by Violet Duke
The way sheâd responded to his lips on her skin earlier…
His hands gripped the steering wheel tighter.
The woman was still an expert at zapping his control. Before getting ahead of himself and hoping for more than he ought to at this point, he launched into the explanation her bamboozled, utterly confounded, but thankfully unshuttered expression was patiently requesting.
Ten minutes later, she was still gaping at him.
âSo the man that Liv is all gaga over is the guy she was with today.â
âYup.â
âAnd the last three weeksââ
âHave been unmitigated torture for me,â he broke in.
Silence.
âFor me, too,â she said quietly.
He frowned. âI didnât want it to be that hard for you. Honest. Thatâs the part of their plan I hated the most. That was why I asked Skylar, Connor, and Abby to keep you company when they could.â
Startled, she gave him a small grin. âI thought theyâd been a little clingy these past few weeks.â Her voice got watery. âI canât believe you did that for me, even though you were going through the same thing.â
He shrugged. âI didnât want you to be sad and lonely the entire time. Youâve had enough of that in your life.â
Giving him a look he couldnât quite decipher, she said softly, âThank you. Not just for trying to spare me that, but for giving me time as well.â
He didnât want to push, so he didnât ask what the results of all her time thinking and sorting had led her to. He was just happy she was there with him now.
âListen, Brianââ
âNope. No big relationship conversations yet. Please.â Just in case she still didnât want to be with him, he still wanted her to have this day. âI have a surprise for you first. Weâll talk after, I promise. Deal?â
After a long beat, she nodded. âDeal.â As they got farther and farther from the city, she peered out at the passing streets. âWhere exactly are we going?â
âI told you, itâs a surprise. Actually, cover your eyes. No peeking.â
A minute later, he parked and helped her out of the car door, placing his hands over her eyes so she could use hers to balance. âI know the ground is a little rough. Just keep walking straight, about ten more steps.â
She tilted her head a bit and sniffed the air. âAre we at a lumberyard?â she asked, her voice brimming with adorable anticipation. He wondered then if Tessa had ever had anyone surprise her with a gift. From all accounts of her past, it seemed unlikely.
He stopped and pulled his hands off her eyes. âOkay, you can look now.â
Blinking rapidly to take the scene before her in, she absorbed every square inch of the deserted lot behind the lumberyard her dad had worked at, which had been transformed to now include strategically placed piles of dirt and gravel, some shallow trenches, a few small boulders, and the equivalent of mini âspeed bumpsâ and winding pathways with traffic cones.
Just as heâd envisioned for weeks.
The more she took in, the more her curious smile just grew and grew.
When the star of the showâa big yellow construction vehicleâpulled up and stopped dead-center in the lot, she spun back around. âIs that Frank driving?â
âYep. He and I spent the past few days putting together this little obstacle course for you.â
âObstacle course?â She turned back to survey the lot with a whole new light in her eyes.
âThatâs right,â called out Frank, walking over. âYour gentleman friend here tracked me down and came up with this little surprise for you. He was here at the butt-crack of dawn with me clearing this side of the lot out and getting all this set up.â He pointed back at the construction vehicle. âMy only condition on you riding the backhoe loader was that I be the one to teach you how to handle it, for safety reasons.â
Her eyes widened with delight. âYou mean Iâm going to drive that through the obstacle course?â
âNot just drive it, dollface. Youâre going to be operating it. Brian hereâs made a few little challenges for you that you need to use the digger and the shovel for. Itâll give me a chance to see if you inherited any of your dadâs genes.â Frank winked. âBecause let me tell you, your old man was great with the equipment but, god rest him, he drove like shit.â
Tessa burst out laughing and wrapped Frank up in a giant hug. âThatâs why I always used to drive us everywhere.â
He ruffled her hair lightly. âThen thereâs hope for you yet. So come on now, letâs get cracking.â
âIâll be right there. Just give me a minute to talk with Brian first.â
âAlright, but keep it PG-13, you hear? Itâs not like the boy bought you a ring or nothing. No need to be thanking him all that hard.â
Embarrassed shock flooded her expression. âFrank!â
âWhat? Iâm just saying. Wouldnât want to have to get your friend acquainted with the business end of my shotgun after all the hard work he put in this morning.â
A deep blush tinted her cheeks as she hollered again, âFrank!â
âIâll be over there if you need me.â
Tessa shook her head in disbelief. âI donât know whatâs gotten into him.â
âCanât blame the man for watching out for you.â Brian chuckled, brushing his knuckles over her flushed cheeks. âYouâre like the daughter he never had.â
Reaching into his backseat, Brian produced a small hardhat along with a pair of socks and sneakers in her size. âWith actual backs to them,â he added with a pointed look at her backless sneakers.
She giggled softly.
