Family Happiness and Other Stories

by Leo Tolstoy

  “Ivan Sergeich!” said my husband, tickling him under the chin. But I made haste to cover Ivan Sergeich up again. None but I had any business to look long at him. I glanced at my husband. His eyes smiled as he looked at me; and I looked into them with an ease and happiness which I had not felt for a long time.

  That day ended the romance of our marriage; the old feeling became a precious irrecoverable remembrance; but a new feeling of love for my children and the father of my children laid the foundation of a new life and a quite different happiness; and that life and happiness have lasted to the present time.

  Three Deaths

  I

  IT WAS AUTUMN. Two vehicles were going along the highway at a quick trot. In the first sat two women: a lady, thin and pale, and a maidservant, plump and rosy and shining. The maid’s short dry hair escaped from under her faded bonnet and her red hand in its torn glove kept pushing it back by fits and starts; her full bosom, covered by a woollen shawl, breathed health, her quick black eyes now watched the fields as they glided past the window, now glanced timidly at her mistress, and now restlessly scanned the corners of the carriage. In front of her nose dangled her mistress’s bonnet, pinned to the luggage carrier, on her lap lay a puppy, her feet were raised on the boxes standing on the floor and just audibly tapped against them to the creaking of the coach-springs and the clatter of the window-panes.

  Having folded her hands on her knees and closed her eyes, the lady swayed feebly against the pillows placed at her back, and, frowning slightly, coughed inwardly. On her head she had a white nightcap, and a blue kerchief was tied round her delicate white throat. A straight line receding under the cap parted her light brown, extremely flat, pomaded hair, and there was something dry and deathly about the whiteness of the skin of that wide parting. Her features were delicate and handsome, but her skin was flabby and rather sallow, though there was a hectic flush on her cheeks. Her lips were dry and restless, her scanty eyelashes had no curl in them, and her cloth travelling coat fell in straight folds over a sunken breast. Though her eyes were closed her face bore an expression of weariness, irritation, and habitual suffering.

  A footman, leaning on the arms of his seat, was dozing on the box. The mail-coach driver, shouting lustily, urged on his four big sweating horses, occasionally turning to the other driver who called to him from the caleche behind. The broad parallel tracks of the tires spread themselves evenly and fast on the muddy, chalky surface of the road. The sky was grey and cold and a damp mist was settling on the fields and road. It was stuffy in the coach and there was a smell of eau de cologne and dust. The invalid drew back her head and slowly opened her beautiful dark eyes, which were large and brilliant.

  “Again,” she said, nervously pushing away with her beautiful thin hand an end of her maid’s cloak which had lightly touched her foot, and her mouth twitched painfully. Matryosha gathered up her cloak with both hands, rose on her strong legs, and seated herself farther away, while her fresh face grew scarlet. The lady, leaning with both hands on the seat, also tried to raise herself so as to sit up higher, but her strength failed her. Her mouth twisted, and her whole face became distorted by a look of impotent malevolence and irony. “You might at least help me! . . . No, don’t bother! I can do it myself, only don’t put your bags or anything behind me, for goodness’ sake! . . . No, better not touch me since you don’t know how to!” The lady closed her eyes and then, again quickly raising her eyelids, glared at the maid. Matryosha, looking at her, bit her red nether lip. A deep sigh rose from the invalid’s chest and turned into a cough before it was completed. She turned away, puckered her face, and clutched her chest with both hands. When the coughing fit was over she once more closed her eyes and continued to sit motionless. The carriage and caleche entered a village. Matryosha stretched out her thick hand from under her shawl and crossed herself.

  “What is it?” asked her mistress.

  “A post station, madam.”

  “I am asking why you crossed yourself.”

  “There’s a church, madam.”

  The invalid turned to the window and began slowly to cross herself, looking with large wide-open eyes at the big village church her carriage was passing.

  The carriage and caleche both stopped at the post-station and the invalid’s husband and doctor stepped out of the caleche and went up to the coach.

