Love, Laughter, and Happily Ever Afters Collection (Eight Fun, Romantic Novels by Eight Bestselling Authors)
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âAnytime. See you soon.â
Fifteen minutes later, Fran is waiting for me outside of Landon & Castell, looking stunning, as always. With wavy, shoulder length ebony hair, bright green eyes, a fair complexion with a hint of pink, and curves that make men swoon, Fran oozes sex appeal. Her tight white tank accentuates her breasts, while her short black skirt shows off her long, shapely legs. Her feet are covered by Jimmy Choo heels in the same color. âYou look hot, Fran!â I look down at my gray pencil skirt and white blouse and suddenly feel very undressed.
She lets out a sexy laugh. âIâm on fire every night. Now if I could only find someone to put out that fire, my world would be complete. By the way, notice the new pumps? Breaking a heel is a great excuse to buy a new pair of shoesâ¦not that I ever need an excuse to shop!â
My mind drifts from Fran to the hotness on the street this morning. Itâs hard to shake that visual.
Fran waves her hand in front of my face. âHello? Earth to Gabby, whereâd you go?â
âIâm here,â I murmur as I float back down to earth. âNow, letâs go see about that dress.â
Weâre making our way over to Bloomingdaleâs, and I canât help but notice people staring at me. Itâs really starting to piss me off. âFran, do I have something on my face?â
She looks at me with a confused smile. âWhat the hell are you talking about?â
âWell, itâs just that I feel like everyoneâs looking at me, and itâs getting annoying.â
âOh my God, Gabby. When are you going to get a clue? Youâre beautiful! Thatâs why everyone is staring. Do you know how many women would kill to look like you without having to slather shitloads of makeup on their face? You donât even have to try and youâre gorgeous. Hell, you get out of bed in the morning and youâre a guyâs wet dream. Thatâs just sickening, even to me.â
I let out a frustrated groan. Thatâs the total opposite of everything my parents said when I was growing up. It was always about them not liking the clothes I picked out, or wanting me to cut my hair a different way, or how Iâd look prettier with makeup. I remember my mom taking me to Macyâs and making me sit through one of those complimentary makeup sessions at the Clinique counter. Afterwards she always bubbled, see how much prettier you look now? Isnât every parent supposed to think their child is beautiful? That their child is smart? That their child is worthy? Sheâll never know how deeply her comments hurt me.
A huge sigh leaves my chest. âCan we just go check out my dress please?â
When we get to the store, I eye the dress again in the window, and know itâs perfect. Fran waits outside the dressing room while I try it on. The dress moves over my body and once itâs in place I realize why it caught my eye. Itâs just like everything else in my closet. The blue satin looks even prettier up close, it has a high neckline so itâs not too revealing, and it falls below my knee. It doesnât really accentuate anything, which is why it works for me. I tend to pick the boring, traditional clothes lacking pizzazz, while Franâs choices are always funky and accentuate what sheâs got. She wonât like this dress because itâs too conservative.
I walk out of the dressing room and Franâs mouth hangs open. I guess she feels the same way. âGabbyâ¦thatâs the dress you were dying to show me?â
âYes, why?â I try to act innocent, but even I know this dress is boring with a capital B.
âHoney, itâs too conservative. Thereâs not an ounce of skin showing. We need to find you another dress.â
I certainly know my best friend and that alone is a good feeling. Predictability wins out, however, and my mouth turns down in a pout. Suddenly Iâm eight years old, standing in front of my mom, trying to convince her to let me choose my own clothes for school. âBut I like this one, Fran,â I whine.
âSweetie. I know you have a tendency toward the conservative, but come on, you have to let loose a little. Show a little morsel. You have an amazing figure, but you hide it under all those clothes.â
âI donât want to look like a slut, Fran!â I practically shout and see a woman whip her head around and peek at us through a rack of clothes.
