THE JARROW TRILOGY: all 3 enthralling sagas in 1 volume; The Jarrow Lass, A Child of Jarrow & Return to Jarrow

by Janet MacLeod Trotter

  But November came and went with nothing extra to spend on Elizabeth for her ninth birthday and no sign of a job. Then just before Sarah’s eighth birthday, Danny came home with news of work. He did not tell Rose that a woman had dropped down dead of a heart seizure, but that is what he had heard from a man in the pub who was delivering pig iron to the mill.

  ‘I put a word in for you,’ he said. ‘Gan down tomorra and see for yoursel’.’

  Just before Christmas and the start of 1889, Rose began her servitude at the giant puddling mill, exchanging her widow’s gown for old field clothes of Maggie’s. It was so unbearably hot in that place of roaring furnaces and pounding steam hammers, that they often stripped off to their undergarments of bodices and shifts. While outside the blackened buildings and lifeless trees were frozen in a hoarfrost, inside the workers roasted in the heat of hell. All day they humped huge ingots of scrap iron and shovelled them into the blazing furnaces, their faces scorched and bodies drenched in sweat. The molten metal was pounded by hammers and the air filled with fumes as the impurities were burnt off.

  When they felt like dropping with exhaustion, the foremen would give them a break long enough to down mugs of beer or occasionally milk, to give them the strength to carry on. At first Rose refused to drink the warm fermenting beer. But once, when there was nothing else and such a thirst raged in her parched throat, another woman encouraged, ‘Get it down yer neck, hinny! You’ll feel canny better for it.’

  She sipped the bitter liquid, almost gagging on the taste. But the next time, she found herself drinking more and finding it not so unpleasant. Soon Rose looked forward to the brief respite and the thirst-quenching beer that dulled the pain in her aching limbs and back. With beer in her belly she could manage the rest of the day. But by the end of her shift, she could hardly drag herself back up the hill to Simonside. When she got home Rose would collapse on the bed and fall asleep in her dirty work clothes, too exhausted to eat, let alone talk to her daughters.

  The weeks of relentless work dragged on and she hardly noticed the spring come. It was Margaret who reminded her to light a candle of remembrance on the anniversary of William’s death. A year of struggling lay behind, but what filled Rose with fear was the bleak future that stretched ahead. She felt overcome with misery at her situation. All she could look forward to was a life of ceaseless grind and the charity of her sister and brother-in-law. Even with the job at the puddling mill, she did not always have enough to pay for the children’s schooling, but sent them anyway. At times she wondered if she should abandon her dream of educating them and send the older ones into service. They were tall for their age and could pass for a couple of years older. Then she was filled with shame at even considering such a thing.

  But she could not shake off her feeling of depression and lethargy. She saw the women around her working themselves to a standstill. Some were slowly poisoned by lead, their bodies eventually so crippled they were of no more use. Others went abruptly, crushed or disabled by sudden accident, dying of burns from carelessness brought on by tiredness and overwork. How long before she was the next victim?

  When Rose had the energy to think at all, she was filled with anxiety about the future and how she would provide for her children. Worse still, what would become of them should something happen to her at the mill? But worry for them as she did, she no longer found comfort in their company. She snapped at them for the slightest naughtiness or noise and took to slapping them for no reason at all except they were an annoyance to her and a source of trouble.

  Maggie watched her growing detachment from her family with alarm. When she suggested Rose should take them out for a walk after church or for a picnic, her elder sister shouted back, ‘Don’t tell me what I should do! I slave for them all week - not that they show any thanks. You take ‘em out - they tret you more like their mam than me. Just leave me be.’

  Rose stormed out of the kitchen and slammed the door to her room, leaving the girls subdued and puzzled. She refused to come out of full mourning and dressed herself completely in black when not at the mill. As the summer came, she spent the precious hours of sunlight shut away in the stuffy bedroom, asleep or praying. Her prayers were increasingly desperate as she begged for deliverance from her twilight world of despair. She was surrounded by family that she could not escape and yet she had never felt so alone in all her life.

  ‘Oh, William! Why did you leave me?’ she railed in her emptiness and anger. ‘How could you have left me like this?’