  “How are you feeling?” asked the doctor, taking her pulse.

  “Well, my dear, how are you—not tired?” asked the husband in French. “Wouldn’t you like to get out?”

  Matryosha, gathering up the bundles, squeezed herself into a corner so as not to interfere with their conversation.

  “Nothing much, just the same,” replied the invalid. “I won’t get out.”

  Her husband after standing there a while went into the station house, and Matryosha, too, jumped out of the carriage and ran on tiptoe across the mud and in at the gate.

  “If I feel ill, it’s no reason for you not to have lunch,” said the sick woman with a slight smile to the doctor, who was standing at her window.

  “None of them has any thought for me,” she added to herself as soon as the doctor, having slowly walked away from her, ran quickly up the steps to the station house. “They are well, so they don’t care. Oh, my God!”

  “Well, Edward Ivanovich?” said the husband, rubbing his hands as he met the doctor with a merry smile. “I have ordered the lunch basket to be brought in. What do you think about it?”

  “A capital idea,” replied the doctor.

  “Well, how is she?” asked the husband with a sigh, lowering his voice and lifting his eyebrows.

  “As I told you: it is impossible for her to reach Italy—God grant that she gets even as far as Moscow, especially in this weather.”

  “But what are we to do? Oh, my God, my God!” and the husband hid his eyes with his hand. “Bring it here!” he said to the man who had brought in the lunch basket.

  “She ought to have stayed at home,” said the doctor, shrugging his shoulders.

  “But what could I do?” rejoined the husband. “You know I used every possible means to get her to stay. I spoke of the expense, of our children whom we had to leave behind, and of my business affairs, but she would not listen to anything. She is making plans for life abroad as if she were in good health. To tell her of her condition would be to kill her.”

  “But she is killed already—you must know that, Vasili Dmitrich. A person can’t live without lungs, and new lungs won’t grow. It is sad and hard, but what is to be done? My business and yours is to see that her end is made as peaceful as possible. It’s a priest who is needed for that.”

  “Oh, my God! Think of my condition, having to remind her about her will. Come what may I can’t tell her that, you know how good she is . . .”

  “Still, try to persuade her to wait till the roads are fit for sledging,” said the doctor, shaking his head significantly, “or something bad may happen on the journey.”

  “Aksyusha, hello Aksyusha!” yelled the stationmaster’s daughter, throwing her jacket over her head and stamping her feet on the muddy back porch. “Come and let’s have a look at the Shirkin lady: they say she is being taken abroad for a chest trouble, and I’ve never seen what consumptive people look like!”

  She jumped onto the threshold, and seizing one another by the hand the two girls ran out of the gate. Checking their pace, they passed by the coach and looked in at the open window. The invalid turned her head towards them but, noticing their curiosity, frowned and turned away.

  “De-arie me!” said the stationmaster’s daughter, quickly turning her head away. “What a wonderful beauty she must have been, and see what she’s like now! It’s dreadful. Did you see, did you, Aksyusha?”

  “Yes, how thin!” Aksyusha agreed. “Let’s go and look again, as if we were going to the well. See, she has turned away, and I hadn’t seen her yet. What a pity, Masha!”

  “Yes, and what mud!” said Masha, and they both ran thr
ough the gate.

  “Evidently I look frightful,” thought the invalid. “If only I could get abroad quicker, quicker. I should soon recover there.”

  “Well, my dear, how are you?” said her husband, approaching her and still chewing.

  “Always the same question,” thought the invalid, “and he himself is eating.”

  “So-so,” she murmured through her closed teeth.

  “You know, my dear, I’m afraid you’ll get worse travelling in this weather, and Edward Ivanovich says so too. Don’t you think we’d better turn back?”

  She remained angrily silent.

  “The weather will perhaps improve and the roads be fit for sledging; you will get better meanwhile, and we will all go together.”

  “Excuse me. If I had not listened to you for so long, I should now at least have reached Berlin, and have been quite well.”

