Gothilibrium

by Daniel Markov

  Alarming us of the incoming apocalypse

  Of the arrival of the impending doom

  For our sins there is no more room

  I heard them yet no one else did

  They lived their lives unlike me who always hid

  Inside a white room rid of all noise

  But I still heard the sirens announcing His rise

  Wake me up

  Wake me up because I can't take this anymore

  I can't live inside this nightmare that haunts me

  Why can't you leave me alone

  You are dead yet you still haunt my tired mind

  I'm not the one you should blame

  I tried everything to save you

  But there was nothing I could do

  He killed you and I saw it all

  Wake me up because I can't relive that scene anymore

  I can't watch it every night in which he always kills you

  Even in my nightmares I can't find a way to save you

  I try everything but he always wins

  The church

  In this abandoned church every night I pray

  To stay alive and make it to see another day

  In hopes of not being devoured by those devilish creatures

  That roam around the church in the woods like vultures

  It is me who they are trying to bring down to Hell

  For my soul I had to Satan Himself to sell

  So I could get you out of there my sweet princess

  To get you out of that world of wickedness

  And now they hunt me because of my soul

  I can sense their breath so foul

  I hope this church will protect me for a little more

  But I'm tired and without you my heart is sore

  Thread carefully

  Carefully thread around these wicked parts

  For from here is where all the madness starts

  You do not understand of what I speak

  So come closer to my story-sharing beak

  It is here that once the carnage happened

  Because of a man who in the darkness drowned

  All he wanted was nothing but death

  And you could also smell it in his breath

  Toward that hill up there he rushed them

  They were the key to release mayhem

  To release the one whose name I dare not say

  For with my soul I would have to pay

  And on that day the rivers of blood slid down that hill

  And the screams echoed that would make your soul chill

  But the wicked man did not manage to succeed

  They were able to stop this wicked breed

  But before he exhaled his last breath

  As he lay upon that tremendous bloodbath

  He threw a curse upon these dreary parts

  Whoever walks them with madness will corrupt even the stars

  So thread carefully around these parts my dear guest

  But if you feel like you are up to the test

  Just look at that man with a sword in his hands

  And then beneath the hill upon which he stands

  Hear him cry

  In the night so eerie

  In a world so dreary

  Walked a man so weary

  Carrying a bottle full of misery

  In this town so silent

  In this world so malevolent

  Walked a man so irrelevant

  Carrying a bottle full of resentment

  In this night I heard him cry

  This man who wanted to die

  His bottle was full of the pain from his eye

  To live anymore he didn't want to try

  Chandeliers

  Can't you see them hanging

  On the doors of your mind they are banging

  On those golden chandeliers

  The ghosts are carrying many fears

  These chandeliers hang above your head

  And from them hang those long dead

  Can't you see them with your wicked eyes

  Find them before anyone else dies

  The torch that brought darkness

  I saw Him on a day so bright

  Walking beneath my castle without light

  Him whom were afraid of even the monsters of stone

  Him who sent shivers through every dead man's bone

  In His hand was a torch that brought darkness

  The torch that was the bringer of madness

  It covered the sun with its malevolent power

  And because of it withered every tree and flower

  He was gone and the light returned

  Him and His torch most damned

  This world was condemned a long time ago

  And so into the vast world beyond I must go

  Sweet poison

  Through my veins it runs

  This poison that stuns

  And sends me far away

  As for my body they pray

  I float in the abyss

  On my skin I feel a kiss

  I feel so good

  As this poison runs through my blood

  The shivering writer

  Why did he shiver as he wrote

  Many have asked that

  But those who read his stories knew why

  It was not easy to transfer to paper the dreads of his mind

  He wrote them down to get them out

  Out of his condemned mind

  But in doing so he revealed them to the world

  And those who read them their minds became plagued

  They were plagued by the otherworldly things

  The ones that made them shiver

  The ones that made the writer shiver

  As he transferred them from mind to paper

  Moonlit ocean

  I stand at the edge of the ocean

  Under the full moon which showers it with light

  It reveals its deep dark secrets

  And fills my eyes with tears

  I stand and think about you

  About your soft and sweet pale skin

  About the long dark curtain that falls down your back

  And the eyes that illuminate the darkest corners of my mind

  I stand here and tremble at the thought of you

  At the edge of the moonlit ocean

  My thoughts I'm sending to you

  Through the light of the full moon that shines upon you

  Winter airs and tower stairs

  Maristella my lonely beauty

  To reach you it is my duty

  To climb the stairs of this damn tower

  To free you my crimson flower

  On this wonderful winter night

  Illuminated by your inner light

  I inhale this fresh air

  Preparing to do what most wouldn't dare

  I step on the first stair

  I'm doing it out of despair

  To finally feel your warm body

  To save you from this tower so bloody

  I climb these wicked stairs

  I reach you standing beneath the stars

  You run to me and kiss me truly

  To you I give myself fully

  Scary crows

  I dreamed of running through the golden field

  Running not knowing from what

  Just running too afraid to look behind

  As sun above laughed at me

  And all of a sudden the laughing sun disappeared

  The golden field withered away

  I turned around and saw them coming

  A swarm of scary crows

  They surrounded me and I stood powerless

  Their screeches sent me into madness

  One by one they began to eat my flesh

  Until I became a scarecrow made of bones

  Save me

  Save me from this world of pain

  In which I have nothing to gain

  Save me from this ruined body

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nbsp; In which I am a nobody

