Tomorrow I'll Be Twenty

by Alain Mabanckou

  Maman Martine doesn’t realise that for a little while now her lips have been moving, her head gently swaying, her eyes growing moist, as though she’s about to cry. Sometimes she misses a few scales on the fish in her hands and I point out to her that there are still some scales left on the fish, that we might choke when we come to eat it.

  She speaks very quietly. ‘Roger was a real little heart throb! I can see him now, as he was that year, back then in the village they still called him Prince Roger.’

  Then she suddenly gives me a look as if to say she’s finished talking to the people from the past, now she’s talking to a real person. And that’s when I learn that aged twenty, Papa Roger was the best dancer in the Bouenza. In Ndounga, his home village, he was respected. When the rhythm of the tam-tams really got going he could actually rise off the ground and dance in mid-air while the crowd applauded and the women looked on adoringly, including the ones who were already married. When it came to dancing no one could get a win over him, or even a draw. He was famous then, and that was how he got his nickname ‘Prince Roger’. When there was a burial in that part of the country, they summoned him urgently, like calling a doctor when you’re sick. He’d turn up with his group of dancers – there were ten of them, all strong and handsome – and they danced all through the night, so that the deceased would not be sad on their journey to the other world, where the road doesn’t run straight, and there is no music, no dance.

  The year he met Maman Martine, Papa Roger had been asked to go and dance in the village of Kinkosso, whose chief had died, aged one hundred and ten. Everyone, from all the villages in the region, had come to his funeral, because it wasn’t every day someone died aged one hundred and ten. When he got to Kinkosso, Prince Roger announced to the villagers, who were showering him with presents, ‘This evening I will dance more then ten centimetres off the ground because it’s our grandfather’s grandfather who’s died.’

  The old sorcerers of the village threatened to make gris-gris against it, because they didn’t want the other villages in the Bouenza to think Prince Roger was the best dancer in the whole world. The old sorcerers knew the secret of the levitation dance but ever since its invention, no one had seen a human being dance ten centimetres off the ground.

  Prince Roger insisted: ‘No one’s going to stop me paying my respects to our grandfathers! I will dance ten centimetres off the ground!’

  The old people went a long way off from the village and held a big meeting against the rude young man who was poking fun at them. They nearly started fighting among themselves in the meeting. They all accused each other of inviting that rude Prince Roger. But in the end they reached agreement: they must make sure that the stranger’s dance went no higher than ten centimetres off the ground.

  That evening when Prince Roger turned up in the village with his troupe, to find the women weeping over the corpse of the chief, he walked past three of the fetishers, and the oldest one came close to jostling him: ‘Hey, son, this isn’t just any village you know. You’re in our village here, and here we have rules that date back to the time when our ancestors walked about naked and didn’t yet know the word made flesh. You’ve got no grey in your beard yet, you’re too young to understand certain things only those with four ears and four eyes can grasp. You’d better watch out, you mark my words. You may not respect our village, but you’d better respect my grey beard and bald head.’

  Prince Roger replied: ‘Grandfather, I accepted your invitation to come to Kinkosso because the man who just died is someone special. He’s not just the chief of the village, he’s our grandfather’s grandfather.’

  ‘Yes, but if you dance more than ten centimetres off the ground, you’re done for! You dance how you want, but no higher than ten centimetres! Don’t disgrace us in front of our people!’

  Another unpleasant old man threatened: ‘Who d’you think you are anyway? Why d’you take this tone with us, when you’ve no grey beard and no bald head? Where were you the day the first white man set foot in this village, offering his mirrors, his sugar and guns, and taking our strongest men far away, across the sea? There’s Maniongui, who just asked you to show respect for his grey beard, his bald head, do you have a gold war medal too, like him? Old Maniongui’s seen every French president, since Emile Loubet at the start of the century, to General de Gaulle! Anyway whoever gave you the title of Prince, you don’t deserve it! We’re the ones who give titles! I’m giving you one last warning; if you dance more than ten centimetres off the ground, we’ll be burying you next, after our grandfather’s grandfather! And your corpse won’t find its way home, you’ll be buried in the bush like a wild beast!’

