Pn1

by U

  stain remained. "Better me than one of the others."

  "You tried to kill me." Gillian blinked on every word, not knowing

  where to look.

  "If I'd wanted you dead you would be. It's not like you could have

  stopped me." Patryk clutched his fists into his sides.

  "But..." Gillian tried to speed think.

  He stamped off and hit the far wall with his balled fist. "What

  choice did I have? Huh?" He whirled around and paced. "It was you

  or him. Should I have made a different call?"

  "But..." She was hoping another word would start coming out of

  her throat.

  "Need it figured out for you? I bring the clean clothes to leave

  outside the door and he brings the food. He brought you, nothing else.

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  Do the math." Patryk ground his teeth and kicked at the stain on the

  floor.

  "Then..." She ran her fingers through her tattered hair.

  "Precisely. He was going to rape and kill you or kill then rape you.

  One way or the other you were dinner." He picked up a scrap of

  Sebastian from the wall and tossed it into the incinerator, closing the

  door so quickly it bounced back open before closing.

  "You choose me." Gillian spoke each word distinctly.

  "Your disappearance would be noticed a lot sooner than his..." He

  choked back the last words.

  "But then why did you bite me?" She backed up the wall until she

  was standing, not wanting his cock to be the first thing she saw when

  looking in his direction.

  "Rules are rules." Patryk strode back and forth across the room.

  "No human can see us change and remain..."

  "Human." Gillian finished his sentence before he could.

  Patryk turned to look at her. "It was that or kill you. Rules are

  rules. I told you that. Anything else puts us in danger. It's survival."

  He looked away and down at his feet.

  Gillian inspected the front and back of her hands.

  "You won't change until next moon. No one will be able to see it,

  not even you, until then." he shuffled his feet.

  "Is this for real?" She looked down her top. Her breasts were still

  there, just where she left them. Good breasts, not hairy.

  "Yes, though, you'll start to get stronger and larger gradually over a

  number of moons. People will just think they misjudged you. Their

  puny minds won't have any other recourse for making sense of you

  otherwise." He trudged closer to her. "I'm sorry. I really am. I had

  no choice except kill us all."

  Gillian tested out the strength of her legs and threw a high-five

  punch into the air. "This is fucking, freaking, awesome."

  Patryk raised his eyebrow. "You didn't lose that much blood." He

  slowly put his hand out to feel her head.

  "I didn't say you could touch me." Gillian looked at the hand until it

  retracted.

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  "This is permanent, you know that, right?" He wrung his hands.

  "Which is what makes this so fucking brilliant. I'm not the thing

  everyone steps on anymore. I'm the monster this time. No more

  damn weakling that scampers after everyone else bidding. They can

  get out of my way once in a while now." Gillian puffed out her chest

  and raised her head high to meet his downcast eyes. "Just you wait

  and see."

  "Shit." Patryk covered his eyes.

  "Oh don't give me that. I'm not doing a Sebastian, but there's no

  reason I can't be like you." She licked her lips.

  Patryk eyelids flickered.

  "So you can be stopped, talking at least." Gillian's lips widened into

  a smile with teeth bared.

  "I'm an alpha. Taking me down isn't easy." Patryk's chest caved in.

  "Stop looking like you lost your puppy. No reason I can't be a

  monster on the side of decency. Still can do my job most days of the

  month, helping the humans that deserve it."

  "There's a bit more to it." He scratched the back of his neck.

  Gillian's mouth stopped widening. "And that would be?"

  Patryk looked at his cuticles.

  "I'm waiting." She jumped as the door clicked open. They both

  looked at it and Gillian moved to block it, making him go through her

  to leave.

  He swallowed audibly, rubbing at his nose. "When an alpha bites

  his first female she sort of well becomes his mate like when an alpha

  bites his first male a new alpha is formed."

  "You asshole." Gillian spread her arms to fill the door.

  "Would you rather be raped and killed? What should I have done,

  let him kill you and then try offing me?" Patryk turned his back to her

  and walked the circumference of the room.

  He rubbed his face raw with his palms. "When the monster came to

  our boarding school and took us Sebastian became the murder always

  lurking behind his swaggering good looks and I went from school

  president to alpha. The virus rules, not the sorry ass humans that get

  infected. I'm just a host like all the others. Take it out on the one that

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  claimed us and made us be brothers in his clan if you want one to

  blame, or maybe the one who turned him and on and on."

