Wargasm

by Sosie Frost

  And maybe the injuries would finally bring us closer together.

  “I got enough bullshit to deal with today, Jules,” Marius said. “Get lost.”

  Or maybe not.

  “Cassi wanted me to come talk.” I’d blame it on her. “Figured I’d…”

  Marius scowled. “That’s a fun minefield.”

  Probably better than the hospital room with the only CRT television left in the county. “You’re coming home soon.”

  “Oh, I’m counting the fucking days.”

  I didn’t expect him to make it easy. “Figure you’ll want to stay at the farm?”

  “Better than a muddy ditch.” He snorted. “Maybe.”

  “How attached are you to the farm?”

  We both knew the answer, but I wanted to hear it from him.

  Marius smirked. “I’m not the one humping the land, hoping something grows.”

  I didn’t bother sitting down for a real chat. Better to make it quick.

  It didn’t make the words any easier. “I got an offer for the farm.”

  He flicked on the television. “Take it.”

  I took the remote from him. Marius could lunge, but he couldn’t hop out of the bed without the leg. I kicked it away too. He could get it later. Or the nurses who avoided him like the plague could check his vitals, get grunted at, and glue it on his stump or whatever the hell they did.

  “You didn’t even hear the terms,” I said.

  “Doesn’t fucking matter. Take it.”

  “What about the farm?”

  Marius cracked open a water bottle and took a long sip. “That’s your guilt, not mine.”

  “What about the family?”

  “What about them?” He pointed to the flowers at his bedside. Cassi’s attempt to brighten the room. A larger bouquet sat at the nurses’ station. Her attempt to placate the frustrated staff. “We were fine without each other for the past couple years. I only worry about Cassi, but she’s fooling around with Rem Marshall again.”

  “It’s worse than that. She says they’re in love.”

  Marius didn’t like that. “You let it happen?”

  “She’s an adult.”

  “He’s no good for her.”

  Or so I’d thought, but five years of secrets had exonerated him. For now.

  I flipped the business card onto the bed. “R&J Developers. I got some information from a Ben Jones. Said they’d pay us a good price.”

  “Why the hell are you coming to me with this shit?”

  Marius rubbed his face. He looked tired. No. Worse. In pain. Knowing Marius, he was trying to tough it out. Idiot.

  “What’s everyone else think?” he asked.

  “Haven’t asked them yet,” I said. “Tidus is still inconsolable—binging every night and refusing to talk to anyone but Cassi. Quint can’t stay confined to one place for longer than a week before he starts flipping shit. Varius…Christ, you know what the tornado did to him. And Cassi’s just as tired of it as me. She’s wanted to get out of town for a long time. But now that Rem’s back in Butterpond, she has a reason to stay. Taking care of his nieces and sneaking off with him. So, I want to know what you think.”

  Marius didn’t believe me. “Why?”

  “Because Dad made it clear in his will—any decision has to be unanimous. If we sell, we sell it all as one parcel. If we work it, we start the farm together.”

  “You know Dad never gave a damn what any of us thought—you were the only one who mattered.”

  I exhaled. “Not true.”

  “You’re came all the way to Ironfield to look your crippled brother in the eye and lie?”

  “You’re not crippled.”

  “Don’t know if you’ve seen the prognosis.” He pointed to the bandages on what remained of his leg. “But I ain’t hop-scotching with Cassi anymore.”

  “Then you’re going to need to recover somewhere. Why not on the farm?”

  “If we’re talking fantasy-land, why not a rented room with two big-tittied blondes on either side of me?” Marius shook his head. “But let’s get real. I’m not gonna score, and you’re not gonna get the farm operational.”

  “Why not?”

  “Why would you? What is your obsession with that land? Are you that damn guilty?”

  Not this shit again. “I’m doing this for the family.”

  “Fuck off. You’re doing it for yourself. Julian Payne, professional running back for the Rivets, knocked out of the league after only half a season. Is that it?”