  The third old man spat on the ground. Which meant that he wasn’t going to waste his words like the others.

  Prince Roger moved away from the old men, but they went on threatening him behind his back. He called together his ten dancers to give them their instructions: ‘These old men are afraid they’ll look stupid, no dancer from this village has ever gone higher than ten centimetres, even though the levitation dance first started here in Kinkosso. We won’t be influenced by a handful of old goats who fancy themselves the guardians of tradition. We’ve learned their technique, we’ve mastered it, and now we’re the best in the region. And tonight we’ll prove it again, so get yourselves ready and don’t lose heart. You beat your tam-tams, as usual, and I’ll look after the rest.’

  Maman Martine is scaling the last of the fish, and she almost cuts herself with the knife when she cries, ‘Prince Roger! What a fine young man! What a stubborn young man!’

  When she saw I was waiting for the rest of the story, she cleared her throat and continued: ‘The evening of the grandfather’s funeral the men of Kinkosso lined up on one side and the women on the other. And between the two, Prince Roger danced bare-chested, with a wrap made of raffia, and cowries round his waist, bells on his ankles and white clay on his face and in his hair. The bravest of the women were meant to step into the area left for Prince Roger, and dance along with him. But none came. Now the crowd was growing restless, this wasn’t the kind of show you put on to say goodbye to the chief of the village. You could hear angry whistles, people shouting for a proper show. There had to be dancing, so everyone could get into a trance. Prince Roger whispered something to one of his dancers, who then yelled a challenge to the audience, and I can still hear that low voice shouting: “Prince Roger is very disappointed in this village! Have you no women in Kinkosso, or what? Is this the way to salute the memory of the grandfather of our grandfathers? If that’s the way it is, Prince Roger is stopping right now, he’s going home to his village. And he swears he won’t be coming back to help you next time someone dies.” At this, one skinny young village girl shot out of the line of other women, like an arrow. Prince Roger’s dancers all applauded, the crowd clapped too, and the drums went wild, as though the hands of ghosts were drumming. You could hear them the length and breadth of the district, they even woke the animals sleeping in the forest. The young village girl kicked up the dust as she danced. The wind blew so hard now, it lifted the pagne round her waist up to her chest, and you could see her red pants.

  ‘Everyone stepped back, and slowly the levitation dance began. The old men of Kinkosso shouted for joy, and they danced too, happy to see that the dance was led by a girl from the village, and not that rude Prince Roger. One of the old fetishers who had threatened Prince Roger earlier in the day asked his colleague: “Tell me, whose daughter is that? What’s her family name again?” Another replied “What does it matter? Who cares who it is and what her name is, I just know she’s a girl from Kinkosso, and she’s leading the dance! So let’s dance with her! That rude little guy who claims he’s a prince is finished now! Shame on him!” Everyone booed Prince Roger. They all said he was useless. All this time, he was watching the girl with his arms folded. He turned to the chief drummer of his group. “Hey, who’s this stick insect coming on to me, who is she, she dances like a sparrow that’s just fallen
out of her parents’ nest.” The chief drummer almost shouted, “We don’t know her, but she’s got to almost five centimetres off the ground, you’d better do something or it’ll be a disgrace for us and the village of Ndounga!” Prince Roger made his mind up. “I’ll just have to go higher myself. After all, I’m the prince! Give me ten bars of muntuntu beat, the one Mubungulu used to play when he was alive, when he played for the dead in the Batalébé cemetery!” One of his dancers was afraid. “You really want us to play that? It’s too dangerous! The last time we played that rhythm it almost got you killed!” Prince Roger was adamant. “I’m telling you, it’s an order!”

