Breaking Down

by Holly Renee

  “Happy birthday, Cash,” I said to the birthday boy who had a long, leggy brunette attached to his side.

  “Thanks.” He wagged his eyebrows at me, and I couldn’t help but laugh. Cash and I had never really been good friends, but he was an awesome guy. He was fun, carefree, and loyal to his friends. I couldn’t wait until the day a girl came along and knocked him on his ass. Cash was somewhat of a player, and it would take an incredible woman to get through to him.

  Johnny smiled down at me and pulled me into a bear hug. I could feel Gabe tense behind me, but Johnny let go of me quickly, and I was back in Gabe’s arms.

  “I see you’re already wreaking havoc on the dance floor.” Johnny took a sip of his whiskey.

  “I was not. I was simply dancing. I can’t help it that men just flock to me,” I teased.

  Johnny rolled his eyes, and I felt Gabe’s arms tighten around me.

  “You did look in the mirror before you walked out of the house, right?” Johnny asked. “I’m surprised men weren’t stroking out as you walked by.”

  “Thank you,” Gabe’s voice called out behind me. “Why do you think I’m keeping her locked against me? I’ve already thought about kicking about ten different guys’ asses tonight.”

  “Good plan.” Johnny raised his whiskey.

  “Excuse me. First of all, I’m right here.” I pointed to myself and didn’t miss the smirk on both of their faces. “Second of all, I can wear whatever the hell I want. You’re lucky I don’t get up on this bar and shake what my mama gave me for everyone to see.” I would never do that, but they didn’t need to know that.

  “Over my dead body,” Gabe grumbled in my ear as Johnny called out, “Not happening.”

  “I liked it a lot better when you two were mad at each other,” I grumbled. “This ganging up on me crap is for the birds.”

  Johnny laughed and finished his drink. “Well boys and girls, I’m off to find me a cuddle buddy for tonight.”

  “At least learn her name,” I called to his retreating back.

  He looked at me over his shoulder and winked.

  God, I seriously loved that man, but he was such a dog. He was so handsome and charming though, and most of the girls he brought home didn’t care. He once introduced me to a girl named Kelly and five minutes later, he called her Katie. I felt outraged for her, but then I looked at her smiling up at him as if he was a god.

  I guess I really wasn’t much different than Kelly though. Gabe could do just about anything he wanted, and I would probably look at him the same way Kelly looked at Johnny. Totally clueless.

  Gabe’s lips grazed my neck and that exact feeling of bliss filled me.

  “How much longer do we have to stay here?” he whispered in my ear.

  “I don’t know. Why?”

  “I want to rip this fucking dress off of you right now, but I’d kill every mother fucker in here who got to see your amazing body.”

  I practically purred as his hand tightened on my hip.

  “Everyone else seems pretty distracted. I don’t think they will even miss us.”

  I looked around at our friends, and he was right. Cash had his face practically buried in the neck of the girl in front of him. Kat and Blake looked like they were in their own private love bubble. I didn’t think they even remembered that they were in the middle of a club. Johnny was nowhere to be seen, and I didn’t even want to think about what he probably already had himself into.

  I pulled away from Gabe, and he reluctantly let go of me. I put my arms around Kat’s shoulders, and she pulled her attention away from Blake.

  “Y’all need to get a room.” I smiled at her.

  “Whatever.” She rolled her eyes at me.

  “Gabe and I are leaving.” I wagged my eyebrows exaggeratingly, causing her to giggle.

  She kissed me on the cheek and swatted me on the ass. “Be careful.”

  I saluted her before spinning around and stepping back into Gabe’s space.

  “Okay. Let’s go. This dress is getting far too heavy.”

  Gabe’s expression instantly darkened, and he stood up quickly before grabbing my hand. He didn’t even say bye to his friends. He just pulled me out of the club, and I followed behind him. Everyone else seemed to disappear as I walked behind him, but that’s how every moment of my life seemed to go with Gabe in it. Everyone and everything disappeared but him.

