Silver Kiss

by Naomi Clark

  My opponent skidded on a patch of ice and slipped away from me briefly. I lunged at him, grabbing his ruff and shaking him hard, until he twisted free and smashed into my ribs. I howled in rage and pounced on him, my weight crushing him down. He cried in pain and I rolled him over, knocking his head back with a blow of my paw to his throat. A wave of cheers and whoops shot up around us, men encouraging me to kill. Their shouts grated on my ears, made my blood boil.

  For a second I forgot the wolf beneath me and turned on the men, a primal hatred spurring me to dive at the nearest one. Enemies, we’d always been enemies. For as long as there had been forests and prey to stalk in them, man and wolves had been enemies. The primitive beat of my heart echoed round my skull as I hit my target, slamming him into the hood of the car he leaned on. He didn’t have time to react, just went down with a shout as I raked my claws down his chest.

  Immediately, a dozen of them were on me, throwing me back into the circle to face the young wolf. He caught my tail, pulling out a clump of fur and the humans were forgotten; we tangled again, no finesse or skill, just brute strength and wild anger. I stopped tracking my injuries, or the ones I dealt him. The world narrowed down to tooth and claw and the hard thump of my heart. I dealt him a vicious blow, tearing open his shoulder and we broke apart to circle each other, both panting for breath as we weighed each other up. He was young and weak, reactions dimmed by the aconite pumping through him. He was slowing down and I scented victory.

  His shoulder bled freely, dark droplets splattering onto the stiff grass, and the bitter scent pierced the haze in my brain a little. The human part of me struggled to emerge through the wolf. It was familiar, the smell of his blood. Pack. He was Pack. Not just a wolf a rival. Oscar. I whined, suddenly unsure of myself. What was I doing? What was wrong with me?

  Then a human booted me in the ribs, slamming me into Oscar, who responded by chomping down on my flank, teeth ripping through flesh and muscle. I yelped, fell, and he was on me, pinning me like I had him. He went for my throat, murder in his eyes and the wolf part of me took over. She had to. I moved faster than Oscar and fastened my teeth into his throat first. Taking advantage of my position on my side, I dug my claws into his belly until his skin popped under the pressure, spilling more blood over us both. The air was thick with its scent now and my human self sank away beneath it.

  Oscar gargled and slumped on top of me, his weight only serving to push my claws deeper into his belly. There were some boos from the crowd and something sharp prodded me in the rump. I tried to wriggle away from it and a burst of human noise blasted me. Cries that sounded angry, hungry. I closed my eyes and hung onto Oscar, trying to block them out.

  And then a sound I couldn’t ignore. Gunfire. I released Oscar, who rolled off me limply, and scrambled to my feet, primitive fear drumming through me again. Around me, pandemonium erupted. The humans were scattering. The feral stood frozen near the barn, a mix of rage and dread pouring off him. Inside the barn, the caged wolves exploded into full voice, yowls and yaps echoing through the building. I scented the air, smelling petrol and humans, new humans, heading our way.

  My haywire brain switched gears and suddenly I wanted to protect Oscar from this new threat. I stood over him, hackles up, trying to keep an eye on every human there. The original ring was scattering, shouts and curses polluting the air. Some were climbing into their cars. Most were just running. One dashed past me and I snapped instinctively, hamstringing him. He fell with a shriek of pain and rolled away from me. Someone else tripped over him in the darkness and I crouched low over Oscar, bracing myself in case either struck at me.

  Gunfire sounded again and a stern human voice rang out over the shock of noise in the circle. His words penetrated my wolf brain, tugging at the human part of me again.

  “Nobody move. Everybody stay calm.”

  It was an alpha’s command, strong and commanding, and I responded as I would to any alpha, swinging my head in his direction and dropping into a more submissive stance. I couldn’t see him yet, but his scent was powerful, riding over the blood and fear inside the circle.

  Lights glowed close by; torches, sweeping over the circle and the humans trying to escape it. There was nowhere for them to go though, I realized, as human awareness returned to my wolf-self. The new humans had brought cars, pinning the others in. If I hadn’t been doped up and crazed, I might have heard their engines earlier. I wagged my tail hesitantly. Was this help, or more danger?