âSo do you like your surprise so far?â
She cupped his face in her hands. âI love it. Thank you.â The kiss she brushed against his lips was soft, just barely edging over the line of friendship. âBut I thought you said this was a date. I thought weâd get to do something together. I really have missed you.â
He growled and pulled her back in for another kissâ¦which was not at all soft, with his foot way the hell over that friendship line. But he kept it short. Heâd never actually seen the business end of a shotgun and didnât have any desire to.
Rubbing his thumb across her lower lip, he commented lightly, âCanât say I ever kissed someone in a hardhat before. I gotta tell you, itâs a little weird.â
Her eyes danced. âNow youâre starting to sound like me. I think Iâm rubbing off on you.â
âWoman, keep talking like that and that shotgun will be here before I know it.â
This time her chuckle was laced with a touch of heat.
A loud, warbly throat-clearing from across the lot effectively put a buzzkill on that.
âI think our timeâs up.â He gave her one last kiss. âAnd by the way, this surprise was just for you. Our partâs after. But I wanted you to have this regardless. I remember you telling me how your dad used to be so happy doing this, even after his HD symptoms started setting in.â
She nodded, eyes watering.
âI just wanted to give you back a little of that happiness.â
CHAPTER TWELVE
AN HOUR LATER, Brian still couldnât take his eyes off Tessaâs face. Watching her go through the obstacle course was like watching a child experience her first miracle.
The way she was smiling now was unlike any smile heâd seen from her yet. It was priceless. She was having the time of her life out there gouging out holes in the dirt and shoveling up branches and rocks. As an added bonus, this was the slowest heâd ever seen her drive, so that was also a nice miracle to observe
in action.
As she passed the three-quarter mark of the obstacle course, Frank joined him, looking like a proud papa as he watched Tessa clear her last pile of debris before making her way over to the trench she had to roll over and extend about ten feet. âI meant what I said earlier, you know.â
âAbout the shotgun?â Brian smiled. âI know.â
âWell, that too. But mostly about the ring. Tessa mentioned you two just started getting friendly a couple of months ago. That may not seem long to you, but take it from me, when you know, you know.â
He actually wholeheartedly agreed.
âAny man who would give Tessa-girl a construction vehicle obstacle course instead of a dozen roses is a man who should be getting down on one knee if you ask me. God knows that girl deserves some happiness.â A flash of pain etched across his features. âSheâs been alone for too long. Even as kid, I canât tell you how many times I rushed over to the hospital on account of Willow. Each time, Iâd see Tessa just sitting out in the hall all by herself. Damn near watched her grow up in that hall. Used to break my heart.â
âEvery so many months, Iâd see an older version of her sitting in that spot, worrying over her sister and her parents.â His jaw clenched in anger then. âAnd after that flake of a mother stopped being able to cut it, hell, Tessa just stepped in and took care of her sister and daddy both. Never seen anything like it. That kind of grit and heartâ¦you canât fake it, canât even pray for it. But Tessa, sheâs got it in spades.â
Just then, Tessa stopped working the two huge joystick-looking controllers and spun the seat out of operator mode to wave at them, hollering out, âI did it! And in a pretty straight line, too!â
Well. It probably looked straight from where she was standing. Brian laughed and waved back. âLooks great, honey.â
After doing a little danceâto which, Frank scolded, âSeatbelt!ââshe spun her into drive mode and proceeded to steer the backhoe loader over the last stretch of dips and mounds on her way to the finish line.
âYou better not hurt her, boy. Because I have a lot full of equipment that can guarantee your body never gets found if you do.â
A squealing hoot, pounding footsteps on soft dirt, and an airborne hug flying into his arms prevented him from answering.
âThank you, thank you, thank you!â Tessa was out of breath and absolutely radiant in her happiness. âThat was so much fun!â
Shotgun be damned. Brian pulled her into a python hug and captured her lips to share in some of that joy.
When he finally let her down, he watched her cheeks flush as she turned to look at Frank.
Who was already walking away. âLooks like I donât have anything to worry about. Okay, kids, itâs been fun but I need to get home to the missus and whatever fish sheâs cookinâ tonight.â
âWait!â Tessa ran over and gave him another hug. âThis was amazing, Frank. Thank you.â
Frank looked about as close to emotional as a big, rough construction guy could look. âItâs been a while since Iâve seen this smile, dollface. If your man there is the cause of it, hold on to him. You deserve to be happy.â
The quiet, fleeting look of hope on her face gutted Brian wide open.
When she came walking back, bright-eyed smile back in place, Brian pulled her into his arms tight and just held on. âHeâs right you know. You do deserve to be happy. I donât care what your quack of a mom may have drilled into your head.â
She untangled herself from his arms. âDoes this mean itâs time for our talk now?â
Damn. He hated seeing her smile disappear. âNo rush. We can grab dinner firstââ
âNo. We should talk first.â She took a deep breath. âI know you donât think highly of my mom, but you canât say sheâs completely wrong on this. The only thing I can offer a man long term is heartbreak. And in your case, itâs so much worse. You already had one HD wife. I canât sentence you to having another.â
His heart stopped. âAre you saying youâve thought about being my wife someday?â Saying it out loud made his heart restart at triple its original rate.