  ‘And so the rhythm of the tam-tams suddenly changed. Even the sky started to stir, as though something might fall on our heads any moment. When the drummers beat their rhythm it was as though the skin of the drums was bursting and the clouds were parting. The villagers’ eardrums were fit to burst with the unfamiliar rhythm, and they covered their ears. Up went Prince Roger, up off the ground. He reached six centimetres, then seven, then eight. He never got up to ten, because the three old fetishers who’d been on at him earlier that day were upon him, tearing at their beards in anger. He came back down to earth, the old sorcerers sighed with relief. Now, behind them, the skinny little village girl from Konkosso had started dancing again, and now she was ten centimetres off the ground and all the villagers were applauding. Furious, Prince Roger pulled himself up to his full height, span round in a circle, nodded to the drummers, who doubled, then tripled then quadrupled the speed of the lamented Mubungulu’s muntuntu rhythm. And there they saw Prince Roger begin to rise, pedalling now, then up he rose, then pedalled again, then rose again, then pedalled harder and harder. We knew he must be over ten centimetres by now, but because no one believed it, there was now total silence in the village. They said it was the spirit of the grandfather of our grandfather that had hidden inside Prince Roger’s body. The villagers were frightened and fled from the wake with their mats rolled up under their arm pits, with their wailing children. The dogs ran off into the bush with their tails between their legs, like wild beasts. Even the old men who’d challenged Prince Roger and his dancers had gone. The corpse of our grandfather’s grandfather was abandoned, and Prince Roger had come back to earth, panting as hard as if he’d been lugging great sacks of potatoes for miles. He fell into a coma, the people in his group brought him round by throwing cold water over him. As soon as he opened his eyes he asked the drummers, “How high did I get?” And they all replied in chorus, “Over fifteen and a half centimetres!” He got to his feet, murmuring, “Let’s get back to Ndounga straight away, I don’t know what’s happened here. I’ve never been that high before, I wasn’t alone, a spirit was pushing me, and I could have died, I couldn’t breathe properly up there.” It was already past four in the morning when Prince Roger and his group set off again for Ndounga. On the road they heard a strange noise behind them. They turned round, each one ready to run for it, as you do when you meet a devil out in the bush. The dancers had already scattered, but Prince Roger stayed where he was and saw someone coming towards him. He shouted after the men who’d disappeared, “Come back! Come back! It’s no devil! It’s the skinny little dancer from Kinkosso.”’

  Maman Martine said, with a broad smile, ‘And that skinny little girl from Kinkosso was me…’

  Then she burst out laughing.

  ‘Prince Roger, what a gangster! He took my hand, all I said was, my name was Martine, but straight away he answered, “There’s a reason you followed me all this way. You are the future mother of my children. We’ll leave Bouenza, otherwise the old men in your village will be after us for the rest of our lives. We’ll go and live in the town.” And so I followed Prince Roger because I knew he would be the father of my children, too, and that the grandfather of our grandfathers had given me a sign, because I’d never danced the levitation dance before that night and I don’t know what it was that pushed me to step out of the line of women and start out-dancing your father. Destiny, that’s what they call it, it’s destiny.’

  She finished scaling the fish and put them on the board. I can see her dusting them with flour and salt.

  ‘I’ll grill them in a while with palm oil, and I’ll make you a nice little tomato sauce. You’ll see, you’re going to love it.’

  Before going to tip the bowl of water mixed with scales and blood into the gutter, she said, ‘I could have been someone different, you know. But perhaps this was the best life I could have had. I only stayed at school till the fourth grade; your father had his lower school certificate, and even studied at the high school in Bouenza till seventh grade. That helped when we came to live here: the Whites wanted people who’d been to school, especially with diplomas, like him. A few weeks after everything that happened in Kinkosso, Prince Roger and I secretly boarded an Isuzu truck bound for Kouilou, making for Pointe-Noire. We needed to leave Bouenza without telling anyone. So we left just like that, each of us with a little bag. I was already pregnant, that father of yours is a real rabbit. I knew our life was going to change, and Prince Roger got a job at the Victory Palace Hotel, just after Yaya Gaston was born. That has to be fate, don’t you think?’