  Gillian waved away his diatribe. "So I'm your whore?" Her nails

  tapped on the door frame.

  "No, but you've been marked so no other male will mate or sleep

  with you, meaning it's me or celibacy. None of them around here are

  as stupid, lewd, or insane as Sebastian was." He coughed on saying

  his brother's name and bowed his head for a second. "Even if I didn't

  like you, I'd still fight for you."

  "Then it's time I lay the ground rules. This time it's your head

  smashed into the wall and I hump you for all I can get." Gillian

  grabbed her crotch and pretended to jerk off like a man beast with

  tongue lolling out.

  Patryk looked around at the walls. "You sure Sebastian didn't crack

  your head against the tile?" He gave her a worried glance

  "I'll add sexist pig to your list of faults." Gillian braced her elbow

  against the doorjamb and glared. "Did you want me a quivering mess

  shrieking and howling because my life is in ruins and running to you

  for protection as I try to beat you senseless out of anger? Would that

  make your male pride happier?"

  Patryk's jaw dropped.

  "I've had it with people not respecting me because I'm small and

  too good to say 'no.' Now it's payback time. People are going to share

  the sidewalk with me and have to say thank you and please. And that

  includes you." She stamped her feet and snorted. "No more perfectly,

  demure, and silent throw away girl who cowers in others shadows

  apologizing for existing. You got that?"

  Patryk's head went up and down like a yo-yo.

  "Got a problem with that?" She squinted and tried to elongate her

  spine to the point of popping.

  His head swiveled into side-to-side motion.

  "Seen too many emotionally devouring partnerships to be the

  psychologically addictive kind. A mate should be good in bed and

  have my back. You've proven yourself on both fronts."

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  She stopped talking to watch him blush which was good because

  the words coming out of her mouth were as shocking to her
as him,

  and it was her lips that moved. She'd never spoken like this before,

  ever, to anyone, not even to herself.

  He slowly walked towards her, keeping his palms open to her and

  in full view. "It's overwhelming, isn't it, the first time it hits your

  system. Makes all the wants come tumbling down past the crumbling

  censors. You feel invincible, right?" He stopped short of plowing into

  her.

  Gillian wedged herself in the door, backing up as much as she

  could without losing her vantage point.

  "When the pack caught us," he paused and steadied himself, "I felt

  it too, so did Sebastian, too much so. Sebastian never came down

  from the high, never grounded himself in repercussions of waking up

  human and living with what you do during a full moon."

  Her muscles quivered, making it hard to stay upright. "Sebastian

  never cared about others so there was no regret. You're like me and

  will wake up too scared to get through the day if you don't keep to the

  rules."

  Gillian grasped the door and frame to keep from falling. "Don't tell

  me who I am."

  "I'm not. You already told me that much about yourself." He put

  his hand gently on her shoulder. "Come on let me take you back to

  your place so you can sleep this off and get some food into your

  system. The roller coaster ride you're about to start will eat up all

  your reserves and make you sick if you don't get nourishment."

  She wanted to shake off his hand but couldn't. "What going to

  happen to me?"

  "You're going to feel higher and sicker than you ever have for the

  next three days. You'll want to kill yourself in between fucking

  anything alive to get rid of energy." He put his other hand on her

  shoulder and gently pulled her into him.

  "And is it your cock you're offering then?" Her head slumped into

  his chest.

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  "You've already been introduced to it you might as well get as

  much from it as you can." He petted her damp hair.

  "Because it's the only one I'm ever going to see." She started to

  slide down him until he caught her.

  "I was hoping you'd forget that part for now, but yes." He gently

  placed her on the floor.

  "A woman normally gets a ring for this kind of commitment you

  know." She felt the world start to fade away again.

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  ABOUT THE AUTHOR

  Amber Rose Thompson lives and works in New York City. By day

  a public librarian, at night and in the early morning she spins erotic

  tales of romance with heavy BDSM and paranormal influences. Her

  books are the type no public library will ever carry.

  Born a woman, Amber Rose transitioned to a man part way through

  her writing career. Writing under a pen name, Amber Rose enjoys

  playing with gender roles and shifting power play.

  Married to the women of her dreams, she uses her wife to both test

  and inspire her writing. Her major writing block is a small tabby cat

  who believes hands are for petting.

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  OTHER BOOKS BY AMBER ROSE THOMPSON

  Sanya's Nights

  Pushing Boundaries

  Taken Bi Love

  Scheherezade's Gift

  Tied To Passion

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