Trust in Me (wait for you)

by J. Lynn

  “I can think of a few things.” I smoothed my thumbs over her cheeks, waiting to see what she was up to. Truth was, wherever she was taking this, I’d willing to plunge headfirst. “All of them have me extremely interested.”

  “Interested? That’s good.”

  Her eyes met mine for the briefest moment and then her lashes swept down, shielding her eyes as she closed the distance between us. She brushed her lips across mine, making slow and sweet passes. Then she increased the pressure. I let her lead, taking her cues as the kiss deepened. My hands splayed across her cheeks as her mouth opened. I flicked my tongue over hers and she returned the gesture tentatively. Something about that drove me insane. Perhaps it was the knowledge that she was learning all of this with me.

  I trailed my hands down her back and she arched into the caress. My hands tightened on her waist as she rocked her hips. Good God, the way she moved in my lap was going to kill me. I shuddered as I balled my right hand into her dress, sliding it up her thighs. I had to touch her.

  Sweeping my other hand around her front, I followed the path of her ribs and cupped one breast in my hand. Learning the curves of her body, I smoothed my hand over the tip. Avery broke the kiss, moaning as I circled my thumb over her peak.

  “You liked that?”

  “Yes,” she breathed.

  Ah, that’s what I wanted to hear. I teased her as I trailed tiny kisses down her neck, guiding her head back. She pressed her breast into my hand as her hips shifted again. Intense pleasure rolled up my spine. Making a sound low in my throat, I pulled back, watching the flush of arousal spread over her.

  Damn, she was beautiful.

  “Tell me what you want, sweetheart.” I covered her other breast, feeling the nipple through her clothes. Wouldn’t want it to get lonely. “Anything. And I’ll do it.”

  Her chest rose sharply. “Touch me.”

  My body tensed up and then shook. When I spoke, I barely recognized my own voice. “May I?”

  I slid both hands under the scoop neckline of her dress after she nodded, slipping the material down her shoulders, exposing her. I pulled it down, freeing her arms and letting the dress gather at her waist.

  “Beautiful.” I traced the edge of the lace on her bra. “Look at that blush. So fucking beautiful.”

  Lowering my head, I closed my mouth over the tip of her breast, kissing her through the thin satin. A strangled cry escaped her as I gripped her hips, sucking deep. My heart thumped against my ribs as her fingers dug deep into my hair, holding me close as I moved to the other breast. I nipped gently and was rewarded with another breathy cry.

  Her body already trembled against mine, but I was nowhere near done with her. I slid my hands under the hem of her skirt, moving them up her smooth thighs as I blazed a trail of kisses to her sweetly swollen lips.

  “Tell me something, sweetheart.” I made tiny circles along her inner thigh, coming close to her center. “Have you come before?”

  She stiffened in embarrassment and when she didn’t answer, I made those little circles down her thigh. “Yes,” she said. “I have.”

  “By yourself?” I moved my hand back up her thigh.

  She squirmed closer, pressing down on my erection as she rested her forehead against mine. “Yes.”

  I was relieved to hear that, even though I shouldn’t have been surprised. I skimmed a finger across the center of her damp panties. Her body jerked in a tempting way. I kept moving my finger, back and forth softly.

  I could touch her forever.

  Maybe I would. We could stay right here, one hand deep between her thighs and the other cradling her breast. I could deal with that.

  But then Avery moved.

  She slid her hand down my chest, over my abs, stopping above the band of my jeans. My cock swelled at how close she was. Part of me wanted to take her hand and finish it off, but the other part worried that I would lose control the moment she touched me. She rocked her hips as I made another pass between her legs, circling the bundle of nerves.

  I was totally willing to risk losing control.

  Nipping at her lower lip, I stilled under her. “What do you want, Avery?”

  “I want to . . . I want to touch you.” A look of surprise scuttled across her face. “But I don’t know what you like.”

  Oh God, I groaned at her words and pleasure bubbled up to my tip. I placed my hand over hers. “Sweetheart, anything you do is something I’m going to like.”

  “Really?”