  Climbing into my truck, I could barely control myself when she stepped into it and her soft back was clearly in my view. The fact that she didn’t have a bra on was making my cock strain in my pants. I wasn’t sure if I was going to be able to make it home. I wanted to rip the dress off of her body and fuck her right there in the parking lot.

  She knew it too. She smiled sweetly when we she was fully seated, but I knew that she was well aware that my control was about to break. I think she was trying to drive me crazy.

  I pulled into my driveway, and I could feel Erica’s eyes on me. She had never been here before. I didn’t particularly like people in my house. It made me feel like people were too close to the truth. Too close to the real me.

  Erica followed me into my house silently. I think she could sense that this was a big step for me. I never brought women here. Never. When I hooked up with a woman, we went to her house, the backseat, or a hotel. I didn’t allow any one-night stand into my space. Erica wasn’t a one-night stand. She was different. Completely different.

  Walking into the living room, I flipped on the lights and suddenly felt uncomfortable. I didn’t know what it was about Erica, but she put me further on edge than I had ever been.

  “Do you want something to drink?” I began walking toward the kitchen.

  “No, but I would like you to bend me over your couch.”

  I stopped dead in my tracks and turned to her. She slid the two thin straps that were holding her dress up off her shoulders and let her dress pool at her feet. She stood in front of me in nothing but a pair a bright pink panties and her fuck me heels.

  Although she was putting on a damn good show of being confident, I could see the hesitation in her eyes. It had become one of my biggest regrets. I wished I hadn’t ever given her a reason to ever hesitate around me.

  I stalked toward her and slowly took in her amazing body. I had no plans to bend her over the couch tonight even though the thought was driving me crazy. I wanted her in my bed. I wanted her scent to fill my sheets. I wanted her to be the only woman who had ever been there.

  Her body fit perfectly against me as I lifted her and she wrapped her legs around my waist. Her skin felt so smooth against mine. I grazed a soft kiss against her lips before I began walking to my bedroom. She seemed surprised. She was so used to everything being so rushed and frantic between us, but I planned on taking my time with her.

  I laid her down on my bed and came down over her. My lips touched hers softly, and she leaned up on her elbows chasing my kiss. She whimpered into my mouth when I bit down on her bottom lip. She began moving her hips below me, and I knew she was desperate for my touch.

  Barely touching her skin, I dragged my hand from her hip to the center of her breasts. Shocking her, I pushed her back down against the mattress.

  “We’re not in a rush, Erica. Let me take my time with your body.”

  Her eyes closed and I felt her clench her thighs below me, but she didn’t say a word.

  I took my time thoroughly kissing her mouth before I trailed kisses down her jawline to her neck. She arched into me and gave me better access. I feasted on her body. I kissed every inch of skin I could manage. I nibbled on her collarbone and goosebumps formed along her skin. My tongue tasted her breasts, but I avoided her nipples. She had her hands buried in my hair now, and she was not so subtlety pushing my head in their direction.

  I knew I was driving her crazy, but that was exactly where I wanted her. I wanted her skin to shake under my touch. I wanted her mad with need.

  I ran my nose against the stiff peak of her nipple before I move
d my mouth to just below her breast. Her ribs pushed against my mouth as she arched almost completely off the bed. I dragged my teeth softly across her skin, and my name came out of her mouth like a plea.

  Finally giving in, I latched on to her nipple, but I took my time. My tongue ran small circles around the bud before I sucked it into my mouth. I paid the same torturous attention to the other nipple that was begging for my attention.

  I pulled Erica’s hands from my hair and forcefully pushed them against the mattress next to her head. Her blue eyes sparked with arousal, and in that moment, I almost gave up on my plan to take things slow. My dick was already painfully hard against the zipper of my jeans.

  I trailed my nose down the center of her chest to her belly button. My tongue swirled inside as I looked up at her. She was watching every move I made, and her hands were still exactly where I put them.