  Marius crossed his arms behind his head, enjoying how I scowled. Pissing me off was a talent only he possessed, and he wielded the gift effortlessly.

  “Come on, Jules. You can talk to me. I got no where to be and no way to get there. So, let’s hear it. I’m sure you’ve got one hell of a story about how Dad’s golden child fucked up the career of a lifetime—the money, the fame, the women. Didn’t make it in the league, so now you gotta focus on the farm, right? Gotta make it up to Dad since it was all your fault?”

  I loved all my brothers. Didn’t mean I had to like them.

  “Glad they scraped your ass off the IED and brought you home.” I flipped him off as I left the hospital room. “Don’t know what I’d do without you.”

  Marius called after me. “Tell me where to sign when you get the contract for the sale.”

  “Fuck off.”

  “Already tried. Didn’t take.” His words were a curse. “See you at home.”

  Just what I needed.

  A wounded, angry vet stomping around the farm on one leg, picking fights with Tidus as he drank his way out of a hangover. He’d piss with Quint while the kid raged about missing college, and he’d probably supply Varius with the rope he seemed to want so much. Only one I could count on was Cassi, and she’d already put in her overtime with the family, helping Dad during his last months when the farm turned hospice.

  I should have been there.

  The thought plagued me anytime I had a quiet moment to myself. While driving. In the shower. Clearing the overgrown fields.

  I should have been home.

  I knew his heart was bad. Knew it before Mom died three years ago. Knew it the last Christmas I saw him. Knew it before the doctors called it what it was and told us to make our peace.

  Back then, I didn’t know what to do. I had a wallet as empty as the whiskey bottle on my kitchen counter and a spine full of scars from three surgeries. I’d failed Dad. Failed the farm too.

  And my brothers knew it. Blamed me. And that was fine. They could hate me. They could piss with me. They could insult me.

  But unless the vote was unanimous, the farm was staying in the Payne name.

  And I was going to make it work, even if it broke my back.

  Again.

  My brothers weren’t at the farm. Not a problem for me. Wasn’t like they’d be eager to help repair the seventeen-year-old tractor that was spilling more diesel than mowing the grass. With Cassi entertaining Rem and his live-in nieces at the lake, it was just me, the sun, a wrench and a shit ton of profanity as I worked the tractor.

  What the hell did I know about machinery repair? Owning a farm? Running an agricultural business? I’d blitzed through college on a scholarship, learning more offensive playbooks than any mechanical engineering or animal husbandry. Now that I needed that knowledge, the only one I could ask was dead.

  And the only other one who gave a damn about the farm strutted through the backyard, feathers ruffled and talons looking to shred.

  I pitched my shirt off and checked Helena’s roost. As usual, the nest was empty.

  “You’re lucky I don’t have a bucket of buttermilk and some hot oil around.” I shoo’ed the chicken away from my tractor with a wave of a wrench. “You’re better at dinner than you are at breakfast.”

  Helena clucked an insult.

  “So, this is how you treat all the chicks?”

  The bird was bad enough. I really wasn’t expecting a dance with the devil. I
turned, pitching the wrench into the rusted metal toolbox. Micah hobbled backwards, tip-toeing to safety as the chicken slowly pecked the ground around her feet.

  Had she ever even seen a chicken?

  “What the hell are you doing here?” I wiped the sweat from my brow. Micah watched my muscles flex. Bet she liked that. “Not in the mood to tangle with you today, princess.”

  She clutched her purse to her side as the chicken encroached. Did the woman ever wear anything that wasn’t designer and professional? Someone in her shoes—four-inch red heels—would have dominated a man in a shorter skirt. A couple undone buttons couldn’t have hurt either, especially with her spectacular, and suddenly bountiful, cleavage.

  Hell, a bit of lingerie and thigh-highs, and the world would have eaten out of her hand…and anywhere else.

  But that wasn’t Micah’s style—didn’t twist the knife in deep enough.

