Seal Team 16 06 - Gone Too Far

by Brockmann, Suzanne

  “Yeah, I’m very much aware of that.” He stood up and staggered toward the bathroom, keeping his back toward her, as if she wouldn’t notice that his body was far more awake than he was.

  The phone was silent for only a few minutes. It started to buzz again after he flushed the toilet.

  “God damn it,” he said, and came out of the bathroom with a towel around his waist to dig through the pile of clothes they’d left on the floor. He opened his phone. “Bhagat. This better be good.”

  Max listened for a moment, letting himself look at Gina before apparently remembering that he didn’t want to let himself look at her while she was naked, and turning away.

  “Yeah,” he said. “Thanks. Oh, and Laronda? I’m going to need access to a computer and a printer today.” Another pause. “Because I need to write a letter.” Pause. “Yeah, I’ve kind of caught on to the concept of dictation after eighteen years. But this is one I have to do myself.” A sigh. “I don’t know. Thirty minutes?” He glanced at Gina again, turned his back on her again. “Give or take a few.”

  He hung up his phone and picked up his wrinkled suit and sighed. “You think anyone will notice if I wear this into work again today?”

  Gina laughed at the picture of Max going to work, looking like he’d slept in his clothes. “Only if you don’t shave.”

  He laughed, too, letting himself look at her out of the corner of his eyes. “Yeah, I better call Laronda back. I need to stop at my hotel. Thirty minutes. What was I thinking?”

  “Give or take a few,” Gina reminded him, hoping that glance meant he was going to climb back in bed with her and get into work really late.

  “Did I tell you last night that I find you incredibly beautiful?” he asked. “I’ve been trying to remember, but the entire night’s a little sketchy. If I didn’t say it, I should have, because it’s . . . You are. Amazingly beautiful.”

  “Yeah,” she said, somehow managing to talk around her heart, now permanently lodged in her throat. “Actually, you told me that right before you asked me to marry you.”

  He froze. Oh, man, did he actually think . . . ?

  “Max, I’m kidding,” she said. “That was a joke.”

  But congratulations, she’d managed to freak him out even more than he was already freaked out. And she’d completely blown any chance that she had of talking him back to bed. It was her fault completely for trying to be funny. Idiot. Idiot.

  She half expected to need to do CPR on him.

  But Max went into the bathroom and splashed water onto his face instead of clutching his chest and falling onto the rug.

  “I’m going to shower back at my hotel,” he told her, coming back out and pulling on his clothes. He was trying to sound casual, but his voice was tight as he tossed his towel onto the back of the desk chair. “What time does your flight leave tonight?”

  “Seven forty-five,” she told him, wishing she could go back in time and start this morning over. She should have grabbed him and kissed him before his eyes even opened. “I have to check out of here at noon.”

  He didn’t look happy at that news as he sat down on the edge of the bed to put on his socks and shoes. “I’m not sure I’m going to be able to take you to the airport.”

  “That’s okay. I didn’t expect you to.” This was where she was absolutely not going to offer to stay a few extra days. If he asked, that was fine, but she had told him again and again that she only wanted one night. Now wasn’t the time to tell him she’d been lying.

  “Call me,” he ordered her so fiercely that her heart lightened. “When you leave here. And let me know where you’re going. I want to know where you are today.”

  Of course, maybe he didn’t want her to call so he could see her again. Maybe this was just more of that protective crap he was so good at.

  “I’m just going to the beach for a couple of hours,” she told him. “And then I’m taking the bus to the airport.” Play it cool, play it cool. She watched as he stood up and slipped his arms into his jacket, stashed his tie in his pocket. “In case I don’t see you before I leave—thank you for everything.”

  Max looked at her, but he kept his eyes above her neck. “You’ll see me.”

  “That would be nice,” she said.

  Come on, Max. How about a lunch date? Or they could meet in his hotel room for a different kind of midday refreshment.

  But he headed for the door, already starting to dial his phone.

