, bent on killing that bitch and ending our turmoil for good. I was going to fulfill that promise to my brother after all.
“THIS IS FOR SHA. I HATE YOU, YOU EVIL BITCH!” I said as I stuck my thumbs in Denise’s eyes and tried to pull the evil right out of her soul.
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