  “Hell yeah.” I pressed back against the couch, creating space between us. “Whatever you want to do to me, I’m going to love it. You don’t have to worry about that.”

  Happiness and heat flared in her gaze and then her lashes swept down as she flicked the button of my jeans open and then pulled down the zipper. I chuckled as she gasped.

  “Easy access.” I reached down between us, easing myself out.

  Avery’s eyes remained fixed, and there was nothing hotter than that. My entire body was taut as a bowstring. I couldn’t help myself. I moved my hand up to my tip and then back down to my base as my heart rate kicked up.

  “I’ve thought about you,” she whispered.

  Every muscle in my body froze. “How?”

  She hesitated. “When I . . . touched myself, I thought of you.”

  “Holy fuck,” I growled and then clamped my jaw down. I almost came right then and there. She thought about me while she touched herself? Good God almighty and the devil down below . . . “That is the hottest thing I’ve ever heard.”

  Her lips tipped up, and I kissed her, harder and rougher than I probably should’ve, but she didn’t shy away. I brought her hand down to me, coaxing her fingers around my thickness. At first contact, my entire body jerked and then she moved her hand up and down.

  What she lacked in skill, she sure as hell made up in eagerness. The innocence in the way she stroked me was almost too much.

  “You’re perfect,” I murmured against her lips as I slid my hand back between her thighs.

  Our breaths mingled, fast and hard as I cupped her through her panties, pressing my palm against her clit as I pushed my finger into her warmth, separated only by a flimsy barrier. I kept my mouth on hers, taking her tongue into mine as she rode my hand and I thrust into hers.

  I felt her body tense and then she cried out in a harsh expulsion. “Cam!”

  Her body spasmed against my hand, wave after wave as I eased her down. Tremors rocked my body as my release barreled through me. I came harder than I ever had and I was amazed by that. She held on, her head dropped against my shoulder as I clamped one arm around her waist.

  Only when I became too sensitive, I gently removed her hand. She was boneless in my embrace as I tucked her against my chest. I knew I needed to let her go. I’d made a mess of her and me, but I loathed to part with her body just yet.

  Reaching up, I tilted her head back and kissed the lids of her eyes and then her parted lips. The silence stretched out between us, comforting until I felt her tense in my arms. Concern flooded me. I knew I hadn’t hurt her, but maybe it was too much?

  “Hey,” I said, smoothing my thumb along her cheek. A troubled look filled her gaze. “You okay? I didn’t—”

  “It was perfect.” She kissed my jaw, closing her eyes. “This is perfect.”

  Avery was right. Oh God, this was the most perfect moment, but a ball of unease formed in my gut. A cloud had passed over her. It was gone now, but it had been there and I couldn’t help but fear that it would come back.

  Twenty-Three

  Ollie stood on the edge of the bench across from us, Avery’s left-over Chinese food in a carton. The fact that he’d brought that to campus with him was weird. And that food had been in the fridge for a couple of days.

  “All I’m saying is that Presidents’ Day is more interesting than Valentine’s Day,” he said, digging his chopsticks into the noodles. “After all, Hallmark created V-Day. It’s not a real day.”

  Sitting ne
xt to where he stood, Brittany shook her head. “Presidents’ Day is boring. What happens on Presidents’ Day?”

  Avery sat in my lap, curled up against my chest. It was a brutally cold day in February and I had unzipped my hoodie, gathering the ends around her. “Did those two hook up at some point?” she asked quietly.

  I laughed under my breath. “I honestly don’t know for sure.”

  “There’re car sales and furniture sales on Presidents’ Day,” Ollie said, grinning as if he was proud of what he came up with. “And banks are closed.”

  “Wow.” Brittany exchanged a look with Shortcake and then turned her gaze up at Ollie. “You don’t get laid on Presidents’ Day. You do on Valentine’s Day.”

  Ollie paused, a noodle blowing softly in the wind as he looked down at her. “You offering?”

  “Wow,” I murmured. “Smooth.”

  Shortcake giggled.

  Throwing out her arm, Brittany knocked Ollie off the bench. “No. I am not offering.”

  Ollie landed nimbly on his feet. “That’s a shame.” He bent down so close to Brittany that his blond hair tangled with hers. “I’d change your life, baby.”