  “What could be done, my angel? You know it was impossible. But now if you stayed another month you would get nicely better, I should have finished my business, and we could take the children with us.”

  “The children are well, but I am not.”

  “But do understand, my dear, that if in this weather you should get worse on the road.... At least you would be at home.”

  “What of being at home? . . . To die at home?” answered the invalid, flaring up. But the word “die” evidently frightened her, and she looked imploringly and questioningly at her husband. He hung his head and was silent. The invalid’s mouth suddenly widened like a child’s, and tears rolled down her cheeks. Her husband hid his face in his handkerchief and stepped silently away from the carriage.

  “No, I will go on,” said the invalid, and lifting her eyes to the sky she folded her hands and began whispering incoherent words: “Oh, my God, what is it for?” she said, and her tears flowed faster. She prayed long and fervently, but her chest ached and felt as tight as before; the sky, the fields, and the road were just as grey and gloomy, and the autumnal mist fell, neither thickening nor lifting, and settled on the muddy road, the roofs, the carriage, and the sheepskin coats of the drivers, who talking in their strong merry voices were greasing the wheels and harnessing the horses.

  II

  The carriage was ready but the driver still loitered. He had gone into the drivers’ room at the station. It was hot, stuffy, and dark there, with an oppressive smell of baking bread, cabbage, sheepskin garments, and humanity. Several drivers were sitting in the room, and a cook was busy at the oven, on the top of which lay a sick man wrapped in sheepskins.

  “Uncle Theodore! I say, Uncle Theodore!” said the young driver, entering the room in his sheepskin coat with a whip stuck in his belt, and addressing the sick man.

  “What do you want Theodore for, lazybones?” asked one of the drivers. “There’s your carriage waiting for you.”

  “I want to ask for his boots; mine are quite worn out,” answered the young fellow, tossing back his hair and straightening the mittens tucked in his belt. “Is he asleep? I say, Uncle Theodore!” he repeated, walking over to the oven.

  “What is it?” answered a weak voice, and a lean face with a red beard looked down from the oven, while a broad, emaciated, pale, and hairy hand pulled up the coat over the dirty shirt covering his angular shoulder.

  “Give me a drink, lad. . . . What is it you want?”

  The lad handed him up a dipper with water.

  “Well, you see, Theodore,” he said, stepping from foot to foot, “I expect you don’t need your new boots now; won’t you let me have them? I don’t suppose you’ll go about any more.”

  The sick man, lowering his weary head to the shiny dipper and immersing his sparse drooping moustache in the turbid water, drank feebly but eagerly. His matted beard was dirty, and his sunken clouded eyes had difficulty in looking up at the lad’s face. Having finished drinking he tried to lift his hand to wipe his wet lips, but he could not do so, and rubbed them on the sleeve of his coat instead. Silently, and breathing heavily through his nose, he looked straight into the lad’s eyes, collecting his strength.

  “But perhaps you have promised them to someone else?” asked the lad. “If so, it’s all right. The worst of it is, it’s wet outside and I have to go about my work, so I said to myself: ‘Suppose I ask Theodore for his boots; I expect he doesn’t need them.’ If you need them yourself—just say so.”

  Something began to rumble and gurgle in the sick man’s chest; he doubled up and began to choke with an abortive cough in his throat.

  “Need them indeed!” the cook snapped out unexpectedly so as to be heard by the whole room. “He hasn’t come down from the oven for more than a month! Hear how he’s choking—it makes me ache inside just to hear him. What does he want with boots? They won’t bury him in new boots. And it was time long ago—God forgive me the sin! See how he chokes. He ought to be taken into the other room or somewhere. They say there are hospitals in the town. Is it right that he should take up the whole corner?—there’s no more to be said. I’ve no room at all, and yet they expect cleanliness!”

  “Hullo, Sergey! Come along and take your place, the gentlefolk are waiting!” shouted the drivers’ overseer, looking in at the door.

  Sergey was about to go without waiting for a reply, but the sick man, while coughing, let him understand by a look that he wanted to give him an answer.