  Save me from this world of madness

  That gives me nothing but sadness

  Save me from my corrupted mind

  Which makes me to beauty blind

  Three past midnight

  In this night so cold

  I write stories that need be told

  Stories of my visions and dreams

  On a paper that from their wickedness screams

  I check my old wooden clock

  With that owl in it I used to talk

  It has struck three past midnight

  Yet sleep doesn't come to me in this cold night

  Sleep rarely comes to me during nights this dreary

  Maybe it is because of the dreams so eerie

  Or maybe because of the voices in my head

  Whispers of the poets long dead

  They were damned like I am

  In macabre visions and dreams they swam

  And so they also wrote them down

  In hopes of not receiving out of madness forged crown

  Swim

  Through my mind I swim

  Thinking if this is a dream

  But I know it's not

  I can see my mind rot

  I can see all my darkest desires

  In this mind filled with dark fires

  I don't want to swim through this madness

  And now I'm sinking into its darkness

  Celestial nights

  I loved you my sweet Celestine

  And you had to be mean

  You left me because of that man

  Into his corrupted arms you ran

  I spent with you celestial nights

  Hidden by the condemned sights

  Every minute spent with you was magical

  And you had to ruin it all with your betrayal

  But I won't condemn you

  I still love your eyes so blue

  Your picture during the nights I kiss

  Celestine you are a bliss

  Change

  I will never change

  To them I am strange

  A loner in pursuit of bliss

  Is there anyone to whom I'll miss

  Silent echoes

  So much silence echoes within my mind

  Lost and broken in this world of the blind

  Where the evil ones live in bliss

  In this age of utter crisis

  I cannot listen to their cries anymore

  I don't want to open that door

  That lead to the world of black adder

  With each day I grow sadder

  The world descends into darkness

  Led by men that drown in madness

  How can one plan for tomorrow

  When it leads you only to more sorrow

  So I decide to live in silence

  Far away from this pestilence

  Known as humanity

  Confined by their own depravity

  Shattering skies

  Beneath these God given skies we walk

  In these worlds that belong only to us

  Holding each other's hands

  Blessed by eternity that was granted to us

  Suddenly light appears on these beautiful skies

  And I can hear God's voice and see his face

  And the skies begin to shatter

  As you are taken away from me

  I float toward the skies trying to get a hold of you

  I see shards of skies falling down on you

  I scream and feel nothing but pain

  And open my eyes again in this one world of the living

  My madness

  Madness has many ways of bringing me down

  I am locked behind its bars of torment

  It doesn't let me go and it never will

  It is my punishment for inhaling the air of this condemned world

  It torments me in ways unimaginable by simple minds

  Shattering my soul and crushing it to dust

  My mind hurts and keeps me awake during the lonesome nights

  My body scarred and dishonored

  Is there a way to cure my madness

  I guess there isn't

  You can't cure something born with you

  You can't run away from the thing in the mirror

  Bless me

  Bless me Father for I have sinned

  On this chilling night I have killed

  A man that tore my life apart

  And I stabbed him in the heart

  I forgive you my child

  That man was wild

  A man who deserved death

  For I could smell evil in his breath

  But severe will be my punishment

  I'm afraid of His judgment

  I took His child's life

  With this very own knife

  You don't need to worry

  Nor you need to feel sorry

  God knows you took a man most vicious

  Trust me that demons will find him delicious

  Will for me be open those majestic gates of Heaven