  One day at the mill, a carrier delivering the pigs of iron stopped and stared at her. She would not have noticed, except one of the women nudged her.

  ‘What’s he lookin’ at you like that for?’

  ‘Who?’ Rose asked, without looking up.

  ‘Him over there - gawping at ye,’ she smirked.

  Rose straightened up, wiping damp hair from her eyes. She saw a tall man with a lean face half hidden by a military cap. ‘How should I know?’ she shrugged with disinterest. ‘Never seen him before.’

  But the man continued to regard her as if he expected a response.

  ‘Sure he’s not yer fancy man?’ the other woman cackled.

  Rose shot her an angry look. ‘I’m a widow. I don’t have any fancy man and I never will!’ She pushed past her and the next time she looked up, the labourer was gone.

  Rose thought no more about the incident until a couple of weeks later, when Maggie returned from selling vegetables round the old pit cottages.

  ‘Old Ma McMullen’s pleased he’s back. Bought her a new bead necklace and a teapot with a spout that isn’t cracked. Over the moon, she is.’

  ‘Who’s back?’ Rose asked dully, wrestling bad-temperedly with a piece of mending. Kate had gone through the knees of her stockings and Sarah and Elizabeth had both outgrown their dresses since the spring.

  ‘John McMullen,’ Maggie answered impatiently. ‘I told you he was back from the army.’

  Rose put down her mending. The memory of the stranger staring at her came briefly to mind. ‘Since when?’

  Maggie sighed, ‘About a month ago. Don’t you listen to anything I tell you any more?’

  Rose bent her head once more. ‘Nowt to do wi’ me.’

  Maggie carried on spooning soup into Mary’s mouth. ‘I don’t know why I bother telling you anything,’ she complained. ‘Might as well talk to me shadow. I’d get more sense out of it than you these days.’

  Rose felt quick annoyance. ‘Why should I be interested in John McMullen? I couldn’t abide him before he went away - always drunk and swearing his head off.’

  Maggie snorted. ‘You used to be sweet on him - before you met William.’

  Rose was furious. ‘No I wasn’t! How dare you say that? I’ve only ever loved William. I’ll never look at another man again.’

  ‘Keep your hat on,’ Maggie snapped back. ‘I never suggested you would. All I was telling you was a bit of news from the McMullens - they are still friends of ours even if you don’t bother with ‘em.’

  Rose saw how she had riled her usually placid sister and felt bad. She did not know from where her bursts of anger came. She glanced across the room to where Kate was sitting on her grandfather’s knee, hoping she had not heard their arguing. Their heads were bent together as they told each other stories, oblivious to anything else. Rose lowered her voice.

  ‘I’m sorry. I know you didn’t mean anything by it. I just don’t like any talk of me going with another man after William.’

  Maggie regarded her. ‘Aye, well, maybes you don’t. But it’s not just yourself to think about, there’s the bairns, an’ all.’

  ‘What d’you mean by that?’ Rose demanded.

  ‘I mean that mourning your dead husband won’t put bread in the bairns’ mouths,’ Maggie said bluntly. ‘And you know you can’t stay here for ever - we’re not managing as
it is - not unless the lasses gan out to work.’ Rose could tell they were Danny’s words she was repeating, but Maggie went on swiftly before Rose protested at the suggestion. ‘And there’s some’at else.’

  ‘What?’ Rose asked, panic rising inside. If Maggie had tired of defending her, then her days at Simonside were numbered.

  Maggie flushed pink as she spoke. ‘Me and Danny -we’re - I’m expectin’.’

  Rose gawped at her sister. For ages she had longed for Maggie to become a mother too, but now she felt winded at the news. There would be even less room for her family now. She looked at Mary’s sticky face and mop of unruly curls and was overwhelmed by the burden of being her children’s provider. She tried to speak, but could not. Rose let out a howl that brought Kate rushing over in alarm.

  ‘What’s wrong, Mam?’ she asked, putting arms around her shoulders. But Rose could not control her sobbing.

  Maggie answered in a quiet, bitter voice, ‘She’s crying ‘cos she’s feeling sorry for hersel’.’ She stood up and lifted Mary out of the high chair that Danny had made.