  “Take my boots, Sergey,” he said when he had mastered the cough and rested a moment. “But listen.... Buy a stone for me when I die,” he added hoarsely.

  “Thank you, uncle. Then I’ll take them, and I’ll buy a stone for sure.”

  “There, lads, you heard that?” the sick man managed to utter, and then bent double again and began to choke.

  “All right, we heard,” said one of the drivers. “Go and take your seat, Sergey, there’s the overseer running back. The Shirkin lady is ill, you know.”

  Sergey quickly pulled off his unduly big, dilapidated boots and threw them under a bench. Uncle Theodore’s new boots just fitted him, and having put them on he went to the carriage with his eyes fixed on his feet.

  “What fine boots! Let me grease them,” said a driver, who held some axle-grease in his hand, as Sergey climbed onto the box and gathered up the reins. “Did he give them to you for nothing?”

  “Why, are you envious?” Sergey replied, rising and wrapping the skirts of his coat under his legs. “Off with you! Gee up, my beauties!” he shouted to the horses, flourishing the whip, and the carriage and caleche with their occupants, portmanteaux, and trunks rolled rapidly along the wet road and disappeared in the grey autumnal mist.

  The sick driver was left on the top of the oven in the stuffy room and, unable to relieve himself by coughing, turned with an effort onto his other side and became silent.

  Till late in the evening people came in and out of the room and dined there. The sick man made no sound. When night came, the cook climbed up onto the oven and stretched over his legs to get down her sheepskin coat.

  “Don’t be cross with me, Nastasya,” said the sick man. “I shall soon leave your corner empty.”

  “All right, all right, never mind,” muttered Nastasya. “But what is it that hurts you? Tell me, uncle.”

  “My whole inside has wasted away. God knows what it is!”

  “I suppose your throat hurts when you cough?”

  “Everything hurts. My death has come—that’s how it is. Oh, oh, oh!” moaned the sick man.

  “Cover up your feet like this,” said Nastasya, drawing his coat over him as she climbed down from the oven.

  A night-light burnt dimly in the room. Nastasya and some ten drivers slept on the floor or on the benches, loudly snoring. The sick man groaned feebly, coughed, and turned about on the oven. Towards morning he grew quite quiet.

  “I had a queer dream last night,” said Nastasya next morning, stretching herself in the dim light. “I dreamt that Uncle Theodore got down from the oven and went out to chop wood. ‘Come, Nastasya,’ he says, ‘I’ll help you!’ a
nd I say, ‘How can you chop wood now?,’ but he just seizes the axe and begins chopping quickly, quickly, so that the chips fly all about. ‘Why,’ I say, ‘haven’t you been ill?’ ‘No,’ he says, ‘I am well,’ and he swings the axe so that I was quite frightened. I gave a cry and woke up. I wonder whether he is dead! Uncle Theodore! I say, Uncle Theodore!”

  Theodore did not answer.

  “True enough he may have died. I’ll go and see,” said one of the drivers, waking up.

  The lean hand covered with reddish hair that hung down from the oven was pale and cold.

  “I’ll go and tell the stationmaster,” said the driver. “I think he is dead.”

  Theodore had no relatives: he was from some distant place. They buried him next day in the new cemetery beyond the wood, and Nastasya went on for days telling everybody of her dream, and of having been the first to discover that Uncle Theodore was dead.

  III

  Spring had come. Rivulets of water hurried down the wet streets of the city, gurgling between lumps of frozen manure; the colors of the people’s clothes as they moved along the streets looked vivid and their voices sounded shrill. Behind the garden fences the buds on the trees were swelling and their branches were just audibly swaying in the fresh breeze. Everywhere transparent drops were forming and falling.... The sparrows chirped, and fluttered awkwardly with their little wings. On the sunny side of the street, on the fences, houses, and trees, everything was in motion and sparkling. There was joy and youth everywhere in the sky, on the earth, and in the hearts of men.