She looked stunned, but quickly stuttered back with, âSeriously? Thatâs your only takeaway from everything I just said?â
âNo, I also heard what sounded likeâno offenseâabsolute crap.â
At her astonished glare, he bulldozed right along. âYouâre so much more than your disease and you know it. And sweetheart, heartbreak doesnât scare me. Being without you does.â
Her soft gasp had hope surging through his veins.
The truth of the matter was that Tessa inspired him. She made him want to do more than just survive love; she made him want to make the most of it, continue hoping for it when it seemed all but lost.
Thatâs why they belonged together.
In so many ways, they were as different as night and day. Folks used to say that while he and Beth were like two peas in a pod, he and Abby were like the same pea split in half.
Now he and Tessa, on the other hand⦠Hell, they were like two different vegetables altogether. And he wouldnât have it any other way.
âNo oneâs okay with heartbreak,â she argued back, bringing him out of his own head. âCan you honestly say you didnât think for even a moment when you found out I had the HD gene that the universe was giving you a lightning strike for the second time in your life?â she demanded.
âNo, I canât. Because youâre right, I did think it. But thatâs my point. I have been struck by the very thing youâre afraid of before. Iâm not being idealistic here. I know itâs going to be hard. But I love you, Tessa. You make me love harder and with less restraint than even I thought possible. And now, I just canât imagine my life or my future any other way.â
Emotions fully charged now, he asked finally because he just had to know, âIf the positions were reversed, Tessa, would you stay with me?â
âIn a heartbeat,â she whispered without hesitation. ââTil your very last heartbeat.â
When he eventually managed to get air back into his lungs after that fierce declaration, he asked simply, âThen why the hell arenât we together?â
The answer surprised even him.
âBecause Iâm scared.â She bit her lip. âIâm scared, and for so many years now, thereâs been no one in my life to care whether I was scared or not. Itâs kind of like that tree in the woods that no one would hear fall. No one cared before that I had HD, and Iâd built my life around that. Being that tree in the woods made it all easier. But nowâ¦now, I care that you care. I care that you know just how terrified I am. Not just about how that damn disease is going to steal my body, but how terrified I am that itâs going to slowly steal you away from me too. The thought that one day, I might not remember your name, your face, an entire lifetime with youâ¦scares me so much I canât even bear the thought.â The last came out on a broken whisper.
His hands speared through her hair with an almost bruising force before he admitted quietly, âI know, sweetheart. Iâm terrified of that tooâfor you and for me. Even thinking about it kills me every time.â
âThen why put yourself through that nightmare a second time? I wouldnât wish how Iâm feeling on anyone, let alone someone I love as much as I love you.â Her voice cracked, faded. And though she didnât say it, her expression screamed at the top of her lungs: How can you honestly think Iâm worth it?
He stared into her eyes and shook his head. âYou donât get it do you? Every nightmare Iâve had since you told me about your HD gene test hasnât been about the tough future ahead for usâitâs been picturing us apart. The thought of
you facing this alone breaks my heart, and the thought of my life without you just plain rips out my soul. Iâve only just found you and I canât bear the thought of losing you. Youâre not getting rid of me. So please say youâll give us a chance. And please say it now because I really donât think I can take another minute apart.â
When she just stood there, looking at him with tears in her eyes, he kicked himself for pushing. It was too much, too soon. Heâd scared her offâ
âI canât bear the thought of losing you either.â
âThank God.â His mouth went slamming down onto hers, and he all but lost it when she began kissing him back with the same raw urgency.
It took a while, but eventually he remembered that they were out in public with a trigger-happy father figure to Tessa not far away. So, he grabbed her hand and walked them back to his SUV. âNow, do want me to take you back to your car?â
She shook her head, those wide, witchy eyes of hersâdarkened with red-hot longing and half-dazed with arousalâdrifting down to his mouth. It was all he could do not to toss her over his shoulder right now.
His heart pounded in his chest. âSo where do you want to go?â
She turned and climbed into the passenger seat. âMy place is closer.â
Hot damn.
*
THEY GOT BACK to her apartment in record time.
And still, Tessa had very nearly asked him to pull over twice on the way.
Something told her he wouldâve said yes.
Crashing through the door and shedding their clothes on their way to her bedroom, he looked almost predatory as he advanced on her, pure alpha lust rolling off of him in waves.
Though her body was responding in kind, she felt her feet backing up, her breathing going haywire.
Then he smiled. Slow, hot, and sexy. And she swore her panties almost slid off her hips on their own accord.
Her legs eventually bumped into the foot of her bed and she took her eyes off of him for a second to catch her balance. Within that second, he pounced. His lips came down on hers with a hunger that simply fed her own. Her hands slid under the hem of his shirt, and his slid down her body.