  “But just in case I don’t see you,” she called, “I want you to know how much last night meant to me. I really do think you’re wonderful and—”

  “Stop.” He turned back to her with a trace of that wildness—a trace of Mr. Hyde—in his eyes. After last night, he fascinated her more than ever. “Jesus Christ, I’m not wonderful. I’m not even close. I’m a total asshole.”

  What? “No, you’re not.”

  “Yes,” he said through clenched teeth. “I am. Gina, look, I have to go. I’ll talk to you later, all right?”

  “All right.”

  He returned his attention to his phone as he opened the door. “Alyssa, it’s Max,” she heard him say as he shut it behind him. “Call me, damn it. I need to talk to you now.”

  Gina sank back into the bed, wishing she hadn’t heard that, wishing he’d bothered to take an extra five seconds to kiss her good-bye, wishing she’d understood why he’d run, practically screaming, for the door, just because she’d made a bad joke about getting married.

  Towel around his waist, Sam went back to his own room to get his clothes.

  Alyssa was on her cell phone, leaving a message for her doctor in an attempt to rectify last night’s condom horror show. It had seemed like a good time to give her some privacy.

  Sam didn’t want to hear about it, didn’t want to think about it. There was no room in his head for what her taking that pill meant, both in the cosmic scheme of things and in regards to their budding relationship.

  Obviously he had his work cut out for him if he was going to convince her to take a chance on him—on them.

  He got dressed in the same suit he’d worn for the past few days. It was far longer than he’d ever worn a suit before, and he thought wistfully of his jeans and boots. Between clothes shopping and his haircut, he’d put them in a big box at a Mail Boxes Etc. in Gainesville and shipped them back to himself in San Diego.

  It was one thing to ditch a sports jacket, but those jeans were broken in. And the boots . . . He’d once sent a pair of boots home from Pakistan. Took ’em four months to get to San Diego, because he’d sent them to a friend in Indonesia first. At the time, and in that part of Pakistan, it would have been bad for his health to ship a package directly to the United States.

  He put on his tie, adjusting it in the mirror, and stared at himself. He hadn’t given it much thought when he’d bought the damn thing, but really, when was the last time he’d worn a civilian business suit?

  Ever since high school, since joining the Navy, whenever he’d needed to look nice, he’d worn his dress uniform. But that wasn’t going to be an option anymore, thanks to Mary Lou. No, be a man about it, Starrett. It was thanks to his own carelessness.

  Sam closed his eyes. He could give up his job, his career. He would even accept a dishonorable discharge without complaint. But please God, let Haley and Mary Lou be alive and safe.

  His cell phone rang. Sam searched for it in his jacket pockets, first finding Alyssa’s side arm. Whoops. Forgot he had that. He opened his phone.

  “If you hurt Alyssa again, I will make you sorry you were born.”

  “Good morning, Jules,” Sam said.

  “I am so, so serious, Starrett!”

  “I hear you,” Sam said. “And I have no intention of—”

  “That’s what you say now. And in four hours, we’ll find Mary Lou and she’ll tell you that she has a brain tumor so if you divorce her she won’t have the medical insurance necessary to pay for her lifesaving series of operations, which will take fifteen
years—”

  “Jules,” Sam said. “Breathe.”

  Jules took a breath.

  “The divorce papers are already signed,” Sam said. “It’s just a matter of the lawyers filing them. Nothing like that’s going to happen.”

  “I know. And I hate you,” Jules said. “You’re going to take away the best partner I ever had, aren’t you?”

  “Alyssa’s not leaving the Bureau.”

  “That’s what you say now. But I know that you’re going to have to leave Team Sixteen, which, by the way, is a crying shame. But there are already rumblings on the Spec Op grapevine, speculating that if Tom Paoletti can prove his innocence—which isn’t going to be as easy as it sounds—he’s going to be forming some kind of civilian superhero team, and you, my handsome friend, are a shoo-in for some kind of executive officer position.”

  “No shit?” Now there was a job he wouldn’t turn down.

  “Of course, Alyssa’s admired Paoletti for years,” Jules told him. “That XO spot would probably be something she wouldn’t refuse if it was offered to her.”