  As I watched the lights approach, there was a swift movement to my side. I turned in time to see Sly kick the man I’d injured out of his way and make a break for a gap between two cars. He was stripping as he ran. If he shifted and made it out into the reserve, he’d get away.

  I launched myself at him, snapping at his heels and missing by a whisker as he fell into his wolf shape with liquid smoothness. Unlike me, he was fresh and unmuddled by drugs, and he quickly pulled away from me as we broke free of the circle and ran into the marshy wilds of the reserve.

  I’d catch him. I had to. Ignoring my aches and wounds, I threw my head back, baying to the stars, and raced after the feral. Just before I plunged into the tall grass where Sly had vanished, I was sure I heard Shannon’s voice calling me. I didn’t stop though, just put my head down and kept moving. Sly’s scent was a red-hot trail under my nose. It didn’t matter how fast he ran, I’d find him.

  NINETEEN

  Maybe the Silver Kiss in my system was doing me some good. Despite my injuries, I didn’t feel tired or sore. I felt aggressive and energized. I’d pay for it later, I knew, but for now I gave the wolf her head once more and pushed my body to its limits, something I hadn’t done for years. I gloried in the hidden strength I possessed, the stamina and power in my limbs. My human body felt like a distant dream, limited and fragile in comparison to this. For a few seconds I almost forgot why I was running and just reveled in the thrill of movement.

  Then the strong musk of the feral hit me and I shook myself, focusing again. A splash of bitter sweat on a rock told me he’d slowed his pace, falling into the steady lope more suited to wolves than flat-out sprinting. I had a chance to catch up if I pushed myself that little bit more, really put myself to the test.

  I gave myself one last shove, called on every last shred of energy and strength and sped through the reserve, hot on Sly’s heels. Through reeds and over icy puddles, trampling through swans’ nests and scattering water voles and rats out foraging. Bounding over trees felled by winter storms and fighting through thickets of dead brambles. Now the aches set in. Now the wounds stung, cold air abrading my torn skin. But I was closing in on Sly. His scent was getting fresher with every step I took.

  Excitement roared through me, adrenaline blocking out some of the pain. I could hear him now, not too far ahead. His form was lost in the shadows, but his breathing was loud and clear, steady and even. It struck me that as hard as I pushed myself, I’d still never take him in a fight; he had too many advantages. I couldn’t win a fair fight, wolf to wolf. It was time to bring the human back a little.

  I veered away into a knot of trees and slowed down, taking a second to catch my breath and let Sly think I’d given up. The sound of his breathing and the grass crunching under his paws faded into the distance. I couldn’t let him get too far ahead, but I had to give him a little reprieve. As soon as I thought he’d gone far enough ahead, I started again, circling around the trail he’d taken. This worked best with another wolf to take the other side and trap Sly in a true pincer movement. Since I was out here alone, I’d have to adapt. Luckily, I’d spent years on my own. I didn’t need another wolf, just the darkness and the element of surprise.

  I made a wide loop around Sly, keeping him upwind of me so my scent wouldn’t carry to him whilst his hit me sharply, letting me track him and keep myself hidden. Instead of running now, I crept through the trees, low to the ground. He’d slowed his pace as soon as he thought I’d given up, but was still moving determinedly east. Out of the reserve,
I guessed. Away from the mess he’d made back at the barn. I growled softly and closed in, narrowing the distance between us slowly but surely. I couldn’t risk any mistakes. As much as I wanted to just rush in and rip his throat out, I had to play it safe.

  A few minutes later, he was in my field of vision again, taking a break at the edge of the river. I stopped, dropping down into a pounce position, even though he wasn’t close enough for it. This was it: my one chance. If this went wrong, he’d get away and probably leave me for dead. I had to be quick and precise, not the easiest thing. I wasn’t planning to kill him and if I misjudged anything, I might do so accidentally. I thought I’d burned off the Silver Kiss—my head felt clearer, my mind more like my own—but I couldn’t be sure and I dreaded making a mistake.