  Unable to control herself, Avery laughed out loud, and I dropped my head on her shoulder, hiding my face as secondhand embarrassment washed over me.

  Brittany looked unimpressed. “You’re probably right. I imagine that after one night with you, I’d be paying a visit to the health clinic for the rest of my life.”

  “Ouch.” He slammed his free hand against his chest. “You wound me.”

  She laughed then. “I doubt that.”

  Ollie plopped down next to her and held up his chopsticks. “Noodle?”

  Smiling slightly, she shook her head. “No. Thank you.”

  Avery sat up, and cold air sifted in between us. I reached for her, dragging her back against my chest. “Don’t go,” I said, wrapping my arms around her. “You’re like my heated blanket.”

  She twisted toward me, pressing a kiss to the corner of my lips. “I have to go to class.”

  “Skip,” I murmured, seeking out her lips. “Come home with me.” I chased down her mouth, slipping my tongue between her cool lips. “I’ll warm you up.”

  Her body shivered, and I doubted it had anything to do with the cold. “That’s about as classy as Ollie changing Brittany’s life.”

  “Hey!” Ollie shouted. “Don’t bring me into your little love nest.”

  Shortcake’s cheek flushed, and I wondered if she’d forgotten that we weren’t alone. She wiggled her way free, like she had done that night before in my bedroom, on my bed, and I swallowed a groan.

  I really did not need to be thinking about that right now.

  “I’ll see you in a little while?” she said to Brittany, giving her a quick hug.

  Brittany nodded. “You got it.”

  Saying good-bye, I dropped my arm over her slim shoulders, intent on walking her to Whitehall. She smiled up at me, squinting. “You’re supposed to be on the other side of campus, right?”

  “Maybe.” I pulled off my cap and slipped it on her head, shielding the sun. “What are you and Brittany doing later?”

  “Going to the mall.” She pushed the brim of the cap up a little as she stepped to the side, reaching out with her hand. “We have some special shopping to do.”

  “Hmm.” I threaded my fingers through hers. “What kind of special shopping?”

  “It’s a secret.”

  I grinned and then inhaled deeply. There was dampness in the air. “Does it have something to do with a day that’s not Presidents’ Day?”

  She laughed, and my grin spread. Shortcake had been laughing a lot lately. “I’m not going to tell you.”

  “I see how it is.” We stopped near the covered entrance of the social-sciences building, and I pulled her toward me. She came willingly, stretching up on the tips of her toes. Sliding the cap around so it was backward on her head, I rested my forehead against hers. “Can you smell it?”

  She laughed as she placed a hand on my chest. “My breath?”

  Rolling my eyes, I wrapped an arm around her waist. “No, you little dork. There’s snow in the air.”

  “Oh.” She giggled.

  I kissed her softly. “Well, be careful on your special, secret shopping trip.”

  “I will.” She reached up, taking off the cap and then fitting it on me. “You coming by tonight?”

  “That’s a stupid question.” I didn’t want to let her go.

  She made a face at me. “Thought there were no such things as stupid questions.”

  “That’s a lie.” Dipping my head, I kissed her once more and then let go. When she turned to leave, I tapped her ass, causing her to jump and shoot me a dirty look. I laughed. “You liked it.”

  Her flushed cheeks told me I was right.

  The snow fell outside, coming down pretty fast. I was glad I was able to convince Shortcake to skip with me tomorrow. Classes would still be happening, but the campus would be an ice-pit death trap.

  I glanced down at her and smiled. After eating pizza and hanging out with Ollie, she was tuckered out. Deeply asleep, she was curled on her side, her head resting on my leg. I scooped a strand of her hair off her cheek, tucking it back.

  “She’s cute, you know?” Ollie bent forward and picked up the last slice of pizza and stood. “Only she could pass out in the presence of our awesomeness.”

  I laughed softly. “It was too much for her. She was overwhelmed.”

  He grinned as he stepped over my legs. “I’ll let myself out.”