  Ah, Jules, Jules, Jules. The little gâteau de fruit hated the idea of losing Alyssa as his partner, and yet he’d told Sam exactly how to steal her away from the FBI. “If I were gay,” Sam started, “I’d—”

  Jules cut him off. “Say no more. And these are just rumors, remember. But I do love you, too, angel cake.”

  “I don’t think I’m quite at the point yet where I’m comfortable with you saying that to me.”

  “Are you a happy, happy man this morning?” Jules asked. “Are you ready for me to make you even happier? Because gorgeous George just came over to my desk bringing tidings of great joy—at least from your perspective. The forensic report’s in. The bodies are those of a migrant worker and her daughter, gone missing in April.”

  Sam’s knees stopped holding him up, and he sat down heavily on the bed. “Oh, thank God.”

  Jules was saying something more, but Sam couldn’t hear it. It hadn’t been Haley, shot in the head and burned to a crisp. The rush of relief turned his muscles to rubber and his brain to oatmeal. It made it hard to breathe, made his vision swim, made his throat tight and his head light.

  “Thank you,” Sam whispered. It was the best he could manage. “I have to . . . go now. Thank you. God.”

  “Hey, are you okay?” Jules asked.

  Sam closed his phone.

  He wasn’t sure how long he sat there, waiting for the roaring in his ears to ease up, waiting for the light-headedness to go away. But he knew that he had to share this news with Alyssa. Somehow he stood up. He only had to make it as far as the door though, because when he opened it, Alyssa was already standing there.

  She had tears on her face. “Jules just called me. You really freaked him out.” She reached up to touch his cheek, and he realized that he was crying, too. “Oh, Sam.”

  He reached for her and she went into his arms, holding him as tightly as he held her.

  “I was so sure,” she whispered. “I’m so glad I was wrong.”

  He didn’t bother to pretend he wasn’t crying. “Thank God,” she murmured, as he just hung on to her and wept.

  “I was so scared,” he finally said.

  He’d slept maybe a total of an hour last night, and it had been a fitful sleep, filled with ominous, threatening dreams. With the relief, there now came an incredible wave of fatigue.

  Somehow Alyssa knew. “You want to take a nap or you want to get some coffee?”

  “Coffee,” he said.

  She laughed softly and kissed him, her eyes filled with tenderness. “How did I know you were going to say that?”

  “Let’s find Haley today,” he said.

  Alyssa kissed him again. “That would be nice.”

  Tom Paoletti sat holding Kelly’s hand as she lay in the hospital bed, listening to the machine that monitored her heartbeat.

  It was beeping steadily, solidly, reassuringly. There were voices in the hall, and he looked up. God damn. Admiral Tucker and the shore patrol had made the scene. He’d spent most of the night wondering when they were going to show up.

  Out in the hall Jazz and Stan intercepted them, standing up and making a very large wall between this room and the admiral.

  He could hear the senior chief. “I’m sorry, sir. Only immediate family are allowed inside the ICU.”

  Nice try, Stan. Tom squeezed Kelly’s hand.

  “I think I’m getting more out of my being here than you are,” he told her even though her eyes were closed. “So maybe it’s okay if I have to go. I love you so much, Kel. I need you to fight for me. Whether I’m here or not, I’m with you. Just listen to that monitor, okay? Because that’s my heart, too.” His voice broke. “Every beep, that’s me saying that I love you. God damn it, I don’t want to have to leave you, but Tucker’s here, and—”

  Her fingers moved. Her fingers moved and her eyelids fluttered.

  “Nurse!” Tom shouted. “I need a nurse in here!”

  Jay Lopez, the hospital corpsman from Team Sixteen, was beside him in a flash. Where the hell had he come from? The ICU nurse, an African-American woman who was nearly as tall as Tom, was just a few steps behind.

  “She’s waking up,” Lopez said. “Man, you scared me, sir. I thought I was going to have to use the defibrillator.”

  Mother of God, nearly the entire team, and their wives and girlfriends, too, were out there. They were standing back to give the medical staff room to maneuver, but they were all there.

  “She’s okay,” Lopez called to them.