  Rose looked at her sister, seeing the hurt she had inflicted. She groped for an apology.

  ‘I’m sorry, Maggie. Don’t be cross. It’s grand you’re going to have your own bairn.’ She clutched Kate tightly and whispered in desperation, ‘It’s just - I - I’m that frightened. I don’t know what I’m going to do!’

  Chapter 19

  A frostiness grew between Rose and Maggie that did not thaw, despite Rose’s attempts to curb her short temper and be more helpful. But the unborn baby was an unspoken source of tension. Try as she might, Rose could not stifle feelings of resentment towards her sister for having a healthy husband in work who would be able to provide for her and the child. Danny was overjoyed that he would finally be a father and fussed around Maggie possessively, the way William used to over Rose. He would criticise Rose for not helping around the house enough and constantly order the older girls to do jobs for his wife.

  Rose knew that Maggie was under increasing pressure from Danny to be rid of them before their baby was born in the spring, but Rose was at a loss as to what to do. All her energy was used up in her job. She could not contemplate having to find somewhere new to live and she relied heavily on Maggie to cope with the household chores and the children. Maybe if she could put a little bit by each week and stay until Margaret was old enough to find part-time work, she could manage.

  But Rose seemed to have lost the knack of good housekeeping. She was incapable of saving anything and it was only thanks to Maggie’s careful budgeting that they managed to keep the girls clothed and provide enough food to last the week without resorting to the pawn shop.

  Lizzie came home for a visit, announcing that she was engaged to a gardener at Ravensworth called Peter and planned a quiet wedding in the new year.

  ‘That’s grand!’ Rose hugged her tearfully. ‘I’m glad for you. I wish I could help you out more ...’

  ‘I know you do,’ Lizzie said quickly, ‘but we’ll be canny.’

  Rose felt wretched. From being the sister who always had a bit extra to give her family, she was now a burden to them.

  As the leaves dropped from the trees and the mornings grew chilly, Rose fretted more and more about the future as she trudged into work. Increasingly, she caught glimpses of the tall carrier, humping scrap iron through the gates of the puddling mill. Whereas a few weeks ago she would not have given him a second thought, since the row with Maggie, Rose had been jolted out of her self-absorbed grief.

  She tried to get a proper look at the man, but he never stared at her as he had that first time. She noticed a bleached moustache and eyebrows, weathered cheeks and broad shoulders under a too-tight jacket. He looked too old to be the John McMullen she had last seen at his brother Michael’s wedding twelve years ago. But his thick boots and battered army hat suggested otherwise. She knew only too well how she had aged in looks since then. It was possible this sallow-faced man hiding under his soldier’s cap might be the insolent John of former years.

  The next time she saw him. Rose straightened up and waited. As he turned to go he caught her watching him and tipped the edge of his grubby cap at her. Something about the directness of his gaze was familiar. She nodded in return. As he went, she wondered why she had tried to catch his attention. She was not even sure it was John. Besides, she had never really liked him. Annoyed with herself, she returned to her back-breaking work.

  Three days later, she caught him looking her way again. This time he removed his cap and scratched his short-cropped hair; his glance at her was bashful, but it was long enough for Rose to be sure it was John McMullen. His eyes were that startling green; the stubborn set of his mouth under the bushy moustache the same. Rose felt uncomfortable. Her heart was racing and her breath came erratically. She felt an overwhelming desire to sit down and was suddenly acutely aware that she was stripped off to her shift and petticoat. But he held her gaze and she could not look away. Neither of them smiled. Then he nodded at her, jammed on his cap and abruptly marched away.

  ‘Who’s the general then?’ her friend Bridie nudged her.

  ‘Someone I used to know,’ Rose said, gripping her arms and trying not to shake. ‘His father’s a friend of me da’s.’

  ‘Handsome, I’d say,’ Bridie winked.

  ‘You think owt on two legs is handsome,’ Rose grunted, and turned back to work before the foreman spotted them chatting.

  ‘He’s sweet on you,’ her friend remarked.