  In the following silence, I traced the elegant curves of her face with my gaze, committing the sweeps and angles to memory. Earlier in the day, as I’d walked over to West Campus with Ollie, he’d made some kind of comment about me being whipped. Funny thing was, it hadn’t ticked me off. I’d laughed. Maybe I was a little whipped. Maybe I was a little obsessed. Maybe I was—

  On the coffee table, Avery’s phone beeped and the screen lit up, and I looked before I realized what I was doing.

  You’re a lying whore. How can you live with yourself?

  I leaned forward, reading the message three times before the light faded from the screen and the text disappeared.

  Shock made me stupid. I had to have read it wrong. Three times? Not likely. Muscles in my back and neck locked up. I don’t know how long I sat there in stunned silence, but beyond the shock, anger simmered in my veins like a slow-burning brushfire. Who in the fuck would’ve sent that to her? Lying whore? I wanted to find the person responsible and rip their spine right out.

  But why would someone send that to her? If Avery was a whore, so was a nun, but why? A muscle began to thrum in my jaw and didn’t stop when Avery stirred.

  Yawning, she sat up and pushed long strands of hair out of her face. A sleepy smile formed on her lush lips. “Sorry. I didn’t mean to fall asleep on you.”

  I looked at her, unsure if I should say something.

  She straightened as her gaze flickered over my face. “Is everything okay?”

  Fuck it. There was no way I could let this pass. I glanced at the table. “You got a message while you were sleeping.”

  Her brows knitted as she followed my gaze and then she lurched forward, snapping up her cell. She inhaled sharply when she tapped on the screen.

  I watched the blood seep out of her face and felt the knots of unease grow. “It flashed across your screen when it came through.”

  Slowly, she sat the phone down with trembling hands. She didn’t look at me, but kept staring at it. “You looked at the text?”

  “It’s not like I did it on purpose.” Tense, I leaned forward. “It was right there, sitting on your screen.”

  “But you didn’t have to look!” She stood, hands curling at her sides.

  Whoa. Hold up. “Avery, I wasn’t sneaking through your stuff. The damn text came through. I looked before I could stop myself. Maybe that was wrong.”

  “It was wrong!” />
  I took a deep breath. “Okay. It was wrong. I’m sorry, but that doesn’t change the fact that I saw that text.”

  She stopped in the middle of the room and there was no mistaking the look of panic darkening her eyes.

  “Avery,” I said carefully. Her gaze darted to me. “Why would you get a text like that?”

  She crossed her arms over her chest. “I don’t know.”

  I didn’t believe her.

  “I don’t know,” she said again, and then rushed on. “Every so often I get a text like this, but I don’t know why. I think it’s a wrong-number kind of thing.”

  I still didn’t believe her. “You don’t know who that’s from?”

  “No. It says unknown caller. You saw that.” She continued on before I could speak. “I’m sorry for freaking out on you. It just surprised me. I was asleep and I wake up and I could tell something was wrong. Then I thought . . . I don’t know what I thought, but I’m sorry.”

  “Stop apologizing, Avery.” I hated it when she did that. “I don’t need to hear that you’re sorry. I want you to be honest with me, sweetheart. That’s all I want. If you’re getting messages like that, I need to know about that.”

  She took a step back. “Why?”

  Sometimes I wondered if we spoke the same language. “Because I’m your boyfriend and I care if someone is calling you a whore!”

  Avery flinched.

  Taking another deep breath, I looked away. “Honestly? It pisses me off, even if it’s an accidental text. No one should be sending you shit like that.” I paused, finding her gaze and holding it. “You know you can tell me anything, right? I’m not going to judge you or get mad.”

  The moment those words left my mouth, I realized how absolutely fucking fake I was. Here I was telling Avery she could tell me anything, getting pissed off because I knew she wasn’t, and I was keeping secrets.

  “I know,” she whispered, and then louder, “I know.”

  My heart kicked in my chest as I stared into her eyes. “And you trust me, right?”

  “Yes. Of course I do.”

  “Shit,” I growled, and my muscles tensed even further. A ball of ice formed in my chest. Telling her was a risk. She could think I was a violent person and walk away, but I needed to be honest, especially if I expected her to be.