  “She certainly is.” The nurse pulled the curtain around Kelly’s bed, giving her some privacy. “Good morning, Mrs. Paoletti,” she said as she adjusted the oxygen tube that fed into Kelly’s nose, as she checked the IV. “We’re very glad to see you today.”

  “Tom,” Kelly whispered. “Don’t leave.”

  “I won’t,” he promised her. “I won’t.”

  “No, he’s not going anywhere,” the nurse told her. “We’ve got an entire SEAL team guarding this door. And me, as well. I may not be a SEAL, but I am not afraid to call security to remove an admiral who has no business being here.” She glanced at Tom, then leaned closer to Kelly. “Oh, honey, don’t you love a man who’s not afraid to cry?”

  By nine o’clock, Whitney was positively antsy. She made the two-year-olds seem staid as they sat at the table in the playroom and colored. She hopped up. She sat down. She sang bits and pieces of top forty songs. She talked nonstop about movies she’d seen, like some kind of mad version of Chris Farley on speed. “It was awesome . . .”

  “Maybe you should call that friend of yours—Ashley—and the two of you can go for a swim,” Mary Lou finally suggested.

  “No,” Whitney said. “I’m having fun with you guys. Besides, Ashley’s a bitch.”

  The phone rang, and the girl rocketed out of her seat. “I’ll get it.” She picked it up. “Hello?” A pause, and then a shriek. “Finally! Yes, send him up. Definitely. Front door. Thank you, Jim, I looove you!” She hung up the phone.

  “Was that Jim from the gate?” Mary Lou asked.

  “Yes, it was.” Whitney danced toward the door. “I’ll be right back. There’s a . . . a package I’ve been expecting, and it’s finally here. Don’t go anywhere, okay?”

  She ran out of the room. A package.

  They colored in silence for a while. In blessed, blessed silence. Even Amanda and Haley didn’t make any noise.

  Please, dear Lord, don’t let Whitney’s package be firecrackers. Or a case of whiskey. Or a new powerboat. Or—

  “What’s a bitch?” Amanda asked.

  “That’s not a very nice word, honey,” Mary Lou told her as mildly as she could manage. She smiled at Haley, who was all eyes—and ears. “So we won’t use that one again, okay?”

  “Mrs. Downs is a bitch,” Amanda said.

  “No, she’s not,” Mary Lou said, even though she was thinking, Oh, yes, she is. “Mrs. Downs is just a
little grumpy sometimes. If we smile at her, maybe she won’t be so grumpy.”

  “And maybe the sky will fall.” Whitney was back. “Look who’s here, Mary Lou.”

  What did Whitney just call her? Mary Lou looked up, and, dear Lord God in heaven, Ihbraham Rahman was standing just inside the playroom door.

  CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR

  Max heard a click as Alyssa answered her cell phone. “Locke.”

  “Surprise,” he said, closing his office door, “it’s me.”

  “How did you—”

  “It’s this new device that sends a signal that messes with the receiving cell phone. The last number you dialed shows up on your screen instead of my real incoming number. Slick, huh?”

  “Very.”

  “So who’d you think I was?”

  “None of your business,” she said much too sweetly. She was definitely still pissed at him.

  “I wish you’d called me back. I really have to talk to you.” Max didn’t sit down at the desk, knowing if he did, he’d automatically start reading files. This conversation deserved 100 percent of his attention. He looked out the window, instead.

  Florida’s sky was its own special shade of blue. He could see the water from here, sparkling in the sunlight.

  “I’m a little too busy right now to return phone calls to jerks,” Alyssa told him. “Can’t it wait?”

  “No,” he said. “But I’ll make it quick. I can’t marry you because I’m more of a jerk than you think. I’m sorry. I, um, really screwed up last night and—”

  “Oh, Max,” she said. “I already know. You don’t really think you could stop answering your phone for all those hours and not have anyone notice?”

  “Yeah,” he said. “I figured there’d be rumors. I just wanted you to hear it from me first. And I wanted you to hear the truth.” He took a deep breath. “God, Alyssa, I slept with her.”

  She laughed, a low, warm sound. “About time. Are you okay?”

  “No,” Max admitted. It was possible he was never going to be okay again. “There’s something else I need to tell you.”