  My little brother Maximilien’s sweating. He’s been running so fast, someone must have sent him to buy something more than ten kilometres away.

  He’s still quite out of breath as he tells me:‘There’s someone looking for you outside. He’s giant, he’s taller than you, he bends over a little bit so people will think he’s a child like us, but really he’s a great big guy like Tarzan! Who is he? Does he want a fight with you? Did you steal his marbles in the playground?’

  I don’t answer. It’s Mabélé after me again, he’s come to smash my face in.

  While I’m getting ready to leave our house, Maximilien shouts: ‘Michel don’t get into a fight, the giant will win! He’s got these huge muscles!’

  I stand by the entrance to our house and look out, but I can’t see anyone. Where can he be hiding then, this giant? Behind the tree opposite? I have a good look, but there’s no one. So I decide to go back inside the house to shout at Maximilien for teasing me. Just as I turn round to go, I hear someone whistling loudly, three times, from the house belonging to Jerry the Parisian’s father.

  It’s Lounès. He couldn’t bear us not seeing each other for a few days.

  ‘So you’re the giant that scared Maximilien! Why don’t you come on inside?’

  ‘It’s better to talk outside, then we can see the planes go by.’

  We go on down to the river Tchinouka. You have to take the road as though you’re making for the Voungou quartier. It’s a new quartier, where, instead of building proper houses, people build houses out of slats. They say that later, when they’ve got lots of money, they’ll break up these houses and build proper, permanent ones. But that’s just lies, because if you’ve got money you don’t mess about, you build a proper house straight away and have done with it. Everyone calls these buildings ‘houses just for now’.

  The river Tchinouka divides the Savon quartier, where my father’s house is, and the Voungou quartier where one day he hopes to buy another plot. There are some young boys fishing by the river. I wonder what they find there because there’s more rubbish than fish in that water. People dump their rubbish there, they shit in it, sometimes they throw their old furniture and mattresses into it. No one says to them, ‘Don’t do that, it’s wrong to behave like we were still in pre-history, when man still wasn’t quite sure whether to stay as a monkey or turn into a creature that walks on two limbs and talks with real sounds.’

  We lay stretched out in the grass, listening to the water flowing close to our feet.

  ‘I asked my teacher what saligaud and alter ego meant,’ Lounès says.

  ‘But there’s no school this week. Where did you meet him?’

  ‘He came into my father’s workshop to pick up his jacket.’

  ‘So?’

  ‘A saligaud is someone dodgy, s
omeone who does bad things, and an alter ego’s like if you were me and I was you. If you’re alter egos it means you can tell each other everything, anything you say, it could have been me that said it, and anything I say could have been said by you.’

  ‘So the tree of the singer with the moustache is…’

  ‘Yes, it’s his alter ego. The singer wishes he hadn’t left his tree like a bad person would, when the tree’s his friend.’

  After a moment’s silence he goes on, ‘You know what the teacher told my father? Don’t laugh! He told him to buy me a dictionary, then I could find the definition of every French word there is…’

  A plane is just going past. Lounès says: ‘Guess where it’s going to land.’

  ‘Iran. The capital of Iran is Teheran…’

  He’s amazed. I don’t usually answer that fast.

  ‘How did you know that?’

  ‘The Shah… He’s the ex-president of Iran, and the Ayatollah Khomeyni wants to put him on trial and he’s in Egypt and he’s sick. And the Iranian students want him sent back to Iran and they’ve taken the Americans hostage in a basement of the embassy in Teheran. It’s called extradition. But if the Shah gets sent back there they might kill him!’

  I stare at Lounès in silence for a while.