  She spoke softly. “I wondered if you had some time to talk.”

  “Why?” Visions of tents, vendors, and wasps flashed in my head. “Want to sign me up for some other bullshit?”

  “You have no idea.”

  “Look, princess. I’m not your whipping boy.”

  She hummed. “No. Now you’re something else entirely.”

  “The one who got away?”

  “I was thinking…the pebble in my shoe.” She bit her lip. “Or maybe a really sharp thorn in my side.”

  I should have predicted this. Micah might have played the professional, career-oriented, respectable type, but a little stroke to that kitty got her purring.

  “Had to see me again, huh?” I grinned.

  “Actually…yes.”

  Just what I wanted to hear.

  The woman got off on rejecting me and thwarting my plans. Least I could do was deny her. Then again, I’d never had such good sex. Micah was every man’s dream—tight enough to hurt and wild enough to make it worth the pain.

  Who’d really be punished if I denied the inevitable?

  “I knew you’d be back.” I glanced over the beautiful woman—all curves, heat, and desire mixed with that lovely sense of self-loathing that made it more fun. “It was only a matter of time.”

  Micah frowned. “Excuse me?”

  “You wanted another taste.” I gave her a little flex.

  “Why? I’m still spitting you out.”

  “If I remember correctly…you didn’t spit.”

  “Oh, how I wish I had.”

  “Don’t be embarrassed. I can’t blame you for coming back. What I carry…” I gestured to my jeans. “It’s a gift.”

  “Me too, though I don’t know if you’ll see it that way.”

  “There’s no shame in wanting what you can’t have.” I winked. “Well, there’s a little shame. But I think you like that.”

  “Believe me, we’re both gonna be embarrassed.”

  “That’s the difference between us. I can take a good fuck and appreciate it for what it was. But you? You think you’re so prim and proper, but all you want is to get down and dirty in the mud again.”

  “I think the sun’s gone to your head, cowboy.”

  “You know…” I edged closer to her, delighting in the stone-faced stare she tried to wield. “You’re a pretty lucky lady.”

  “Oh, believe me,” she sighed. “The odds are not in my favor at the moment.”

  “It takes a certain kind of woman to turn my head.”

  “You really should keep twisting. Don’t stop until you hear a snap.”

  “I get it,” I said. “I do. You don’t like me. I don’t like you.”

  “Could have fooled me.”

  Easily resolved. “Don’t need to like each other to fuck around.”

  Micah groaned. “Are you serious?”

  “All you gotta do is say the magic words, then you can ride me off into the sunset.”

  “I’m afraid to ask which words,” she said.

  “You can have your barn…and then you can have me.”

  Micah bristled, her lips thinning with impatience. “Look, I know you think you’re so goddamned irresistible.”

  “And you think you’re better than a booty call.”

  “But believe me, you shouldn’t be so proud of your conquest.” She took a breath. “I’m not here for a repeat of that night.”

  “Good. We could do it better. Maybe I could actually get a look at you, see who I’m fucking.”

  She held out her arms. “Get a good look now. It’s about to change.”

  “You’re goddamned beautiful.” So gorgeous it hurt. “Just shut your mouth once in a while and you’d be perfect.”

  “You have no idea how much of an asshole you are. I am not here to fuck you.”

  Then we had nothing else to discuss. “If you’re not giving me my barn or head, then forget it. I’m not interested in bargaining my future for your little festival anymore. You’re not getting me back.”

  “You…” Micah got flustered when she was pissed. Like a little firecracker that didn’t spark, only imploded and scorched the earth under it. “You think I’m asking you back?”

  “I’d like an apology,” I said.

  “An apology?”

  I smirked. “I recall there being bees.”

  “Yeah…” She stared me down. “And some birds too.”

  “And you were the one who told me to get lost,” I said.

  Micah took a breath. “Well, believe me. I wish I hadn’t found you, but the situation is a little out of my control. We have a problem.”

  “We?” I laughed. “Try again.”