  Sly trotted to the riverbank, putting his back to me while he drank. Now was my moment.

  I slunk from my hiding place, hardly daring to breathe for fear of alerting him. He kept drinking, head almost under the water. I shivered but suppressed the flash of memory that threatened me. I wasn’t going in the water this time. I moved closer, my heartbeat counting the seconds until I pounced.

  Sly raised his head and shook it, shining droplets of water flying from his muzzle. I gathered up everything I had left inside me—every scrap of pain, outrage, and disgust—and flew at him.

  It was a magic moment; that perfect hunter’s moment that all wolves cherish and long for. I hit him in the side, sent him sprawling to the earth in a tangle of limbs and with two swift, hard bites, hamstrung him, severing the tendons at the back of his knees. His pained howl rang in my skull, making my head spin. I stiffened my trembling legs; afraid I might collapse now and undo this perfect moment. Sly was at my mercy and he knew it. His eyes were wide, rolled back in his head, and his sides heaved, the acrid tang of his fear hanging over us. I had him. Finally.

  Changing back to human shape after so long as a wolf left me disorientated and giddy with relief. My irrational fear that I might be trapped in wolf shape dissipated in a surge of adrenalin and beautiful agony. A euphoria that was short lived; I felt sick. I’d been pushing my body to its limits. Throw in Silver Kiss and payback was a bitch. The first thing I did was lean into the reeds and throw up. My forehead burned when I pressed my hand to it and my vision swam. I wanted to sleep for about a week, then eat everything I could get my hands on.

  I didn’t have the luxury of that just yet. It would take Sly a while to heal the snapped tendons, but it would happen eventually and I wanted him locked up before that. I wiped my mouth and stood, wavering for a second while my eyes adjusted to the new colors and slants of light available to them. My body twinged as I stretched, a multitude of injuries starting to heal up, eating through the reserves of energy I had left. I wasn’t sure I had the strength to get Sly back to the barn where—I hoped—a few police officers would be waiting for him.

  Sly looked pitiful, crashed out at the river’s edge, twitching and whimpering constantly. I couldn’t find it in myself to feel sorry for him. Not after he’d caged me, drugged me and watched me half-kill another Pack wolf. Part of me—the part that was still all wolf, all instinct—wished I’d just killed him and shoved him in the river.

  Sighing, I grabbed his ruff. He made a half-hearted attempt to bite me, but I stepped on his back leg and he yowled and went limp, shivering. After that, he let me pick him up and carry him like a puppy. He was heavy and my muscles screamed in pain as I staggered back the way we’d come. I could have dragged him, but I imagined his ruined back legs, nerves and tendons torn and snapped, dragging along the stony track and I couldn’t do it. It was too easy to imagine myself in the same position.

  Maybe I did feel a little sorry for him after all. What a sucker.

  I hadn’t limped more than a few meters when I heard voices up ahead and saw flashlight beams sweeping the ground. Exhaustion hit me in a wave and I dropped to my knees, calling back. My voice was raw and rough, too long unused. I sounded like Sly. I glanced down at the feral in my arms. His eyes were closed, ears down. He wasn’t going to fight me anymore. I set him down, keeping one hand pressed into his fur in case he did try anything and waited for the people to find us. I closed my own eyes briefly and caught a waft of sandalwood and jasmine on the night wind.

  Shannon.

  Even as I thought her name, I heard her voice. I opened my eyes and saw her burst out of the trees, blonde hair glowing gold in the light of her torch. I blinked, shielding my eyes from the light, and when I could see again she was right there in front of me.

  “Ayla,” she whispered, a world of questions in the single word. Her eyes flew to Sly, then back to me, face contorted with sick fear and slow-dawning relief. “You’re okay.” Her voice flowed over me like honey, sweet and soothing.

  I nodded. I wasn’t but I would be. Now. She knelt down beside me, running her fingers over my face, tears shining in her eyes. “Damn you, Ayla, I could kill you myself,” she said.

  I sighed. What a way to go.