  I peppered kisses against her stomach as I moved toward her pink panties. I paid special attention to her hipbones because I knew how much it turned her on any time I had my hands or mouth there. I ran my tongue along the curve of her hip then sucked on the delicate skin right above her panties. She let out a loud groan and moved her hands to her breasts. I let her caress and pinch her nipples for a few moments before I moved her hands just as I had before.

  “Please, Gabe.” Her voice was rough and had my dick jumping in my pants.

  “What, baby?”

  “Please. Just... Oh God.” She seemed to struggle with her words when I placed a chaste kiss right on her panties.

  I moved my body down hers and stopped when I was on my knees in the floor in front of her. I reached my arms around her knees and abruptly pulled her to the edge of the bed. Another incoherent moan left her mouth and her legs began to shake in my hands.

  Her scent was surrounding me, and I couldn’t get enough. I ran my nose along the inside of her knee before kissing the same exact spot. My lips dragged along her skin as I moved closer and closer to her pussy. I could already see the dampness through her panties, and I wanted to dive straight into her flesh. Instead, I continued my slow caress of her skin and stroked each area with my tongue, lips, and teeth on each leg.

  When I finally made it to her center, I blew a slow breath against her, and she almost came completely off the bed. Her chest was rising and falling rapidly, and I knew just a few touches where she really needed me would set her off.

  I dipped my fingers into each side of her panties and pulled them down her legs at a leisurely pace. I followed their path with my lips, and by the time I reached the inside of her ankle, I could feel her skin trembling under my lips.

  I worked my way back up her smooth skin and pushed her thighs apart as far as she would let me. Her pussy was glistening with her arousal, and her breasts were on full display as she arched her back. I ran my tongue through her folds and couldn’t control my groan at how wet she was.

  The first touch of her flesh against my tongue caused a frenzy inside me. I felt starved. I wanted to devour her. I felt like I was losing myself between her legs.

  She buried her hands in my hair while I buried my face in her pussy. I sucked her clit into my mouth, and she screamed out and clamped her legs around my head. Her hips were pumping against my face, fucking it while I fucked her with my tongue.

  I slipped my finger into her, and within seconds, she was falling apart around me. She screamed out my name followed by a string of words I couldn’t understand. Her fingernails were digging into my scalp and her legs clamped harder against me. It was one of the hottest things I had ever seen.

  When she started coming down, I stood and pulled my shirt from my body. She was still lying in the same exact place where I left her, and she looked completely relaxed and satiated.

  She ran her hands into her hair and gripped her girls in her hands while smiling up at me. I fumbled trying to get my jeans unbuttoned and pulled them and my boxers down my legs. I lifted her thigh around my hip as I knelt between her thighs. I was dying to get inside her.

  I lined myself up with her and slowly pushed into her heat. I wanted to ram into her, and it took almost all of my control not to do so. I slowly slid into her until I was completely buried. She was staring up at me and my chest tightened at the look in her eyes. It was the biggest reason I never liked to fuck missionary. It felt too personal. I was too exposed, but I ate it up with her. I loved that she looked up at me like she did, but it also scared me to death.

  My need for her was bordering on insane, and I knew how one person holding that much power over me could fuck me up. But God, I couldn’t imagine going back now. I wanted to feel her wrapped around me every day. Her eyes were the first thing I wanted to see when I woke up.

  I had never felt like this before.

  I began to move inside her slowly as I gripped her thigh in my right hand. Sweat was trickling down her chest, and I chased the moisture with my tongue. There was nothing sweeter than the taste of her. I buried my face in her neck and breathed her in. I couldn’t remember a time when I had ever fucked like this.

  Erica’s hips met mine thrust for thrust. Her hands were digging into my back, and her lips were running along my shoulder.

  I flipped us over, and she straddled my hips. She began moving against me as soon as she settled on top of me. Her hands pushed into my abs as she began lifting and dropping herself on top of me. She felt too good. She felt unreal.

  I rubbed my thumb against her clit, and she moved her hips to match my speed. Her breast fit perfectly in my other hand, and I pinched her tight nipple while watching her fuck me.