  “It’s a problem we have to solve—together.”

  “Unless the next sentence out of your mouth is, I can’t get myself off without your help, I don’t want to hear it.”

  Her voice hardened. “I can guarantee, I will never utter those words.”

  “Don’t need to say it. I can hear it in your voice.”

  Micah flipped me off. “Can you see it?”

  “What the hell do you want from me?”

  She exhaled a heavy breath and closed her eyes. A quick and quiet tension stole her smile.

  “So…Julian…I’m not sure how to phrase this.” She folded her fingers together and bit her lip. “Okay. So…the other day?”

  “Yeah?”

  “Other night.”

  “Right.”

  “I didn’t know until after we’d worked on the county fair together…but it seems that…”

  “What?”

  “Your corn dog…and my funnel cake…accidentally deep fried an Oreo.”

  What the hell did that mean? I frowned. “Do…do you need more food vendors?”

  “No,” she said. “It’s just that, I’ve realized that ever since that night…there’s one too many riders on this Tilt-A-Whirl.”

  “So, go yell at the carnies.”

  “God help me if I need to ask the carnies about this.”

  “What the hell is the problem, princess?”

  She hesitated. “One of our show animals went out to stud.”

  “Which one?”

  “The jackass.”

  Now my head hurt. I grabbed my wrench and turned back to the tractor, lifting the hood for another inspection.

  “This fair is your problem now, Micah. No barn, no forced labor.”

  “It’s the natural labor that scares me.”

  “What?”

  “Oh, for Pete’s sake…I’m pregnant, cowboy.”

  I dropped the wrench. It clattered on the engine, struck the already failing oil line, and sprung a leak. I leapt away as the oil blew it’s load over my face and doused me in grease. My forehead collided with the tractor’s hood. I grunted, and the lid fell. My fingers were too late to move.

  A snap—first in my index finger, then to reality.

  I spun to face Micah, clutching my hand. “Jesus Christ, what?”

  “Should I try another food analogy?”

  “You’re what?”

  “I consi
dered using walking taco, but I never felt that it was a flattering image for my anatomy.”

  “Your…taco…”

  “Too greasy.”

  My stomach dropped. Head went with it. I fell against the tractor and grunted.

  “You’re…”

  Micah took the news better than me. “You caramel’ed my apple.”

  “I…”

  “Spiked my lemonade?”

  I blinked. The pain in my finger faded. The rest of the world nearly flashed to white.

  “You’re pregnant,” I said.

  “Cottoned my candy.”

  “I get it!” None of the oxygen made it to my head. “When…when did you figure out that I’d…fried your chicken?”

  She shrugged. “I just found out. Took a couple tests.”

  “How many is a couple?”

  “About ten. Coincidentally, do you think I could get some water?”

  “You’re sure?”

  “If you want more proof, you go down to the Barlow’s store to buy more tests. I had to make up some lie about teaching a local at-risk youth class.”

  “Jesus.” I rubbed my face. The grease streaked over my cheeks and forehead. The least of my problems. “You’re pregnant.”

  “And thirsty.”

  “We have to get married.”

  Micah’s turn to collapse. She stumbled backward, eyes wide. “I’m really only looking for a bottle of water.”

  “They’ll have water at the church.”

  “Oh, nonono.” Micah dodged the chicken and shouldered her bag, nearly breaking for the door. “We aren’t…there’s no way…cowboy, you’ve lost it. Go sit down. Cool off. This is big, but we don’t have to do anything that stupid—”

  My mouth dried. Vision went blurry. Hopefully it was just the shock and not an aneurysm. “Marriage isn’t stupid. It’s…”

  “It doesn’t solve any problems,” she said. “It only creates more.”

  “The baby deserves a family.”

  “No.” Her voice sharpened. “The baby deserves parents—not a couple of strangers forced together because of some ridiculous convention. Believe me, cowboy…it’s not healthy. Not for the couple, and certainly not for the child trapped in the middle.”