  ***

  The scene back at the barn was messy and nasty. The police had arrived in force and most of the humans who’d come to watch Sly’s fights had been arrested. Officers milled around, talking into radios and shoving the handcuffed men into their cars. Some struggled without any real heart, making vile threats and throwing out the usual insults.

  The wolves who’d been locked up in the barn were now free. Some do-gooder idiot had simply unlocked the cages and let them run riot. A couple of the young wolves had simply shot off into the night without a backwards glance. Most, starved, deprived of Silver Kiss and expecting violence, had turned on their liberators. No serious injuries, thankfully, but an ambulance was on its way. A couple of coppers who were also wolves had shifted and were now rounding up the scared cubs, driving them back into the barn where at least they could be contained until they calmed down and could be dealt with properly.

  “Where’s Moira?” I asked Shannon.

  “One of the officers is driving her straight to hospital,” she replied. “She’s going to need some serious surgery on her leg.” Shannon paled, no doubt picturing the gruesome mess Moira’s leg had been.

  Someone had draped a woolen blanket over me and I pulled it tighter around my shoulders now as I watched the aftermath unfold. The wolves in the barn barked and grumbled and I ached to go to them, check them over, assure them it was over now. It wasn’t my place though.

  A few feet away, two officers were standing over Eddie’s body. I watched them kneel down to get a better look and a trickle of grief dripped through me. I hadn’t really liked Eddie, I realized. Somehow that made it worse. He’d been a bully but he hadn’t deserved death. Who would be charged for his murder? I had no idea which human had pulled the trigger on him. Maybe Sly would be held responsible.

  Shannon squeezed my fingers. “Want to go home now?”

  “Don’t I have to give a statement?”

  “Tomorrow,” she said firmly. “There’ll be plenty of time tomorrow.” She wrapped her arm around my shoulders and guided me to the car.

  She’d waited up all night for me, she said, just like before. And when, like before I didn’t come home, she’d called my parents. Called Vince, Glory, Cal, everyone she could think of. None of them knew where I was, of course, but all of them agreed that she should go to the police. Unlike Eddie, none of them believed in taking the law into their own hands.

  So Shannon and my parents had gone to the police.

  “I spent most of the day going over Molly’s case with them,” she explained as she ushered me into the car. “It took ages to convince them I wasn’t some conspiracy theory crackpot. I could have throttled them it was taking so long. I just kept thinking—I could be out there, looking for you.”

  Tina Brady had been pulled in then, along with her daughter, to confirm the story. After that, things had moved fast. Not fast enough, in my opinion, but fast considering. By dusk, the police were ready to move out, having gathered enough evidence and
, maybe more importantly, enough werewolf officers to be confident. It was a shame that by that time I’d already half-killed—

  “Where’s Oscar?” I grappled with the door handle, terror and guilt surging through me. “I’ve got to see him.” I stumbled out of the car, back into the bitingly cold night.

  Shannon leapt out too, running round the car to intercept me.

  “Ayla, stop! Oscar’s gone to the hospital with Moira.”

  “He’s alive though?” I gripped her arms, searching her face for the truth. “He is alive?”

  “He’s hurt, but he’s alive,” she confirmed. “And we need to get you home and rested, alright? You can visit him in the morning if you want.”

  “I did it,” I said, the words falling heavy from my tongue. “Sly made us… He drugged us…”

  “Ayla.” Shannon pressed her fingers to my lips, silencing me. “Please.” Her voice shook; exhaustion, or perhaps fear. Fear for me, not of me. I slumped my shoulders and got back in the car.

  Tomorrow. Another thing to deal with tomorrow.

  ***

  It was close to dawn when we got home and I was looking forward to falling into bed. Of course it wasn’t that easy. My parents, Vince, Joel and Glory were all waiting in the living room for me and Shannon. It was a good hour before I’d hashed out enough of the story to satisfy them. Mum just sat and cried the whole time. When I finished talking, she took my hands.

  “You should have told us,” she said softly. “We wouldn’t have let Eddie push you into this.”

  I stared at our joined hands, a mix of awkward emotions bubbling in me. “It was for the Pack,” I said.