  Or will He send me to Hell on that horrific raven

  Do I deserve an afterlife in bliss

  Or have demons for eternity at me to hiss

  You are awaited in Heaven by the angels

  They will mention you in the gospels

  You will become a heavenly knight

  And on this world you will shatter the true night

  Faces of people long gone

  I see them in the mirror each night

  Every night's a different face

  Of people I once knew

  Of people long gone from this world

  They haunt me for I am the last of them

  And they won't rest until I join them

  And so I take my shotgun and look outside

  It is a beautiful night to die

  Namaghsull

  I know that man locked in the white room rid of noise

  He was once a man of prosperity and bright future

  He was an explorer and a man of word on a quest

  To find a book written by a terrifying divinity

  And he found it he told me

  When he called me on that chilling winter night

  He told me about things described in the book

  Of fears and phobias invented by a divinity to conquer our weary minds

  It was a fearsome divinity known as Namaghsull

  Once worshiped in the lands beyond the horizon

  Where tribes of madmen killed out of fear

  All around themselves and in the end themselves

  Those fears and phobias He installed in us at the birth of mankind

  In hopes of destroying God's wicked creatures

  But He did not count on the power of will and the strenght of God

  In each mind of a species known as humanity

  And so He wrote a book in order to spread His word

  To install even more fears and phobias in mankind

  To inflict upon us the will of destroying each others

  With the power of hatred that rises along with our fears

  He told me about that divinity called Namaghsull

  And just by hearing the words from the book I shivered

  And I could hear the sirens in the distance

  And I could see the stars shaping his dreadful form

  The architect of sorrow

  He who sits on a throne of tears

  He who sits above the stars

  It is He who gives us all this sorrow

  It is He who takes away from us our tomorrow

  He is the reason we feel sad

  He is the reason for the tears we shed

  This great architect of sorrow sits on its throne

  And will sit long after we are gone

  Sammarra

  The legend I heard about that divine being

  Took my breath away

  And the things I heard about Her beauty


  Gave me back the reason to live

  She was a goddess of true beauty

  The comforter of the lonely men

  Of those that never felt the soft touch

  Of a gentle gender on their cracked skin

  It said She would visit those on the brink

  The ones loneliness almost drove to death

  And grant them pleasures unimaginable

  For that one glorious night

  And She visited me last night

  Her beauty paralyzed me whole

  She gently placed me on the bed

  And took me into Her embrace

  Creatures of the night

  Thou who dare not sleep

  Join us in the night

  For it is your destiny

  To walk among us

  Thou whose dreams scare even the demons

  Join us in the night

  For we are its sons and daughters

  For we are creatures of the night

  The witness

  She shall see death by the sea

  And she won't cry nor will she die

  Nor will his madness bring upon her darkness

  For she will be the witness in this world of blackness

  Where are you

  Where are you

  In this vast world beyond

  Where does your soul wander

  I cannot find you

  You told me you will await me

  By that lighthouse on the solitude rock

  Its light shall be our beacon

  But you aren't here

  Come toward the light

  I'm awaiting you

  Me and this old man

  In the lighthouse on the solitude rock

  This is my legacy

  On your world of misery

  I leave you things so eerie

  These things you deserve

  My own madness to preserve

  This is my legacy of blood and sin

  And inherit it shall the next of my kin