  It only took another minute before she combusted around me. She collapsed against my chest, and I gripped her hips in my hand as I thrusted up into her. I followed her over the edge as I moaned out her name. My whole body tensed up as I came inside her, and it was then that I realized that I hadn’t used a condom.

  Panic started to overtake me. I wasn’t ready for a kid. I wasn’t even sure if I ever wanted kids. Actually, I was pretty sure that I didn’t. I never wanted to have that much responsibility and power over someone. My hands fisted in the sheets, but Erica laid a kiss right in the center of my chest before whispering, “That was so perfect.” And just like that, I didn’t know what the hell I wanted.

  It was Tuesday night and me and Cash were going out to dinner. I hadn’t seen Erica in a couple days because we had both been so busy. My mind wouldn’t quit racing with thoughts of her, and I knew I had to do something to keep my mind occupied. I had asked all the guys to go to dinner tonight when we were working at the garage, but no one was available except Cash.

  So here we sat, Cash talking about his latest conquest while I tried not to compare every woman he talked about to Erica.

  “Her ass was amazing.”

  I bet Erica’s ass is better.

  “I had my hand wrapped around her hair.”

  Nobodies hair is better than Erica’s wild curls.

  “You seem distracted,” he interrupted my thoughts.

  I took a sip of beer. “What?”

  “You’re really into Erica, huh?” He took a bite of his food and looked at me, waiting for an answer.

  “I think that might be an understatement.”

  He ran his hand down his face and groaned. “Not you too. First Blake, now you. Johnny will be next, and then I’ll be all alone.”

  “What the hell are you talking about?” I asked as I watched his dramatics.

  “You idiots never seem to see it. You’re in love with her.”

  “I am not in love.” I couldn’t be in love.

  “Oh yea?” He looked over my shoulder and an evil grin formed on his face.

  “Yes. I like her, a lot, but I’m not in love.”

  “So I bet you wouldn’t care if she went out with another man.” He grinned even harder.

  “Of course I would care, but she can do what she wants,” I said matter-of-factly.

  “Good, because she’s sitting right over there with some guy I�
��ve never seen before.”

  I spun around in my seat so quickly, I knocked my silverware into the floor. I was hoping that Cash was being his usual self and just being an ass, but it only took me a second to spot her amongst the crowd in the restaurant. She had her side facing me and there was some douchebag sitting across from her. He said something to her, and she threw her head back and laughed. I wanted to throw him through a wall.

  I watched them talk for a few more minutes trying to calm down. My body felt like it was on fire. I hit my feet before I really ever thought it through. I stormed toward her table while I heard, “Shit,” from behind me.

  She noticed me when I was a few feet away from her table, and the way she smiled up at me just pissed me off more. Did she not give a shit that I just found her out with another man?

  “Hey, Gabe.”

  “Hey.” My response sounded as forced as it was.

  I ignored her and turned toward the guy who was sizing me up.

  I reached out my hand to him. “Hi, I’m Gabe. Who are you?”

  The corner of his lips turned up as he gripped my hand. “I’m Jon. How do you know Erica?”

  His tone pissed me the fuck off. I looked over at her and placed my hands on my hips.

  “Well I was the one with my face buried between her legs a couple days ago.” I returned the smirk of the asshole as the smile dropped from his face. I had hit the exact nerve I was aiming for. There was no way in hell Erica was leaving here tonight with him.

  “Gabe.” Erica’s voice sounded like she wanted to kill me.

  “What, baby?” I finally gave her my full attention. “You didn’t tell him about what we did the other night.”

  “No, Gabe. I didn’t.” The anger in her face was clear. “I don’t usually share those details with my brother.”

  Her words shocked me, and I closed my eyes. What the hell did I just do? I heard a snicker behind me, and I knew that Cash had just witnessed that entire display. I opened my eyes and Erica’s brother was practically falling over in his chair trying to hold in his laughter.

  “Umm.” I had no idea what to say.