âGabby, showing a little cleavage isnât going to make you a slut. Sleeping around is the only thing that will grant you that very special title, so youâre in the clear.â
Fran starts rifling through racks looking for the perfect dress for me, which, quite frankly, makes me nervous. Our sense of style is just so completely different. After an hour of trying dresses on, Iâm about ready to throw in the towel. Then I see her eyes light up. âThatâs the one!â
Itâs an olive green satin dress with a low cut scoop in the front and a V in the back, cut slightly above the knee. Something I would never wear. âFran, thatâs way too revealing. I canât wear it!â
âTry it on, for heavenâs sake. Can you just do that for me?â She gives me her best puppy dog eyes, and I have no choice but to concede.
I donât look in the mirror until Iâm zipped. At first glance the fabric and cut seem to show way too much skin, but if Iâm honest with myself, it makes me feel sexy.
Fran eyes me appreciatively, a satisfied smirk on her face. âAm I good, or am I good? That dress is perfect!â
I stare blankly at Fran. âI donât know, Fran.â
âGabby, you look beautiful. Really, honey. I mean, come on, youâre five foot seven, with beautiful chestnut hair, gorgeous blue eyes, and a great figure! When are you going to start realizing this?â
My motherâs voice plays like a record in my head. Gabby, dear. That dress shows too much of that curvy figure and it makes your legs look skinny. Itâs not flattering at all. In fact, itâs an unattractive look for you.
Franâs eyes meet mine. âWell, we both know your motherâs like the scarecrow from your favorite movieâ¦you know, the one that doesnât have a brain.â
*
EXCITEMENT BUILDS as we make our way over to the Sky Bar, the new lounge on the Upper West Side. After my new dress and Franâs pep talk, Iâm definitely up for some fun; maybe a little harmless flirting. Maybe more. Who knows. Maybe I should let Fran set me up. Or maybe this is my sexual frustration talking. Itâs been a while.
We enter the bar and itâs wall to wall people. Ugh. Sweaty bodies are rubbing up against me and the body odor is offensive. Someone just grabbed my ass. Gah! A shattering sound catches my attention and I look over to see a nervous waitress anxiously scooping up glass from the floor, trying to hide the red consuming her pretty face. I scan the room. Everyone here seems to be looking for something. A good time, a few drinks, an escape from their day, a sexual encounter, or even love, I suppose. As that last thought hits me, I wonder why anyone would go looking for love in a bar. I mean, letâs be real, this isnât the place to find the key to your heart. The key to your vagina, maybe.
As I ponder my thoughts on the philosophy of life, Fran taps me on the shoulder. âWhat do you want to drink? The usual?â
âNo way, Fran. Screw that. Tonight Iâm living on the edge. Iâll have a lemon drop.â
âWow, Gabby.â She swipes the back of her hand across her forehead, feigning surprise. âThatâs your idea of living on the edge?â
I cross my arms over my chest. âWhy, whatâs wrong with a lemon drop?â
âSweetie. Lemon drops are for college girls, not a gorgeous, sophisticated woman like yourself. You really want to take a walk on the wild side? Iâm ordering you a martini with an olive.â
I let out a frustrated groan. âOkay, Fran, whatever.â
Fran and I take a seat at the bar and wait for our drinks. My eyes wander and I scope out the c
rowd, hoping to find someone that might be worth a second look. Anyone with emerald eyes. Realizing I forgot to tell Fran about my encounter, if you could even call it that, I start to tell her when she cuts me off. âFran, youâll never believe what happenââ
âPlease tell me you took that guy Scott you work with right across your desk and had your wicked way with him!â Leave it to Fran to think it was about hot sex. Sheâs always having hot sex, or thinking about it. God, I do envy her sometimes.
âAs appealing as that sounds, no. I was on my way to work this morning when I saw the hottest freaking guy in creation.â
Fran waits expectantly for me to elaborate and is disappointed, as usual. âThatâs it? That was your interesting morning?! I hope thereâs more to tell that makes it interesting.â
âWell, there isnât really. Except that he was hot and seriously sexy. Tall, with shiny black hair, sparkling emerald green eyes, golden brown skin, and a rock hard body.â I didnât tell her about the orgasm I practically had right on the street, or that my panties almost disintegrated the moment I saw him.