  ‘Don’t be daft,’ Rose cried. ‘He’s lording it over me! Back from the army and India and such grand places -finds me slaving for a pittance. He’s always had a callous streak. John McMullen will be loving it. Well, I haven’t always had to work like this - I’ve had a decent husband and a grand house in Raglan Street and luxuries he’s never had. And I’ve five bonny daughters . . .’ Rose stifled a sob. She despised herself for getting worked up over the likes of him.

  Bridie touched her shoulder. ‘Haway, don’t upset yoursel’.’ She glanced around. ‘Did you say John McMullen? The McMullens from the pit cottages?’

  Rose nodded and wiped her nose on the back of her hand.

  ‘I’d heard one of ‘em was back from the army,’ Bridie murmured. ‘Aye, and I’d heard they paid him a pension an’ all. He’s been spending it round the pubs, our Billy says. And he should know - he lives in ‘em.’ She took hold of Rose by the arm. ‘If it’s the same man, maybes you should encourage him.’

  ‘John McMullen?’ Rose said in distaste. ‘He’s too fond of the drink and talking with his fists.’

  Bridie snorted. ‘Maybes he’s not perfect, but you and the bairns would be better off settling for a strong man with a bit money in his pocket. Or would you rather stay here till the work kills ye?’

  Rose could find no answer to that.

  Chapter 20

  It took John another month to pluck up the courage to call on Rose at Simonside. He had almost gone on half a dozen occasions, washing himself carefully, polishing his boots and putting on his fading army jacket. But his brothers’ ribald questioning and his own shyness had got the better of him and he had turned into the nearest pub instead.

  On the long voyage back from Bombay, John had determined that he would find a wife on his return to Jarrow, someone like his mother, who would see to his needs and keep his sons in check. For John also dreamt of a large family, of children who would love and fear him, make him feel worthy in his own home. But what he returned to was a house still overcrowded with brothers and occasional lodgers, a cantankerous old father and a sick mother. He worried about his mother’s bouts of coughing and the brown phlegm she spat into the hissing fire, and tried to make her feel better by buying her small trinkets and pots for the kitchen.

  ‘All I want from you is to see you settled,’ she would tell him
with a weary smile whenever he gave her something. It was she who had told him the startling news that Rose McConnell was a widow and living back at Simonside.

  ‘Left with five young daughters to bring up, the poor lass,’ Mrs McMullen said with a toothless intake of breath. ‘William Fawcett got the consumption - been dead two summers. Danny and Maggie took them in, but from what Danny’s mother says, he’s sick of the sight of them. Well, it’s a lot to ask of a man - taking on some other man’s wife and children - and Maggie expectin’ their first one and still having to look after the old man too. He’s no more than a bairn himself these days - thinks he’s living back in Ireland and keeps wandering off looking for his parents.’ She broke off breathlessly to cough and John did not like to tax her with all the questions that flooded into his head.

  Gradually he learned that Rose was reduced to working long hours at the puddling mill and he took on a casual job, lugging pig iron so that he could see for himself. At first he did not recognise her. He was looking for the slim-waisted girl with the coils of dark hair who had captivated him as a young man. It was this image of Rose that he had carried with him through the long years of military service on the North-West Frontier.

  During the Afghan campaigns, when they had marched through rocky passes, choked by the summer heat and dust, while men around him had died of thirst and dysentery, he had kept going with thoughts of her. During the bitter winters with nothing left to eat but the leather of their boots, he had conjured up her face. John had thought he would die, was convinced he would never get back to Jarrow again, and his dreams of her had been sweet torture. Only a miraculous counter-march led by fellow Irishman General Roberts had saved them all from being cut to pieces by fierce tribesmen who showed neither fear nor mercy.

  Back in India, he had taken up with a local woman, an Anglo-Indian, who had been one of the camp followers and who reminded him of Rose. He knew he could never have the McConnell girl because she belonged to the respectable and worthy Fawcett. It was why he had left Jarrow so suddenly, for he could not bear to see her married happily to another. But John knew that in his bitterness he had not treated his army woman well. He had alternately used her and neglected her, leaving her behind for months at a time, punishing her for not being Rose.