âPlease tell me you tackled him and ripped his clothes off. Or, at least got his phone number.â
That does sound appealing. The idea of hot sex with no commitment might be the way to go. At least it would be a great distraction. âFran, as much as the idea of that turns me on, all I did was embarrass myself when he caught me staring. Iâm sure he didnât think twice about it. He probably gets it all the time.â
Fran waggles her eyebrows. âOh, Iâm sure he gets it all the time.â
I smack her shoulder. âDo you ever think about anything besides sex? Nevermind, donât answer that.â
âHmmm…well, no, and why would I want to? Gabby, letâs be honest, you need to get laid. Itâs been a while, and youâve been very cranky lately, not to mention the fact that I found an excessive amount of empty Swedish Fish bags and Hersheyâs Kiss wrappers when I was taking out the garbageâ¦a telltale sign. We need to remedy this situation and fast. Youâre not yourself, but Iâm sure itâs nothing a good, hot piece of ass canât take care of.â
I crinkle my nose. âOh my God, Fran, youâre incorrigible!â Sheâs not paying attention to me anymore, but looking toward the end of the bar. âWhat are you staring at?â
Her hand fans her face. âCheck out those two hotties over there!â
I see two tall, honey blondes in very expensive-looking gray suits, one with blue eyes, the other with brown, both with muscular physiques. Blonde isnât really my preference. They make their way over after they catch us staring. The one with blue eyes speaks first.
âHi, what are you two ladies drinking?â
Fran immediately pipes up. âVodka tonic, and a martini.â Then she moves closer to me and whispers âIâll take the one with the sexy birthmark.â
I smirk and look over at her. âDonât worry about me. Iâll just take whateverâs left.â
Blue eyes leans in and extends his hand. Heâs handsome, I guess, with a broad smile and a cleft in his chin. âIâm Blaine, and this is my friend, Kyle.â Kyleâs birthmark accentuates his full lips and he looks a bit like a Calvin Klein model, except with a suit as opposed to the fabulous tight-fitting underwear. Judging by the way he fills out his suit, I imagine he looks great in his underwear, too. Both of them.
Fran, of course, starts. âIâm Fran, and this is Gabby.â
âPleasure to meet you,â they both say at the same time.
We all giggle a little nervously. Franâs making eyes at Kyle and Iâm hoping the floor will open and swallow me.
âThis is the first time weâve been here,â Kyle says. âWhat about you?â
âYes, this is our first time, too,â I agree, trying to make sure theyâre aware I can actually speak. âSo, what do you both do?â
âWe work at a hedge fund on Wall Street.â Of course.
âWhat about you two?â Kyle asks, and I notice he moves closer to Fran.
âI work at an interior design firm,â I respond. I keep my answers short in hopes that theyâll tire of us, or at least me, and move along.
âGraphic design studio,â Fran says, polishing off her second vodka tonic.
As we continue to make what I feel is boring conversation with Blaine and Kyle, the drinks keep coming, and the martinis are giving me a good buzz. After drink number three, I notice Blaineâs arm sneak around and massage my waist. Needless to say, Iâm not that buzzed. I immediately move his hand away and see the smile on his face turn into a frown. No matter how fuzzy the alcohol is making me feel, itâs not enough to want a one night stand right now; not with this guy anyway.
Nothing about Blaine interests me and I find myself tuning him out and checking out the other guys at the bar. A warm body finds the seat next to me and a musky aroma floats in my direction. It smells familiar and I suddenly feel nauseous.
I anxiously turn to Fran. âIâve got to get out of here.â The smell is invading the void in my heart and a longing is taking over, one that I canât cope with because it just hurts too much.
âWhatâs wrong?â A look of concern crosses her face.
What am I supposed to tell her? Sheâs heard it all beforeâ¦that every night when I close my eyes I see Clarkâs face, his smile, hear his voiceâ¦that I still smell his musky scentâ¦that sometimes I try with every bone in my body to remember what it felt like to have his arms around me. She knows I end up sobbing some nights because itâs getting harder and harder to remember. I donât want the memory; I want Clark. âI just need to go, Fran.â
âOkay, then Iâm coming with you.â
âNo, you stay and have fun. Iâll see you at home later.â
Fran puts her hands on her hips. âNo way. Iâm coming, too.â
âOkay.â
We say hurried goodbyes to Blaine and Kyle and stumble towards the subway. Fran puts her arm around my shoulder. âSo, what happened in there?â
I stop walking and look up to meet her eyes, recognition hitting her immediately.
âOh God, Gabby…Clark? Again?â
The combination of booze, anger, and sadness slurs my speech, and I come back practically spitting on her. âWhat the hhelll is that ssupposed to mean?!â
âYou know what it fucking means, Gabby. Itâs been three years, and weâve had this conversation over two hundred times. You need to move on!â
âI canât help it! I loved him so much, and I miss him. Every damn dayâ¦I miss him. I fffucking hate love Fran, I just fffucking hate it. I hate the way it smells, the way it tastes, the way it gives you those itchy little goosebumps, the way people walk around with those ridiculous happy smiles.â Falling to the ground, my knees scraping the pavement, I wrap my arms around myself as new tears trickle down my mascara-stained face. âYou just donât understand, Fran, itâs not that easy!â
âThe hell it isnât!â Fran bites back. âI was having a good time in there. I actually liked Kyle and didnât want to leave.â Her hands go to her hips, her jaw working itself back and forth, face tense with anger. âYou know what, Gabby?! Iâm getting tired of you acting like youâre the only one who lost Clark. I lost him, too! I loved him, too!â A heavy sob escapes her chest. âHe was like a brother to meâ¦â She looks down at the ground for a minute before she makes her way back up to me. Her eyes soften and her voice is raw with emotion. âI miss him, too, Gabbyâ¦I miss him, too.â
âIâm sorry, Fran,â I whisper. âIâm sorry for being so selfish.â
Fran lowers herself to the pavement next to me, taking a deep
breath and bumping my shoulder hard. She reaches under my arms and lifts me off the cement. âCome on, you pain in my ass, letâs go home.â
CHAPTER TWO
THE NEXT MORNING I wake up with what feels like a hammer to the side of my head. Remind me never to take Franâs advice again. I practically fall out of bed, holding my pounding brain in place, and make my way to the bathroom to grab some Advil. I crack open the medicine cabinet, take out what I hope will be my instant relief, then pull apart an animal-themed Dixie Cup from the stack on the counter. I fill it with tap water three times and down it quickly, grabbing onto the sink to steady myself from this dizzying whirl. Iâm surprised I can even put an outfit together this morning, but when I finally do and am getting ready to leave, Fran stumbles out of her bedroom, holding her head.
âBad hangover, huh?â I laugh.
With a throaty voice, she replies, âyeah, you could say that.â
I walk over to the kitchen, find a clean glass, quickly pull a bottle of Poland Spring from the fridge, then pour it for her before grabbing my coat and purse. âBetter drink a couple of those so you can make it through the day. Thereâs also some Advil in the bathroom cabinet. Iâm off to work; Iâll see you later.â
âGabby, wait,â Fran says, slowly making her way to me.
âWhat?â I donât know if itâs the headache or last nightâs argument that makes me want to run away.
âI just wanted to apologize for what I said last night. I mean, I meant what I said, but it just came out wrong. I donât know, Gabbyâ¦I just want you to be happy, you know, and I havenât seen you happy in a long time. Itâs just time, thatâs all.â She pauses. âYou know, remember when we were growing up and I had issues with friends, boyfriends, and my stupid dad? All those days I just wanted to disappear, to crawl into a hole and just stay there. Gabby, you wouldnât let me. You were always the one who was there for me and who lifted me up from my well of despair. You made me see that things would get better. In many ways, you helped me to believe in myself; you helped me to realize my own strength. Well, now itâs my turn, Gabby. I want to do that for you.â